BONUS: The Truth about VPR Seasons 11 and 12

00:00:05
Speaker 1: Hey, babe if Lalla, Welcome to the bonus episode at Begive Them Lalla Podcast. Hi T T. How do you feel?

00:00:14
Speaker 2: Honestly?

00:00:15
Speaker 1: You were great on the regular episode. Oh yeah, you carried that.

00:00:19
Speaker 2: No, well, thank you, I will say. When you hunkered down in a house for three days, yeah, and don't leave. You're excited to do stuff.

00:00:29
Speaker 1: Yeah, while I'm struggling to put a thought together, you're making me laugh so hard. I always know when you feel comfortable because your thoughts are pretty effortless and you're really freaking funny. So I appreciate that. So we recorded the normal episode and then I look at my phone and Dody posted us following each other. I didn't know it was that funny.

00:01:04
Speaker 2: It's just funny from the previous episode about we were like, let's it's Instagram. Yeah that it doesn't mean him.

00:01:10
Speaker 1: Well, that's how we all feel, by the way, like the beef is real when I click unfollowed, and the love is real when I click refollow a follow back. I'm a follow back girl. But I also wanted to add before we jump into the Q and A because I completely forgot again that it was recording day. So I just did a Q and A for the bonus, But she and I were talking Dody and I and I just and Courtney Berman was here as well, who I was so excited to see. I hadn't seen her in so long. She's been in the friend group for many a year. You guys will probably remember her from shooting Brittany's boudoir shoot. So she's really cool. She's fun, she's normal, she's a go getter, born and raised in Los Angeles. But we were talking about what Trump's beef, and I'm like, when someone gets sick, even if you're beefing, you put it aside. Baby's coming into the mix. Beef gets put to bed, and I would say, obviously death right beef gets trumped. Anyway, I'm just so thrilled because once I found out Doty was pregnant, I just have such a soft spot in my heart for pregnancy, and there's so many things. As I get older, I learned that when time passes, you can never get moments back. So for me, it's like, I'm really bummed. And I said this to Dody. I was like, I it makes me really sad that you and I could not be part of each other's pregnancy journeys. So I really hope that you'll be at Meredith's shower because it'll never happen again. Yeah, and with that, I respect whatever decision you make, but you're welcome.

00:02:50
Speaker 2: To come and it will never happen again. No, even if you have another baby, that shower it's done, right, done and done.

00:02:57
Speaker 1: And no one does a second baby shower, Like maybe you do a baby's sprinkle, but still like you don't do the whole gift thing. It's just like the excitement in this sounds so rude. I was so excited about Sosa, but the feeling of the first time becoming a mom, it's like nothing else. Yeah, Dodi has a very warm heart, and I will always say that.

00:03:19
Speaker 2: I can tell you that even because you guys beefing, Like even when we would see each other, Me and she would even make it a point and be like, hey, how are you Yes, so.

00:03:27
Speaker 1: So I'm very happy anyway. The el Green asks thoughts on the new cast for VPR at sir, Lol, So I've seen pictures and I don't want anyone to get hung up on the photos because if you remember correctly, there I think it was season ten. They released the cast photos of us, you guys, and we all looked so they made Katie's eyes either closer together or something. They made us all look.

00:03:58
Speaker 2: Not like ourselves.

00:03:59
Speaker 1: We looked like, yes, I looks like wax figures.

00:04:03
Speaker 2: So I know one of the girls that is going to be on the new season. Okay, and I met her like a year ago. We've been in touch, we've seen each other and we call each other on Instagram. Don't but she is beautiful. Yeah, And I even saw like the photo of her still looks beautiful, but I was like, that's not her.

00:04:25
Speaker 1: Right, So someone said it all the photo almost looks like someone went into that like AI type thing and described the old cast and it just shot out images of like what this robot thinks that like James Kennedy looks like if I were to explain him, or who uh Arianna or Shina looks like. And then it just like shot out images and they're like, all right, here's the cast and like maybe they're missing I don't know, and eyebrow because I think Shena was missing an eyebrow in one of the photos. Sounds the cast photos so well, I have here's the thing I don't want to give them a hard time. They've got large shoes to fill when it comes to stepping into a season twelve of a show that's existed for eleven years, a cast that people have rocked with.

00:05:15
Speaker 2: Yes, Easton hot take, Okay, I have a feeling that they're trying to revamp vander Pump because she wants people in her restaurant again. Because I've never seen Sir more dead ever I attend to class near Okay, it's always.

