God’s Little F*ck Doll: The Anal-Loving Catholic Porn Princess

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<v Speaker 2>Hello everybody, Welcome back to Holly Randall Unfiltered, My guest
<v Speaker 2>today is a rising star known for her versatility, passion,
<v Speaker 2>and incredibly small frame. At just twenty one, she's already
<v Speaker 2>an Avan Award winner and a proud speaker girl. Welcome,
<v Speaker 2>Emma Rosie.
<v Speaker 3>Thank you so much, Holly. I'm so excited and happy
<v Speaker 3>to be here today.
<v Speaker 2>Great, I'm so excited to have you here too. You know,
<v Speaker 2>it's kind of a shame because I don't direct really anymore.
<v Speaker 2>I don't ever get to meet like the new talent,
<v Speaker 2>so I don't know like who's great, But I know
<v Speaker 2>I can always call Speakler and be like who you
<v Speaker 2>got that it would be good? And he was like
<v Speaker 2>Ema Rosie, and I was like done yes.
<v Speaker 3>When he told me that he had the opportunity for
<v Speaker 3>me to come on this show, I was super excited.
<v Speaker 3>I've always seen your content, seen you at AVM from Afar,
<v Speaker 3>and I'm so excited to finally meet you.
<v Speaker 4>And beyond, my.
<v Speaker 2>God, what's it like to be so disappointed now that
<v Speaker 2>you met me here? No?
<v Speaker 3>Never, I would never be disappointed. You're so sweet, beautiful,
<v Speaker 3>and I'm so excited.
<v Speaker 2>Thank you. Well, let's get started from the beginning because
<v Speaker 2>you started in the industry right after high school.
<v Speaker 4>Yes, I did.
<v Speaker 2>So, was that like your plan while you were in
<v Speaker 2>high school? Okay, so tell me about that.
<v Speaker 3>So my birthdays in January. So I turned eighteen the
<v Speaker 3>winter of my senior year, and by that time, like
<v Speaker 3>the fall before, I was like, oh, it's coming up.
<v Speaker 3>Like I knew I was actually in school to be
<v Speaker 3>an esthetician. My school had like a half day programmer.
<v Speaker 3>I could do half day high school, half day trade school.
<v Speaker 3>So I knew I was like hunting the seed and
<v Speaker 3>building like a path to do esthetics. But that's not
<v Speaker 3>what I truly wanted to do. I always knew I
<v Speaker 3>wanted to do art, fashion or music. But once I
<v Speaker 3>realized that I was almost going to be of age
<v Speaker 3>to do porn and erotic art, I was like, oh, yeah,
<v Speaker 3>that's exactly what I'm going to do when I graduate.
<v Speaker 3>So during my senior year, I definitely knew I was
<v Speaker 3>going to do that. I turned eighteen, I did some
<v Speaker 3>research online, but I still was enjoying my life, like
<v Speaker 3>being eighteen and enjoying my last year of high school.
<v Speaker 3>My friends, my family, and I had talked to my
<v Speaker 3>agent who I signed with my first agent, like right
<v Speaker 3>away in that winter, but I didn't sign until that May,
<v Speaker 3>and it was like a month before I graduated that
<v Speaker 3>I signed with my first agency. And yeah, I just
<v Speaker 3>was super excited because I also did have a long
<v Speaker 3>term partner at the time, a boyfriend I was with
<v Speaker 3>that had family in Sokol, so they were like, you
<v Speaker 3>can move here when you graduate. So I had everything aligned,
<v Speaker 3>like I can move to La. I had a foundation,
<v Speaker 3>I can move with my boyfriend and his family. And
<v Speaker 3>I knew I could do porn because I had the
<v Speaker 3>agent that I found, so I had all the doors
<v Speaker 3>open for me, and I really wanted to do it,
<v Speaker 3>so I thought why not?
<v Speaker 2>So how did you jump from the idea of doing
<v Speaker 2>like fashion, music, and art to porn? Because there is
<v Speaker 2>an element of all of those things in porn, But
<v Speaker 2>I think most people wouldn't think like there would be
<v Speaker 2>that yeah, jump, I mean there must have been like
<v Speaker 2>some other thoughts underneath that.
<v Speaker 3>Definitely, Yeah, there definitely is like a part of me
<v Speaker 3>that is so strongly drawn and passionate about erotic art, Like, yes,
<v Speaker 3>I have all the other things, but I from a
<v Speaker 3>very young age always just felt super comfortable and like
<v Speaker 3>just lit up and happy, like just with anything that
<v Speaker 3>is like naked erotic sexual, and so I thought it
<v Speaker 3>would just be the perfect outlet for me to do
<v Speaker 3>a porn to like express that part of myself, and
<v Speaker 3>it's only helped me learn more about that part of
<v Speaker 3>myself and grow.
<v Speaker 2>Did you ever worry that, like doing porn would basically
<v Speaker 2>prevent you from exploring any of those other interests.
<v Speaker 3>Of course I did have that limitating thought, but I
<v Speaker 3>didn't let it stop me because I know that's just
<v Speaker 3>like kind of an intrusive thought of fear. Like I
<v Speaker 3>know that I can do anything, and I'm capable of anything,
<v Speaker 3>and I can push boundaries even if they haven't been
<v Speaker 3>pushed before.
<v Speaker 2>And the world is changing, like you are seeing what
<v Speaker 2>you know some would call mattress actresses like moving into mainstream,
<v Speaker 2>getting me from brand deals and stuff. So this is
<v Speaker 2>a time where there's a lot of shift happening. So
<v Speaker 2>who knows what the world's going to be like for
<v Speaker 2>sex workers in ten years.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I agree, it's very exciting I'm very grateful for
<v Speaker 3>the time that, like I joined the industry. I feel
<v Speaker 3>like it's a very like exciting changing time.
<v Speaker 2>Now, you said you had a long term boyfriend at
<v Speaker 2>the time, so did he know about your plans?
<v Speaker 3>He did, yes, by the time time we started dating
<v Speaker 3>in twenty twenty, So by the time I turned eighteen
<v Speaker 3>in twenty twenty two, we had really been together for
<v Speaker 3>two years, so we were very comfortable. We had a
<v Speaker 3>very stable and good relationship. I was very grateful to
<v Speaker 3>have that at such.
<v Speaker 4>A young age.
<v Speaker 3>And when I did turn eighteen, it wasn't that I
<v Speaker 3>just wanted to start doing porn. I wanted to start
<v Speaker 3>opening our relationship. And it kind of was like a
<v Speaker 3>slow trickle at first. He started letting me just hook
<v Speaker 3>up with other girls. Then we would hook up with
<v Speaker 3>other girls together, and then we started doing swinging, like
<v Speaker 3>right when I was eighteen, and so he was already
<v Speaker 3>very comfortable with a more open relationship. And I told
<v Speaker 3>him I wanted to do porn, and he was very
<v Speaker 3>supportive about it, and yeah, I got very lucky he
<v Speaker 3>was very supportive.
<v Speaker 2>So you moved to southern California, and you said that
<v Speaker 2>you had that foundation that safety net of his family,
<v Speaker 2>I did, did they know what you were moving out
<v Speaker 2>to southern Calimornia to do?
<v Speaker 3>So? Luckily it was his like his mom lived in
<v Speaker 3>New York where I was, so I already knew his mom.
<v Speaker 3>I was moving in with his dad's family. And his
<v Speaker 3>dad was a very chill, sweet guy. He worked in
<v Speaker 3>the marijuana industry, so very like hippie, fun loving family.
<v Speaker 2>So another high risk industry. Yeah, yeah, problem, Yes, sure.
<v Speaker 3>I never directly told him, but I remember my ex
<v Speaker 3>boyfriend's mom found out that's in New York and told
<v Speaker 3>him just like as like like an awareness. She was like,
<v Speaker 3>I don't know if you know, but like, because Emma's
<v Speaker 3>living with you, this is what she's doing. But he
<v Speaker 3>was like, oh, I kind of assumed, and he was
<v Speaker 3>just he's never never said anything about it, So yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I think he assumed and he never said anything about that.
<v Speaker 2>What about your family?
