Untraditionally: Panicking, Partying, and Prioritizing

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Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous. It's La La Kent. Welcome to untraditionally Lala. Hey, babes, it's La La Kent, Welcome to untraditionally Lala. Oh my gosh. Last week, what a vibe. So I had Amber Childers as my first guest on my Reinvented podcast, and I was so nervous because I was coming in and I'm like, Okay, even though the podcast is being reinvented, like I'm still still lalla. But there was something that happened that day where I don't want to say that I was in my head because it was actually quite the opposite. It was like, for the first time doing that episode with Amber, I was not having an out of body experience, like I felt very much in tune with myself the conversation, and that is when I knew, like, Wow, this reinvented podcast really is ringing true to who I am. And that was the best feeling in the world. And now you guys have been able to hear the episode and you've seen the new photo and the new name, and I'm really into the fact that you guys are into it, because that is always like nerve wracking. You're like Okay, we're making a change, but like, is am I gonna like cracker barrel my ass off with this whole? Like is my stock gonna plummet? Am I gonna have to go back anyway? We don't even have to worry about it because it didn't end up that way. So thank you guys for listening, thank you for sticking with me, thank you for remembering me on our downtime. I want to start with this is my first solo episode I've ever done, and I'm tripping balls, Like I think the only time I've done something solo solo is when I do Amazon Live. But Easton's there so I can kind of, like you know, talk some shit, and I feel like I'm not talking ad people, So just roll with me. This is new. It's just all new experiences. I had a really amazing and nerve racking experience last week. And before I jump into that, because I'm really excited to tell you guys about it, but today my daughter Ocean is going to an eye doctor appointment. And what I've noticed is she's got when she looks up, and it's only when she looks up her eyes kind of go. And I don't want this to come across as mean. I love my daughter. She's stunning, but she starts looking like a lizard. And so I'm kind of freaking out because we went to one doctor and they were like, there's, you know, nothing we can really do. You can do surgery if it bothers you, but unless you know she's got vision issues, then like, we wouldn't tell you to go and do surgery. And I'm like, you know, I really, at four and a half years old, don't want to have surgery for my daughter. She's young. But at the same time, if it's something that can't be fixed unless we do surgery, do I rock it until she says, like, Mom, I want to do the surgery. They said, doing it younger is the way to go. Like, I don't know, you guys, I know I'm probably being a nutjob, but this is what I've been dealing with all morning. We'll see what this second doctor says about her eyes. I don't know what the actual medical term for the condition is. I call it a lazy eye, which is like Layman's terms. My mom has one. It's genetic less than like thirty percent of people, which I guess seems like a lot. Maybe that's wrong. It's a very low percentage of people who were born with a lazy eye actually have someone a part of their family who inherits it. That's just what I've been told. I don't know no doctor, I'm no scientific science person. I'm just I'm just listening to what I listened to and spewing it onto you. All right, let's talk about my experience, because the past I want to say, Well, since Ocean was born, it's you know, four and a half years, my life has taken a bit of a turn, and I have to think about things that I normally wouldn't have to think about. And I started realizing how the stakes were much higher when my business manager called me and said, you know, you have Ocean. We really need to get you life insurance. And I was like, what the fuck is this? You know, I've seen twenty twenty where people kill people for life insurance, Like, why do I need it? No one's trying to kill me. It's much much broader than that. So we're going through just all of these questions and the process of getting life insurance for myself in case something happens to me. And then Sos is born and we have to go back and do the whole bit again of like doing the blood tests, answering the questions. It's like a very long process to get life insurance and then my eye situation appears. Right. So, for those of you who don't know, this was probably I think it was in May. I noticed the slightest discolor on my eye and the color was like very like a faint butter yellow. Butter yellow's very in these days, right, But I'm not trying to have it on my fucking eye. I don't need my eye wearing butter yellow. Okay, body cool ie, not happening. And I googled it and it said, you know, this is basically the equivalent to a callus on your hand. Your eye with just like the natural elements will start forming what is called the pininguecula and it's like a very slight yellowish discoloration. There's nothing you can do about it. And I'm like, all right, sexy, fine whatever. This was probably a few months before I went to the optometrist in May. They tell me, uh, you know, not to worry about it at my initial appointment. But I'm starting to notice that this faint yellow spot is now having like these bright veins going right