00:05:34
Speaker 1: Dead, all right, I'm gonna I'm going to I feel like back that up with since the pandemic, La is dead. Praying to God that having so many big events like the Olympics. I think it's the World Cup. I'm praying that the city gets cleaned up, revived the night like nightlife is dead.

00:05:56
Speaker 2: But let me tell you, but is it dead because.

00:06:00
Speaker 1: The pandemic change it?

00:06:01
Speaker 2: There is a pandemic, but not even me, Like that's the thing I just told you in the regular episode about Miami. Don't I love Miami just for like, I.

00:06:09
Speaker 1: Don't think Miami is affected at all.

00:06:11
Speaker 2: I like just the geographical area that it is in. I love that area. I don't like going out. Is it a new thing with kids not drinking. People just not go out at night like that is My other thing, is the night life just dead because of the new generation not drinking, wanting to go to bed early, like they take care of their body, they're eating curst.

00:06:37
Speaker 1: Let me tell you something, The coffee shops are popping.

00:06:39
Speaker 2: That's what I'm saying, Like mornings, if you really want to party and go out, it's eight am and grabbing coffee with your friends. That is right up as right.

00:06:48
Speaker 1: Yeah.

00:06:49
Speaker 2: But that's where I'm saying, like, will a night life ever be revived if people don't want to go out at night? Because I'm that person. If you started a club, I'm not going no, no, no no. See. So that's where I'm like, does LA need to restructure into somehow having an early bird special?

00:07:09
Speaker 1: Yes, four thirty to give me the fuck, I will be there. And by the way, I go to dinner at four thirty often and it is.

00:07:16
Speaker 2: Poppin' right, That's what I'm saying. So I don't think them it will ever be revived for a night life in a sense.

00:07:23
Speaker 1: Okay, I don't think it has anything to do with the restaurant. I think the Vanner Pump rules is iconic. They're not ready to give it up. That's give it a new wave. And I hope that people are kind and respectful and give Vanner Pump Rules two point zero a chance.

00:07:39
Speaker 2: And well they should. The cast. I mean, like I said, I know the girl.

00:07:42
Speaker 1: New cast did nothing to you.

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Speaker 2: No, and the new cast will be good. All you have to do is separate the shows. Yes they're the same name, but you can't compare the two. They're very different. Yes that's the number one thing that they have to do. But even see you next Tuesdays, they're like when it is packed her so fun the vibe. So I'm excited for that to hopefully be revived with people going in to see the cast and things like that, because I'll be there. I will do fucking vip table though.

00:08:11
Speaker 1: All right, I hope I'm saying this right. COLEI Gray. She said, how do you feel motherhood has changed you? I and you probably wouldn't know this, or maybe you you have noticed since Uh I've had children. But I tend to kind of think through things that I'm going to say or do before I actually say or do them.

00:08:36
Speaker 2: Your intentions are very different now.

00:08:41
Speaker 1: I do things with intent curiousious. I tend to look at the repercussions. Not always. I'm still like, I'm still a person as we all are, but I just think that before I put on an outfit or I do anything, that's me trying to get my law law back. I feel a little self conscious, which I normally don't feel that way. And I don't know if that has to do with kids, but it's like I want to set a good example. I want to make them proud, but I also want to be myself still.

00:09:14
Speaker 2: And being yourself is going to make them proud. That's the other thing. Rock on a hard spot. How are my kids gonna view me? Well, doesn't matter. Be you and authentically you and your kids will love it.

00:09:25
Speaker 1: Let me tell you something. When Ocean's giving me a really hard time and it's like an all day thing and I have to like really put my foot down, bring down the hammer, and at the end we have our like nightly talk and we say, you know, we're going to do better tomorrow. Mommy loves you. The other night, she goes, Mom, it's okay. You just have to be okay with the fact that you weren't a great mom today. Oh and I'm like, what that is so rude? Well, then you need to be okay with the fact that you weren't a great kid today.

00:09:55
Speaker 2: Do you got that? I got that she's smart enough. Then I would argue with her.

00:10:00
Speaker 1: Oh my god, you guys, I didn't tell you this in the regular episode. So with the baby shower, there were a lot of kids here and the playroom is a mess. All good, that's what a playroom is for. But I mom made a joke and was like, and I bet you cleaned up the whole playroom, and she goes, no, I did not, because, if you think about it, jeej, I had so many friends up there and we were all making a mess, and so I didn't clean anything up because what I'm going to do is have another playdate and make them clean up.

00:10:27
Speaker 2: The mess to make it Wow.

