Small Block - Act Two
The morning after Homecoming week hits different. P wakes up at Dizzy’s house pretending everything is fine, even though nothing is fine. The letter from St. John’s is in his pocket like a weight. The DeLorean didn’t show. The note he wrote is still in his head.
Outside, Kev and Dizzy shoot hoops like the world is normal. P pretends right along with them. The kind of pretending every kid knows too well. Then real life barges in, and the moment they were waiting for disappears before it even starts.
At the video store, things get even tighter. Bex is behind the counter. Kev is cracking jokes that cut deeper than he realizes. P is trying to disappear inside a ruined shirt and a smile that doesn’t fit anymore.
He escapes to the back room, plays a fighting game, and chooses the one character who feels closest to the person he can’t say out loud. For a second, he can breathe. Then everything and everyone he’s avoiding walks right in.
Act Two is where the mask slips. Where jokes stop being jokes. Where P realizes he can’t keep pretending forever.
SMALL BLOCK is a feature screenplay by Ashley Lauren, performed live and mixed like a feature film for your ears. From the award-winning team at TABLE READ / Manifest Media Productions.
Content Advisory: This episode contains suicidal ideation, transphobic and homophobic language, and minor fatphobic language, used intentionally to serve the story and its period portrayal.
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Cast (Full Feature):
P - Levi Dafferner
Kev - Kosi Eguchi
Bex - Piper Kingston
Dizzy - Deryck Hak
Miss World - Lydia Tinsley
Dad - Adam Pilver
Mrs. D - Gemma Kyle
Mom - Leah Zhang
Britt - Eric Miller
Tiff / Martha - Avery Norris
Mr. Welch / Kev's Dad - Eddie Aguirre
Dan / Zach - Aidan Dick
Jack - Kellen Rose
James - Michael Amir Nash
Rob - Jack Murphy
Janet / Video Store Clerk - Sabrina Ariss
Narrator - Paula Tiso
Written by Ashley Lauren
Produced by Jack Levy, Mark Knell, and Shaan Sharma for TABLE READ / Manifest Media
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Small Block written by Ashley Lauren. Thank you for listening to Small Block. Please note that there is adult language throughout that is not suitable for young listeners. Furthermore, there are a few items that might be triggering for some readers. These include suicidal ideation discussion, transphobic language, homophobic language, minor instances of fat phobic language. All phobic language is used intentionally for thematic reasons. It is not used without thought or due to either naivete or bigotry. Thank you again for listening to Small Block. Now onto the show. Oh hey, cool, you're back. I'm glad I changed my mind about my dark thoughts for the moment at least. But now Beck's, my former best friend, is super pissed at me. Well, yeah, is that because I'm a girl? What kind of question is that? Plus I totally like keV, my current best friend, down during the Battle of sexes. It's not the way I envisioned things going. Yeah, you think at least we get. To spend home coming weekend at our friend in bandmate's Dizzey's house. We're still fighting over whether or not to go to the dance, though not that any of us have dates yet. It'll be fun. We should go. Definitely not going. I'd like to go, but anyway, we just met Miss World and her sick DeLorean man. I hope he gets a ride in it. I could use a win, especially with my dad on me about girls. In Saint John's BacT. Two interior, Dizzy's room, morning sun streams in p awakens Top Bunk. Alone in the room, he listens nothing. He quietly slips the yearbook from under his pillow. A kleenex sticks out a makeshift bookmark. He opens to Beck, smiling with the butterfly. He gazes fondly. He glances at the DeLorean poster on the wall, then back to Beck's He trials different ways to ask her the big question. Do you want to go to the dance with me? Through the wall toilet plush faucet, Pee quickly returns the Kleenex with Becks and shoves the yearbook under his pillow. keV enters from the bathroom an unopened but sweating sprite and hand backpack in the other what about Cooma at my funeral? What it makes sense? You're not killing yourself. keV opens the sprite, SIPs. Pee reaches keV passes him the can. You'll probably like die surrounded by your hat wife in perfect kids. Pee takes a long drink, returns the can. He adjusts his purple beanie worn through the night. You know the dance might not be so bad. Please, I'm not going to be the dateless loser in the corner with his other dateless loser friends while Becks laughs at me. She wouldn't laugh at you. I mean I could, I don't know, like have her hang with us at the dance. She's super nice? Yeah you want her to hang with us? Now? Maybe next time you two can have a heart to heart and you can tell her how super nice I am. keV chugs the sprite. He throws the empty can at the trash. It misses. He sorts through his bag by his pillow. Pee rolls over, facing the ceiling. He softly sings guns and roses coma. Hey, you cut me in a Cooma, and I don't think Alana ever come back to this. Pee looks at the closed door. No dizzy glances at the door again. Deep breath, here goes. There's some shit that I want to tell. The door pounds open. Where's my dad's penthouse home? All? Dizzy storms into the room, glaring at Pee. I know you took it from the stack of my parents' bathroom. Her dad has a stack of penthouses. Did you take it? keV shakes his head. All fifty seven issues need to be fifty seven penthouses in the bathroom, and you never told us everything. Needs to be fucking perfect, or my dad. Will be pissed. I told you I didn't take it. And I'm telling you you're a liar. Dizzy grabs Pea's backpack. keV props his pillow behind him. Don't just my bag, doe. Dizzy dumps the contents onto the floor. Books cascade out, followed by clothes and a zip lock with a T shirt inside. A blue trapper folder falls