to it, and I'm like, that looks not right. I'm like, this looks like these veins may be feeding this pinguacula. I hate that fucking name. By the way, It's so every time I say it, I'm like, ugh, it gives me like the ick, kind of like moist. It's like pinguacula. Oh, vomit. So I'm luminifying my ass off. That's working. But then it starts to get raised and it almost looks like a blister and it's bright red, but the actual pinguecula is like white. I go back into the optometrist. They're like, hey, we need to just give you a steroid. It's inflamed. I'm like, excellent. So I at this point in time am set to go to film a show overseas. I'm not gonna say what the show is. You guys know it. I'm super excited, but I'm like, holy fuck, I can't be on camera with this shit on my eye. So I'm calling every doctor i possibly can to like get myself into surgery to remove it so I can go and film this show. In the meantime, I have Lindsey Hubbs hitting me up being like I had the surgery. My eyes still read. I'm getting a lot of people in the DMS, and I apologize if you've heard this story already, but it leads to why I went and did what I did a couple days ago. So I text my friend who's like a grandfather to me, Robert Shapiro. I've known him for many years. He has hooked me up with a lot of people in the past. If it's you know something that is urgent and I need it immediately, I call Bob. I said, I have this thing on my eye. I gotta get it taken care of. He sends me to a specialist that he highly recommends. This guy is super hard to get into. He gets me in the next day, he takes one look at it, you guys, and says, that's not a penguecula. That is pre cancer, and I would like you to go to another specialist who's also very difficult to get into, just to make sure. Maybe she does a biopsy. The next day they get me in, she takes one look at it. She was like, you know, he wants me to buyopsy it, but I don't need to biopsy it because I know what it is. It's pre cancer, and we're going to be starting you on five f you drops, which are chemotherapy drops in the eye. And I told her, well, girl, I got to be out of here in a few weeks. And she laughed at me and she was like, you're not going anywhere. You will be in this office every two weeks for the next three months, and after that we're going to reevaluate, and if all goes as planned, the five f you will help, and then I'm going to see you every four months for the rest of your life. And I was like, excellent, Wow, this is really fucking weird. I asked her, like, what causes this, and she was like, honestly, it's bad luck. There are many people who are in the sun all the time. There are many people who are exposed to the natural elements of life and they don't get pre cancer in their eyes. So cut to where we are now, the pre cancer is gone. The five FU drops worked beautifully. My body responded amazing. I had little to no side effects at all. But now I start tweaking out because I'm hearing about all of these people who, you know, they had a headache or they had something on their arm and then it turned out to be something catastrophic. So for me, I was thinking, where did this thing in my eye, this pre cancer come from? Where did it start? Like I I'm all about falling back when something makes sense the whole, you know, just bad luck. There's no reason it doesn't work for me, even though that could very well be the case. Right again, I'm no doctor, so I reached out to Preneuvo. For those of you who don't know what Preneuvo is, they do MRI scans. They do it for your head. They also do full body and because this thing in my eye, I've been experiencing weird, tingling sensations that go from the center of my head up to the top. I don't get headaches often, but I do suffer from migraines on occasion, which is why I also love botox. I love it because it de wrinkles my forehead and makes my forehead look like glass, but it also minimizes my migraines. So I was like, I got to get in just for peace of mind. And let's remember, I want to say that I live a pretty healthy lifestyle now, like it's well balanced. I exercise, I feel like I eat well on occasional smack McDonald's, like who doesn't. But also I have to remember what I did in my past. I was a heavy drinker back in the day. I was a vapor back in the day, And I just want to make sure that all of those things, although I don't do them now, have they followed me in too thirty five And there's just so many things that we talk about and hear about it. It's like the microplastics, and then you hear about someone who lived such a healthy lifestyle and like dropped dead from a heart attack. I want to know what the fuck is going on in my body period. I'm going to read this on here. A preneuvo scan is whole body MRI scan that detects over five hundred potential medical conditions, including cancers, cys aneurysms, often before symptoms even appear. So this is what I was told when I went in and they were walking me through it. They said, the reason why cancer is such a terrifying word is because there's no symptoms, and by the time you catch it, you're in stage three or four. So what if there was a machine that you could do once a year that could catch it before you hit those stages where the survival rate is ninety percent plus. I like those odds. I'm not a gambler, But if you're telling me that you can put me in a machine once a year and look at every single thing in my body and then send me off to the races, knowing that my children will not