00:10:29
Speaker 1: I mean, that is so smart. I thought she was gonna say, we're gonna make it dirty again, But she's gonna bring kids over to delegate and put them to work to clean up her mess. LEFA, that is funny, I'm gonna say. Lola dot Sarda said, how do I get my crazy ex to stop calling my phone? He won't leave me alone? That's a tough one because I want to say block him, but god forbid, he's crazy and does something. You need documentation of him calling you a ton of time?

00:11:03
Speaker 2: Yeah, like, what is the because she gave me no harassment three calls after x amount of time? Or what is the it to be out an harassment? Like how many calls in X amount of time?

00:11:15
Speaker 1: I'm not a lawyer, so I don't know. I mean, I think what I would say is, if you want him to stop calling you, you need to send a text message that says I will not be answering your phone calls, please leave me alone if he continues to call, Like I don't trust.

00:11:31
Speaker 2: That needs to be good place.

00:11:34
Speaker 1: Right, Like I come from back in the day before I experienced a lot of life. It's like my ex is calling me a ton Like I'm over it. He's annoying, but like I wasn't in fear. Right now that I've seen some shit, I'm like, I need documentation. I need to put in writing that I want him to stop calling me. I need to uh let him know that if he continues, this is what will happen, and then follow through with it. So the only I mean if you're in fear, I would definitely like stay on your toes.

00:12:03
Speaker 2: I don't know how long he has been or this has been going on, but if it's I mean, if she's been dealing with this for over a month, in my opinion, I would probably reach out and try to get a restraining order. Yeah, because now you I mean, if you, you probably have enough text calls to be like I am I'm in danger or but then on the.

00:12:24
Speaker 1: Flip side and he gets Lodge doesn't freaking protect you at all. It's like when you watch enough, it's like a restraining order. So what's that a little piece of paper that says he can't come around? And when he comes around? What do I do? If she has called us she needs like, there's nothing that anyone can do. You just hope that they're afraid of the law.

00:12:42
Speaker 2: Yeah, which the only thing that I would say to her is if there's no kids involved in there needs to be known communication and he's just doing it. Change your number.

00:12:51
Speaker 1: I agree with that. I go back to don't change your number because you need documentation.

00:12:55
Speaker 2: But the document I mean, yes, but he'll get your number, your new number and you'll get new documentation. Is how I feel. And if you get a new number and you had your old phone with like the text from the old number, and you get a new one and then you have that, you could be like he see me twice?

00:13:10
Speaker 1: Help heap everything. Well, that's what I'm saying exactly, Like, don't turn the phone in because you changed your number and you kept all your old texts. Oh I certainly did. I have like three phones with a bunch of on them.

00:13:21
Speaker 2: And like you could. Yeah, so that's what I would do. Change your number. If he gets the secondary number, that's when you would, in my opinion, reach out for help.

00:13:30
Speaker 1: Right, I agree with you a nik dot gov says Easton what are you looking for in a life partner? You deserve to find your person.

00:13:38
Speaker 2: That is the sweetest thing. And thank you. I really do have to say how many people are sweet to me on this podcast.

00:13:43
Speaker 1: Oh I love that for you.

00:13:45
Speaker 2: So thank you to everyone who has been very nice and supportive. Even through the loss of my father, I got a lot of good ride in.

00:13:51
Speaker 1: So and even through the dreadlocks.

00:13:52
Speaker 2: Yeah I forgot I had him.

00:13:57
Speaker 1: Do you know what you're looking for in a person?

00:14:01
Speaker 2: No, I think I'm in. I think I'm in Britain spot.

00:14:05
Speaker 1: Doing trying to find yourself.

00:14:06
Speaker 2: Yeah, like I need to find my forever me, to find somebody else. And like right now I'm still like trying to figure out what do I actually love, right, and like even like I want to have a career, you know, not that I'm not working my way into one, but like I am in love with fashion, so like I'm thinking I would love to get myself into fashion. And I would love somebody world artsy world, yeah, yeah, very yeah, just like somebody like I don't know, it sounds weird, just an imaginary or an imagine imaginative companion that can be and dream together. I love that and make things happen. But like I look like you want.

00:14:46
Speaker 1: To live in the song A Million Dreams. Yeah, and the Greatest Showman.

00:14:49
Speaker 2: But like I want her to have her own things, so like it's not even like me saying like I don't want to support, It's like I want her to have her own things so that her confidence is there, she is or her she is her own person.