out, papers, scattering p rushes to the floor, collecting them. That's our fucking lyrics man. Dizzy spots something under PA's pillow. He tosses the pillow to the floor. He holds the yearbook. Confused, dude, are. You whacking off to the yearbook? P Eye's the Kleenex book mark sticking out at the top. Where are you hiding it? P jumps up, grabs the yearbook. He lets it fall to his side, the Kleenex drifting to the floor. Just put the shit back, okay, and whatever else you're hiding my dad? Where is your dad anyway? I'm here like every weekend and haven't seen him in months. Dude, outside, Missus D pulls into the driveway. I've seen your mom working her ass off, though, while you bitch about how she won't make you bon tet or ribs or a fucking sandwich. Dizzy's on the verge of tears. Some shit should stay inside, bro, It's got to be perfect when it comes back. P shakes his head and pushes past Dizzy into the hallway interior your hallway, living room, kitchen continuous. P walks towards the kitchen. Missus D quietly closes the front door, her eyes ringed. Dark morning, Missus D. They enter the kitchen, Pee gets water. Dizzy enters quiet. How's uncle Chris? Missus D turns to Dizzy, tired a faint smile. Okay, for now, your boys want omelets anything you want inside. Dizzy glances at P first and shakes his head. Missus D hands him three bontete. She winks conspiratorially, I can make more. Before he runs out. P offers Dizzy a cold sprite. He takes it. They're okay. Interior Dizzey's bathroom. Short time later. P opens a ziplock in front of the mirror, an impeccably folded ban t shirt inside sepultura. Beneath the remains, he inspects every milli leader carefully leaning close, he spots a tiny crumb. Real quick millimeter, Sorry. I did. He inspects every millimeter carefully leaning clothes, he spots a tiny crumb. He brushes until every trace is gone. Exterior street, Planet VHS. Short time later, the sun shines brightly on the perfect sepulteur of shirt Pee. Kevin Dizzy walked towards the Planet VHS parking lot. They each hold different ice cream treats. keV Flintstone's push Up, Pop Dizzy, firecracker, Pee drumstick. Come on, I want to get the crow. He walks even faster, Pe grins at. Kevin walks even slower. keV slows in kind. They talk quietly. The crow soundtrack is so badass. Why did you say becks could hang with us? I just meant at the dance if we went, you brought her up. keV thinks about it. We're cool, right, dude, always You're my brother, and yeah I still like her, just not the same way I used to. keV nods thinking. Dizzy notices how far behind they are. The fuck keV, We. Just wanted to give you space, and I want to give you my fat cock. In your ass. Ever, consider how tiresome it is hearing gay shit from you all the time. Ever, consider HOWRD like you better if your mouth was full of dicks instead of words. keV laughs. Pea smacks Kev's arm, but smiles. P Flat tires Dizzy Dizzy nails to put his shoe back on. Fucker. Finally, at the store, pe reaches for the door handle. Dizzy runs past him, flinging the door open. The door flies into Pete, knocking his hand. The drumstick mashes onto his chest, leaving a huge vanilla smear spattered on his shirt. Fuck you, we. Gotta go back, you wish looks like Kev's load blasted all over your chest. Kevin Dizzy laugh Seriously, Please let's go back interior Planet VHS. Moments later, Beck stands at the front of the Blockbuster style video store. Pe tries to hide his shirt, but nothing doing. Welcome to Planet VHS. Pee looks keV dumped a load on your chest. Reach out if you need me. VHS stands for very Hospitable Service. She walks off, smiling. Pea's face burns. Dizzy leans over the tape return counter, trying to see what just came in, but it's obscured. P follows behind keV closely China hide his shirt. The three boys sort through the rows of tapes on the counter. Chick flick, chick flick. Seene it ah, chick flick, it's not fucking in. Thanks for insisting we come here today instead of yesterday. Pee, we can do son in Law again. Dizzy renews his efforts. Pe pulls a tape naked Gun thirty three and a third. Anything but Son in Law. Tapes clunk into the return bin. Dizzy searches for help. He signals to a manager. She talks into her headset. Bex arrives. Moments later. P stands behind keV. Need help, sounding out the titles. Are any of those the crow? Pe leans to keV quietly Gotten quarters interior Your Planet VHS back room. Short time later, a small arcade setup with a few game cabinets. P alone plays Super Street Fighter two Turbo. He's Cami, a blond female military fighter. He fights Gile, a blonde male military fighter. Cami and Guile battle back and forth, the two blonde fighters looking like mirrors. As a trade blows, they connect simultaneously with each other. They collapse double ko. A quarter is placed by the bottom of the screen. Next, P turns, Becks is right there, shit. Hey, now, till yesterday I thought we were still friends. She inspects P's chin. M you shouldn't shave your one hair. You look like a girl without it. Listen, I'm Beck's pushes in the quarter. I'll be gentle since your Bodyguarden his gunzel are outside. That's funny. Sam Spade calls a guide gunzel in Maltese facl falcon. Sorry, this is like a tong twist. That's funny. Sam Spade calls a guy a gunzel and Maltese falcon. Bes stares dead eyed, answers deadpan. Oh my golly, do you know where I could possibly rent such a film? Listen I'm an idiot. Beck's hits start short time later. Pe and Beck's eye the screen intensely. Cammi pee flips, Blanca becks, a green manimal grabs and bites her. Ko bes wins, t Zep almost went around, though she checks her watch. Seven minutes left, three or five. Pe glances toward the door. No sign of keV. Deep breath. This is kind of embarrassing, But is it about the shirt? Bit fucked up? You'd show with my favorite album looking more like Beneath the Seaman. But I'll forgive