have to use the life insurance that I've gotten for them, like, I want to do that. So I go in the first question, though, you guys are like, so are you claustrophobic? I'm like, well, I mean, I don't know what are you putting me in here? I've never done this before, Like I don't think I am, but like, no one's putting me in small tubes on the rag, So I'm like, not really sure before we even start or if you guys ever choose to do this, which I highly recommend if you are claustrophobic, I most definitely take like a beta blocker and on the form with prenuvo that they send you that you fill out, like one of the first questions is are you claustrophobic? If you are, they'll prescribe something to you at your pharmacy and all will be good. Let me tell you something. This place, this is what I'm gonna rave about the most. They put Netflix on for me. I literally walk in there like are you claustrophobic? I said, we're gonna find out together, and they said would you like Netflix? And I was like, Seinfeld is on Netflix, so that's gonna be a fuck yeah for me. And the way that they lay you in there, I'm like, oh, this is totally fun and like I'm vibing. Oh no, oh no, bitches, just see you wait because I'm like, this is how it is. They're gonna shoot me through the two I'm gonna have a heyday. Oh my god. They're like patting my legs. They've got something over my legs and I'm like, okay, that's kind of nice. It moves to my size that they pad and I'm like, right, it's like a way to blink it. We're fine. Then my stomach and I was like all right now, now I'm starting to feel like I'm panicking. Then they put something over your face, your head from here down to maybe like mid tit maybe chest, I don't know, depending if you have fake boobs or not. And there's the smallest little hole at the top of you, guys, and I was like, okay, law you know what, You're a fucking bad bitch. This is where you're gonna sit and you're going to you preach all the time about like if your mind is powerful enough to talk you into something, it's most certainly powerful enough to talk you out of something. So I'm actively talking myself out of claustrophobia. It was the most difficult thing I've ever fucking done, because like, too late, man, they can't prescribe me something like at my pharmacy. We're here. Then they put this like mirror on top of it, so through the hole there's a big screen TV in the back of you, and the mirror shows you Seinfeld or whatever you want to watch. I highly recommend Seinfeld because they put me into the thing and in the headphones, you guys put me into the MRI machine. In the headphones, I'm like balls deep Overary's Deep and Seinfeld and just living my best life. They're telling me what to do, like breathe in, breathe out. If it's a woman like it, like an AI character, breathe in, breathe out, hold your breath. And there were a few times that I was so so dout watching Seinfeld. I didn't fucking do it. I was chilling. I'm sure they were looking at my brain activity, being like this woman might be brainde because there's not much happening, not much brain activity. He would come through the guy like running the machine. He'd come through on the speaker and be like, Hey, so we're just gonna do that again. If you could just listen to the woman, she's gonna tell you exactly what to do. When you just have to follow exactly what she tells you to do him like, you would think that's simple, right, You would think that's a simple thing to do. So I will say the overall of like if you're claustrophobic, totally easy. If you get claustrophobic, take a beta blocker. They have twenty two locations prenew Vo does, and they have said that their goal is to have some They want it in every major city so that no matter where you are in the United States, there's one that you can drive to. And I loved this because when I was talking to I guess the tech she was so kind, but she was like, if you think about it, when you go into a doctor, you're allotted. Let's just say an average, give or take of seven minutes. They have seven minutes per patient, and you, in that moment, are a statistic to them. No, doctors do great work. I don't want to dismiss what doctors do for us, like I'm all about science and all of the thing. But she put it so perfectly. You at thirty five years old, La, La, You go into a doctor and you say, I'm having something going on in my head. I'm concerned. Tell me what you're feeling. I'm feeling this. I'm concerned that I may have something going on in my head, tumor whatever word you want to place in there. They're immediately going to say, from her chart, she's thirty five years old, she doesn't drink, doesn't smoke. They're going to say, statistically, this is a healthy human. The likelihood of her having a brain tumor is very low. They're not going to give you an MRI. It's basically like a prescription. A doctor prescribes you a pill. A doctor prescribes you an MRI, and those MRIs that you have done run upwards. And this blew my mind when she told me this run upwards of twenty thousand dollars and they take three to four hours to do a full body MRI. Preneuvo has the location I went to. They have five machines. The overall appointment in total was seventy minutes. I was in the machine for forty five So for context, I watched two episodes of Seinfeld and then the beginning stand up part of like Jerry Seinfeld. That's that's how long the appointment while I was in the machine. And these full body scans at Preneuvo are twenty five