"My First Scene Was Anal" Scarlett Alexis Unfiltered

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<v Speaker 1>Hello everybody, Welcome back to Holly Randall Unfiltered. My guest
<v Speaker 1>today grew up as a preacher's kid and now is
<v Speaker 1>a rising star in the industry. In the last few years,
<v Speaker 1>she's dealt with a rare and serious health issue which
<v Speaker 1>she has faced head on with an amazing perspective and
<v Speaker 1>outlook on life. And I am so excited to talk
<v Speaker 1>to her about all of these things and so much more.
<v Speaker 1>Let's welcome the beautiful Scarlet Alexis. Hello, Hi, I'm so
<v Speaker 1>happy to be here. I'm so happy that you are
<v Speaker 1>here as well, and I'm so excited that I get
<v Speaker 1>to stare at your beautiful boobs.
<v Speaker 3>I wear this stress just for you.
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, I thought I'm actually going to pay
<v Speaker 1>attention to my guest today, or maybe not. I will
<v Speaker 1>be listening to anything that you said. We were talking
<v Speaker 1>earlier before you came on, Like I was saying to her,
<v Speaker 1>how does it feel to be one of God's favorites
<v Speaker 1>and just like have perfect boobs? But the thing about
<v Speaker 1>Scarlet is that she has like goods as far as
<v Speaker 1>I'm concerned, great size. They're not huge, and not that
<v Speaker 1>there's anything wrong with huge boobs, They're fantastic. But as
<v Speaker 1>a woman, I can empathize with the fact that girls
<v Speaker 1>with really big boobs have a hard time finding clothes
<v Speaker 1>to wear. Yeah, Like they're very limited in what they
<v Speaker 1>can wear. And I feel like you kind of get
<v Speaker 1>the best of both worlds.
<v Speaker 3>Thank you. I do feel very grateful.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean, are there clothes that you like can't
<v Speaker 1>wear because you have Like.
<v Speaker 3>I would say, the only annoying thing about my tits
<v Speaker 3>being natural is in bikinis like micro bikinis, I get
<v Speaker 3>the spillage. And when I wear pasties at like festivals,
<v Speaker 3>they usually like they slide off, they come off, whereas
<v Speaker 3>I feel like fake tits are they're more solid, so
<v Speaker 3>you know, there's less like spillage and you know things
<v Speaker 3>like that.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I know that's true. There's definitely some outfits that
<v Speaker 1>were like made for fake boobs because they're almost like
<v Speaker 1>a bra in themselves exactly that they hold them up
<v Speaker 1>and then like yeah, natural boobs they just kind of
<v Speaker 1>out of and sometimes not in a flattering way exactly.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah. Also, like in Missionary, I try to, you know,
<v Speaker 3>kind of put my armskirs. It was just like you know, flat.
<v Speaker 1>Like yes, well, when did you get to my age?
<v Speaker 1>The kid you could throw them over? Okay, So Scarlett,
<v Speaker 1>I also remember that you were one of the last
<v Speaker 1>scenes that I shot before I stopped directing.
<v Speaker 3>That was such an iconic day for me. I got
<v Speaker 3>to work with Scherie Deville and Luna Star and that
<v Speaker 3>was just I was like in heaven. Yeah, and I
<v Speaker 3>still remember that squirting bit like that was insane, like
<v Speaker 3>we're gonna just squore it. I was impressed that it
<v Speaker 3>seemed like it came from the sky, like it just
<v Speaker 3>the whole room, on the whole crew, all the cameras
<v Speaker 3>and everything. It was unbelievable.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. I really did not expected to go as far
<v Speaker 1>as it did. Yeah, and I've seen a lot. And
<v Speaker 1>the great thing was is that Steve, our cameraman, is
<v Speaker 1>such a seasoned cameraman that it hit him and didn't
<v Speaker 1>phase an at all. In fact, he was like excited, Yeah,
<v Speaker 1>I'm getting a great shot. So excited, so when you
<v Speaker 1>know you have a great cameraman, rather than like reacting
<v Speaker 1>to it being like oh gross, yeah, like you know,
<v Speaker 1>let me take it. This is such a great shot.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.
<v Speaker 1>And then afterwards he was.
<v Speaker 3>We all were amazing.
<v Speaker 1>I was not. I was gonna get me, but yeah,
<v Speaker 1>that was great. I was actually just going through a
<v Speaker 1>bunch of my old drives and I remember that I
<v Speaker 1>shot black and white film that day, like BTS. Yeah yeah,
<v Speaker 1>and I came across it and I had forgotten that
<v Speaker 1>I had it. Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>So yeah, I remember I think my first day, like
<v Speaker 3>three years ago, when I ran into you there you
<v Speaker 3>were showing me the photos. Yeah, that was so cool.
<v Speaker 1>Okay, so well, let's talk about the beginning and how
<v Speaker 1>you got into this industry and actually your life before
<v Speaker 1>because you know, interestingly enough, you grew up as a
<v Speaker 1>preacher's kid.
<v Speaker 3>I did, so, how was that? It was very unusual?
<v Speaker 3>I would say had a very unusual childhood. My parents
<v Speaker 3>they're preachers, they're they're I say this, they're kind of zealous.
<v Speaker 3>I guess it's almost like mystical Christianity a little like
<v Speaker 3>kind of televangelism a little bit and like Pentecostal. Okay,
<v Speaker 3>so like speaking in tongues and all like miracles. The
<v Speaker 3>snake thing, the snake thing. Yeah, what's the snake thing?
<v Speaker 1>The snake? You know, they like have snakes and then
<v Speaker 1>like if they handle them and then they don't.
<v Speaker 3>I probably would have liked that. Actually, No, I think
<v Speaker 3>they they think if snakes as like demonic creatures. But
<v Speaker 3>I tell I used to have a snake, and I'm like,
<v Speaker 3>but God made them, so they're isn't really like a
<v Speaker 3>demonic animal in my mind?
<v Speaker 1>Well, technically didn't God make Lucifer two and he was
<v Speaker 1>an angel and he like fll from Grace exactly. Yeah
<v Speaker 1>that's a good point. That's a good point.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so unusual childhood. I traveled a lot. I was
<v Speaker 3>homeschooled because my parents wanted to shield me from the world.
<v Speaker 3>And yeah, just I really gave it a shot, like
<v Speaker 3>because I was raised in it, like I was Christian.
<v Speaker 3>I was on like the worship team and everything that
<v Speaker 3>was like the team, yeah, the like the band in
<v Speaker 3>the beginning of church and okay, yeah, yeah.
<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah. So I was like at the team, like
<v Speaker 1>you have like a contest, like you can worship like
<v Speaker 1>the most okay, but this is like a singing.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah church band. Yeah, I gave it a real shot.
<v Speaker 3>And then in my teens, I just I always had
<v Speaker 3>a lot of questions. I was always a very curious person,
<v Speaker 3>and my questions were never really met with answers. I
<v Speaker 3>was like happy with I guess, and also just asking
<v Speaker 3>too many questions is kind of looked down upon too.
<v Speaker 3>So I finally realized that I didn't go the atheist route,
<v Speaker 3>which most people who have religious trauma they end up
<v Speaker 3>going that route. I'd seen enough and experienced enough that
<v Speaker 3>I feel like, you know, there's a spirit world, there's
<v Speaker 3>things out there, but I just know for me, it's
<v Speaker 3>not Christianity, and there's actually a stoic philosopher. I want
<v Speaker 3>to say it's Seneca. I forget the exact quote, but
<v Speaker 3>he basically says, like every religion has its own merit
<v Speaker 3>in its own way, because every man has to get
<v Speaker 3>to Heaven in their own way. And I really liked
<v Speaker 3>that point of view. So yeah, I think, you know,
<v Speaker 3>if you can find any way to connect with a
<v Speaker 3>divine I think that's a beautiful thing. But Christianity just
<v Speaker 3>wasn't for me.