you for that. He looks at his beneath the remain shred with the huge ice cream splotch. He turns to the door, still no sign of keV. It's not the shirt. I wanted to ask listen, that wasn't me yesterday. I mean, it was obviously me, but not like the real the real me. You wouldn't do that, Oh yeah, because it looked. Like you the fuck dude. keV shoots P a loaded look from the doorway. Eight whole minutes without pee, postpartum much. Maybe I wanted to see you flowers over there. Please, I'm busy kicking P's ass. At least I think it's p. There's a debate. P avoids both their eyes. He stares into his reflection in the game screen. It's not what you think, dude. We just went a few rounds with everything yesterday. You know, I didn't want her to feel bad. Beck snatches her remaining quarter as she leaves. Beck's wait, guess this one. Isn't the real you either, Right, she's gone. P stares at the door. Not like you used to, huh. Interior Planet VHS. Moments later, P and keV midchat find Dizzy at the wall of the crow boxes. She called next, she. Can call whatever the fucks she wants. You don't have to play. keV walks a couple of aisles over. Pe calls after him. Who doesn't continue playing. When someone calls neck. Forty seven fucking boxes and not a single goddamn actual tape. It I knew we should have come yesterday. keV rapturously brings the box for son in law. May, I suggest, son in lawge, it's featuring the lady of my dreams, Miss Carla Gugino. I'd rather shoot myself in the butthole. You like it? I used to like it? Oh God. A distressed video. Clerk runs past the boys, tearing towards the bathroom. Dizzy turns to Pete, who peers over the aisles looking for Becks. Isn't there anything else? You want? Something more filmy or whatever? You know, what I heard is pretty good? The crying game brow either of y'all seen it? No Peace spots Becks talking to a tall, thin woman with a VCR case. The woman's short skirt shows her midriff, yellow flower in her hair. So, I'm sorry, short shirt shows hrt middrift. Yes, I was wondering how her short skirt show. As I was saying it, I'm like, how does that work? I was like, okay, Pea Spots Becks talking to a tall, thin woman with a VCR case. The woman's short shirt shows her midriff, yellow flower in her hair. So this ira A girl's gonna fuck this girl? Right? Irn guy? But great? Oh that's such a director thing to do. But that was so good. So this ira A guy is gonna fuck this girl right. Beck smiles broadly, almost beaming. She points at a shelf. The woman turns, revealing her face Miss World, Miss World surprise turns. She waves. The boys approach fourteen fifty for the weekend. Returns for the VCRs are inside the store. I'm here Sunday. If you wanted to hand it directly to me, anything else, I may. Help you with no thank you, becks reach. Out if you need me. VHS stands for a Very Hospitable Service. Beck smiles wistfully. Reluctantly, Lee leeves Pea's eyes follow Dissey tries to locate the Dolorean out the store window. So lucky that we came today. I thought any more about a ride. Our parents will be at the homecoming game later we're playing Saint John's. You could meet them. They'll tell you no big deal and we can go for a ride there. God, I'd love to see everyone from school. Look at you ride around with a hot chick blasting pantara. My parents will buy you a Freedo pie. Miss World smiles, can't tonight it. Dizzy turns back to the shelves. It's fun talking music and you all seem nice. But a ride's a bad idea. I'm an adult. It's weird. Peace face falls here it is. Dizzy holds up the box to the crying game. So, like I said, this IRA guy is going to fuck the school, right, It's like any normal, boring sex scene tits or whatever. But then the camera. Keeps going down and she has a fucking dick. P and keV both stop what they're doing. They show it. Dizzy nods. Miss World listens intently. She hot should be on dudes, plus, it should have been huge. If you want to shock people, what does the guide deal? Hits her in bukes obviously. Miss World's eyes circle the group. keV bursts out, laughing. I'm sorry. Then we go again, Pease. keV bursts out laughing. Aceventure is so smart. Miss World steps in taking the tape from Dizzy. Tomorrow morning, same house, Yes, deal, for real, promise eleven am. I want to talk to your parents first, though, Sweet, I'll wear my Metallica shirt. No, my Primus shirt again. No, maybe my nine inch nail shirt. You brought four shirts, but only one pair of underwear. Five shirts. Miss World puts the crying game back on the shelf. Rent something else. Dizzy points to the tape in her hand that the crow. She displays her tape Peggy Sue. Got married tomorrow At eleven, she leaves. Shit, holy shit, I'm going to ride in the Dolorean tomorrow. I can't even imagine what it'll be like to actually be inside it. keV waits till she's at the register, then quietly picks up the crying game. He looks at P and Dizzy shrugs. Pe gazes at Beck's cheerful smile as she rings up Miss World Interior Planet VHS checkout. Moments later, Diszy checks the tape return one last time. Becks works one of two registers. P and keV wait for the other. Only one customer ahead, but their video clerk, the same one who ran by earlier, shifts back and forth uncomfortably. P picks up a Cadbury cream egg from the discount bin. Oh those don't deserve to exist. I like the center. Dizzy returns, the customer leaves. Their clerk turns to Becks. Oh God, this new medification. I can't hold it. Cover me. The boys look to Becks's register. She smiles sweetly at them. Moments later, tapes slide across the counter. P adds the cream egg. Shit tastes like butt, you eat butt, Bes laughs loudly, then stops, abruptly deflating Dizzy. Pe swaps the egg out for a purple grape tootsi pop. Bex holds up the crying game. Pe looks at Becks. He adjusts his purple beanie. Yeah, let's put it back. Beck slides it under the counter. God, damn