00:15:03
Speaker 1: Right, You guys don't like your identities don't lie within each other.

00:15:07
Speaker 2: I'm not dating you because I'm needing identity and you're not dating me for an identity.

00:15:12
Speaker 1: Right again my very first boyfriend. The mom said, you don't. It should never be a fifty to fifty thing. It should be two people coming in at one hundred percent to equal two hundred.

00:15:21
Speaker 2: Yeah. So I think that's just somebody who's you know, can just fit me and just we can just dream together.

00:15:30
Speaker 1: Yeah, and you can sit on the couch and watch all the movies in the world.

00:15:33
Speaker 2: And I've said it before and I don't know how to it'll come off this time. Either. I want to be with somebody who I can be with but sit silently with. Oh God, like there is nothing better. And that was my ex.

00:15:46
Speaker 1: You know, like me and her would just not our ip like she died, but like the relationship, the relationship.

00:15:52
Speaker 2: Is like me and her could just sit We would watch a show for like three hours and I look at her and just like call her, and she just and call me. Went back and then we got let's eat.

00:16:02
Speaker 1: That's so cute.

00:16:02
Speaker 2: It was just so easy.

00:16:04
Speaker 1: Yeah, but she kind of took your heart through the wringers. So she's not the greatest fan, not the biggest fan. I will say this before we move on. I get it. You are new into sobriety. You have not reached a year and in the program they advise you to stay single.

00:16:19
Speaker 2: Stay single a year, yes, and I even so, and it was crazy. I was there's just this girl who I've been talking to who we just go to meetings too, like yeah. And I told my sponsor and he was like, well, what is going on? And I was like nothing, I'm just going to meetings and he was like, all right, please let me know if something does, because I'll have things to say. And I was like, okay, but him just to say that, I was like, I'm keeping distance.

00:16:41
Speaker 1: Yeah, you have to everyone good, but yeah.

00:16:43
Speaker 2: It's what do I have now? Nine months?

00:16:47
Speaker 1: Yeah, well I'm bad at math almost you'll hit a year in August. Oh, we got another one from Lola Lola dot Sareda also says, how's my hour, girl, Lil Whoa.

00:17:00
Speaker 2: I just took her to Palm Springs.

00:17:03
Speaker 1: She's thriving.

00:17:04
Speaker 2: She's thriving.

00:17:04
Speaker 1: Not if you can't walk for shit, but it's fine.

00:17:06
Speaker 2: No, But I was giving her all the love. She didn't need help up getting wet herself. Great, she had two nuggets in the house. But let me tell you, let me tell you I pick her up to go outside. She is on her way to the door, and she dropped one right by the door, right out of the door, and then one on her way, and then just dropped one on the grass. So the effort was there.

00:17:31
Speaker 1: You know what. That's all you can ask for, if you think about it. And again, I'm bad at math, but I've had her.

00:17:35
Speaker 2: She's twelve thirteen, how old is she forty?

00:17:42
Speaker 1: She's running the love with her?

00:17:45
Speaker 2: Oh, I didn't even tell you, not that ever. Not very handy. You know, her feet are everywhere. She pooped in the corner, okay, and she can't get out of the corner, and so I'm like going over to like I'm sprinting.

00:17:59
Speaker 1: Yeah.

00:18:00
Speaker 2: Yeah, she almost felt fell in her own ship. Oh no, she saved herself. I didn't even have to do anything.

00:18:08
Speaker 1: You know what, though, I appreciate how much everyone has rallied to take care of her, because she took care of me in like my deepest, darkest moment. She's done with me, though, Yes, she has been riding like a real one from the jump. And then I feel like I abandoned her once I had two children. She fell to the back burner. I need to give her love. But you and Mom have really stepped up, and I appreciate it.

00:18:34
Speaker 2: But she's great, and she is eating well good well well so lillo.

00:18:43
Speaker 1: She a big old underscore, just Ashley Marie underscore. How do you manage to stay so confident even after becoming a mom? Asking as a mom of two.

00:18:55
Speaker 2: Great almost ever?

00:19:00
Speaker 1: Sometimes I look at them and I'm like, you, guys could pay me a compliment, that'd be cool. I'd like that.

00:19:04
Speaker 2: I feel like all of our family is like that, Like Mom wants us to We all need work, and none of us do it because we're like, fuck you, you're not giving them to me.

00:19:13
Speaker 1: I know it's a give and take. Honestly, Ashley Marie, I fake it. I truly fake it.

00:19:20
Speaker 2: Fake it till you make it, and once you make it, keep faking it.