<v Speaker 1>What about Christianity didn't work for you?
<v Speaker 3>I feel like in the Bible there's a lot of shame,
<v Speaker 3>or just more so the religion as a whole. I
<v Speaker 3>think maybe Jesus's message of love, I think, like that's
<v Speaker 3>really good, but you go like Old Testament versus New Testament,
<v Speaker 3>and there's just like a lot of and in religion,
<v Speaker 3>just like self hatred and shame of just like you
<v Speaker 3>have to be like I'm just like a horrible like
<v Speaker 3>you know, scum of the earth, like piece of shit,
<v Speaker 3>and I need Jesus to like forgive my sins and like,
<v Speaker 3>you know, get into heaven where I think I think
<v Speaker 3>we're all. I think in a way, we're all I
<v Speaker 3>don't want to say gods, but in a way like
<v Speaker 3>I feel like we're connected to everything in the universe
<v Speaker 3>and whatever the spark that everything is made out of,
<v Speaker 3>I think we all have that inside of us. So
<v Speaker 3>I think unlocking shame is a really important thing to do.
<v Speaker 3>And I think there's just so much shame in our
<v Speaker 3>culture so that I wasn't down with. And then also
<v Speaker 3>just the timeline of things. There's so many questions of like, Okay,
<v Speaker 3>how did everyone who was born before Jesus was alive?
<v Speaker 3>Do they all go to hell? Because like how does
<v Speaker 3>that work? You know? So there's just always so many,
<v Speaker 3>so many questions. And then all so I think I'm
<v Speaker 3>just like a little bit more open minded where I
<v Speaker 3>don't believe there's only one way to get into heaven. Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>And I guess that's the main thing that made me
<v Speaker 3>realize I'm not Christian.
<v Speaker 1>So I was raised atheist, okay one percent. Yeah, And
<v Speaker 1>I could never understand the idea that you're just like
<v Speaker 1>you start off as a bad person exactly, Like that's
<v Speaker 1>so bizarre to me. Yeah, and then you have to
<v Speaker 1>spend the rest of your life making up for the
<v Speaker 1>sins of somebody else. That automatically translates to you, right
<v Speaker 1>it's really confusing, it's very weird. Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>And then even some of the things that are considered
<v Speaker 3>a sin in the Old Testament, it's like, you know,
<v Speaker 3>wearing clothes that aren't like one hundred percent cotton, or
<v Speaker 3>like having like mixed fabrics and things like that, and
<v Speaker 3>I'm just like it makes it really impossible to be perfect.
<v Speaker 3>And I think when I was Christian, I felt like
<v Speaker 3>I always felt like I wasn't good enough. I'm always
<v Speaker 3>striving for this thing that's unattainable, and just like so
<v Speaker 3>much guilt. And I think that that's really harmful to
<v Speaker 3>us as a species and a psychology to think of
<v Speaker 3>ourselves in such a negative way.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean, there seems to be so many strange,
<v Speaker 1>mixed messages in the Bible. Yeah, And for me, I
<v Speaker 1>see a lot of like just this opportunity for to
<v Speaker 1>control people, yeah, to have power. But then I also
<v Speaker 1>see like these messages of like love and like forgiveness,
<v Speaker 1>and I feel like you could take you could take
<v Speaker 1>certain things out of it and you know, like live
<v Speaker 1>your life by that. But then overall the church doesn't
<v Speaker 1>want you to. They want you to go a very
<v Speaker 1>specific way. But I guess that's why there's so many
<v Speaker 1>different factions of the church.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, there's different kinds, and then there's like Catholicism, which
<v Speaker 3>is entirely different too. Yeah, so there's different like streams,
<v Speaker 3>I guess, yeah, but yeah, it was just like it
<v Speaker 3>just it's not for me, and it was hard for
<v Speaker 3>my family to come to terms with that. I have
<v Speaker 3>two other siblings. None of us really ended up following
<v Speaker 3>in their steps of the faith. But yeah, yeah it is.
<v Speaker 1>So it's funny. I went to my nephew's birthday party
<v Speaker 1>the other day and my husband didn't go because he
<v Speaker 1>wasn't feeling well, and so my mother in law cornered me.
<v Speaker 1>And she's very Catholic and she was like, you're you're
<v Speaker 1>you're not in the church, right, and like, no, no,
<v Speaker 1>I'm not. And my husband is also like he was
<v Speaker 1>raised Catholic, he was an altar boy, but he is
<v Speaker 1>like none of those things anymore. He's like doesn't follow
<v Speaker 1>the church, very like anti religious. And so she's like,
<v Speaker 1>so you're not like taking your daughter to the church.
<v Speaker 3>I'm like no.
<v Speaker 1>She's like, so you're not like teaching her the Bible.
<v Speaker 3>I'm like no, And.
<v Speaker 1>She was just like giving me like kind of a
<v Speaker 1>lot of shit, and like she's like, okay, so you're
<v Speaker 1>not teaching her about Jesus Christ.
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, this is all crue.
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I you know, like I actually love her
<v Speaker 1>and I we get along really well because there's nothing
<v Speaker 1>that she says that ever affects me. Like I'm very
<v Speaker 1>good at like stuff just rolling off my back. So
<v Speaker 1>it but it was funny because she was definitely like
<v Speaker 1>disappointed that I wasn't, like, you know, taking my daughter
<v Speaker 1>to church and she wasn't baptized and all that kind off.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, it's tricky. It's weird to me how some
<v Speaker 3>religious people they'll be like, oh, if it wasn't for
<v Speaker 3>Jesus or this, like I'd be a horrible person. Like
<v Speaker 3>and I'm like why, Like that's concerning to me. Like
<v Speaker 3>some people they can't understand having any kind of moral
<v Speaker 3>compass without having religion.
<v Speaker 1>So what are your beliefs now? You said that you
<v Speaker 1>it sounds like you still believe in heaven.
<v Speaker 3>I don't believe in like heaven per se. I feel
<v Speaker 3>like it's one of those things like we don't really
<v Speaker 3>know exactly what's out there, but I do I feel
<v Speaker 3>like I believe that there's like different dimensions to reality,
<v Speaker 3>and I'm really fascinated by consciousness, so I feel like,
<v Speaker 3>you know, I've experienced like altered states of consciousness in
<v Speaker 3>different ways, and like this past year, I got into
<v Speaker 3>breath work and that was really interesting to be like,
<v Speaker 3>oh wow, I feel like I'm on like shrooms or something,
<v Speaker 3>and you know, totally sober and then you know, like
<v Speaker 3>dreams and I don't want to sound like schizophrenic. I
<v Speaker 3>feel like I've experienced things where it almost feels like
<v Speaker 3>I'm seeing like visions or feeling like premonitions and things
<v Speaker 3>like that. So I believe that there's I'm like kind
<v Speaker 3>of interested in panpsychism, which is basically the belief that
<v Speaker 3>like reality is a result of consciousness. I think that
<v Speaker 3>like everything is connected and that we like different individuals,
<v Speaker 3>like this whole world basically it's we're all like facets
<v Speaker 3>of a whole and we're split into different people in
<v Speaker 3>different places so that the universe can experience itself. Is
<v Speaker 3>kind of like what I believe.