man, I want to rent two movies. keV slides son in law across the counter. He and Pee silently watched. Dizzy stare at it. Fine, I get to ride in a dolare in. I'll give you son in law. P nudges Kevin, congratulations. Touching a true sacrifice. That'll be a eighty Oh wait, you guys wanted the crow right. Guess what my mom just returned. Dizzy raises his hands to the lord. P gives Becks a sincere thank you smile, the kind with a sheepish apology included. Beck smiles warmly. She slides the tape across the counter. Yentel tense, crowd noise builds getting louder. P drops his head the exterior homecoming game nearby field evening peace head raises. Nearby crowd noise floats on the wind. Pete charges down the field, weaving past Saint John's eighth grade defenders. All the players are in street close a playground game. The football floats through the dark night sky, arcing downwards straight into the hands of the receiver on the homecoming game mainfield. Simultaneous, the Varsity pond Hill receiver catches the ball, tears toward the end zone. Bright stadium lights bathe everything in fluorescent drama. Go pond Hill and beat Saint John signs on one side. He walks with US. Saint John's is King and pond Hill. Each ship signs fill the opposing stands. The receiver cuts sharply, dodges a tackle, dives touchdown. The pond Hill crowd erupts yes. Cheerleaders scream wildly. Exterior homecoming game nearby field. Simultaneous, eighth grade girls talk about anything else as they kind of watch pee in the team play on a small field away from the stands spill from the real games. Lights illuminate the play. Cheers wapped across the night air. Pe turns looks for the ball. The girls couldn't care less when a defender tags Britt the QB. The boy who threw the football to p in the hallway, keV is wrapped on the sidelines. Come on, brit pe let it out, baby. Peace Team huddles, Pea scans the sidelines. No becks fourth and five, last shot. Dizzy's chest heaves, He spits, pe adjusts his purple Beanie tugs his shirt taut. Sorry, he's a cough the whole time. God Safeties are playing close in center. I can't speak. Sorry, have some water. I'll have some too. He's are playing close in center. I'll be free if I go left. Sounds good beef, guys. Those Saint John's faggots are gonna blitz tiff I need that juice, dance fake. And go in the middle. Plug the left. Dizzy stop Jack. Tiffany thick athletic girl at Britz locker before nods. I'll have that fat fuck nursing my dick when we're done. Moments later, they line up. Pee crouches ready. To bluefore too hot. Pea sprints, Dizzy, mirrors and blocks Jack at the line of scrimmage. Britt drops back in the pocket. Tiffany plants her feet and wraps her arm around Dan. She hurls him to the ground. Dizzy slimps, collapsing into the dirt. Jack's free. He runs through the gap. Dizzy left open. Brit sees Jack getting closer, his arm goes back to throw. Dizzy scrambles on the ground, lunges his craning fingers grasp Jack's ankle. Jack tumbles brits free Pee buttonhooks. The ball sails through the air. It's wide left. Pee leaps extending his arm. Got it. Fuck yeah, bitch p. Runs safety scramble from the middle. They're too far. Touchdown, peace, cheer. Now interference. That was clean. Jack, you lost, no way, he's he's dirty. We win you. Saint John's fucks think you're owed everything. That's what we're doing. You got caught. Get over it, you and your bitch. He nods it. Dan. You want to go, bitch keV charges onto the field, Yeah. Let's go, motherfucker. I'll scull fuck you so hard. Archaeologist will think they've discovered a new fuck. Oh no, that was perfect the way it was. Yeah, what happened to you? You want to go, bitch keV charges onto the field. Yeah, let's go, motherfucker. Oh skull fuck you so hard. Archaeologists will think they've discovered a new species. Saint John's team laughs. Archaeologists, me and your school is stupid. Beating your ass though. keV points to the giant scoreboard above the real field. Pond hills ahead seventeen to seven. P runs over one of the Saint John's players, trips him, Pee tumbles. He stands fixing his purple beam. Damn boy, don't I know you from the buffet? I've seen less jigl Angello. Guess there is always room. The Saint John's team laughs. P looks down his soft belly's partially exposed his shirt rode up in the fall. He quickly yanks his shirt taut. Jack, Dan and the Saint John's team leave, cheering. P joins Kevin Dizzy. Dizzy high fives keV. Thanks for having my back. They ain't taking my boys t d away. keV looks to P, beaming that stay was sick. No way brit gets that pass off without you. P extends his fist to Divvy. P extensisty. P extends his fist to Dizzy, but before Dizzy can bump it. But that catch, though, could you see P from the ground, It was awesome man. Dizzy dusts the grass and dirt from his clothes. P and keV watch as A walks away past the edge of the light throwing middle fingers to Saint John's exterior homecoming game nearby field. Moments later, Kevin p walk. Dizzy earned us that win. That kid's all hard. You wouldn't have had to save it if he hadn't fallen in the first place. And brit our class may think that dude's hot shit, but it's garbage. Motherfucker's never thrown an on target pass ever. The team owes you the victory. You you deserve that shit. Fuck those Saint John's bup puppets. P E's keV. keV kicks a small rock deep into the night pond hill for life bitches. keV tilts to see the stadium lights. Pea studies him. Next year, we'll settle in the real game. You gonna play. Maybe maybe you'd be a starting receiver as a freshman. Who knows how many touchdowns you'd score. Everyone would revere. You peace silent. He steals a glance at keV. What's your deal? Seriously, deep breath. My parents are making me apply to schools for next year, keV slowly, and if I get in anywhere, I'll be gone. You want to go? You're kidding me? Not unless you