<v Speaker 3>My family found out pretty early on as well, My
<v Speaker 3>mom or maybe a family member sent her. But they
<v Speaker 3>found my Twitter before I even had like followers, Like
<v Speaker 3>they just saw Emma Rosie xxx, and I was like, oh, okay,
<v Speaker 3>they found out right away. I thought it would take
<v Speaker 3>a little longer. My mom was definitely upset. First of all,
<v Speaker 3>she thought I was going to be an esthetician, so
<v Speaker 3>she was disappointed and also just like, yeah, you'd.
<v Speaker 2>Be getting facials instead of giving.
<v Speaker 4>Them similar.
<v Speaker 3>Well, but yeah, she was upset, and like my aunts
<v Speaker 3>were upset. My mom's one of five girls, so I
<v Speaker 3>have all like aunts, and the only people that didn't
<v Speaker 3>know and still don't know are my grandparents. And yeah,
<v Speaker 3>they were honestly very hard on me at first. They
<v Speaker 3>banned me from that Christmas that year, I wasn't allowed
<v Speaker 3>to fly home to New York. My mom wasn't really
<v Speaker 3>the leader of that. She tried to advocate for me.
<v Speaker 3>It was mostly the sisters, my aunts, but luckily they
<v Speaker 3>got over it and now they just kind of deal
<v Speaker 3>with it. But they had to go through their own
<v Speaker 3>growing pains and acceptance. And what I'm just grateful for
<v Speaker 3>is me and my mom a really good friendship and relationship.
<v Speaker 3>And she says she accepts it, but she doesn't understand it,
<v Speaker 3>which I value because I understand like from her point
<v Speaker 3>of view, I'm her baby girl.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, did what do you think like change their minds?
<v Speaker 2>Because I hear a lot from girls when their parents
<v Speaker 2>find out and they get upset. They like the first
<v Speaker 2>thing I hear is like sex trafficking.
<v Speaker 4>Yes, that's exactly what my mom said.
<v Speaker 2>They told my friends that they were like forced into.
<v Speaker 3>It, which made me so upset, Like I felt like, oh,
<v Speaker 3>like I'm so sad that you think I'm unsafe, Like
<v Speaker 3>I never would want her to think that I was
<v Speaker 3>in danger or unsafe, but honestly, I feel like it
<v Speaker 3>was just she had to like accept it with time.
<v Speaker 4>But also the first time.
<v Speaker 3>I didn't go to AVN the first year of my career,
<v Speaker 3>which would have been AVN twenty twenty three, but I
<v Speaker 3>went to AVN after I'd been in the industry for
<v Speaker 3>a year, which was AVN twenty twenty four. And after
<v Speaker 3>going there and like showing her just like how professional
<v Speaker 3>and how like everyone's coming together, and how like it's
<v Speaker 3>a big community that's like so like so professional and
<v Speaker 3>so well rounded. It's not just like cheap and like dangerous.
<v Speaker 3>I feel like after I showed her AVM for the
<v Speaker 3>first time and when I went, she kind of grew
<v Speaker 3>more comfortable and also seeing that I could take care
<v Speaker 3>of myself and I'm being responsible and I'm safe and
<v Speaker 3>I'm taking care of my body and my mind. She
<v Speaker 3>was like, Okay, well it's not a bad thing.
<v Speaker 4>I guess.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's not what she thought it would be. Yeah,
<v Speaker 2>got it. So tell me about your first scene. Who
<v Speaker 2>did you work with and do you remember what brand
<v Speaker 2>it was for?
<v Speaker 3>Yes, my first scene is dar in my heart. It
<v Speaker 3>will always be because I was still in high school.
<v Speaker 3>I remember I had signed with my agent the May
<v Speaker 3>of twenty twenty two and I was going to wait
<v Speaker 3>till I moved to LA officially to do my first scenes.
<v Speaker 4>But he asked me.
<v Speaker 3>He was like, you know, we could have you do
<v Speaker 3>two scenes in Phoenix and you could make some money
<v Speaker 3>and just like and then start working consistently once you move.
<v Speaker 4>So I remember, I was like, how can I do this?
<v Speaker 2>Like?
<v Speaker 4>How can I fly in Phoenix? My mom can?
<v Speaker 3>And he was like, we could do it on like
<v Speaker 3>a Saturday, on a Saturday and Sunday and then you
<v Speaker 3>fly home and you'll get home by like Monday morning.
<v Speaker 3>Because I actually did have school that Monday morning. So
<v Speaker 3>I planned it where I told my mom.
<v Speaker 2>I lied to her.
<v Speaker 3>I said I was going on a girl shrip to
<v Speaker 3>mom talk for the weekend, and I got the flights
<v Speaker 3>books and everything, and it was for the companies exploited
<v Speaker 3>college girls ex cookie and backroom couch casting, I believe. Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I was super excited and my agent ex agent asked me,
<v Speaker 3>he was like, do you want to do anal for
<v Speaker 3>one of them? And I hadn't done anal at all yet, Like,
<v Speaker 3>no anal in my personal life only like a lot
<v Speaker 3>of fingers up the butt. I did a lot of
<v Speaker 3>anal play during like sex, but never the actual thing.
<v Speaker 2>I just sorry, that is not you doing anal. She
<v Speaker 2>shouldn't have been the agent. Not about your career long term.
<v Speaker 2>It's like a short term cash exactly, because you should
<v Speaker 2>have recognized that you don't do that right away. You
<v Speaker 2>build up to that. You get a name, and then
<v Speaker 2>you get a company depend to spend a lot of
<v Speaker 2>money for you to do your first anal, or you
<v Speaker 2>do it for your own right exact platform.
<v Speaker 4>I wish I knew that. I didn't.
<v Speaker 2>I was just like, yeah, I'm.
<v Speaker 3>Sim morning and I wanted the money, and I honestly
<v Speaker 3>I was like, it would be cool to lose my
<v Speaker 3>an virginity on camera for the first time. And because
<v Speaker 3>I knew that, like I could do it, but I
<v Speaker 3>just like honey, and I was like, no, I didn't
<v Speaker 3>have that thing that I was like the incentive that
<v Speaker 3>I would always have it on camera and that would
<v Speaker 3>be for my first scene.
<v Speaker 4>Like that kind of pushed me like, okay, I'm ready.
<v Speaker 3>To do an So I did some prep and but
<v Speaker 3>I didn't I definitely didn't realize like how much I
<v Speaker 3>would like it. I wasn't sure if I'd like it,
<v Speaker 3>but yeah, so I had to fly to Phoenix, I
<v Speaker 3>told my mom, was with my friends. I remember I
<v Speaker 3>was so excited, so nervous, like shaking, like in a
<v Speaker 3>good way. I had such intense butterf I couldn't believe
<v Speaker 3>it was finally happening. And the first scene wasn't the
<v Speaker 3>anal one. The first scene was the exploited college Girls one,
<v Speaker 3>and I still remember sitting in the little hotel doing
<v Speaker 3>makeup with the makeup arts that I'm still friends with,
<v Speaker 3>and then getting driven to the set and every little
<v Speaker 3>detail I remember, and I remember they.
<v Speaker 4>Were like, are you okay?
<v Speaker 3>You're shaking because I just get like nervous, excited, like
<v Speaker 3>even if I know, like I'm ready to do this,
<v Speaker 3>I'll still shake a little bit. And the first scene
<v Speaker 3>was amazing, I did just like a lot of toys
<v Speaker 3>and it was just regular amazing sex, no anal and
<v Speaker 3>they were so sweet. There was like five people on set.
<v Speaker 3>I'm still friends with the male talent that I did
<v Speaker 3>my first scene with. Who was it it was he
<v Speaker 3>goes By? It goes by like Mitch, I don't know what.
<v Speaker 3>He's married to this model named Megan Marks goes By
<v Speaker 3>fitsub okay, And there's such a sweet couple and I
<v Speaker 3>would like later in my career go and see them
<v Speaker 3>in Phoenix. My contact with them, and they're just such
<v Speaker 3>a sweet couple. But yeah, luckily he was my male
<v Speaker 3>town the next day, so it made me comfortable, like
<v Speaker 3>knowing I would see him the next day and he
<v Speaker 3>would do anal with me, and the scenement amazing. I
<v Speaker 3>remember I squirted it for the first time because he
<v Speaker 3>made me square.