<v Speaker 1>That makes sense, not really so, but I'm so curious
<v Speaker 1>to know like what that means. Okay, so pan consciousness,
<v Speaker 1>So can you elaborate on that? A little bit more.
<v Speaker 3>I believe that like our like the whole earth, the
<v Speaker 3>whole universe, and everything all of us people, I believe
<v Speaker 3>in like like a spirit in a soul, I guess.
<v Speaker 3>I So, I guess what I'm saying is I believe
<v Speaker 3>that everything that exists, like nature us, we all have
<v Speaker 3>like that spark in us that is consciousness, I guess.
<v Speaker 3>And I believe that like before this all existed there
<v Speaker 3>it was all one, I guess. And in order for
<v Speaker 3>consciousness to experience itself, like for instance, you look at
<v Speaker 3>a lake and I was in Europe recently, and I
<v Speaker 3>was looking at how beautiful the lake was, and I
<v Speaker 3>was thinking about how like the water doesn't get to
<v Speaker 3>like see itself like what I'm seeing because it's just water.
<v Speaker 3>So it's that makes sense. So it's like an order
<v Speaker 3>for and then we have water inside of our bodies.
<v Speaker 3>So in order for like, in order for the water
<v Speaker 3>to experience itself, it would have to be separated from
<v Speaker 3>itself to look at it.
<v Speaker 1>Okay, So like the water like experiences itself like through you,
<v Speaker 1>because we're all connected exactly.
<v Speaker 3>So then and then we're experiencing the world. And I
<v Speaker 3>believe we're all like part of the world. It's like,
<v Speaker 3>I mean, you know, I look at the sun. You
<v Speaker 3>know it's from struggling, you know.
<v Speaker 1>I kind of I kind of I get it because
<v Speaker 1>actually I believe that we are all connected as well,
<v Speaker 1>like almost everybody knows. I'm sober, and you know, I
<v Speaker 1>went through the twelve step program and one of like
<v Speaker 1>the big parts of that is like finding a higher power, right,
<v Speaker 1>which was a huge struggle for me because, like I said,
<v Speaker 1>I was raised atheist, So you know, even the word
<v Speaker 1>God was very troublesome for me because that, for me,
<v Speaker 1>was connected to religion, which I felt was a way
<v Speaker 1>to control and manipulate people. And I really hated that word.
<v Speaker 1>So that was really hard for me. And of course,
<v Speaker 1>you know, the idea in alcoholics anonymous is that it
<v Speaker 1>doesn't like that's just a word, like it just can
<v Speaker 1>be like what some whatever understanding it is for you,
<v Speaker 1>whatever makes sense for you. It's just the idea that
<v Speaker 1>like the world is about more than just you and
<v Speaker 1>not isolated, and you're not alone, and like you're not
<v Speaker 1>like there's there's there's something else out there that is
<v Speaker 1>like supporting you if you let that in, right, like
<v Speaker 1>help let it help guide you for sure. Like you know,
<v Speaker 1>we all know that, like when you put out certain energy,
<v Speaker 1>it feeds back into you, right, like the law of attraction.
<v Speaker 3>Absolutely.
<v Speaker 1>So for me, I believe that it's like the connectiveness
<v Speaker 1>of the human experience, you know, because you see like them,
<v Speaker 1>I mean, we all have we all know the horrible
<v Speaker 1>things that people do to each other, right, we see
<v Speaker 1>that in the news all the time. But what's incredible
<v Speaker 1>is the amazing things that people do for each other
<v Speaker 1>in times of crisis. You know, you see like these
<v Speaker 1>hurricanes and these horrible natural disasters, and the way and
<v Speaker 1>the things that people will do for complete strangers. And
<v Speaker 1>that's like when you see the real humanity come out
<v Speaker 1>in people, for sure. And that's when you see this
<v Speaker 1>this connection that we have, right and even like things
<v Speaker 1>that humans will do for like other animals. And so
<v Speaker 1>for me, I believe that like God quote unquote shows
<v Speaker 1>up in other people, right for sure, And everybody's a lesson,
<v Speaker 1>even the terrible people that show up in your life. Totally,
<v Speaker 1>everybody's a lesson. And I think if you look at
<v Speaker 1>the world that way, then like everything that you go
<v Speaker 1>through is like a blessing for sure.
<v Speaker 3>And I think it adds a lot more meaning to life. Yes,
<v Speaker 3>and then you become less of a victim. It's less
<v Speaker 3>like things are happening to me. Then it becomes more
<v Speaker 3>of like, Okay, there's a lesson here, and until you
<v Speaker 3>learn that lesson, like, life will just keep throwing things that. Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>and you're like why does this keep happening me? And
<v Speaker 3>it's like, Okay, it's waiting for you to figure out
<v Speaker 3>what you're supposed to learn.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, that is like I agree with that so
<v Speaker 1>much because that is I think we can probably if
<v Speaker 1>we all like really sit down and like unpack our
<v Speaker 1>problems and look at those things into accountability for what
<v Speaker 1>we do, which mostly don't ever do you see that
<v Speaker 1>that like the same problem. You know, people will be like,
<v Speaker 1>oh god, why do I keep dating the same kind
<v Speaker 1>of guy who cheats on me and treats me like shit?
<v Speaker 1>Well keep letting that you keep picking that guy? Yeah,
<v Speaker 1>why do you keep picking that guy?
<v Speaker 2>You know?
<v Speaker 1>And then you find out that like there is some
<v Speaker 1>void in you that you're trying to fill.
<v Speaker 3>There's something like yeah, or core belief about yourself. I
<v Speaker 3>feel like that's a lot of times what it is,
<v Speaker 3>and it's it can be hard to like release it,
<v Speaker 3>like to be so honest with yourself and then of course,
<v Speaker 3>like we lie to ourselves too, and I mean you
<v Speaker 3>can get past that and be like okay, deep down,
<v Speaker 3>like this is what I really think about myself, and
<v Speaker 3>like that's why you know, I'm making these life choices.
<v Speaker 3>I really like Carl Jung, like I like studying psychology,
<v Speaker 3>and he has that great quote I'm trying to remember verbatim,
<v Speaker 3>but he basically says, like until you make the unconscious conscious,
<v Speaker 3>it'll rule your life and you'll call it fate.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that's so true. Yeah. Another thing
<v Speaker 1>before before we move on to talk about porn. Wait,
<v Speaker 1>it's like twenty minutes. Then philosophy, religious podcast. What did
<v Speaker 1>I tune into?
<v Speaker 3>All right?
<v Speaker 1>But what you said about everything like being connected and
<v Speaker 1>you know, like the water experiencing itself like through you
<v Speaker 1>reminded me of my dad and before he died, so
<v Speaker 1>like I said, like I was raised atheist. My father
<v Speaker 1>was like staunch atheist, right, very much a man of science,
<v Speaker 1>but he believed in like the beauty of the universe, right,
<v Speaker 1>And I remember because he had Parkinson's and he was
<v Speaker 1>his health was degrading, so like he knew like the
<v Speaker 1>end was coming. And I had a conversation with him
<v Speaker 1>and I asked him if he was afraid of death,
<v Speaker 1>and he told me that he wasn't, and he believed
<v Speaker 1>that when we die, we just become part. We just
<v Speaker 1>go back into the universe. Like He's like, our lives
<v Speaker 1>are just a little blip on the timeline of eternity.