00:19:23
Speaker 1: No, Like when People's I came onto the screen season four and everyone's like, she's so confident. I'm like, coming, I don't know who you're talking about. I literally could not be more insecure. I want to hide in a corner. But if I show my weakness. These people pray on.

00:19:37
Speaker 2: The Week Vulture Vulture, right, yes, they just waws out.

00:19:42
Speaker 1: Circle waiting for me to fall down and look like I'm dying. It ain't gonna happen on my watch. It is not gonna happen on my watch. Honestly, take a hot photo, even if you have to edit it and look at it. Sometimes I do that. No, no, I'm not post it, Okay, just like look at it and be like, you know what.

00:20:01
Speaker 2: I saw this editing thing like that you could get and was on Instagram and like this girl takes a picture and like torture whole body. I was like, oh my god, well yeah, not even by women, Like I could get in there and give myself some muscles, and then when you see me, you're like, what is this pit bull that I thought I was meeting? He's a chihuahuah.

00:20:22
Speaker 1: But everyone loves though the El Green says, which of your former Slash current castmates hate when people ask for pictures? Slash spot them out. My number one I think would be Jax Taylor. I think he pretends to be annoyed, but he also loves like at the same time loves the attention. Stacy she it depends on the day. I think for the most part she would be cool. But I think there are times where she's like, I just want to like be left alone, don't come up to me. I'm just like kicking it with my kids. Totally understandable. And then the James can become kind of a dick. I think he's Katie sometimes gets annoyed as well.

00:21:10
Speaker 2: I think James and zah Er Jacks are in like the same boat of life. Yeah, they love it, but like I'm too big for it.

00:21:17
Speaker 1: Right, They're like so fucking annoying. I'm like, well, these people are literally the reason why you're where you are.

00:21:23
Speaker 2: It's almost like I think, like, I'm too big for you to come up to me, but where's my security to protect me. Well, you're in the middle of it, so get ready, buddy, you're going to be coming up on you got security, right, I don't.

00:21:35
Speaker 1: Know it's it's a hit or miss, which I'm just gonna say. It could be the addiction. It could be completely different. Now if you've got two people who are sober and they're not coming down coming off.

00:21:50
Speaker 2: Well, seeing you know, an ex that you know you had, and then like seeing Jack's and like actually him trying to better himself and things like that, Like you can tell that that addiction makes you irritable as fuck. Yeah, I've seen it. Yes, firsthand, we didn't know what was going on, but yeah, but now to see it, it's like move, move, move, irritable, irritable, irritable. If you're irritable, we have to do something else.

00:22:19
Speaker 1: Because I went to the bathroom and now you're in a great mood. That's kind of weird. But I think you just have a lot of energy. This is strange. Wow, I know.

00:22:27
Speaker 2: I was like, oh my god, I just need to make.

00:22:29
Speaker 1: Much older than so much.

00:22:31
Speaker 2: I was energy. God, he's just smelling money and he's just got energy. It's crazy money.

00:22:36
Speaker 1: It was so naive.

00:22:37
Speaker 2: Wow. Right coming from Utah, I wasn't like just kicking it with coke heads. I was smoking pot and then I meet this guy and he's got energy. I was like, fucking la the money, the money get you going? Like, how could you not like waking up getting in your rolls Royce, It's like, how could you not just wake up high? But come to find out he was waking up high than high, then high, but irritable back to the point irritable and that could change for photos.

00:23:08
Speaker 1: Yes, I would say the most gracious people for sure, Well thank you.

00:23:14
Speaker 2: I really am saying that like you Sheena for sure, I think Shina is Sheena loves it, Sena loves it. But I also will say, even being with Sena and even being with you, if I didn't even know you, it's because I am the same way. We don't have inviting personalities or auras. Like when you look at us, you're not like they're inviting. Let me go say hello.

00:23:40
Speaker 1: Yeah.

00:23:40
Speaker 2: Sheena is like very easy to come up to, and I think that's why, But you don't like it's just the way you are. I think more people would come up to you. When we were in what's it called, I don't know, Palm Springs and that girl came up to us at frieda woman and Frida's and she was like, hey, I don't want to bother you, but I love you, and she just walked away. Yeah, you know like I feel like that to her was going to be crazy because the area you put off and everybody see this bitch, come and say hello, Come and come and say hello, get a photo. She's all about it.

00:24:13
Speaker 1: Orals underscore, Oh says how to say spicy and be a mom first baby, feel pressure to be more reserved, but I'm a spicy bitch with a chili. I say, be spicy.