go? They i'd the Saint John's eighth grader's laughing. Ugh God, my dad would cream if I got into Saint John's. Over my dead body though. I told the Saint John's interviewers that I don't fit in at all boys joint and that religion has no place in school. And then I quoted Jesus Saves Slay. Here you quoted those religious fucks Slayer. I tanked the interviews at every school. Dude, there's such a bro dude. The whistle blows halftime shit. I told my dad i'd find him before halftime. Want me to come with Kev's silent. I don't get it. When I see him, He's super nice to me, and then he yells because you're on the phone with me and all the other shit you tell me, he says, would have to change for that asshole to like me. keV laughs bitterly. He walks away, singing Metallica's Disposable Heroes. You will do what I say when I say. Pecked the exterior homecoming game stands. Short time later, P locates his parents in the stands. Dad nods at the field. Could be you. Next year, girls love football players. Hopefully you'll be on the other side. Though, I just go to touchdown with the guys, but Saint John's jerks pulled bs and said it didn't count. Don't hide behind excuses. Leave an opening and your opponents will find a way to crawl out. Seal the deal. Girls love football players. I wanted to play football, sweat passion the guys. Girls love rock stars too. If they play real music. P looks down he sees Beck's head toward the concessions. Need drinks, corn dogs, terry peace. Mom pulls out a crisp twenty dollars bill. She shuffles through other twenties until she finds the most wrinkled one. She hands it to Pee, saving the crisp one. Pean nods to Dad freedo pie. Make sure they slather the chili and cheese. I don't want to be able to see on it. And a soda bucket. They got big Red? Really the hell's wrong with big Red? Pete turns to Mom. Course, please, how about a cream soda? Harris go with him for the beer. Bexs is halfway to the concessions alone. I want to make it easy on you both. Wouldn't you prefer a cream soda? Mom opens her wallet. I'll put this twenty away. Moments later, Pee and Dad head toward the concession stand. Christine's wedding is Sunday. If you need to get clothes or anything tomorrow for. The dance, I get a date. I'll let you know. Chad. You know his uncle grown up. He couldn't find anyone to take the dances at your age, not in high school either, could have had anyone too, running back, Good luck in That guy wasn't till much later he found people he jibed with like him. Get what I mean, I'm a loser and I won't find anyone until I'm older. No, what this guy was. Dad looks around, then leans in clothes. He's, uh, he likes I like girls, Dad. Of course, of course I was just checking in, not that there would be anything wrong with you didn't like girls the nineties. You can be anything these days. Yeah, when you lean when you lean in, can you give me more of a quiet voice. Yeah, he's I don't wake the baby and. Just say to you on the of course, of course, like and of course, of course I was just checking in. It's like, thank you God, thank you God, thank you God, thank you God. He's uh, he. Likes I like girls, Dad, Of course, of course. I was just checking in, not that there would be anything wrong if you didn't like girls. It's the nineties, you can be anything these days. Up ahead, he can just make out the back of Becks's head. I guess it's not so bad, go and stag. Plenty of unbridled phillies. Around, Jesus Christ. Phillies. Yeah, phillies. What do you call them? Chicks? What about? Her? Dad points out a thin girl high school freshman junior. Her. He points out a more age appropriate, but even thinner girl. Not for me. She thinks metal sucks. That music's holding you back. Her dad points out the thinnest girl yet, a cheerleader. That's literally the varsity cheerleading captain. Really, that's short taken Preston Jacobs makes sense. QB's always get the girls. Muscular, but not too muscular. Handsome must be a DNA thing. You ever see an ugly quarterback and they're never fat, another benefit of playing. He tugs the corners of his shirt. Taught Beck's is just ahead. Pe pee wheels. Mister Welch approaches with a large covered box. Tough break yesterday, I shouldn't have spoken so openly in front of the class. Seen Becks around. It's okay, and I know well, I doubt she's hiding. Okay, gotta finish setting up the UH halftime surprise. He motions to the box. He carries hope you enjoy. Mister Richards Welch. Nods and smiles of Dad, then leaves. Doctor Richards, You uncouth fuck. I'd bet money that Saint John's make sure their teachers know the station of their students' parents. Who's Becks. Beck's Bech's dad? You know who she is, So what's the deal? Nothing, I just gotta apologize Dad's size. You gotta be courteous to women, be a mensch, right. Dad points out different than girls. Any one of these could be yours. You're just gonna act right, Dad. Spot's a larger girl from behind, buying cotton candy. He doesn't recognize her. He chuckles and points with his thumb. Some are easier to get than others. P follows Dad's thumb to see Becks buying cotton candy. He quickly averts his gaze, focusing on a large locust shell on the ground. He scratches his whisker almost forgotten. Be's is gone. Pee looks around. She's nowhere. Happy belated birthday Mom insisted on the ridiculous ribbon. Dad hands Pea something. Pe looks upward at him. Exterior homecoming game. Short time later, Pea's face turns, scanning for Becks. He walks past the concessions, past the restrooms, past everywhere. She's vanished. Sighing, Pee turns around. Bex Is right behind him. Jesus Christ. Pee jerks Doctor Pepper, sloshing out of his cup and onto his hand. Beck smiles. I've been chattowing you for five minutes worth it. She peers around him as he regains his wits. No cav he's with his dad. My condolences to both of them. You'd like it if you got to know