<v Speaker 4>With his figures.
<v Speaker 2>Did you know what it was?
<v Speaker 4>Yes?
<v Speaker 2>I did.
<v Speaker 4>I just didn't think I could.
<v Speaker 2>Okay, because girls like think that they paid.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah I do.
<v Speaker 2>I was like, I know girls who've like literally squirted
<v Speaker 2>it on set and like ran to the bathroom like embarrassed,
<v Speaker 2>and I've had to like go to the bathroom like
<v Speaker 2>that was that was a good thing. Yeah, he squirted
<v Speaker 2>like people pay extra money for that, Like fine, come
<v Speaker 2>on out, like they good, very good thing.
<v Speaker 3>So yeah, I did the first scene, and then the
<v Speaker 3>next day I did the anal scene, which I remember
<v Speaker 3>was intense for me. I was like, I did have
<v Speaker 3>a few moments where I was like, oh, can I
<v Speaker 3>do this, like cleaning out my asshole, wondering am I
<v Speaker 3>going to be able to? But I ended up having
<v Speaker 3>a super fun time. I remember I did such a
<v Speaker 3>happy dance in the mirror after. I was like, oh
<v Speaker 3>my god, I'm so proud of you. And I just
<v Speaker 3>kept thinking about the whole time I was there doing
<v Speaker 3>the scenes. I kept thinking about what my life would
<v Speaker 3>be like once I moved to LA and could fully
<v Speaker 3>uncopsle myself and being a porn star. And luckily since
<v Speaker 3>then it's all gone beautifully And yeah, my first two
<v Speaker 3>scenes will always have such a special place in my heart.
<v Speaker 2>That's great that you had a good experience, because that's
<v Speaker 2>obviously not everybody's story, and that always makes me sad
<v Speaker 2>because you want to start off on the right foot
<v Speaker 2>because it can color your opinion of the industry because
<v Speaker 2>it's builled with all different kinds of people, good people
<v Speaker 2>and bad people, like anybody exact means. So you're twenty.
<v Speaker 4>One now, yeah, I'm twenty one.
<v Speaker 2>So question for you, and this is something that comes
<v Speaker 2>up a lot. I mean, you're only two years older,
<v Speaker 2>but you started at eighteen. You started young. Do you
<v Speaker 2>feel like you were ready Because a lot of people
<v Speaker 2>think that like eighteen year old aren't ready to get
<v Speaker 2>into they should raise the age.
<v Speaker 3>I've heard that a lot, and I just feel like,
<v Speaker 3>for me, I definitely was ready, like one hundred percent.
<v Speaker 4>And I don't know.
<v Speaker 3>It's tricky because I obviously I want to look out
<v Speaker 3>for everyone's well being mind, body, soul.
<v Speaker 4>So I don't even know what I would.
<v Speaker 3>Say my opinion on is like is on raising the
<v Speaker 3>age because I feel like I was ready. But I'm
<v Speaker 3>me and I've had my own life experiences that have
<v Speaker 3>shaped me to make the decisions I make and have
<v Speaker 3>the discernment I use in my decision making. But I
<v Speaker 3>know that's a blessing for me to have. Not all
<v Speaker 3>people have that coming into the industry.
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I don't think you have to have like
<v Speaker 2>an overall opinion, but like you can speak from your
<v Speaker 2>own experience because it isn't the same for everybody. Yeah,
<v Speaker 2>and I'm of I have like I'm of two minds
<v Speaker 2>about it. Like I understand the concern about starting young
<v Speaker 2>because it is something that will change your life for
<v Speaker 2>the rest of your life, and not everybody does research
<v Speaker 2>when they come in and it sounds like you were
<v Speaker 2>prepared and you really thought about this, and you know
<v Speaker 2>what I mean. But also it's like if we as
<v Speaker 2>a society decide that eighteen you're an adult, and then
<v Speaker 2>you're an adult, you know what I mean, Like if
<v Speaker 2>you can go to war and die, then yeah, you're
<v Speaker 2>at eighteen for your country, you can do porn. Yeah,
<v Speaker 2>It's just like you can't like it can't be one
<v Speaker 2>or the other. It's like do you are you an
<v Speaker 2>adult or are you not?
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean like I would say, like I I
<v Speaker 3>because if they were to raise it, then I don't
<v Speaker 3>know where I'd be, Like like say I wasn't able
<v Speaker 3>to do it, then I'm like hmmm, but yeah, I agree.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean if you're you know, if you had
<v Speaker 2>a good experience, and you had a good experience, I
<v Speaker 2>mean I know a lot of other girls who are
<v Speaker 2>really big names now who started at eighteen that feel
<v Speaker 2>like they made the right choice, like a bellow danger
<v Speaker 2>or if you're gray. So it's definitely not saying that
<v Speaker 2>applies to every buddy. But I think ultimately what it
<v Speaker 2>is is there's not a lot of porn literacy out there.
<v Speaker 2>There's not like a one website that you can go
<v Speaker 2>to that is like gives you all of the information
<v Speaker 2>in one place. Actually, I don't even know what would
<v Speaker 2>you find, Ernie. I'm curious if you Google, Like I
<v Speaker 2>don't know what would it be, like how to get
<v Speaker 2>into porn or like what like what comes up? Like
<v Speaker 2>what is the website that even comes up? I don't
<v Speaker 2>even know, because I feel like maybe some company like
<v Speaker 2>paid to be at the top of Google Search so
<v Speaker 2>that like girls would see I'd be like, Okay, I'm
<v Speaker 2>gonna work with that company, you know what I mean.
<v Speaker 2>I just feel like there's not really a lot of
<v Speaker 2>information where people can go to one place and be like, Okay,
<v Speaker 2>these are all the things I need to think about.
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, there's not. There's a wiki three ways to
<v Speaker 5>be a Porn Star, So wiki how I don't know
<v Speaker 5>if people are on that, but like, how do you
<v Speaker 5>become a porn star on a subreddit.
<v Speaker 3>So I've thought about, like, how like someone in the
<v Speaker 3>industry should like make just a YouTube video, like I
<v Speaker 3>actually really yeah.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but it's for guys because I get that question
<v Speaker 2>from guys so much, like.
<v Speaker 3>Abella or someone or could kazume me or like someone
<v Speaker 3>anyone I could.
<v Speaker 2>I actually I should do one for girls because I
<v Speaker 2>could literally take clips of this podcast and put it
<v Speaker 2>in there, because like so many girls give advice from
<v Speaker 2>different perspectives, which I think is really valuable. Yes, yeah,
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<v Speaker 2>all right, Emma, So it took you some time to
<v Speaker 2>get widespread attention in the industry. I know that sometimes
<v Speaker 2>girls come in and they expect or hope that they're
<v Speaker 2>going to become a big star, like immediately, like within
<v Speaker 2>the first few months. It takes time. How was that
<v Speaker 2>experience for you? Were there ever moments that you felt discouraged, like,
<v Speaker 2>oh my god, am I ever gonna make it? How
<v Speaker 2>did you stay motivated?
<v Speaker 3>I definitely had moments where I was like questioning if
<v Speaker 3>it was worth living so far from my family because
<v Speaker 3>I'm always like missing them, and I'm like, is this
<v Speaker 3>worth it? Because like, yeah, it did take me like
<v Speaker 3>a year or two to get my name out there
<v Speaker 3>to get with certain companies, but it was never about
<v Speaker 3>the growth of my name. I feel like I always
<v Speaker 3>had like really good, like little wins along the way
<v Speaker 3>that just kept me motivated, like oh, I got to
<v Speaker 3>work with this company or I worked with this person,
<v Speaker 3>and I just yeah, I honestly haven't felt discouraged from that.
<v Speaker 3>The most I get discouraged is like, is it worth
<v Speaker 3>it to live across the country just for this missing
<v Speaker 3>like my cousin's birthdays, missing grandparents Ann's birthdays, like But
<v Speaker 3>at the end of the day, it is because now
<v Speaker 3>at twenty one, almost twenty two, I found a really
<v Speaker 3>good balance.