hundred dollars. Now, I know that everyone is going to hear that. I know that that is. That's a lot of money that is not lost on me. If we're going to compare twenty five hundred dollars, No one needs to say to you, yes, this is what you need. I'm going to give you a phone number. You're gonna call them, tell them that this is your doctor. I'll send over your paperwork. You literally pick up the phone, you call them, and you say, I want a full body MRI. No questions asked, You're there, right, you can get the sky on twenty five hundred dollars. I know it's a lot of money, but that compared to twenty thousand plus to see what's going on in your body. There's nothing more important than your health. My mom has always said, without your health, you have nothing. You would have all the money in the world, you could be doing all of the funniest, most fantastic things on the planet. If you're not healthy, there's a really, really big problem. Right, you can't live a happy life. So I don't know when it switched for me. I used to be in the mindset of keeping my blinders on and not knowing something. I'm better off because then I'll stress about it. But there's so many things that you could be feeling in your legs, your arms, your back, whatever it may be. And the tech was talking to me saying, you know, you could be feeling something in your head and it has nothing to do with your head, because your body, it's all connected, it's all firing to each other. And what this scan is going to do is get to the root of the problem. And you know, me thinking about my health. You know, I think most people that listen to this podcast, you know, we have loved ones, we're parents. We think about what life would be like if we weren't here. Anymore, at least I do since I had children and I have a very as you guys know, untraditional households. I have a four year old Ocean with somebody. She has a dad. It's very not normal, but I had her the old fashioned way, and then Sosa, who was conceived via donor. If something were to happen to me, you guys, I'm not going to get a mo I'm going to keep my head on straight and breathe. Something were to happen to me, And I thought about this while I was doing my life insurance as well. Ocean has a dad, so we know where where she would go. And there is a very high possibility because I don't trust the other side and the other side probably doesn't trust me, and that's fine. It is what it is. There's a high possibility that my brother, my mom, and Sosa, Ocean's sister would never see Ocean again till you know, she was old enough to reach out. That would be a possibility, and that's something that has always weighed heavy on me, and I've put in in paperwork. You know, if something happens to me, there needs to be a significant amount of money that goes to my family. Not just to take care of them, but if they need to fight for ocean, they have the means to do so. Sosa. I know this sounds horrible. If I weren't here anymore, this is so morbid. I'm sorry that I'm even going here, but I think it's important to talk about because we all need to be on our game and have a plan B. I live by a plan B, Sosa, I worry less about because if something were to happen to me, I know that she is in the best of hands. She's got my mom, she's got my brother. But the real reasoning for me going into preneuvo was to know that God forbid, I have something going on which I don't have the results back yet I will be able to get a hold of it before it's too late, and if everything goes to shit for real, I just want to know what's going going on so that my girls are going to have each other. I know that sounds so dark, but that's where my mind goes when I think about things like this. So that's where my mind goes. And I'm sorry that I got maybe a little too deep and dark and a little morbid, but that's just the way my perspective and life and outlook have shifted since since having kids, and I know I'm not the only one who who looks at life this way. I really really do take I like to think great care of myself. You know, my kids are my number one priority and I live and breathe for them. They're the They're the besides my sobriety, because without my sobriety, I wouldn't be able to do any of the things I do. But they're the proudest thing that I have ever done in my life. And without me taking care of myself, everything is just kind of gonna fall apart. And I do when people ask me when they say, how do you balance? How do you prioritize? And that's not always easy, and I understand that. You know, it's hard when we're waking up and taking care of kids, making lunches, doing drop off. You know you could fit time before all of that to go work out, But like, who wants to fucking do that? Or this sounds like so much fun, you guys, after the longest day of taking care of everybody else, then you go work out. I'm not trying to fucking do that either, Like it's a lot. The balancing act you are seen, I am with you. There's got to be a version of us being able to be present for our families and also taking care of ourselves. So I'm going to be totally honest. When the clock hits a certain point at night and my daughter, Ocean, who still sleeps with me, you guys, and you know, last night she was moving all over the bed and I was like, that's it. Tomorrow night, she's going in her own bed. We're gonna start sleeping in our own bed. And I had a moment of pause, going if I put her in her own bed, that's another phase of life that has just closed