him. Yes, I've always thought that, pe laughs. Can I have some of your cotton candy? Can I have some of your doctor Pepper? They swap. She makes a face. Does this diet. Pa nods, Beck shrugs it off, drinks again. So I've been tailing your ass? Who we looking for you? Beck's turns the cup vertical and drains the soda. She holds it above her mouth so that Pee can watch the last drops fall in. Now I'm sad we're alone. You've been doing such a great job humiliating yourself in front of people. That's nothing new. Mom still talks about Whattroplex. Just your mom. Oh, I do too, and my dad and my sisters some cousins. Haven't been to a water park since. Pea smiles. He looks at the bright stadium lights in the distance. His face shifts. What just wondering if I'll ever have lights like that shining on me. Aren't you planning to play next year? I mean the band No, it's hell complate to one point six million people in Russia. Pantara played earlier in the day and their crowd was over five hundred thousand. They're from here and they played over half a million fans going bat shit for their music. What was that song you wrote me in fifth grade? Sunshine Heart? Beck smiles. I just wanted to see if you still remembered. Thought i'd forget. It's not fifth grade anymore. You know what I remember most about? What troplex? Bex looks at him like he's a dumb ass shitting your swimsuit on the lazy river and then duck walking with an inner tube. Stuck in your ass so your suit wouldn't fall off. No one else would have laughed with me, I mean, no one else would have made me laugh. Their eyes meet connected, they look deep into each other, the moment suddenly intimate, close and raw. I missed you. He pushes his purple beanie up. He puts a knee on the ground, raises the cotton candy like a proposal. Will you go to the dance with me? Be's is shocked, you can't use my cotton candy. Pe stands returns to the cotton candy. Boom alone, firework explodes, painting this guy. Whoa mister Welcher's surprise. Boom boom, more fireworks. The glow paints their faces. Pea's eyes, naked and deep, connect with Becks's. I think you feel sometimes you're the only one who knows how special you are, not when we were friends. Boom boom boom boom. Okay the dance okay. Boom boom, boom boom. The finale of the fireworks. They burst in aggressive beauty. Pee overjoyed screams excitedly. Dear Pee, Pee turns keV is clearly worse for wear after his dad. He might have been crying. Thank got, I thought I was gonna find you with fucking becks again. Fucking becks. Huh. Beck steps from behind Pee. Kev's face dre He looks like he's been punched. He hurries away. I take it you didn't mention this. Yeah, seven tomorrow, if that shit's squared by then. Moments later, boom, the last few fireworks ignite as keV stomps ahead. It's not what you think, Hey, it's not what you think. keV strides forward without turning. Yeah, well, every time I turn my back for a fucking second, you run through her. You're my best friend, man, swear. keV stops, closes his eyes. Pee catches up. Just tell me, man, the truth. Tell me. P nervously stammers what. We're just friends? Do you even like me anymore? Pee breathes again, relieved, of course, keV laughs bitterly stomps forward. Can't even be honest with me? Did your dad fuck you up? keV wheels on him, eyes ringed red. I love her, dude, I love her. Okay, I told you when we're eighteen, I'll find a way for you to meet carlos man. X. keV storms toward their classmates ahead. Pee dazed follows, X, you think I'm stupid? Just friends? My ass fucking piling it up with her like old times. You're gonna be best friends forever and I'm not gonna have either of you. Well, joke's on her because you're chasing me and she's alone. They reached their classmates, passing around a soda bucket, a ninety six ounce cup with a handle and lid. James offers pe the bucket. Beer, Pe, I'll have some. You fucked us, bro, Just give me the fucking beer. Pe nods at James. James gives keV the bucket. Going to the dance tomorrow, Pee taking two breakfast becks. PA's head snaps towards Zach. The whole group of boys erupts in laughter. keV stares at the ground. Can you imagine Pee going with double quarter pounder with she's McDonald, Every dance would be a slow dance. Maybe it's true, you guys are best friends forever. People's down as Purple Beanie tries to play it cool, as. If caught you alone with her twice today? Oo p Eye's keV hurt a moment of guilt than keV steals himself. James hands Keb the cup of beer. Classmates laugh and holler. keV tilts his head back, drinks. Moonlight and floodlights paint peas face different hues interior Dizzy's room later that night, blue, red, white, yellow light flickers on Pea's face. Bare Knuckle three, the import version of Streets of Rage three, a video game on the TV. The Boss, a ridiculous gay stereotype named Ash, enters the fight. PA's purple beanie framed face focuses intently on Ashes. Ash is heavily muscled, black goatee, purple cop hat, black legless leotard, green stockings that end mid thigh, and women's knee high heeled boots. A large gold women's symbol medallion hangs from Ash's neck. Pea plays as blaze fielding badass female cop in all red miniskirt, boots, crop top. Sl That's all I'm saying. I'm sure you could see everything I did wrong from the sidelines. Pee tries to ignore them. On screen. He expertly counters Ash's prancing kicks. Ash laughs effeminately. My stomach Kurtz keV walks past Dizzy. He covertly rummages in his pillowcase, removes something. He exits. You're right. The import version of this game is the shit. Dizzy lowers his car magazine and watches the screen. I kick this fagots ass light every day Blaze wins. Ash lies on the ground and sits up sobbing outside. A car starts and drives off. Pee pauses the game, freezing Ash on the ground. Mid cry, your mom's leaving this late. Dissy stares at. The window even