<v Speaker 2>Was there any one moment or any scene you did,
<v Speaker 2>or any booking that you got, or even just some
<v Speaker 2>opportunity where you felt like, Okay, this means I'm getting somewhere,
<v Speaker 2>or this solidifies my place in the industry.
<v Speaker 3>Once things just start to pick up more like consistently,
<v Speaker 3>like I would I would have bookings be like less consistent,
<v Speaker 3>like I'd have a busy month and a slow month
<v Speaker 3>and a busy month. But once I, like every month
<v Speaker 3>started getting super busy, like around a year ago last fall,
<v Speaker 3>I was like, okay, like I'm always booked and busy,
<v Speaker 3>I'm always working with big companies.
<v Speaker 2>Is that when you signed with Speakler, No, it was
<v Speaker 2>like shortly before when your career picks up.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah it was last Yeah, it was like October I worked.
<v Speaker 3>I hadn't worked like an example of it took a
<v Speaker 3>while for my name to get out their New Biles,
<v Speaker 3>Like I was always very perfect model for new Biles,
<v Speaker 3>but they didn't book me until last fall, which I
<v Speaker 3>had been in my career for two years, so they
<v Speaker 3>booked me for the first time. Immediately were like, we
<v Speaker 3>want to make your contract star. So during that then
<v Speaker 3>I was so busy because like they said that in
<v Speaker 3>October twenty twenty four, and they wanted me to start
<v Speaker 3>being their contract start of this year January twenty twenty five.
<v Speaker 3>So those last few months of the year were so
<v Speaker 3>busy because I knew I wouldn't work with any company
<v Speaker 3>for a long time. So it was definitely last year
<v Speaker 3>when I got the contract. Yeah, I was like, okay,
<v Speaker 3>I'm good, like porn likes me, I'm set.
<v Speaker 2>Are you still under contract with them?
<v Speaker 3>No, it was only the first three months.
<v Speaker 4>Of the year.
<v Speaker 2>Okay, that makes sense. Yeah, yeah, A lot of companies
<v Speaker 2>do that where it's like because you're new and you
<v Speaker 2>can get it, they can get a lot of content exactly.
<v Speaker 3>It was fun because I had AVM during it too,
<v Speaker 3>so I was representing them during them during AVM twenty
<v Speaker 3>twenty four or twenty twenty five.
<v Speaker 2>Sorry, so you have mentioned earlier that you're like artistic.
<v Speaker 2>You've also said that you're spiritual and passionate. How do
<v Speaker 2>those sides of you show up in your work?
<v Speaker 3>I feel like they show up in my work in
<v Speaker 3>different ways. It depends what type of work I'm doing.
<v Speaker 3>Like in a porn scene, obviously I'm being crazy, like
<v Speaker 3>in a gonzo scene, it's hard to be artistic. But
<v Speaker 3>I feel like, just like the way I show up
<v Speaker 3>and do everything, Like I feel like on my body,
<v Speaker 3>I've are everywhere. So when I'm sucking dick, I still
<v Speaker 3>have like be here now on my hand and it's still.
<v Speaker 4>There, and I yeah, like I still have my life,
<v Speaker 4>my peace side, my yinging.
<v Speaker 3>But when I do get to do like more like
<v Speaker 3>acting and like scripted scenes, I do feel like my
<v Speaker 3>artistics side comes out because I like to encapsule myself
<v Speaker 3>in whatever character or situations going on. And also whenever
<v Speaker 3>I get to like pick outfits or styling, it definitely
<v Speaker 3>shows my artistic side.
<v Speaker 2>I can tell that you're definitely into thank you this podcast.
<v Speaker 2>Like in Sweatpants, No, I get it, Like I.
<v Speaker 3>Always love to wear cute outfits. I used to want
<v Speaker 3>to go to f I T So Fashion in another
<v Speaker 3>life was definitely my career. But yeah, I'm still learning
<v Speaker 3>how to like express myself in different ways in like
<v Speaker 3>different platforms and avenues.
<v Speaker 2>I will tell you, like, the adult industry is definitely
<v Speaker 2>lacking stylists. There's not a lot yeah stylists. I agree,
<v Speaker 2>So just saying that, Yeah, you know, if you ever
<v Speaker 2>want to transition to something else, there's really like that
<v Speaker 2>is a good idea. Not that many.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I feel like there's only a few times I've
<v Speaker 3>been on set where there's an actual stylust which I
<v Speaker 3>really value.
<v Speaker 2>Which I love also because most companies can't afford it unfortunately.
<v Speaker 2>So obviously you're you're very petite. How do you take
<v Speaker 2>care of your body like during and after shoots? Like
<v Speaker 2>do you feel a lot of wear and tear and
<v Speaker 2>how do you manage that?
<v Speaker 3>Luckily, I don't feel a lot of wear and tear.
<v Speaker 3>I definitely take care of my body, like very consistently
<v Speaker 3>and intentionally. I practice a lot of ire Veda practices
<v Speaker 3>like ton scraping, oil pulling, dry brushing.
<v Speaker 2>Okay, what is that you have to enlighten me? I
<v Speaker 2>don't know what that is.
<v Speaker 3>Ireveda is just like it's a way I forget the
<v Speaker 3>actual definition, but it's it's like it has health practices
<v Speaker 3>that I learned about through aesthetics when I was going
<v Speaker 3>to be an esthetician, And a lot of people do
<v Speaker 3>it that aren't into ovator, But I feel like tongue
<v Speaker 3>scraping is something that everybody needs to do in the industry.
<v Speaker 3>I don't get why everyone doesn't bring a tongue scraper
<v Speaker 3>to set, Like why wouldn't you scrape your tongue?
<v Speaker 2>You you're I'm I'm laughing because like the idea of
<v Speaker 2>everyone bringing a tongue scraper to set is sort of funny,
<v Speaker 2>but it's also like true, Like I mean, I brushed
<v Speaker 2>my tongue. I had a tongue.
<v Speaker 4>Scraper, but they're just so valuable.
<v Speaker 2>My husband has like a copper one. Yeah, like really good,
<v Speaker 2>Like it's like a little it's very fancy. It's like
<v Speaker 2>like tongue scraper. I don't touch it.
<v Speaker 4>It's the best.
<v Speaker 3>It really helps with digestion too, Like it's like because
<v Speaker 3>digestion starts when you eat yehod.
<v Speaker 4>So apparently it's really good.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>But also oil pulling, like you keep oil in your
<v Speaker 3>mouth and it helps kill so much bacteria, so much drive.
<v Speaker 4>You can use cocoa nut. I use coconut.
<v Speaker 2>I think avocado and like fractionated coconut oil, like they're
<v Speaker 2>already melted, okay.
<v Speaker 3>Or not, or you could do it work because it
<v Speaker 3>would melt in your mouth anyway, so it would be like,
<v Speaker 3>but I do coconut and then I'm always doing scrubs
<v Speaker 3>for exfoliation, meditation. I'm working out, going, running a lot
<v Speaker 3>of baths. I love baths. Baths are like Santex for me,
<v Speaker 3>Like they're so relaxing, praying, sleeping, eating, well, stretching. I've
<v Speaker 3>always been a very athletic person, so I think that's
<v Speaker 3>why my body does very well in port because it's
<v Speaker 3>very athletic and I'm always doing crazy things.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah it works out.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you're what they call a spinner.
<v Speaker 4>Yes, the spinner.
<v Speaker 2>Your spinner is like a spetitue girl and they generally
<v Speaker 2>are paired with like guys with large penises because it
<v Speaker 2>makes it look even bigger. Like you mean, it's like
<v Speaker 2>spinner and deal like kind of crazy shit. So you
<v Speaker 2>mentioned praying, so like what does that mean to you?
<v Speaker 2>Are you religious? Are you spiritual? How does that manifest
<v Speaker 2>itself in your life?
<v Speaker 3>I definitely am religious and spiritual. I get like very
<v Speaker 3>shy and like embarrassed because like, yes, I am a
<v Speaker 3>porn star. I do crazy things, I say very crazy things.
<v Speaker 3>But I was raised in a very Catholic family and
<v Speaker 3>I went to cathlic school most of my life, and
<v Speaker 3>I definitely had a phase where I was repulsed by it.