that will never come back. And then of course I cry because that's just who I am. And I'm like, okay, we're not putting her in her own bed because I'm gonna miss the moving around. I'm not ready for that phase to close. We'll just wake up and look tired and puffy every day, like I don't give a fuck, right, we'll look hot at some point. Again, today's not the day. Tomorrow won't be either. We've got makeup. Fuck it. So Ocean sleeps with me, but there are times where she'll get out of bed like I'm very I don't want to I say strict, but I'm I like my routine. I am a virgo. If the wind blows in a direction that I was not planning, I panic, so I start. I remember saying to my mom the other day, because she was like, we're gonna bake cookies. I go, it's five thirty and my mom goes, ooh. I was like, I'm such a fucking square. But I said that because I'm like, you're you're telling her you're gonna bake cookies. She still has a plate of food. You're gonna spend the next hour try and get her to eat that, and now you've promised this is putting us at the seven o'clock hour. I'm panicking because that's going to infringe on mom time. I like to get my kids. Sosa's in bed by six six thirty, okay, And I've taught her. She's a year old. I've taught Sosa. I'm sure, Well, I'm gonna say this and then she's gonna regress and it's gonna be a fucking nightmare. But it's okay. We roll with the punk. She will sit in her crib and talk to herself for like twenty minutes before she goes to bed. I'm cool with it. She needs her alone time, right, that's Sosa's time. Ocean is obsessed with watching sharks murder things. That's how she likes to go to bed. We get in bed at seven, enjoy watch the shark fuck up this person. I don't know, like if that's what puts you to bed, This is Ocean time. And guess what Once those two things are done, it is mommy time. If Ocean gets out of that fucking bed and comes in and asks me for anything, I tell her, Mom's off the clock. My day's done. I'm no longer mom anymore. I love you so much. I adore you. Get in the bed, but I'm hungry. Kitchen's closed. Kitchens closed, Mom is closed. Everything that you need right now is closed, except for that fucking bed and the shark attacks you're watching. Those are open. Go for it, have a hayday. I'm trying to teach her to also take time for herself. You know it's been a long day. She's in preschool. You know that finger painting is no fucking joke. Take time for yourself. Mom time is so important. I will sit in the bath and literally stare into the oblivion thinking about probably for me, thinking about a lot. I need to work on meditation, clearing the mind, thinking about everything I've ever done wrong in my life, saying the Serenity prayer twenty seven times to get me out of the funk. But I really do feel like we, as moms, especially, we suffer from that mom guilt where we feel like we have to be on for everybody. Twenty four to seven. My kid's upset and doesn't want to go to bed, Get the fuck to bed. It is mom time, And I think if you start there, it always starts at home. Home is your safe space. You're supposed to feel comfortable. You're supposed to feel like you can take a load off. The pressures of life are so high. You gotta worry about the husband and feeding and doing whatever it is that he fucking needs. We are put on the back burner. Stress, you guys, is the number one killer of all of us. I believe stress is what took my dad at the age of sixty four. I believe that stress not. I believe it's fact. It causes ulcers, It puts a tremendous amount of stress on your heart, and I am a stressor. So when people look at me and they're like, wow, I's a square, she goes about it at like seven. I have to my health is very very important to me. I want to be present. I want to be on my fucking game. I want to try to look my best. Doesn't always happen, but who cares? And you have to sit and prioritize yourself in moments that you feel like it's just it's just too much. I used to watch regular TV where you would have ads, and I remember this woman, I think, like a Milano's cookie ad, and she was sitting in the bathroom and she had the door locked and there's kids banging on the door, and I was like, this is like such a freaking weird ad, Like who would ever eat Milanal cookies next to a toilet? Me? Now, me, that's what I do. I eat Milano's next to the fucking toilet just to get one little bit of just WU saw time. And I hope with this scan, this prenuva scan, when it comes back that we're in the clear. Right. I think my biggest thing that I'm concerned about, which is wild because I was talking to you guys for those of you who watched The Valley Zach Wickham his boyfriend is an optometrist, and I was talking to him about the ice situation and I was like, I'm just worried, Like where did it come from? Is something going on in my head? He was like, I really don't think one has anything to do with the other. So after this prenuvo scan, I would say, my two biggest things that I'm concerned about. One is my head. I don't know why I would be having tingling sensations cooling sensations. I want to know what's going on there. The next would be I'm extremely concerned about the level of stress and pressure that I put on myself and how it has manifested itself inside of my body. That's the second thing that I'm I'm really very much concerned about. And the third I would say is the sea word because cancer runs in my family, and the women in my family have been older when they've gotten that