after the curtain goes dark. My dad would have gotten a kick out of him. He hates homos. You can fight him now if you want. P stands, puts the purple grape tootsy pop in his mouth. Dizzy raises the magazine. Maybe later if the moot hits, give me a coke too, not coke interior hallway. Moments later, P closes Dizzy's door. The bathroom door opens, keV pulls him inside interior bathroom continuous. P surprised it doesn't smell bad. Thought your stomach was fucked up. keV hands Pa. Penthouse Magazine, August nineteen ninety four. A black and white photo of a beautiful, dark haired woman on the cover. You did take it, keV angry takes a breath to calm himself. This is a peace offering. I was gonna show it to you anyway, but I'm showing you now, So listen. Do you want to look at this? P shakes his head. keV takes the magazine. keV listens at the door. No dizzy. He removes a box of Q tips and a large bottle of hand soap from under the sink hold this. P hands Pa, a white first aid kid with a big red cross. He pushes the magazine deep in the cabinet, replaces the other items, and shuts the door. Coming back, P shakes his head. Grab Dizzy a drink. keV leaves. P assesses his purple beanie reflect in the mirror, pulls his shirt taut. He twists his arm looking for definition. He examines his lone whisker, it's starting to sprout. Minutes later, Pea's eyes peer out from behind the penthouse first aid kit and other items on the counter. He idly rubs his lone chin hair and examines the magazine. Flips through stops at a pictorial with a man and a woman He examines the images almost scientifically, almost confused. Quickly flipping through, he suddenly stops, captivated by two women kissing, Debbie and Drahikza. His face changes. He crunches through the last bit of purple shell on the grape Tutsi pop. Finally reaching the center, he gazes at the two women kissing, his face soft, his eyes intense, searching no lust. P shakes his arm, extending and curling his fingers. He turns the page delicately, attention wrapped, his world existing only within the two women's gloss paged fantasy interior Dizzy's room. Short while later, Pee returns to find Dizzy and keV wrestling on the floor. keV locks in a sleeper hold on Dizzy. Dizzey's face reddens as he struggles. Finally, he taps keV. Mate mate a fuck. keV releases. He opens his sweating sprite. Drinks start son in law, bitch. Dizzy reluctantly opens the coke that keV brought. Him, no wrestling for it was your suggestion. You're gonna welch now. I don't want to see that stupid movie again. Back to the future, fucking please. In less than ten hours, I get to ride in a Deloreate of all the cook cars in the world, I picked the DeLorean to ride in first, and for once, I'm gonna get what I want and I want to be hyped as fuck. Bro, No one cares about that busted ass car outside of you and Pee. It looks like an industrial fridge with a windshield. It sucks, Bro, I won I want to watch son in law. I don't get to marry Karla in ten hours. You know how much I care about her. Let me have this. She's the girl of my dreams, the person I do anything to spend my life with. No one else comes close. She'll be an amazing mother. You know when we get wake up. She's famous. She's a fucking movie star, and you're nobody. You never will be. Damn it, Get over it. Fuck you. I'm so fucking sick and tired of hearing you can play all the time like a bitch. I slipped at the game. I slipped, bitch. At least I wasn't playing cheerleader on the sidelines. Fuck you, and fuck Carla. You can't always get what you want. Dizzy crashes out of the room with the door slamming behind him. Fuck, dude, what the. The door flies open? Why the fuck am I leaving? This is my fucking room, y'all? Motherfuckers leave, Get the fuck out now. Dizzy storms over, kicking the ground under their legs. Get the fuck out. Dizzy turns the TV back to bare knuckle three. The game still paused, the effeminate ash frozen mid sob. Dissy snatches the controller as P and keV shut out. He kicks the door shut interior Dizzy's garage. Moments later, P and keV enter the air is heavy. P sits with his guitar. He idly plays it as is no amp. Dizzy should focus on his love life, not yours. keV slowly slides down the wall until he reaches the floor. Play Something. P flips the amp on clean channel neck pickup. He plays a melancholic, somewhat bluesy lick. keV closes his eyes. Guitar fills the room with a shared pain. keV flips off the ceiling light, toggles the string lights lining the room. The warm glow offers barely more light than candles or a Christmas tree. keV picks up his bass, turns on his amp. He plucks a single, rumblings his stained note. He plays off P, driving the rhythm and weaving a harmony around P's notes. Kev's groove in places. P plays a slow, sorrowful lead line. keV adds chords as P moves in and out of rhythm and lead. Their eyes connect the way that only can happen with music. P nods slowly at keV, whose mouth twists slightly. P kicks to the distortion channel. They play, charged more complex than during practice, the sound intricate, thoughtful, and their own building to a furiously beautiful climax. They hit their final notes in munison. keV leans back, shadows, covering part of his face. That took my CDs. You hung up at nine. Same difference makes he only got the wallet. Back on clean channel. P plays softly. You're not Dave Mustaine, you know no Bex was. I'm Kirk Well, he's still a Metallica. Yeah, you like me. I had more than Metallica. Look I get it, I overreacted, my bad bro just no more becks tonight, okay. Pean nods a few moments later, How did you know? Yentel? keV chuckles quietly. My aunt told me that one of my parents' last attempts at patching things up was weekly date nights. This was when I was almost two, So they went to Yentel because my dad's an idiot and doesn't know. Shit about movies. Midway through, my mom turns to my dad