<v Speaker 3>I was like, I don't want this, don't shove it
<v Speaker 3>down my throat. And then I had a stage in
<v Speaker 3>my life where I was kind of awakened back in
<v Speaker 3>spirituality thanks to like Hinduism, Buddhism, and just like New
<v Speaker 3>age pagan practices in general. And that brought me back
<v Speaker 3>to like being like soul, like connected to my soul, praying,
<v Speaker 3>connected to source. And then I came back to my
<v Speaker 3>Catholic roots and I started getting very connected.
<v Speaker 4>I know, it's so weird that I'm.
<v Speaker 2>Talking about it the first person. Honestly, you're not the
<v Speaker 2>first person. You're religious and you do porn too.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, And then I came back to my Catholic roots
<v Speaker 3>and like praying the Rosary and go sometimes I go
<v Speaker 3>to Mass if I can, but it's just something that
<v Speaker 3>I like, it keeps me grounded. It keeps me connected
<v Speaker 3>to my family, to my soul, to the universe. And
<v Speaker 3>it's nothing like that's a one straight road. I'm like,
<v Speaker 3>I'm not like Catholic, you know. I just I feel
<v Speaker 3>very connected to Catholic traditions because my family did them
<v Speaker 3>growing up. And yeah, so I definitely pray a lot.
<v Speaker 5>No.
<v Speaker 2>I mean that makes sense because I have found that
<v Speaker 2>the girls who have the healthiest relationship with porn and
<v Speaker 2>honestly with life right like, had that element of spirituality,
<v Speaker 2>have that ability to reflect, to meditate, to be quiet,
<v Speaker 2>to maybe maybe believe in something bigger than themselves, have
<v Speaker 2>that kind of like you know, faith is like one
<v Speaker 2>of those things that I think can be seeing a
<v Speaker 2>certain way where it's like only religious, but I don't
<v Speaker 2>think that that's necessarily the case. Like for me, like
<v Speaker 2>faith is like everything's gonna be okay. Yeah, it doesn't
<v Speaker 2>feel here right now, but like it is, and you
<v Speaker 2>just have to move forward with that belief and then
<v Speaker 2>like those things will come to you because you have
<v Speaker 2>an energy and your energy attracts people and it attracts opportunities.
<v Speaker 2>And it makes sense that you know, Catholicism has you know,
<v Speaker 2>a lot of traditions and they are, and I'm sure
<v Speaker 2>that growing up in that that would make sense that
<v Speaker 2>coming back to that just feels more like you're connecting
<v Speaker 2>to your family and like your childhood and your roots
<v Speaker 2>as opposed to necessarily you know, believing Catholicism, Like buy
<v Speaker 2>the book.
<v Speaker 3>I'm very grateful that I have all of those like
<v Speaker 3>things that helped me just like keep faithful because yes,
<v Speaker 3>there's so many crazy things in the world in general
<v Speaker 3>and just in the porn industry. So definitely, I feel
<v Speaker 3>like that's helped me like not get frustrated and discouraged.
<v Speaker 3>Also because I'm like, at the end of the day,
<v Speaker 3>like I'm here in this moment and that's all that matters.
<v Speaker 4>Now he's gonna be okay.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean it's easy to spin out in fear.
<v Speaker 2>It happens to me a lot. Yeah, Like I'll get
<v Speaker 2>to this stage and I'll just start spinning out, and
<v Speaker 2>I'll start thinking about all this and also thinking about
<v Speaker 2>horrible things that could happen that like are very unlikely
<v Speaker 2>to happen, but my brain just goes down that path.
<v Speaker 2>And I think those are the moments where like do
<v Speaker 2>you need that grounding to pull you back, and yeah,
<v Speaker 2>I think that's.
<v Speaker 3>Why I say I am God's fucked All, because because
<v Speaker 3>I feel like it's such an important part of me.
<v Speaker 3>But at the same time, like I'm for everybody, I'm
<v Speaker 3>God's fucked All. But I'm also just I love the universe.
<v Speaker 2>So would you ever be like, because you know there
<v Speaker 2>are some scenes where they'll do like religious scenes where
<v Speaker 2>yah use Catholicism and sometimes in a negative way, do
<v Speaker 2>you ever like worry about those are reservations around?
<v Speaker 3>No, I've done lots of like shoot erotic photo shoots
<v Speaker 3>like none outfits or with my rosaries, like I'll do
<v Speaker 3>photo shoots with family heirloom rosaries with their naked on
<v Speaker 3>me because I I do have like this intuition and
<v Speaker 3>just knowing that my ancestors are like they're blessed, they
<v Speaker 3>have their blessing on all the things I'm doing.
<v Speaker 4>I just I know it.
<v Speaker 2>I like that. Okay, So you won your first Avian
<v Speaker 2>Award recently for the best trans one on one scene.
<v Speaker 2>Who was that with? For what company? And how did
<v Speaker 2>it feel when you won?
<v Speaker 3>It was with the beautiful and tented Jade Venus, and
<v Speaker 3>it was for I believe it was. It was directed
<v Speaker 3>and filmed by Jim Powers. It was for adult time,
<v Speaker 3>so I forget which side it was because he was
<v Speaker 3>he is.
<v Speaker 2>I had never met him until I had him on
<v Speaker 2>my podcast, Like I've known that name forever, and I feel.
<v Speaker 4>So grateful to know him.
<v Speaker 3>People like him and Pat My and like Mike Quais are,
<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, Chris Dreams. I feel so grateful to
<v Speaker 3>know all the veterans. But yes, I remember when I
<v Speaker 3>was filming that scene, I was like, when Jade, there's
<v Speaker 3>this part where Jade picks me up at the fridge
<v Speaker 3>and we started making out.
<v Speaker 4>I was like, that was so good.
<v Speaker 3>This is gonna win an award because it just felt
<v Speaker 3>so romantic, so real, but so sexy, and then when
<v Speaker 3>we finally did get to the sex, it was just amazing.
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I think it was for like trans X Films.
<v Speaker 3>I forget what the actual site was, but I remember
<v Speaker 3>it was an anal scene and it was like supposed
<v Speaker 3>to be a slumber party and it was my first
<v Speaker 3>time meeting Jaye, and she was so sweet and we
<v Speaker 3>just hit it off immediately, lots of chemistry. So once
<v Speaker 3>we were actually filming, it was super fun. And when
<v Speaker 3>I saw got nominated. I was like, oh, okay, and
<v Speaker 3>we were up against like some amazing performers, amazing lineups
<v Speaker 3>and scenes. So I was like, I honestly didn't think
<v Speaker 3>I would win because we would win, because like, we
<v Speaker 3>were up against some amazing scenes. But when I did win,
<v Speaker 3>I was like so shocked and excited and happy for us.
<v Speaker 3>I'm grateful and yeah, it was surreal, but I still
<v Speaker 3>always remember that moment.
<v Speaker 2>Do you have any particular performers that you really feel
<v Speaker 2>like you have good chemistry with?
<v Speaker 3>Mmm, I honestly a lot of performers. It's rare that
<v Speaker 3>I don't have chemistry with someone, but like the most chemistry.
<v Speaker 3>I have a lot of chemistry with like dilts, like
<v Speaker 3>Charles Darra, we have a lot.
<v Speaker 2>Against I love. I love him, he's great.
<v Speaker 3>I recently worked with someone for the first time, Jason
<v Speaker 3>Cincarelli or something, I forget it, but he's another DiPT.
<v Speaker 3>I feel like Vince Carter obviously, he's amazing.
<v Speaker 2>Do you like older men like in personal life?
<v Speaker 3>Yes, well I wouldn't date an older man, but I
<v Speaker 3>like having sex with older men.
<v Speaker 2>Oh interesting, Yeah, why would you not date an older man?
<v Speaker 3>I like to date people that are like three to
<v Speaker 3>seven eight years older than me, not too far away
<v Speaker 3>from my age.
<v Speaker 2>Okay, because you've I mean that generational gap can sometimes.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I did dabble in it.