<v Speaker 1>That's so true, and we're just this little speck in
<v Speaker 1>the universe. And it almost like we almost like kind
<v Speaker 1>of don't matter. And we go back into the universe,
<v Speaker 1>and we go back into the Earth and the and
<v Speaker 1>the sky and the stars. And he's like, and I
<v Speaker 1>think that that's beautiful. That's so beautiful, which I love.
<v Speaker 1>But I was, I don't wait, what do you mean
<v Speaker 1>I'm a blip on the timeline of eternity. I'm like,
<v Speaker 1>I want to be like a large part, like you
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean? Like yeah, but I think about it.
<v Speaker 1>And it was really great that he could be happy
<v Speaker 1>with the idea that he was a small, tiny part
<v Speaker 1>of this huge, you know, universe's whole workings of this
<v Speaker 1>machine that we call, I don't know time life. And
<v Speaker 1>he didn't need to be like the center stage of it.
<v Speaker 1>He didn't need to be this big part of it.
<v Speaker 1>He was just grateful that he got like that experience. Yeah,
<v Speaker 1>whereas I like this great fear of death and I'm
<v Speaker 1>just like I don't want to be in this sty
<v Speaker 1>Do you ever want to die?
<v Speaker 3>Make your mark? You want to be remembered?
<v Speaker 1>I just don't want to die. Yeah, I just don't
<v Speaker 1>want to. Like the idea of non existence is like
<v Speaker 1>terrifying today.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that is kind of scared. I feel like the
<v Speaker 3>past year, I never like I kind of think I
<v Speaker 3>might think that maybe reincarnation exists, and it's never something
<v Speaker 3>that I had necessarily like fell alignment with before. But
<v Speaker 3>for me, like I kind of like the idea of
<v Speaker 3>like past lives and that like every lifetime you're I
<v Speaker 3>think this is kind of has some hoo Hindu or
<v Speaker 3>Buddhist kind of background to it, but like in your
<v Speaker 3>life you get to be you're supposed to be like
<v Speaker 3>the most yourself and you learn different lessons, right, And
<v Speaker 3>I think like if you don't learn all of your lessons,
<v Speaker 3>then maybe you reincarnate and then you try it again
<v Speaker 3>and tried it again until like you reach a point
<v Speaker 3>where you don't reincarnate anymore. And then I think kind
<v Speaker 3>of like what your dad's saying, you just like become
<v Speaker 3>part of the universe or just like consciousness whatever that is,
<v Speaker 3>whatever plane of existence, because yeah, I think existence has
<v Speaker 3>like many layers. Even what I love science too, and
<v Speaker 3>what I love about science is like it shows just
<v Speaker 3>how magical the world really is. I don't think that
<v Speaker 3>science takes away from seeing the world as like an
<v Speaker 3>incredibly magical place. If annything, it just shows like, oh,
<v Speaker 3>there's so much we don't know. And then also just
<v Speaker 3>like what is all of this?
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean evolution is a fucking crazy thing if
<v Speaker 1>you think about it. Yeah, We've been playing this game
<v Speaker 1>where we like I've been doing a guessing game with animals,
<v Speaker 1>which with my daughter, and so she's been learning a
<v Speaker 1>lot about like different animals, and we were teaching her
<v Speaker 1>about animals that like can camouflage, right, and like see
<v Speaker 1>creatures that can like change their color and stuff like that,
<v Speaker 1>and that is like, if you think about that, that
<v Speaker 1>is insane that this animal developed over time to learn
<v Speaker 1>how to change its color.
<v Speaker 3>It's insane. That's crazy.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And that's you know, that is that is science.
<v Speaker 1>And that is magical exactly.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, No, I believe that one hundred percent. I've talked
<v Speaker 3>with some friends recently about the idea of like some
<v Speaker 3>people are like NPCs. They just feel like they like
<v Speaker 3>don't have any thoughts. And I feel like maybe, and
<v Speaker 3>I don't know if this is like a narcissistic point
<v Speaker 3>of view, but I feel like, you know, there are
<v Speaker 3>certain people who like ask deeper questions in life and
<v Speaker 3>things like that and contemplate things, and then there's people
<v Speaker 3>who kind of don't. And I feel like that might
<v Speaker 3>be like an evolutionary thing of consciousness, Like maybe we
<v Speaker 3>start out as NPCs and then like we have a
<v Speaker 3>chance to like evolve in a way like consciously. But
<v Speaker 3>that was just a thought.
<v Speaker 1>But also are NPCs like perhaps happier people because they
<v Speaker 1>aren't plagued by those deep thoughts late at night where
<v Speaker 1>they're just like what is non existence? What's the point
<v Speaker 1>of life? They're just like, Wow, that was a really
<v Speaker 1>good round of Jeopardy. I'm going to go to bed
<v Speaker 1>and go to work tomorrow and then I'm gonna can't
<v Speaker 1>looking forward to lunch, you know what I mean?
<v Speaker 3>Like, no, that's true.
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes like a simpler life is like I mean, you know,
<v Speaker 1>generally really intelligent people tend to be like very depressed.
<v Speaker 3>I think that's true. I do also think that like
<v Speaker 3>the most beautiful things in life come with like you
<v Speaker 3>can't experience to the depths that you experience pain is
<v Speaker 3>to the depths that you experience beauty. Yeah, I really
<v Speaker 3>do believe that. So I think to have a rich
<v Speaker 3>life you kind of have to embrace the pain sometimes.
<v Speaker 3>I'm a big advocator of that, of like not running
<v Speaker 3>away from it. It's like love is a great example.
<v Speaker 3>You know, there's so many people who are like too
<v Speaker 3>scared to have feelings, you're to get involved with anyone
<v Speaker 3>because they don't want to get hurt. And if you
<v Speaker 3>live your life that way, you're going to miss out
<v Speaker 3>on all of the most beautiful experiences.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>So I think also pain feels art too. There's no
<v Speaker 3>like amazing artists that's made an impact on the world
<v Speaker 3>who's just like, you know, super happy, go lucky, like
<v Speaker 3>you know. So I think it's just part of being human,
<v Speaker 3>and I think we should embrace like the full spectrum
<v Speaker 3>of that and not like only highlight the good parts.
<v Speaker 1>I agree, and like the low parts are what makes
<v Speaker 1>the high parts so much better because you know the
<v Speaker 1>difference is what makes them appreciate exactly.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah. Yeah, And I think like every painful experience you're
<v Speaker 3>like losing people things like that, depending on how painful
<v Speaker 3>it is, just shows like how significant something was in
<v Speaker 3>your life, right, you know. So I feel like a
<v Speaker 3>perspective shift is like you kind of are lucky that
<v Speaker 3>you even get to experience this pain.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, like how lucky you were to have loved that
<v Speaker 1>person or things so much that you feel that grief
<v Speaker 1>to lose them.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.
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<v Speaker 3>As far as what do you mean exactly?
<v Speaker 1>Like you did not grow up in a sexually open environment,
<v Speaker 1>right right? So like when did you start to get
<v Speaker 1>curious about sex?