00:24:25
Speaker 2: No, that's what you want to be. A mom and spicy, you can be both.

00:24:28
Speaker 1: Don't deny yourself who you are just because you become a mom does not mean, like I think, if you became a mom and you suddenly got like, became reserved, be reserved. Don't deny yourself that there's gonna be a day where like the hormones level out. I don't know how long that freaking takes, but I don't think you should deny yourself who you are.

00:24:46
Speaker 2: Who you are in that moment. Yeah.

00:24:48
Speaker 1: And by the way, I don't intentionally think about, uh, like should I wear this? Should I not? It's just something that happened to me. I don't particularly enjoy it. I would like my spice back. I would like to be unfiltered like I used to be.

00:25:07
Speaker 2: Be grateful you're in the position to have kids and still still be spicy.

00:25:12
Speaker 1: Yeah, and still, I say rocket, don't feel pressure to be more reserved exactly.

00:25:17
Speaker 2: And if you feel bad about it, all you got to do is look them and go, I'm sorry, I'm spicy. I don't know why. And now be spicy. You you've cleared the air.

00:25:25
Speaker 1: I like spice. What's your favorite and least favorite vacation slash trips you went on for vander pump Roules. This is the easiest. Uh. San Francisco. Hated it, hated it, hated it hated all of season eleven. Cried every single day, didn't want to film, didn't want to be there, didn't want to do anything. It was torture. So now I can finally say it hated it.

00:25:54
Speaker 2: Well, it's crazy to see like all of these other reality TV shows going to like.

00:26:00
Speaker 1: But by the way, why it was fun? We know, but we we had like really nice.

00:26:07
Speaker 2: Lot Emmy, sorry up for an Emmy, and you guys you go to San Francisco.

00:26:13
Speaker 1: I think they just knew that the show was probably there was nothing to work with. There was truly nothing to work with. We're gonna take a bunch of people, We're gonna drop mad money on a fantastic trip when these people don't even want to be here, Get on a freaking puddle jumper, go to San Francisco, and let's call it if you're making it.

00:26:33
Speaker 2: Go.

00:26:35
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was like I that day that we wrapped, I was like, I'm so happy. I cried that night, pure joy. I was like, it's over the day that we started. I kept telling myself it'll be I just wanted over. I just want it over. And I'd look at how many days we had left. I'm like, oh my god, we still have a fucking month. I can't do it. I would sob them on and being like I cannot do this. I cannot do this. When I would get days off, when they'd be like, we don't need you tomorrow, just the best day of it, I'm like, you have made my fucking day. Normally, when they're like you have a day off, I'm like, oh, that's a bummer. I love filming, not season eleven. Nope, give me all that. Do you want to just cut me now? Like, I'm totally fine with that. You can take the check, don't care, have it, bye, don't care, good check.

00:27:23
Speaker 2: I don't even need my last page, just have it. Take it. I'll give one shit. I'm not coming into the office to pick up that check.

00:27:30
Speaker 1: The other one that was really rough was uh, season seven when Dad died and I hadn't been favor and I went to Mexico and got wasted and everyone thought I had done molly or ecstasy or whatever the drug is that makes you want people to touch you.

00:27:46
Speaker 2: No, that just called your dad dying.

00:27:48
Speaker 1: No, this is called the Sunday Scaries. And I'm having such bad anxiety that I need someone to punch me in the face to make me think about you punching me in the face and not how I want to crawl out of my.

00:27:57
Speaker 2: Own skin, make me feel something real.

00:27:59
Speaker 1: Well, because I I hadn't been drinking. My dad died, and then I deep dive into the bottle drinking morning until night. It was absolutely horrible. Yeah, it was horrible. Yeah, the worst time of my life.

00:28:10
Speaker 2: And that's the thing like back in the day, I really will say, like, I think I've always had a drinking problem. I think it's always been there, Yes, okay, but I really like when Dad was alive, I never drank. I'm literally thinking about it. And the only times I would get absolutely obliterated. Yeah is that your hard rock event or other events where we would do that. Other than that, I would he have to glass of wine with Dad. And after that, boy, oh boy, after I found him, it was seagrims with a twist of lime.

00:28:39
Speaker 1: Oh, damn Nike headache. You guys. I hope you enjoyed the episode of the bonus. Thank you for writing in your questions. I hope I gave you impeccable answers. We'll catch you on Wednesday for the regular episode and next week for the bonus.

00:28:56
Speaker 2: Bye.