Don’t Listen To This Episode Without A Box of Tissues

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Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous, It's Lala Kent.

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Speaker 2: Welcome to Untraditionally Lala.

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Speaker 1: Hello, my loves It is Lala Kent.

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Speaker 2: Welcome back to Untraditionally Lala. I'm here with te t Boy. Hey hey, hey, hey, hey, I'm what's happening.

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Speaker 1: How's it going?

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Speaker 3: It's going. You think you get over it and then you just get back into it, you know.

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: So it's been a week since we made the very difficult decision to.

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Speaker 1: Send Lily to Doggie have been.

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Speaker 2: I asked Easton to be on this episode, so I'm not just crying to myself. So I think we've been really really open about Lily and just what's happened to her over the past year.

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Speaker 1: I want to say, I feel like she had.

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Speaker 2: A significant decline about two and a half years ago, almost three, when we all went to Hawaii for the first time and we were gone for ten days.

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Speaker 1: We left Lily.

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Speaker 2: With a friend and she was in a completely new environment for the longest time that I've left her ever ever. And when I came home, I had been told like the dog Lily has a.

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Speaker 1: Hotspot, and I was like, oh, she gets those all the time.

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Speaker 2: I'll be home tonight and when I get home, her entire back leg is just raw from her butt down to.

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Speaker 3: Like her ankle, her achilles.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and then he said like she had been licking it a lot, which is obviously normal. But I wake up the next morning with her, and you know, I babed it because she gets those. She was getting hotspots quite a bit towards the end, and so I had all the stuff that I needed from the vet, babied it, and I had white drapes in my room. And at this point in time, we were still at the Palazzo in West Hollywood, across from the Grove, and I wake up and it's like it stinks and she's soaking wet, and I'm like, there's no way that this is just from her licking herself.

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Speaker 1: Again, this is like three years ago.

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Speaker 2: And I look at my drapes where she would lay and it was just like yellow, which I knew right then, Okay, she's peeing herself. So I then put her in diapers, and that's how we were doing the whole bit. We got her back on her feet to where she didn't have to wear the diapers anymore. She was on incontinence medication. Cut to we move into the new house. I'm about a week away from giving birth to Sosa, and mom is yelling to me and keep in mind, you guys, I'm noticing that she's acting very different.

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Speaker 1: She's like falling down the stairs.

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Speaker 2: It got to the point where at the new house she couldn't even go up the stairs to sleep in my room, which is where she would normally sleep, because she would literally face plant down the stairs.

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Speaker 1: So she's in my mom's room.

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Speaker 2: My mom yaells up to me and she said, Lily can't move and it looks like she's seizing.

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Speaker 1: So I run in there. She's like stiff as.

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Speaker 2: A board and her eye she's finally like coming to her.

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Speaker 1: Her eyes are fluttering back and forth.

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Speaker 2: I call the neighbor. Neighbor comes over. We put her in the car, take her to the vet.

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Speaker 3: And she.

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Speaker 2: Ended up having a stroke in the back of the car on the way on the way.

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Speaker 1: There to the vet's office. But she had seized at the house.

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Speaker 3: Here's the thing with a dog, you can never be too long winded because everybody can relate to you. Yeah, there's not one thing that somebody can't relate to with the dog. We've all had one yeah, you know. Yeah, And to be honest, I really like what you're saying, because I forgot that. We even put her in diapers for yeah, the first while we were getting her all prepped to see what was going on, I totally forgot.

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Speaker 2: So we get to the vet. That was the diagnosis is she's had a stroke. She would walk around after.

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Speaker 1: We got home. I will laugh at that, My sweet baby.

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Speaker 2: She would walk around and her head was cocked like this, and she was very off balance.

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Speaker 1: And that lasted for quite some time.

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Speaker 2: So then we had to put her on dramamine because her eyes were flickering. So he was like, the reason why she's falling over is because not because the head is cocked, but because the eyes will not stop going back and forth. So until that stops, which they gave her something, but he said it could take a couple of days till that stops. Give her the dramamine because that will help her not be so off balance. And then she was like heavily medicated from that time and when was that two years ago?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and then from there it just hurt. The medication just kept getting bigger doses or adding another Yeah.

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Speaker 2: Cut to where we were the past you know, few months she definitely could not.

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Speaker 1: I mean I kept the dog alive selfishly.

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Speaker 3: No, I mean we did. That's where I'm I have to laugh because I'll cry same emotion by the way I filled out like the quality of life. Yeah, and I don't know if people have done this, but it's like zero to nine when you're.

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Speaker 1: They have you do it at the vest office when you're struggling.