<v Speaker 3>I've always been very open minded sexually. So when I
<v Speaker 3>was one of my more serious relationships before poorn if
<v Speaker 3>this is the same guy I was with when I
<v Speaker 3>started poor into he was like very open minded, So
<v Speaker 3>I was, you know, exploring like group, you know, I
<v Speaker 3>was doing anal things like that. And actually before him,
<v Speaker 3>when I was nineteen is when I realized I was
<v Speaker 3>by so all of my friends knew before me. I
<v Speaker 3>feel like that's like a classic story. I you know,
<v Speaker 3>there was just so much repression that it would come
<v Speaker 3>out in ways where I just was sexualizing women all
<v Speaker 3>the time, basically like a fuck point. My friends would
<v Speaker 3>make fun of me and be like you're so gay,
<v Speaker 3>and I thought it was a joke. I was like, yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I'm so okay, and then I finally realized. I was like, wait,
<v Speaker 3>I think maybe I am, And so I like came
<v Speaker 3>out and like was exploring women from the age of
<v Speaker 3>age of nineteen. My first kiss ever in kindergarten was
<v Speaker 3>actually a girl. Yeah, mattv she I remember, We're at school,
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, my mom, Daddy told me it's
<v Speaker 3>not it's bad. A kiss on the lips, and then
<v Speaker 3>she kissed me. You know.
<v Speaker 1>So weird is when I was growing up, I don't know,
<v Speaker 1>probably under ten for sure, but like definitely older than six,
<v Speaker 1>maybe eight, I used to like fantasize about women a lot,
<v Speaker 1>and I thought that I liked women, and I was
<v Speaker 1>really into that idea, and then I grew out of it,
<v Speaker 1>and I'm totally not in I don't know, it's really strange.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean, I just feel like sexuality is such
<v Speaker 3>a fluid. Yeah, you know, it's a spectrum, as I
<v Speaker 3>like to say. So, yeah, that's funny how that happens.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I feel like I've always been turned on by
<v Speaker 3>the female body.
<v Speaker 1>I think it's beautiful obviously, like there's nothing that I
<v Speaker 1>would rather photograph than the female body, and like, I
<v Speaker 1>love looking at it.
<v Speaker 3>It just doesn't make you horny.
<v Speaker 1>But it doesn't make me horny. Like I love looking
<v Speaker 1>at your boobs because esthetically they're gorgeous, but like my
<v Speaker 1>panties are very dry.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, well, it sounds like you're straight right now. Who knows,
<v Speaker 3>maybe it'll change again.
<v Speaker 1>Who knows, you know, I'm probably menopauses around the corner
<v Speaker 1>and I hear your hormones changed. I don't know, anything's possible.
<v Speaker 1>So now you said that you've you happened upon porn,
<v Speaker 1>So how did that happen?
<v Speaker 3>So I like I was like, I'm going to do
<v Speaker 3>porn one day, never really crossed my mind. I was
<v Speaker 3>working at an art gallery before and like teaching children
<v Speaker 3>private piano lessons and I but I was kind of
<v Speaker 3>the lifestyle with my boyfriend at the time, so swing lifestyle.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah yeah, so more like hot wifing, even though I
<v Speaker 3>wasn't a wife, but just like you know, yeah kind
<v Speaker 3>of thing, not really parties, more like just like swapping,
<v Speaker 3>yeah yeah, having people out for I guess. And so
<v Speaker 3>through doing that, I met a guy who was in
<v Speaker 3>the industry and this is in Arizona, and he was like, Oh,
<v Speaker 3>have you ever thought of, like, you know, doing porn?
<v Speaker 3>Like you seem like you'd be perfect for it, and
<v Speaker 3>I and I thought about it, and I was like,
<v Speaker 3>that actually would be like really cool experience. I want
<v Speaker 3>to try it. And I did come to terms with fact, like, Okay,
<v Speaker 3>if I do this, obviously it's going to alter the
<v Speaker 3>course of my life and like just everything that comes
<v Speaker 3>with it, you know. But I wanted to do it.
<v Speaker 3>So I did it, and like I went into expecting
<v Speaker 3>everyone to find out, you know, and of course they did.
<v Speaker 3>But I loved it so much. It was really fun.
<v Speaker 3>It was like a great experience. So I did like
<v Speaker 3>five scenes with this one company in Arizona, and then
<v Speaker 3>like three months later, I quit my gallery job and
<v Speaker 3>I was community. I would travel to you know, La
<v Speaker 3>in Vegas for about a year, and then after that year,
<v Speaker 3>my ex and I broke up and then I moved
<v Speaker 3>to La.
<v Speaker 1>Oh okay, So now your first scene was ANAL?
<v Speaker 3>Is that it was anal? Yeah?
<v Speaker 1>Did you know at the time that that was a
<v Speaker 1>very intense way to kick off your head?
<v Speaker 3>No idea?
<v Speaker 1>So your second scene was a DP.
<v Speaker 3>It was a DP. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, Actually it's so funny.
<v Speaker 3>Alex Mack was in that DP, and I'm like really
<v Speaker 3>good friends now yeah, and it's just like hilarious to
<v Speaker 3>think of the journey. But I wasn't super I was
<v Speaker 3>watching amateur porn mostly. The only other porn star I
<v Speaker 3>really was familiar with was Owen Gray. Okay, so I
<v Speaker 3>didn't know anything about like how people have their porn
<v Speaker 3>careers or safe thing for later. Yeah, and all I
<v Speaker 3>had no idea. What they did is they asked me,
<v Speaker 3>do you do anal, do you do dps? Do you
<v Speaker 3>do this? And I just thought, yeah, I do those things,
<v Speaker 3>So then I did it.
<v Speaker 1>Of course that for you, who did you shoot? Who
<v Speaker 1>did you shoot? Your first scene for.
<v Speaker 3>It was it was like casting couch, but the one
<v Speaker 3>in Arizona.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, okay.
<v Speaker 3>They had like a few different sites. I honestly don't
<v Speaker 3>remember the names.
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to assume you shop for FTV girls. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
<v Speaker 1>we've all been yeah, especially traumatize. Did they make you
<v Speaker 1>stick something weird to be your vagina?
<v Speaker 3>I mean I had an okay experience. I just heard
<v Speaker 3>a lot of horror stories. I did put an eggplant
<v Speaker 3>yeah yeah. And then they had like the what is
<v Speaker 3>it called, like the doctor's thing like a stethoscope or whatever,
<v Speaker 3>proct to something.
<v Speaker 1>Oh God, like, yeah, Ernie, what's the thing that you
<v Speaker 1>used looking at a vagina.
<v Speaker 3>And a probe? I feel like it starts with the pede.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we should know. This happens to us when we
<v Speaker 1>go to the gin of colleges.
<v Speaker 3>I know. And I actually I used one of these
<v Speaker 3>in an adult time scene too, uh and it was
<v Speaker 3>an anal scene and we were really they were really ambitious.
<v Speaker 3>They wanted this was the beginning so speculative speculam. Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I did one where the beginning solo part. They wanted
<v Speaker 3>me to use a speculum to open up my ass,
<v Speaker 3>and then they wanted to put a tiny camera, you
<v Speaker 3>like those doctor's cameras inside to like really but I
<v Speaker 3>was like, I'm not that flexible because I'm in doggie
<v Speaker 3>and I'm like with one hand and it's metal too,
<v Speaker 3>and one of the I couldn't figure out where it was,
<v Speaker 3>but there was like a court. Some part was like
<v Speaker 3>rough course and so then I ended up like like
<v Speaker 3>I bled a little bit and then I was thinkinning.
<v Speaker 3>I was like, I can't like open my ass with
<v Speaker 3>one hand and then like use my other hand to
<v Speaker 3>reach this little camera. And so I was like, this
<v Speaker 3>is beginna, But I tried. I'm always up to try.
<v Speaker 1>Somebody experience, you know, give you old college try. So
<v Speaker 1>do you I mean, do you now that you know
<v Speaker 1>what you know? Do you like regret starting off with anal?