diagnosis. But my grandmother on my dad's side passed away from cancer, and my grandmother on my mom's side passed away from cancer. So those things scare me and keep in mind you guys, I go and get my ultrasounds on my boobs. And anybody who tells you we do mammograms after the age of forty, I want you to fight for yourselves and advocate for your health. Get in there. If you don't do a mammogram, then what do you do For a woman of my age, I want to say, they're gonna give you an ultrasound. And I remember, at the age of fourteen, my grandmother was diagnosed with caner or no. My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer, and I was terrified that I had breast cancer. You guys, I was fourteen and I went in to get an ultrasound on my boops. There was It wasn't a lump that I was feeling. It was breast tissue because I was getting my tig old bitties. Lucky for me, right, but I was concerned. Advocate for your health. You don't have anyone else to do it. I am going to have a discount code that Prenuvo was nice enough to give to my listeners and to my followers. I will post that you can go onto their website and you can see all of the locations that they have. I also didn't realize that these machines, you guys, cost one point three million dollars. They are insanely high tech, their state of the art, their brand new. A lot of hospitals that you go to, y'all that I just realized, they bring in the machinery, the MRI machines, and they actually build the hospital around those machines because you can't get them through the fucking door. So these machines that other hospitals are using, they could be twenty years old because you just can't bring in new machines, you know, whenever you want PRENEUVEO, I highly recommend. I'm very nervous. I should have my results back in just a couple of days. I'll keep you guys updated on what is said. But I think my main thing with this podcast beyond just prioritizing yourselves and making yourself someone who has a voice. It's so easy to lose our voice in this world. We find it so much easier to just shut up, you know. We find it so much easier with all of the information that's so accessible at all times, to kind of shut down. I feel like we're all running on autopilot, and I get it. It's a lot, but I'm hoping with this podcast that we can take a moment to say, you know what, I'm going to advocate for myself when someone tells me no, and I think something is wrong. You know you better than anybody else, better than any doctor. You know when something is not right. And if you go to a doctor and they're giving you an answer that just does not sit right in the tummy, Please make that known because I want everyone to catch things before it's it's too late. We've seen, you know, Teddy Mellencamp who has been advocating and she single handedly changed the dermatologist game. I said that on an episode. I want to say a few months back, I went to the dermatologist because I've also been obsessing over that where I'm like, there's a shreckle popped up, what the fuck is this? And he's like, you're fine. I just saw you last week, just saw you last week. And I told him, I was like, you know, Teddy is a friend of mine, and I'm just like, you know, she's out here and she's being a voice. And he said, let me tell you something about Teddy Mellencamp. She has single handedly changed the dermatology game and beyond, and I just found that. I sent her a text and I was like, you don't have to respond to this, but I find it important for you to know that while you're in the fight for your own life, how many lives that you're saving. I'm so sorry. So I found it very important to talk about my experience with prenuvo. I know that we hear the twenty five hundred dollars and we lose our That is a lot fucking money. And I know we all work so hard for our money. I highly highly encourage you guys to make it a priority prioritize yourselves. I know that we all get caught up in life and it becomes very intense and sometimes not not knowing we think is better than knowing. And I really want to break that. You know, my mom lives in this world of like everything's fine, mind over matter, and I'm trying to break that cycle with my mom as well. I don't know if that's a generational thing, but I'm like, no, like we she hadn't had a mammogram, I want to say, in ten years. And when I heard that, my jaw dropped to the floor. I was like, what what are you doing? So if you're not doing it for yourselves, do it for the people who love you. Wow, I did not expect that. I'm really sorry because we like you around. So I'm gonna post the discount code, use it, take advantage of it. Prenuvo is so excited to be getting the word out. I am very hopeful that they're going to have locations in every major city so it's accessible to everybody. And I find that to be a very, very beautiful thing. I'm very excited about what they're doing. And isn't that crazy. Other things used to excite me write like a new handbag, maybe like some Cubic Zirconia's from Bloomingdale's. Now I'm like, oh my gosh, pre Nuvo mri machines are going to be in every major city. Oh I am a square and I'm only thirty five, and I feel like I act like I'm ninety, but mentally I feel twenty one. Anyway, you guys, I hope that you enjoyed this episode. I love you. Prioritize yourselves, go love on yourselves. If you ain't doing it for you, do it for the people you love. I'm going to catch you for a bonus on Monday and then again next Wednesday. Love you guys. Bye,