<v Speaker 3>I did. That's why I already have dated older men
<v Speaker 3>since I was eighteen.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so I know I always loved older men, and
<v Speaker 2>now that I'm old, I'm like older men are now
<v Speaker 2>like eighty. For me, it's I'm married. My husband's actually
<v Speaker 2>younger than me, which is ironic. I never excited that.
<v Speaker 2>But question on that, then, actually, do you think that
<v Speaker 2>you would ever date a fan?
<v Speaker 4>I think so?
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Like like to me, like there would just be
<v Speaker 3>a person like if they checked all my boxes, we
<v Speaker 3>had good chemistry, we had connection, then yes, like it
<v Speaker 3>wouldn't matter that they're a fan. It would just like
<v Speaker 3>they would need to be at least in a good
<v Speaker 3>age Ranche, we have good chemistry. But yeah, them being
<v Speaker 3>a fan wouldn't be a deal breaker.
<v Speaker 2>But how would they even because it feels like how
<v Speaker 2>would they even like approach you? Right, because it's like
<v Speaker 2>if a fan comes up to you at a convention
<v Speaker 2>and ask for your number, the chances are you are
<v Speaker 2>not going to give it to them, but you could
<v Speaker 2>meet them in a more casual situation, introduced by friends
<v Speaker 2>or things, and they could be like, oh my god,
<v Speaker 2>I'm actually like a fan of yours. Is that kind
<v Speaker 2>of like what you're thinking? More along those lines, a
<v Speaker 2>fan like write to you on OnlyFans? And potentially maybe
<v Speaker 2>it would depend.
<v Speaker 4>I don't know.
<v Speaker 3>Maybe if I met someone in a natural way, like
<v Speaker 3>they saw me at like a cafe or a bar
<v Speaker 3>or restaurant and they're like, I know who you are,
<v Speaker 3>but also do you want to hang out?
<v Speaker 2>Maybeeah? So if it was like outside.
<v Speaker 3>Outside of a word, yeah, like av I'm probably no,
<v Speaker 3>because then in my head, I'm like, if one person
<v Speaker 3>sees me give my number, then they'll wonder why can't
<v Speaker 3>she give a number to me?
<v Speaker 2>Yeah? So it's a strange place too, it is somebody there. Yeah. Yeah.
<v Speaker 2>What do you think sets you apart as a performer?
<v Speaker 3>That's a good question because we all are so unique
<v Speaker 3>and different, everyone in this industry. I think what sets
<v Speaker 3>me apart like everybody else, my experiences getting to hear
<v Speaker 3>what shaped me growing up and in my life. I
<v Speaker 3>think it just made me super strong, focused. Yeah, I
<v Speaker 3>think just who I am because no one's been through
<v Speaker 3>what I've been through, and I haven't been through what
<v Speaker 3>everyone else has been through.
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, we're all different and special in our own Yes,
<v Speaker 2>do you have like a signature mover like position that
<v Speaker 2>like you are known for would like to be known for?
<v Speaker 2>Or are you just like able to be lifted and
<v Speaker 2>spun and like a ton of fun directions.
<v Speaker 3>I definitely am always put in like crazy positions, but
<v Speaker 3>I do like when I I it's only happened a
<v Speaker 3>few times. That's why I'm like, it doesn't happen enough
<v Speaker 3>because they usually want a cumpshot on my face or
<v Speaker 3>somewhere else, but sometimes or like not in this position.
<v Speaker 3>But I really like when I'm getting fucked in pile
<v Speaker 3>Driver and they creampie me, and then I pushed the
<v Speaker 3>cream pie out and it falls in my face, so
<v Speaker 3>I get a facial. Also, like I give myself a facial.
<v Speaker 2>Because I'm like trying to think how that because I'm
<v Speaker 2>impile Driver, Yeah, I mean yeah, yeah, I guess are
<v Speaker 2>you like can you how close can your mouth come
<v Speaker 2>to your vagina in that position?
<v Speaker 3>Like not very like there's a jiff of it, So
<v Speaker 3>I'm trying to think, but like the.
<v Speaker 4>My vagina's here and like, my head's.
<v Speaker 3>Here, so I just push it and it falls drips
<v Speaker 3>offto my face.
<v Speaker 2>I've never seen anybody like it in like the twenty
<v Speaker 2>seven years I've been in this industry, I've never I
<v Speaker 2>don't think I've ever shot a cumpshot like that.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's why I really like it, and I've done
<v Speaker 3>it a few times. I haven't seen anybody anywhere else.
<v Speaker 2>So I feel like this is your signature move.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it has to be.
<v Speaker 2>I have to come up with a name for it.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I will. I'll get back to you on it.
<v Speaker 2>GPT I could sometimes come up with great titles. So
<v Speaker 2>you're also a Spegler girl, which you know, and if
<v Speaker 2>you don't know who Spegler is, you've clearly not been
<v Speaker 2>watching my podcast for very long, because he comes up
<v Speaker 2>a lot, because he's considered one of the best agents
<v Speaker 2>in the industry. He's been around the longest, and you know,
<v Speaker 2>to be a Speakler girl is a prestigious thing. I
<v Speaker 2>think most people feel. How did that come to be
<v Speaker 2>for you?
<v Speaker 3>So I actually didn't know about Spiegler coming into the
<v Speaker 3>industry when I was a brand new porn girl, but
<v Speaker 3>once I did learn about it, I was like, oh,
<v Speaker 3>like that's a goal for me, Like I want to
<v Speaker 3>be with Spiegler because he can help me grow the most,
<v Speaker 3>help me open doors. And also just I admire all
<v Speaker 3>the girls with him already. It's very prestigious and I
<v Speaker 3>love that. And I also value the discipline, like I
<v Speaker 3>really I like to be in a rigorous discipline setting.
<v Speaker 2>Definitely a discipliner.
<v Speaker 3>So I when I did sign up my first agent,
<v Speaker 3>I did sign a three year contract. So I was
<v Speaker 3>in that contract between May twenty twenty two and May
<v Speaker 3>twenty twenty five, and it was a year ago May
<v Speaker 3>November fall of twenty twenty four where I knew like,
<v Speaker 3>oh the spring is coming up, I'm almost done.
<v Speaker 4>I knew I wanted to be at Spiegler.
<v Speaker 3>So I did my networking and chatting with people, and
<v Speaker 3>it was actually a makeup artist that helped me, and
<v Speaker 3>she's like, you know, like you should just like email
<v Speaker 3>him and call him like.
<v Speaker 4>Six months before you're out of your contract.
<v Speaker 3>So I did that, which was a year ago, like
<v Speaker 3>almost it was November, and it was around a via
<v Speaker 3>nominations and around where I got offered the contract deal.
<v Speaker 3>So I had a long call with George and we
<v Speaker 3>talked and I thought things were going well, and he
<v Speaker 3>told me he was like, Okay, well come say hi
<v Speaker 3>with the AVN nominations and we'll go from there. Because
<v Speaker 3>obviously I couldn't do anything until I was out of
<v Speaker 3>my contract with my old agent. So the first time
<v Speaker 3>I met them was November nominations for AVM in twenty
<v Speaker 3>twenty four, and I was so nervous because I was
<v Speaker 3>just like, oh my gosh, I had to go up
<v Speaker 3>to the table with all the Spiegler girls and like
<v Speaker 3>they're just sitting there.
<v Speaker 4>It was so intimidating. I was so nervous, but luckily
<v Speaker 4>I got through. I went up there.
<v Speaker 3>I didn't actually know what like George looked like because
<v Speaker 3>I never met him, so I accidentally was talking to
<v Speaker 3>someone else. I was like, are you George, and they're like, no,
<v Speaker 3>I knew the speaker was Thanklesness.
<v Speaker 2>So there is a very can't miss looking at ye.
<v Speaker 2>Nobody else looked like.
<v Speaker 3>And I had very light conversation with spiegeler like conversation
<v Speaker 3>with George. He did tell me he was like, I'm
<v Speaker 3>very grateful you kept your word. That means a lot
<v Speaker 3>to me that you came up and said Hi, So I.
<v Speaker 4>Was like, yeah, good. Then the new year started, avn happened.