<v Speaker 3>Definitely? I would have done it differently. You know, I
<v Speaker 3>would have made a big deal about it because I
<v Speaker 3>see how it works with other people's careers. You know,
<v Speaker 3>they're getting like awards and like all these things are
<v Speaker 3>like my first this and I'm like I've been doing
<v Speaker 3>it the whole time, but it's just not as but
<v Speaker 3>it is what like it happened. So I'm like, well,
<v Speaker 3>I'll embrace it. Like I do. Think it's kind of
<v Speaker 3>like sick too, to be like I started with anal
<v Speaker 3>day one. I think that's kind of cool, just like
<v Speaker 3>logistically not.
<v Speaker 1>The best gear. I mean, Sasha Gray, her first scene
<v Speaker 1>I think was an orgy.
<v Speaker 3>I think that's really cool to be like, you know,
<v Speaker 3>starting kicking doors down, starting strong. Yeah, I think that's
<v Speaker 3>a cool way to do it. I just wish we
<v Speaker 3>were awarded better.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, market wise, you would have gotten done it differently. Yeah,
<v Speaker 1>So when you started porn, what was the most surprising
<v Speaker 1>thing for you, Like, what was the one thing that
<v Speaker 1>you didn't expect.
<v Speaker 3>I didn't really know what to expect, to be honest,
<v Speaker 3>going into it. I guess I didn't expect it to
<v Speaker 3>feel more like a movie set, like having a whole
<v Speaker 3>crew and like a director.
<v Speaker 1>I love it.
<v Speaker 3>I love working with people where the doctors like they
<v Speaker 3>really like take it seriously, you know, when they have like,
<v Speaker 3>you know, a vision and they're like giving you a
<v Speaker 3>cues and everything. You know, it's entertainment. It's another like
<v Speaker 3>form of expression, and so it's a fun medium to
<v Speaker 3>to like capture that in. And then it's nice to
<v Speaker 3>know just like how testing is, you know, it's yeah,
<v Speaker 3>how you know everyone is tested every two weeks. That's
<v Speaker 3>a really great part of it too, Like you know,
<v Speaker 3>I think most people don't know about that, and so
<v Speaker 3>it's nice to know that this is like a safe,
<v Speaker 3>controlled environment to do all of these things. So I
<v Speaker 3>guess that's what I didn't expect.
<v Speaker 1>What is something about the adult industry that you would
<v Speaker 1>like to change if you could.
<v Speaker 3>I think people in Portne should be like people who
<v Speaker 3>who really want to be important and really care about it.
<v Speaker 3>I think, you know, a lot of people end up
<v Speaker 3>in this industry for whatever reasons, Like we're all come
<v Speaker 3>from so many different walks of life. But I think
<v Speaker 3>it is something that just really does alter your life.
<v Speaker 3>And and it's like with any job, it's more fun
<v Speaker 3>when people are like who enjoy their job basically, So
<v Speaker 3>I think that Aside from that, I feel like, yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I mean, it seems like everything's changing with like OnlyFans
<v Speaker 3>and things like that where studio work is, I guess
<v Speaker 3>from what I'm hearing, like dying down and things like that,
<v Speaker 3>So who knows like how that'll change. I think it
<v Speaker 3>would be nice if the performers had, like I have
<v Speaker 3>friends who are like shocked, like they don't realize that,
<v Speaker 3>like we don't get like a percentage of like the
<v Speaker 3>revenues that are residuals that our scenes make. I'm like,
<v Speaker 3>that would be cool if if we got that. So
<v Speaker 3>I guess that's it. I would hope would change, but
<v Speaker 3>I don't feel like it will.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I want to talk about your health journey because
<v Speaker 1>you've really been through a lot over the years. You've
<v Speaker 1>mentioned dealing with seizures and many strokes for years before
<v Speaker 1>you knew what was going on. So what was your
<v Speaker 1>road to your diagnosis?
<v Speaker 3>Like, yeah, so, yeah, I had seizure since I was
<v Speaker 3>a teenager, and my parents never took me to the
<v Speaker 3>doctor for it. And even when like I ended up
<v Speaker 3>getting diagnosed, they just like wanted to pray it away
<v Speaker 3>type of thing. So it wasn't until I was I
<v Speaker 3>was about to turn twenty. Yeah, I had a really
<v Speaker 3>bad seizure and I was living with my boyfriend at
<v Speaker 3>the time. Was it a grandma's seizure? Yeah, So he
<v Speaker 3>was freaked out. Was his first time seeing someone have
<v Speaker 3>a season. He thought I was like possessed because all
<v Speaker 3>of a sudden, like we're just cooking dinner and then
<v Speaker 3>you know, I'm like my eyes wine is making these
<v Speaker 3>weird noises and like flailiing on the floor. So he
<v Speaker 3>was like, you have to get this checked out. Yeah yeah, yeah,
<v Speaker 3>And it was so weird because when you're having a seizure,
<v Speaker 3>you don't know you're having a seizure, like as far
<v Speaker 3>as like you're like what's happening. So when I was
<v Speaker 3>having that particular seizure, I felt like it's almost like
<v Speaker 3>you're dreaming like I felt like I lived a whole
<v Speaker 3>other life and I was a whole other person and
<v Speaker 3>I was like in China and it was really weird.
<v Speaker 3>And then I like yeah, like and then I came
<v Speaker 3>back and only like, you know, a couple of minutes
<v Speaker 3>past or whatever it was, and and then I was like,
<v Speaker 3>why is he like crying? Like what's going on? Like what?
<v Speaker 2>Like?
<v Speaker 3>I was like, I feel like normal. He was like, no,
<v Speaker 3>you have to get checked out. And for a week
<v Speaker 3>after every time I've had a seizure, I feel really
<v Speaker 3>A lot of people say that it almost feels like
<v Speaker 3>some kind of spiritual experience too, Like my I don't
<v Speaker 3>feel very tethered to my body. I always have like
<v Speaker 3>insane dreams and just kind of feel like out of it.
<v Speaker 1>Like are they full body seizures?
<v Speaker 3>Uh yeah, okay, yeah. So anyways, I finally go get
<v Speaker 3>checked out. I get brains scans, egs, whatever, everything, and
<v Speaker 3>I get diagnosed the day before my twentieth birthday and
<v Speaker 3>they tell me I have Moya moya, which is a
<v Speaker 3>rare brain disease. So basically one of the main arteries
<v Speaker 3>in the left side of my brain is collapsed. So
<v Speaker 3>in the scans, there's like a huge portion that just
<v Speaker 3>like doesn't get blood flow. So because of that, all
<v Speaker 3>these tiny blood vessels are trying to make up for
<v Speaker 3>the lack of blood flow, but they're very like they're taxed,
<v Speaker 3>like they're taking on too much, so they're at risk
<v Speaker 3>of bursting and aneurysms and strokes and things like that.
<v Speaker 3>So they were like, you have to get brain surgery.