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Speaker 3: To make it if you don't know. And I filled it out and like I was being like, we'll just give her warm instead of two on this one because she wants to but you can't. But she wants to. And at the very end I added it up and I was like shot in hell, like she.

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Speaker 2: Was twenty six and that's when you know, like.

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Speaker 3: Okay, it was like thirty something and she was twenty six. Oh, and there was more to fill out, and I was like, I think we're done here, but like I was reading through things too, and it was like barking at the mailman. I was like, all right, she barks at people in the backyard, but it was like, does she get up?

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Speaker 1: I was like, she can't. She wants to, but she can't.

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Speaker 3: So that's where like filling that out, and like we had to pick the dog up for a year and a half.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, we had to take her out to go to the bathroom and there were multiple peas and poops in the house a day because she could she physically.

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Speaker 1: Could not move her own body.

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Speaker 2: Once we got her on her feet, you would have to just kind of hold her as if you were teaching a toddler how to walk. Walk.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and then she was good. But that was the other thing that was bad.

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Speaker 1: She walks became non existent at.

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Speaker 3: The yes, last couple months, the last three months.

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Speaker 1: Way more than that. Easton, when's the.

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Speaker 3: Last time we walked? I guess I hadn't.

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Speaker 2: I had not been able to take her on a walk since Soso was like brand new.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, but she would bark at like to go outside. That was the sad thing is like she couldn't get up. She'd bark to go out, and as we'd pick her up, you have to pick her up, and it's like putting stress on. So then she'd so then she'd pee or poop, and then it was it just became a whole lot, it did.

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Speaker 2: It became a whole lot for the family. It became a whole lot for the dog most importantly, like, so we had probably made an appointment I want to say, minimum of fifteen times to like go in and send her to the Rainbow Bridge, and every time we would cancel or the dog would walk back through the door because we just could not do it. And there were little things like I was talking to a friend who has put dogs down before.

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Speaker 4: And at this point I was just like looking for anybody to kind of tell me, like what to do.

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Speaker 1: I've had this dog since.

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Speaker 4: I was twenty years old, you know, And she gave me really amazing advice.

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Speaker 1: And I was like, because every time.

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Speaker 2: Like we make the appointment, you know, like she'll get up on her own and I'm like, oh my god, it's not the right time. And she said, you know, with both of my dog's law, like every time I would make the appointment, it would be so horrible for my dogs, and I would I would make the appointment and then they would do something. And she was like I finally came to the realization that that was like God telling.

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Speaker 4: You, like this is the right thing, like allow them to have this all the time.

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Speaker 2: And so on Wednesday last week, which was also the day of my seven year sober birthday. You, I had to make one of the most difficult decisions of my life. And I felt okay about it because I had tried to pick her up she had already peede herself, and as she was walking, or attempting to, I should say, her front legs gave out and she smacked her face on the floor and I just knew, like, I'm being really selfish.

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Speaker 1: This dog does not deserve.

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Speaker 3: This at all.

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Speaker 2: And we got her a happy meal at a McDonald's and it came in like this little boo basket for Halloween.

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Speaker 1: That when Ocean came home from school, I told.

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Speaker 2: Her, you know, Lily went to doggie Heaven and she was like, why did we do that? And I just told her because she deserved to, you know, run around and be a dog. And I told her, but Lily wanted me to give this to you, and she.

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Speaker 1: Thought that that was amazing.

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Speaker 2: She said, did the dog talk and tell you that she wanted to give this to me? I was like, yeah, pretty much she did. To no Ocean things that Lily talked.

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Speaker 3: That's what they do at the very end.

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Speaker 2: But it was like such a weird, beautiful and sad day that like this dog who has been through every monumental moment of my wife.

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Speaker 3: You know.

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Speaker 2: I remember getting her at the shelter. She was like like cutish, just black ball of her, and I packed her around like she was a chihuahua. I took her everywhere with me, And when we moved to La and like the shittiest apartment ever, she was just down for the ride, down for the cause. And if I couldn't bring her to a house party, we weren't going. If I couldn't take her on the boat, then we weren't going. And like she was there on the days that I was like so sad and just drunk, and she like gave me a reason to get out of bed, and like I had purpose and responsibility because of this dog, when like I truly had nothing to live for. I was just like drinking to numb myself, but I had to take care of her.

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Speaker 3: And yeah, but then you really did. How beautiful she got you out of bed? And then I feel like you got her out of bed. Yeah, you took her on her walks once you were sober. You were the best owner. And I feel like that's why she gave you sixteen years fifteen and a half. I was giving you the benefit of the time.

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Speaker 2: No, she lived a really long and beautiful life. She went on a lot of private jets.