<v Speaker 3>I did my contract deal with Nobiles, I won my
<v Speaker 3>first award. I always stayed like in contact, just like
<v Speaker 3>wishing them happy holidays, like saying hello at events. And
<v Speaker 3>then the spring came and I it was May, and
<v Speaker 3>I was like I was just touching bass and I
<v Speaker 3>just wanted to make sure that they knew I was
<v Speaker 3>still interested. So I set up a meeting, like I
<v Speaker 3>think it was five days before my contract was officially done.
<v Speaker 3>And the meeting went very well. And then my old
<v Speaker 3>agent actually had a call with George. So it was
<v Speaker 3>kind of like she like she had she had given
<v Speaker 3>me her blessing too. She was like, I'm proud that
<v Speaker 3>I shaped you and molded you and helped you grow
<v Speaker 3>to be a speaker girl. And so once they had
<v Speaker 3>that phone call, and it was May seventeenth, I got
<v Speaker 3>a call and Mark was like, You're on the site,
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, no worry, because I couldn't believe it.
<v Speaker 3>I was like wow, And ever since then, it's pin
<v Speaker 3>a dream come true. I can't even express how grateful
<v Speaker 3>I am to Mark and George and my old agent
<v Speaker 3>for getting me there of Veronica, She's amazing. But yeah,
<v Speaker 3>so I'm just grateful that it all worked out because
<v Speaker 3>it definitely was my dream. Once I realized Speaker was
<v Speaker 3>the best of the best, I was like, I need
<v Speaker 3>to be there, and I got recommendations from companies and directors.
<v Speaker 3>So I'm grateful for everyone helping me get there.
<v Speaker 2>What's the best thing about being a Speaker girl?
<v Speaker 3>I love the consistency of the work and the quality
<v Speaker 3>of all the companies I'm working with. It's just it's
<v Speaker 3>the best. Like I'm a workhorse. I love working a lot,
<v Speaker 3>so I'm always booked and I'm always booked with amazing
<v Speaker 3>talent and amazing companies that are doing really cool videos.
<v Speaker 4>So that's what I love.
<v Speaker 2>So question for the fans out there, what sex advice
<v Speaker 2>would you give to men who maybe feel like they're,
<v Speaker 2>you know, falling short and the love love department? Like,
<v Speaker 2>what is the one thing that men just don't get right?
<v Speaker 3>My advice for any men struggling, Like, if you just
<v Speaker 3>feel like you could be better in bed and sex,
<v Speaker 3>I think it really does come within, like you have
<v Speaker 3>to be confident and secure in yourself. But also like
<v Speaker 3>if you're pressing anything don't just like let it all out,
<v Speaker 3>like you have nothing to be shy or embarrassed about.
<v Speaker 3>Everyone has sexual desire, so whatever the song as a
<v Speaker 3>safe and consensual whatever you desire, just let your partner know,
<v Speaker 3>tell them what you want, what you need, but also
<v Speaker 3>ask them what they want, what they need. Communicating is
<v Speaker 3>so important. But yeah, like, just believe in yourself. You're
<v Speaker 3>a sexy monster.
<v Speaker 4>You got it?
<v Speaker 2>What about PENI sizes is that important?
<v Speaker 3>I don't like big dicks, like really big dicks.
<v Speaker 2>Like well and also big dicks for you or bigger
<v Speaker 2>than big dicks for me?
<v Speaker 3>True, Like I like, I like long, like I definitely
<v Speaker 3>like length, Like I like a good long dick kind
<v Speaker 3>of like a dagger, Like I like it long with
<v Speaker 3>like a big tip at.
<v Speaker 5>The end.
<v Speaker 2>Dagger. Yeah, I wouldn't that be more of an arrow
<v Speaker 2>because a daggers get sharper at the.
<v Speaker 3>End, true, or like yeah, something like yeah it's an
<v Speaker 3>arrow an arrow because yeah, I like big tips a lot,
<v Speaker 3>but size doesn't matter too much to me now because like, yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I've worked with big dicks that I enjoy, but they
<v Speaker 3>give me cramps, so I can't take them all the time.
<v Speaker 3>Like if I were to have a boyfriend, I would
<v Speaker 3>need it to be more Yeah, not as massive.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, there's boyfriend Dick and there's vacation.
<v Speaker 4>Exactly boyfriend Dick.
<v Speaker 2>So do you, like, is there an average size that
<v Speaker 2>you prefer, because guys always want to hear numbers because
<v Speaker 2>they were like.
<v Speaker 3>I'm really bad at numbers. I don't know what the
<v Speaker 3>numbers are, but like I think eight inches or is that.
<v Speaker 2>That's pretty big? The average guys five point five inches?
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I like seven or eight?
<v Speaker 2>Probably you feel like a seven. Yeah, I'm looking at
<v Speaker 2>you and I feel like a seven is what you're going.
<v Speaker 3>For because I'm like just trying to think of what
<v Speaker 3>seven inches looks like it.
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, So where do you see yourself five years
<v Speaker 2>in the industry? Do you have any big goals that
<v Speaker 2>you want to hit or you just kind of going
<v Speaker 2>to see like where life takes you, or do you
<v Speaker 2>have a very specific plan.
<v Speaker 3>Five years in five years in the future in the industry.
<v Speaker 3>I in five years, I hope to have at least
<v Speaker 3>directed one or two of my own movies, porn movies
<v Speaker 3>where I produced my own music for it, as well
<v Speaker 3>as do all the casting and styling and screenwriting.
<v Speaker 2>Oh wow, that you are a workhouse. That's a lot
<v Speaker 2>of work.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it is.
<v Speaker 3>It's very ambitious because right now I'm trying to start
<v Speaker 3>my music career. So I definitely never want to leave
<v Speaker 3>porn completely. I always want to keep erotic themes and
<v Speaker 3>keep doing erotic work. But music is like my number
<v Speaker 3>one passion above everything. So I feel like in five years,
<v Speaker 3>if I keep on working with my music, I will
<v Speaker 3>have my music like career booming. But also by then
<v Speaker 3>hopefully I could put it together and make porno with
<v Speaker 3>music and yeah, and as well be in it well.
<v Speaker 2>And that's another thing too, like a lot of it's
<v Speaker 2>hard to find royalty free music that it's actually okay
<v Speaker 2>for porn. Yeah, if you go on a lot of
<v Speaker 2>those sites, if you look at the fine print, most
<v Speaker 2>of them say like you can't use it for porn. Yeah,
<v Speaker 2>a lot of people don't realize that.
<v Speaker 3>I realized that because yeah, people on like if you
<v Speaker 3>post audio on Twitter, you can't post any music on it.
<v Speaker 2>But even like those like sites where you can like
<v Speaker 2>license music, like audio network, I think audio Networks actually
<v Speaker 2>like one of the only ones that is okay with
<v Speaker 2>the pod I think, yeah, because I know that I've
<v Speaker 2>used them before and they knew what I was doing
<v Speaker 2>and it was fine. But like a lot of them
<v Speaker 2>are like you look at the fine print, Yeah, you
<v Speaker 2>know it for porn. A lot of people don't make
<v Speaker 2>music for porn. Yeah, and you know otherwise. I think
<v Speaker 2>when a lot of people think about like music for porn,
<v Speaker 2>I think about really bad old seventies music like the dad,
<v Speaker 2>Like the song my dad wrote for one of my mom's.
<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, that's amazing, so bad.
<v Speaker 2>I should find a clip for it and try to
<v Speaker 2>play it on here, because it's the beginning of one
<v Speaker 2>of my mom's movies called stud Hunters, and it's like
<v Speaker 2>stud Hunters and need some hardcore love. Didn't you hear
<v Speaker 2>that or any when you were like doing the audio
<v Speaker 2>recording for my mom's book, Oh man, my dad wrote
<v Speaker 2>that song. It's so terrible things like that, so bad,
<v Speaker 2>but it's like awesome because it's so bad. Yes, very
<v Speaker 2>seventies like terrible love music, like exactly, like the kind
<v Speaker 2>of awful music that you would think would be important.
<v Speaker 2>So when you do music, like, are there specific instruments,
<v Speaker 2>like what is that? Because I don't know anything about music,
<v Speaker 2>so I don't know what that means exactly.