<v Speaker 3>And my parents they were trying to talk me out
<v Speaker 3>of it because they were like, let's like, we'll just
<v Speaker 3>pray for you. So I ended up waiting three months,
<v Speaker 3>partially because I was also really scared to have my
<v Speaker 3>head cut open. So I was like, Okay, I'll wait
<v Speaker 3>three months, you can pray and everything. But it was
<v Speaker 3>really serious. They're like, you know, at any at any point,
<v Speaker 3>you could have like a potentially fatal stroke. Like it's
<v Speaker 3>like really serious, need to get it. So I had
<v Speaker 3>the surgery. I was at a really good facility in
<v Speaker 3>Arizona Barrows, and it was scary. They're like you could
<v Speaker 3>like potentially you could wake up and forget how to speak,
<v Speaker 3>like just you know, so much can go wrong. So
<v Speaker 3>I was terrified. But I did the surgery and it
<v Speaker 3>went really well. It was successful. Now there's no known
<v Speaker 3>cure for this disease, so all it does is mitigate
<v Speaker 3>the I did a bypass surgery to help alleviate you know,
<v Speaker 3>the pressure on the other blood vessels, but there's no
<v Speaker 3>known cure, so it just helps the symptoms. So it
<v Speaker 3>reduces my chance of like stroking out and seizing and
<v Speaker 3>things like that. But it's also a progressive disease, so
<v Speaker 3>I have to get like regular checkups every few years
<v Speaker 3>and see if it progresses on the other side or
<v Speaker 3>we know, whatever it is. So far, my last few checkups,
<v Speaker 3>everything has been good. But I was really depressed after
<v Speaker 3>my diagnosis and just the surgery was the most debilitating
<v Speaker 3>experience to go through. So I was really depressed after
<v Speaker 3>and it was kind of a horrible way to start twenties,
<v Speaker 3>you know, just coming to terms with, Okay, now I
<v Speaker 3>have this thing that's like lifelong that I have to
<v Speaker 3>live with, you know. I felt like, oh, at any
<v Speaker 3>point my brain could just like go against me and
<v Speaker 3>like just poof, you know. Yeah, So it was really hard.
<v Speaker 3>And then I have like flare ups sometimes where I
<v Speaker 3>call it my bad brain days, where I'm like really
<v Speaker 3>foggy or there's like a lag in like my processing
<v Speaker 3>or I get really lightheaded, like I'm really sensitive to
<v Speaker 3>the heat. And it's really scary for me when I
<v Speaker 3>have those flare ups because I don't know if that
<v Speaker 3>means I'm gonna like have an episode soon or like
<v Speaker 3>a stroke or a seizure, or if it just passes
<v Speaker 3>then everything's fine. So it can be really tricky. But
<v Speaker 3>it also makes any surgery where I have to be
<v Speaker 3>under anesthesia becomes a high risk. So like with my too,
<v Speaker 3>I feel like I'm jumping around. But when I had
<v Speaker 3>my tumor removal surgery for my breasts, that's usually like
<v Speaker 3>a very like low risk surgery, but I have to
<v Speaker 3>get my how to get my brain checked out to
<v Speaker 3>make sure like it was okay to handle the anesthesia,
<v Speaker 3>because if my blood pressure drops a certain number, then
<v Speaker 3>I'll just have a stroke, like while I'm.
<v Speaker 1>Under So you found tumors in your breast.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so the surgery was I'm twenty six now, so
<v Speaker 3>the brain surgery was six years ago. I was twenty
<v Speaker 3>and then has it been two years now? I think
<v Speaker 3>it's like a year and a half or two years.
<v Speaker 3>I could feel them like I always had masses in
<v Speaker 3>my breasts, but I never got them checked out. I
<v Speaker 3>kind of just like brushed it off. But one of
<v Speaker 3>them was starting to get really big, to the point
<v Speaker 3>where it was protruding, like you could see a shadow,
<v Speaker 3>and people at even like my porn was like people
<v Speaker 3>would even make comments about it sometimes. So it was
<v Speaker 3>growing really fast, and my friends urged me to get
<v Speaker 3>it checked out, so I finally did. Turns out I
<v Speaker 3>have a rare tumor condition, and rare like most people
<v Speaker 3>who have this specific tumor condition are in their thirties
<v Speaker 3>or forties and it's already so the fact that I
<v Speaker 3>have it at my age makes it even more rare,
<v Speaker 3>and I forget what it's called. But this kind of
<v Speaker 3>tumor doesn't respond to chemo or radiation, so basically you
<v Speaker 3>have to just catch it early because if ever it turns,
<v Speaker 3>then I think I would have like five years to live,
<v Speaker 3>is what they say. So I was, yeah, I was.
<v Speaker 3>It was really hard on me mentally because I was like,
<v Speaker 3>can I just go four years without something crazy happening.
<v Speaker 3>That's why I have so much anxiety about like going
<v Speaker 3>to the doctor and things like that, which sucks because
<v Speaker 3>I have to maintain these things. But I'm just I
<v Speaker 3>it's like there's so like, ah, I'm like, I don't
<v Speaker 3>know if I can handle another like big life altering
<v Speaker 3>thing right now.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>So but I got it handled. They said, I have
<v Speaker 3>a lot of cysts that are benign that are totally fine,
<v Speaker 3>and then three of them were this kind of tumor.
<v Speaker 3>So that's why my boobs look so perky. Actually is
<v Speaker 3>because they're filled with math. The benigh and cysts are fine,
<v Speaker 3>but like that's what, Yeah, that's why we look the
<v Speaker 3>way they do. Oh my god. But I'm glad that
<v Speaker 3>when they removed the tumors. I was so scared that
<v Speaker 3>I would have like Franken tits. Yeah, I was like,
<v Speaker 3>oh god, like my career is on the line. Yeah
<v Speaker 3>yeah yeah, but or that they would be like just
<v Speaker 3>like really flat or just weird looking. But they turned
<v Speaker 3>out fine, Thank god, my god.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so I had those removed, and yeah, that has
<v Speaker 3>been my medical journey.
<v Speaker 1>How did you handle that? Like mentally, like, how did you?
<v Speaker 3>It was a lot. I think after it took me
<v Speaker 3>a while to after the brain thing, to really like
<v Speaker 3>be okay and come to terms with everything. But the
<v Speaker 3>way that I like the way that I see it,
<v Speaker 3>just it really encourages me to live life to the fullest.
<v Speaker 3>Because after I got out of like my whole depressive year,
<v Speaker 3>I was like, okay, like life is short. I think
<v Speaker 3>I think it's really healthy for people to think about
<v Speaker 3>death because like it makes you appreciate life so much
<v Speaker 3>more and have so much gratitude. So I really see
<v Speaker 3>life through that lens of like I'm so happy to
<v Speaker 3>be here, I'm so grateful for every experience that I have,
<v Speaker 3>And then it really pushes me to like to go
<v Speaker 3>after my dreams or like anything I want to do
<v Speaker 3>in life. It helps me to not like be too complacent,
<v Speaker 3>like you know, just try and just do it and
<v Speaker 3>like have all the experiences, you know, take the trips
<v Speaker 3>and make the memories of your friends type of thing.
<v Speaker 3>So I think that's my silver lining.
<v Speaker 1>So, speaking of experiences, what are your big goals for
<v Speaker 1>your career? Anything in particular that like you really want
<v Speaker 1>to hit.
<v Speaker 3>I've had so much fun, I've done so many different
<v Speaker 3>kinds of things already. I don't know when, but I
<v Speaker 3>would love to do a showcase. I see that happening
<v Speaker 3>for me, and that'll probably be I don't have a
<v Speaker 3>lot of firsts left. But if I did a showcase, like,
<v Speaker 3>I haven't really done like a proper gang bang. Okay,
<v Speaker 3>so I would probably see something what is a.
<v Speaker 1>Proper gang bang to it?
<v Speaker 3>Well, I guess it would have to be at least
<v Speaker 3>five people. I feel like there's debate on what's a gang.
<v Speaker 3>I feel like five at least five people would be.