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Speaker 3: She's done a lot of it. She's done more than I have, so a lot more than I have. She stayed at the Walldorf Astoria.

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Speaker 1: She stayed at Beverly Hills Hostel es.

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Speaker 3: The Easter story.

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Speaker 2: Oh my god, you guys, there was a time that I was living at Beverly Hills Hotel while I looked for a new apartment, and like we were living the dream.

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Speaker 1: I would order her like the.

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Speaker 2: Most fabulous breakfast of like salmon and chicken and eggs and rice. It did not agree with her stomach. It was Easter Sunday and we walk I'm taking her through the hallways of Beverly Hills Hotel to take her out to go potty, and I smell something and I look behind me. So I'd never put her on a leash, even though they told me to put her on a leash.

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Speaker 1: N that I'm not putting this dog on a leash.

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Speaker 3: She didn't have to. She hated other dogs and fear away from them and just stick.

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Speaker 1: She wanted no part of I just.

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Speaker 3: Know she just wanted to hang out by you, and that was it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, And so I look behind me and she's just like projectile shitting you guys through the Beverly Hills Hotel.

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Speaker 1: And I'm not joking.

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Speaker 2: This family comes out of their room and they're dressed to the fucking nines. Okay, ready to go to Pulo Lounge for Easter brunch. And the little boy goes ew it stinks that dog is pooping everywhere I was.

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Speaker 1: I was side. The staff would not have been sweeter. They were like, it's okay. They're like getting out this ginormous carpet clean.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you got that stand.

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Speaker 2: So I finally get her outside into the grass area and.

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Speaker 3: Do my business.

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Speaker 1: No, I wish, I wish Easton.

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Speaker 2: I'm sitting on the bench and she's continuing to projectile ship. But I'm like, at least it's on the lawn. A swarm of children comes out because that's where they're gonna find their Easter eggs. In that fucking area.

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Speaker 3: Literally, did you just put a cup over it?

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Speaker 1: I couldn't clean it up.

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Speaker 3: It was water. I ran.

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Speaker 2: I ran.

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Speaker 1: In the room the rest of the day.

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Speaker 3: I would have found a new hotel. It was. I'd have moved into an apartment that day.

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Speaker 1: Had I been.

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Speaker 2: Sober, I probably would have had my wits about me. But I was like coming off of a drunk one.

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Speaker 3: No, I don't think that would have been a tough time to be sober.

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Speaker 1: No.

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Speaker 3: No, if my dog is projectile shitting, get me drunk, I do not want to be aware of that. How can I help? Even sober, I'm just like, all right, buddy, they're gonna look at you like, at least this drunk is trying to get the dog out. If you're sober, They're like, this dude is a terrible owner.

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Speaker 1: That's true, That's very true.

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Speaker 3: I'm smelling diarrhea. I'm sorry, sober.

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Speaker 1: I know it was not good.

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Speaker 3: I tried to clean one diaper of lies of your child's. Oh, I'm not good with diarrhea, poop, vomit. If there's vomit poop, there's gonna be more vomit because I'm vomiting.

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Speaker 1: All right. Do I need to give a trigger warning for this episode?

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Speaker 2: Because I feel like all we've talked about is how much Lily goes to the bathroom, And there were.

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Speaker 1: So many other amazing moments you know, but like it's so funny.

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Speaker 3: My mornings are free.

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Speaker 2: That is really really yes, But like last night I went, I had this reaction where I paused the TV and I was like, oh, I can hear Lily and it was just like a ghost cry. Oh that hide in your mind? Yeah, And I kept pausing the TV and I'm like, I know I hear her.

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Speaker 3: I did. Do you want to know? There was a beautiful woman that commented I wish I remembered her handle, but she said in heaven, time works a little different, and by the time Lily looks back, you'll be there. Isn't that beautiful? Yeah, yeah you can cry, because I'm about to.

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Speaker 1: You should cry.

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Speaker 3: I'll take one. But yeah, no, I I laugh because it's just like she would even like I just remember her just like outside staring at me after she just pittled on herself, and I remember like looking at her like you're not ready though, No, you're not ready.

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Speaker 1: Nothing. We can't handle.

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Speaker 3: What's it called. I was talking to a friend the day we were putting Lily down, and I was like, yeah, we made an appointment, and he goes, oh, yeah, so she's going to go outside and do handstands because we have canceled so many times. And I was like, probably, yeah, she'll do something miraculous for us not to do what we're about to do. But the uh no, well the nurses you talking about her falling on her front legs. Yeah, I feel like I told you, But like they couldn't find a vein, Like the vein was so wormy that they couldn't even get a needle in it, so they had to go to the next and she was like, once that happens, we're losing, you know, function in our front legs now. So I was like, damn, yeah, this is the right time.