<v Speaker 3>For me, I just am a vocalist, so I'm trying
<v Speaker 3>to learn how to produce around music on Logic Pro
<v Speaker 3>and then I'm trying to learn this other.
<v Speaker 4>Interface.
<v Speaker 3>Yes, I sing, and right now I am networking with musicians.
<v Speaker 3>I'm hoping I can find musicians to start a band
<v Speaker 3>with so then I can know more instrumentalists. And yeah,
<v Speaker 3>so that's why I'm like five years yes, because this
<v Speaker 3>year I've only started right now trying to be super
<v Speaker 3>disciplined in the music because I've been super disciplined and
<v Speaker 3>important everything. But now I'm like, okay, start like start
<v Speaker 3>making moves in music. So definitely twenty twenty six, I'll
<v Speaker 3>be focused on music important balanced.
<v Speaker 2>What kind of music do you want to make?
<v Speaker 3>I want to make It's very difficult to describe because
<v Speaker 3>it's like a whole mix. I love jazz and soulful music,
<v Speaker 3>but I also like soultry and rock, but I also
<v Speaker 3>like EDM, so I kind of have a then a
<v Speaker 3>mix of synth wave so or new waves. So it's
<v Speaker 3>all over the place. But I'm still working on my
<v Speaker 3>EP and probably won't be done until next year, like
<v Speaker 3>the end of next year.
<v Speaker 2>So you've already started working on an album. Yes, wow, Yeah,
<v Speaker 2>I have no musical talent. I played violin for two
<v Speaker 2>years in elementary school and I never got any better.
<v Speaker 2>It's pretty bad. So, but I admire people who have
<v Speaker 2>talent with music.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, there's a lot of great musicians in the industry,
<v Speaker 3>in the porn.
<v Speaker 2>Industry, yeah, I love it, and like DJ is a
<v Speaker 2>lot of people.
<v Speaker 4>Yeahs too.
<v Speaker 2>Going is that something that you think that you might
<v Speaker 2>do as well or do you feel more rooted in.
<v Speaker 4>I probably won't DJ.
<v Speaker 3>I know, I've always thought about it because it'd be
<v Speaker 3>cool to look all hot and DJ. Yeah, but I
<v Speaker 3>definitely I want to like make music, yeah, song right,
<v Speaker 3>and do the actual producing for it because songwriting is
<v Speaker 3>easier for me. I've always been into poetry, screenwriting, songwriting,
<v Speaker 3>like English was always my best subject. I like literature,
<v Speaker 3>I love it, so that comes easy to me. But
<v Speaker 3>it's more about since I don't play instruments and don't
<v Speaker 3>have the technical knowledge right now on how to produce.
<v Speaker 3>I'm still learning, so that's been my hardest thing right now,
<v Speaker 3>but I'm getting through it.
<v Speaker 4>I'm learning.
<v Speaker 2>So then, can I ask you a question just because
<v Speaker 2>it's all over the internet right now, and it probably
<v Speaker 2>won't be by the time this comes out. But have
<v Speaker 2>you listened to Taylor Swift's new album.
<v Speaker 4>I haven't haven't yet.
<v Speaker 3>I've been waiting too with my friend because she loves
<v Speaker 3>Taylor Swift.
<v Speaker 2>Did you yes?
<v Speaker 4>You love it?
<v Speaker 2>So I was never like I always thought she was fine.
<v Speaker 2>I was never like a Taylor Swift like yeah, And
<v Speaker 2>then I had a daughter and she started to like
<v Speaker 2>Taylor Swift, and now like, I fucking love her.
<v Speaker 4>She's great.
<v Speaker 2>I've always been a slussy.
<v Speaker 3>Her album read when in twenty thirteen.
<v Speaker 4>I remember I was in third grade. I was obsessed
<v Speaker 4>with it. Yeah, she's really.
<v Speaker 3>Talented and she's just like an amazing performer. Her and
<v Speaker 3>Lady Gaga I admire so much. Lady Gaga is my
<v Speaker 3>number one.
<v Speaker 2>It's so funny. I found out that my mother in
<v Speaker 2>law is like a huge Lady Gaga fan, which, like
<v Speaker 2>you would never expect.
<v Speaker 4>It's so funny, So I couldn't.
<v Speaker 2>I got for Christmas. For her birthday, I got her.
<v Speaker 2>I don't know why I'm telling this story, because who cares.
<v Speaker 2>I got her a wooden spoon with like a Lady
<v Speaker 2>Gaga pictace like burned into this.
<v Speaker 4>I love I would love that she loves.
<v Speaker 2>It's just like one of those weird things you find
<v Speaker 2>on Etsy, and I was like, yeah, and she likes
<v Speaker 2>Lady Gaga. Here you go.
<v Speaker 3>That's a great gift, super thoughtful.
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, I know we we had like saved the
<v Speaker 2>album on Spotify, my daughter and I so like the
<v Speaker 2>minute it came out, we the way to school.
<v Speaker 4>Amazing. I'll listen to it on my home. I have to.
<v Speaker 2>I forgot it's good. I like it. Okay. So anything
<v Speaker 2>this year that we should be looking out for that
<v Speaker 2>is coming out, maybe something you already shot that hasn't
<v Speaker 2>been released yet, or something that you know you're going
<v Speaker 2>to be doing.
<v Speaker 3>I know that my first ever browser scenes are coming out.
<v Speaker 3>I've never shop for browsers until the last few months,
<v Speaker 3>so I have two scenes coming out for them, as
<v Speaker 3>well as some great adult time shoots. The new Raunch series.
<v Speaker 3>You have a scene for that which was really fun. Eh.
<v Speaker 3>I've been shooting a lot, so just a lot of amazing, beautiful, fun, nasty,
<v Speaker 3>crazy sex scenes. Obviously, I'm working on music, so I
<v Speaker 3>do live performances here and there that I post about,
<v Speaker 3>Like just of covers because yeah, I definitely am more
<v Speaker 3>busy with.
<v Speaker 4>Porn right now.
<v Speaker 3>I've been working a lot with Ramera Multimedia Productions with
<v Speaker 3>his like heent Eide Parasited Vampire, which is my favorite
<v Speaker 3>thing to shoot because it's like cinematic mixed with gonzo.
<v Speaker 3>So it's like my cup of tea and I cannot
<v Speaker 3>wait for all those.
<v Speaker 4>To come out.
<v Speaker 3>Those are definitely what I'm most proud of are those scenes.
<v Speaker 2>Okay, so yeah, I was going to ask you for
<v Speaker 2>those who maybe are just discovering you, where would you
<v Speaker 2>direct them to, Like if they're like, Okay, I need
<v Speaker 2>to watch a scene that she's in, Like, what would
<v Speaker 2>you recommend they go watch?
<v Speaker 1>Oh?
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I feel like most of my scenes are on
<v Speaker 3>like the platforms like X Videos and corn Hub, ex Hamster.
<v Speaker 3>I know I have my accounts on there, but also
<v Speaker 3>my Twitter. I'm always reposting them as well.
<v Speaker 2>But is there one particular scene that you feel like,
<v Speaker 2>HM is a great representation of you and your art?
<v Speaker 4>Oh?
<v Speaker 3>Yes, I would say, and it's just it's a crazy scene.
<v Speaker 3>It is my hook UPOD shot scene with Rebel Rider.
<v Speaker 3>I forget like what number series it was, but it's
<v Speaker 3>a threesome me and Rebel Rider and Brian Gosling from
<v Speaker 3>Hoco Pod Shot and it's just very crazy.
<v Speaker 2>His scenes are in gnarly Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it was definitely one of the craziest scenes I've done.
<v Speaker 3>But what I like about it is that Rubble was
<v Speaker 3>there another girl, and it has like girl girl in it,
<v Speaker 3>but also crazy gonzo but also fashion because it's cute.
<v Speaker 3>The only thing it's missing is the cinematic stuff that
<v Speaker 3>I like, but that will be out eventually and then
<v Speaker 3>I would have sent them there, but it's not out yet.
<v Speaker 2>So you just are going to have to wait, yeah,
<v Speaker 2>for the best scenes. Follow her on Twitter, speaking of
<v Speaker 2>and thank you so much for.
<v Speaker 4>Coming on of course, thank you.
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