<v Speaker 1>Like, Okay, so have you been with four people? Four guys?
<v Speaker 1>Or was it or three?
<v Speaker 3>Trying to think, hmmm, I don't think I have. I
<v Speaker 3>don't think at least not on camera.
<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, all cameras.
<v Speaker 3>It is the only thing that yeah, exactly, I don't
<v Speaker 3>think I really have had a proper ganging. Okay, So
<v Speaker 3>I think that would be fun. I'm not really into
<v Speaker 3>blowbangs personally. It's a lot of work, it's a lot
<v Speaker 3>of it's a lot I don't like. It's very on
<v Speaker 3>your Oh no, not that much.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, not so much that it's like all those guys.
<v Speaker 3>Like I wouldn't.
<v Speaker 1>I'm not into like drinking come out of a cup.
<v Speaker 1>That's not really why not sound it? You're right, some
<v Speaker 1>people do love it. You don't want to go to
<v Speaker 1>do you know? That that studio like in Spain that
<v Speaker 1>they go. Oh my god, I had Sadie Summers and
<v Speaker 1>Sophia Loa told me about where they go and they
<v Speaker 1>have like a counter and it's like how many loads
<v Speaker 1>can you swallow?
<v Speaker 3>Wow?
<v Speaker 1>Have you heard about this place?
<v Speaker 3>I have it?
<v Speaker 1>Like God, it's insane. This like fascinated me so much.
<v Speaker 1>And both girls, by the way, like loved this experience.
<v Speaker 1>This is of course, this is definitely not somewhere that
<v Speaker 1>sounds like you would ever want to go. But it's
<v Speaker 1>like it's like I don't know, like over a hundred
<v Speaker 1>guys and yeah, you just sit there and you swallow
<v Speaker 1>as many loads as you can, and there's someone there.
<v Speaker 1>And they were both talked about like what a great
<v Speaker 1>experience it was and how professional they were and how
<v Speaker 1>like clean it was. And they have someone there who
<v Speaker 1>has like one of those counter clicker counters, and like
<v Speaker 1>every time they swallow a load, they like click it
<v Speaker 1>to like see how many they get. And they also
<v Speaker 1>like give you some kind of like medicine to take
<v Speaker 1>so that it like coats your stomach so it doesn't
<v Speaker 1>make you sick to swallow all that come because you know,
<v Speaker 1>swallowing all would make you say yeah and yeah, you
<v Speaker 1>just like sit there and.
<v Speaker 3>Just that's amazing. Wow. One thing I love about our
<v Speaker 3>job is like for me, I have this thing where
<v Speaker 3>I love to see. To me, it's like very athletic
<v Speaker 3>our job because I like to just like I think
<v Speaker 3>it's fascinating to see what the human body is capable
<v Speaker 3>of and what it can do. And I think even
<v Speaker 3>for some of my intense scenes, it's not always even
<v Speaker 3>sexual for me, but I get off in my own
<v Speaker 3>way on like I feel so proud of myself after
<v Speaker 3>I take like a huge dick in my ass or
<v Speaker 3>a DP or something, I'm just like I did that,
<v Speaker 3>you know, And so I feel like that's kind of
<v Speaker 3>like maybe how it is for them too.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but yeah, it's just and I have.
<v Speaker 3>This personality even in non sexual things like I love
<v Speaker 3>like I contrast therapy like a cold plunge, like in
<v Speaker 3>like really hot sauna, and I just like to see
<v Speaker 3>like what I can handle and like pushing my body.
<v Speaker 3>So that's what it is for me, like the fun
<v Speaker 3>of it.
<v Speaker 1>I guess what is like the most extra dream scene
<v Speaker 1>you think you've ever done, or the one that you
<v Speaker 1>came away walked away from the most proud of yourself.
<v Speaker 3>Well, I actually just have a DP that came out,
<v Speaker 3>Like anytime I do that's just like wow, human body. Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>so I would say my last or the DP that
<v Speaker 3>just got released for Tushy. And then I also love
<v Speaker 3>shooting for kink. That's really fun because I like the
<v Speaker 3>psychological aspect of things and like being tied up. So
<v Speaker 3>anytime I shoot for kink, that's always like a really
<v Speaker 3>amazing experience. And then I did a scene in Prague
<v Speaker 3>that was probably like the maybe my most like sort
<v Speaker 3>of taboo thing. I got peed on, which I had
<v Speaker 3>never done before, and I don't usually like to do
<v Speaker 3>things I've never done for the first time on camera.
<v Speaker 3>But I was just like, let me see if I'm
<v Speaker 3>into it. Yeah, And it was super clean, like it's
<v Speaker 3>mostly water, and I had my rules that was like
<v Speaker 3>nothing in my mouth or in my holes, just like
<v Speaker 3>pee on me, and so I did that. It was
<v Speaker 3>like an anal scene and then he peed on me
<v Speaker 3>at the end and it just didn't do anything for me,
<v Speaker 3>like it didn't like It's not like I didn't like it.
<v Speaker 3>I also I didn't get off on it. I was
<v Speaker 3>just like, oh, this is kind of whatever. It's kind
<v Speaker 3>of a bitch to clean too.
<v Speaker 1>So so you think you probably wouldn't do it again. Yeah, noah,
<v Speaker 1>I don't think so, but don't quote me on that. Yeah,
<v Speaker 1>maybe it was like significantly more.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, I don't know, like what would make me
<v Speaker 3>more into it. I love peeing in the shower.
<v Speaker 1>It's just convenience really.
<v Speaker 3>Like I guess some people are like, oh, it's so warm,
<v Speaker 3>like they like that aspect to it. So I don't know,
<v Speaker 3>it's so funny. I actually I never let myself pee
<v Speaker 3>in the shower until a few years ago. I don't
<v Speaker 3>know why. I just I thought it was like wrong
<v Speaker 3>or something. And then so I was like I wanna
<v Speaker 3>try being in the shower, and my body it took
<v Speaker 3>like I couldn't do it for a while, like my
<v Speaker 3>body wouldn't let me because it was like it's not
<v Speaker 3>about you can't pay in the shower. And then I
<v Speaker 3>finally overcame it, and now I'm paying the shower all
<v Speaker 3>the time and I love it.
<v Speaker 1>I think there's like a Seinfeld episode is about peeing
<v Speaker 1>in the shower? Am I right? Yeah, there's a Seinfeld
<v Speaker 1>episode about peeing in the shower and I'd pee in
<v Speaker 1>the shower because I like convenient. The water washes it
<v Speaker 1>away like pa is. Actually like for the most part,
<v Speaker 1>it's sterile, right, like if you get stung by a jellyfish,
<v Speaker 1>you like pee on yourself to like some people like, yeah.
<v Speaker 3>I think there's like tons of health benefits.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I don't know about.
<v Speaker 3>That, but not doing that, but here any to feel like.
<v Speaker 1>I've always like, I just pee in the shower because
<v Speaker 1>it's like easy. And then I saw this Seinfeld episode
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, I didn't know there was a
<v Speaker 1>controversy about peeing in the shower. I don't know. Crazy
<v Speaker 1>all right, Well, Scarlet, thank you so much for coming on.
<v Speaker 1>It's been such a pleasure. I loved all of our
<v Speaker 1>non porno talk, yes, and our porno talk as well.
<v Speaker 1>I do have some questions for you from my Patreon
<v Speaker 1>members that will do in a separate segment, but for now,
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<v Speaker 3>Yes, you can google me Scarlet Alexis, and then my
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