and tells him she wants to divorce. He stands up in the middle of the theater, yelling like an asshole. You've heard him. People are screaming at him to shut the fuck up. They can't to stop the movie. Now they're on their way back to the car. My mom hasn't said anything since she said she wanted to get divorced. He finally asks her why, and she says, I can't be myself with you. Peace studies Kev's face as he plays I. Wish I knew what she meant when she wanted to be but she died the next year. I watched you until a Lot Now restaurant. She moved back to Japan. Dad won't give me our number. keV leans into the light. Shadow King could be great. You know that shit just now. People would die for us. We'd be all over the radio. Can you imagine looking out from the stage knowing every single person there is with you, feeling what you. Feel, thinking we're God's. Kev's baseline sounds similar to Nirvana. After a moment, Kraig fucked me up, man, How can you give that shit up? The adoration and the recognition he had everything. Still? Like you said in Senseless Prints, you can't fight me because I quit. They could fight him if he walked out, and they still beat him up. Kurve, fuck me up, man, How can you give that shit up? The adoration, the recognition he had everything. Still? Like you said in Scentless Apprentice, you can't fire me because I quit. Fucking rock star move Now they talk about his genius more than when he was alive. He stops playing, He tugs at his purple beanie. Kev's bass provides a dark minor key warmth. He hurt. Man. I mean, you can laugh with your friends, or play music toward the world, anything, everything's good. Then in those moments, the good moments, the pain goes away until you remember it, and then in the moments between the laughs, you remember it, and then you can't remember how to forget it. You can wish you were someone else, anywhere else, but that's not possible, so you push it back inside and keep it there, and eventually that's all that's left. There was something beautiful once, but now it doesn't exist because there's no more space to hold it. Well comes to every night in my house. Pse soft cords ring out as he speaks. When I was four, I wanted a cabbage patch kid more than anything. So Christmas morning, I'm tweaking, not knowing which one I'll get because I've seen neighborhood kids with all these cool ones, like different hair, different clothes, all these colors and hairstyles. My friend Sarah had this girl with an orange jacket and sneakers, and my next door neighbor Emily had one with like big red hair. All of them were so bright and exciting and wonderful. Some I fucking this big wrapped box under the tree while my parents make coffee. Then my grandparents had to have breakfast. Is killing me. I don't think we got to presence ntill like ten thirty, dude, No, I know. Finally I unwrap it and there it is, like brown hair, blue overalls, blue checkered shirt. I think he had a red hat maybe, but I lost it. I hated him. Why would anyone choose him. He was boring, ugly, but I didn't want to be ungrateful because I wanted a cabbage Patch Kids so bad, and I got one, and my mom said my dad had gone all around town and found the last boy doll in town. So I pretended I loved it, But every time I looked at it, like I knew it could have been better. That's not what I was given. That was the first time I remember feeling the gray. It was like I didn't know if the sun still existed even though it was out. Everything was just cold, like I'd forgotten what warmth was, and I didn't know how to remember the sun. Maybe Kurt couldn't remember either, Maybe all he knew was cold. You gotta know warmth to feel the sun. Write that down the last thing right now, sick fucking. Lyric the folders in the room, keV looks round nothing piece. He's a notebook by the drum kit. Oh, Dizzy's notebook. keV rips out a sheet of paper, hands it to pea interior Dizzy's room. Short time later, Pe returns with a glass of water. Dizzy and keV begrudgingly coexist there on the floor, not close but not separate, partially eaten bontette on plates, almost like a burrito. The tube of rice rests on the banana leaves. The pork is in the middle, surrounded by a layer of beans and then of rice. They watch Naked Gun thirty three and a third. Kev's eyes stay on the screen. Every so often, Dizzy's eyes drift to keV. Pe gets a CD wallet and a yellow sports Discman from his bag on the bunk. He removes a disc with a white skeletal spiral. He adjusts headphones around his purple beanie nine inch nails. Eraser starts insects or aliens, playing instruments made of straws until the the drum start pounding. Pe gazes at Anna Nicole Smith on the TV Curvy Beautiful. He carefully takes out Dad's gift. Two sealed envelopes tied with a bizarre ribbon guitars alternating with the classic Groucho Marx black glasses, big nose mustache disguise. First letter is from Green Tree Prep, second is Saint John's Green Tree. First we regret to inform p exhales in relief. Jagged guitar's crashing. The song's vocals start, need you, dream you, find you, taste you, fuck you, use you, scar you break you. Pee quietly and meticulously peels open the Saint John's letter. Trembling, He unfolds the paper and reads congratulations. He closes his eyes slowly, deep breath scans further. The panel was particularly impressed by your distinct candor and courage that confirmed you are Saint John's material above any other factor. The song continues, lose me, hate me, smash me, erase me. PA's eyes dart above the letter to his friends. Kevin Dizzy both laugh at the movie. Resentment fades, smiles turn real. The song echoes peas thoughts kill me, kill me, kill me. keV blissfully eats the Vontette motions pe to push his headphones back. We'll have them at our feet, dude. P Weekly smiles. He puts the headphones on. Eraser continues, kill me, kill me, kill me. End deck two, Yeah Woo