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Speaker 2: Yeah she Lily was like, and I hope no one gets offended by this. Just your higher power, whatever that is. But I always said, if Jesus had a dog, it.

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Speaker 1: Would be Lily, it would be Lily.

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Speaker 3: I agree with you.

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Speaker 2: She not that any dog has like a mean bone in their body, but just like there was something in her eyes that she was just very cool.

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Speaker 3: No, they were like I even said after she passed, I was like, my dog are They don't fucking hold a candle to Lily.

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Speaker 2: She just felt very like human like, And I love that I can watch back like Vander pump Roules season four.

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Speaker 3: And see her.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and she I had to shave her because I had just moved to California and I didn't know that dogs could get fleas in California because of the fucking humidity, Like in Utah, we don't have that shit. I'm like hiking. I'm not hiking.

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Speaker 3: I would People were like, be careful, your dogs can get fleas where like when you're hiking.

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Speaker 1: I got out of here, so I had to like take her to shave her whole body. She looked like such a dork and then she had like a flea caller on.

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Speaker 3: And she no, she's lived. I was telling mom, I was like, that dog I think lived so long because just so many lives. Like then you moved and I had her for a year or so while you were trying to just find your like footing and find the apartment. Then I think you moved home, grabbed her, moved back because you found your apartment. Could have been six months, not even and she was my dog.

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Speaker 5: Was not in Alhamborough for very long, yeah, but I but she was my dog and me and Dad would take her on a walk every day after this work and then you got her, and then you had her at that shithole apartment.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, then you had her in the Palazzo, then then.

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Speaker 1: A different apartment at the Palaza.

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Speaker 3: Yet then we moved to Mulholland yep, and then down to Palazzo.

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Speaker 1: You got one the day that I upgraded.

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Speaker 3: Later she did, oh she did. I'm telling you, if you wonder why she lives so many, it's like because she was looking around and there's a new house. She's like, Oh, this is fucking life, her life. I'm hoping Pablo and Bernice get it gone because they've lived a lot of lives too, from thirty six, forty eight to sixty eight to fifty one. Fucking go partying. Their face is so great, though, I know, can we talk about Lily's face? Not a piece of black on that face? No, she was full.

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Speaker 1: She had us like a mask of white fur.

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Speaker 2: And she used to be jet black though only there was like a little spot of white on her chest, like you couldn't even see her at Oh you gould it that she was jet black. And then she just started getting that sexy little it was like the eyebrows, and then she got like a little goatee.

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Speaker 1: I was like, you're kind of little billy goat Towards the end, I was like, oh, your old lady.

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Speaker 2: Yeah she is, And like when I would brush her, it was like gray throughout her black fur. I was like, oh, she's grown. She's like seeing some shit and there there are two moments. So I call her my road dog because like literally I used to drive from LA to Salt Lake all the time.

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Speaker 1: Because I couldn't afford a plane ticket.

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Speaker 3: Ticket drove home. Yeah.

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Speaker 2: We would just like pack her up, throw some ship into the you know, front seat, some treats for little some treats for me. And she was living the dream, sticking her head out of the window and you know how their traces get pulled back, just living.

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Speaker 1: It on the freeway. She'd give one fuck.

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Speaker 3: She was ready to roll.

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Speaker 2: And the day that I moved out of the Moule Holland house, it was a very quick process, but she was like chasing me around, panting because she obviously knew something was up.

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Speaker 1: They're all about they know what you're saying.

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Speaker 3: She was like the only thing, the only energy.

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Speaker 2: She kept looking in the car as I was packing it, like where's my place? Like I don't see any spot where I'm gonna go. And I had to look at her and say, Lily, seat is for you. This seat is for you. I'm not leaving you.

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Speaker 1: But she was on my ass that entire day and the moment we were ready.

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Speaker 3: Oh.

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Speaker 1: She also lived in the treehouse. That was weird too.

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Speaker 3: How long a month I visited?

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Speaker 1: I visited was the same house.

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Speaker 3: I remember going in and I went dark in here, dock down? Why was it dark? Oh? The energy? Oh, like you're gonna have great energy in there. You just ran away. You had your dog and your child. I walked in there with two buddies in a van for a van trip, and I thought I need to get high immediately, so I did.

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Speaker 1: Lily liked it.

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Speaker 3: Lily was there when I got high.

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Speaker 1: When does she watch you? Yeah, she go to judge you.

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Speaker 3: And then I remember then we came in and made what I didn't land and made the that chicken pecat or whatever. Oh yeah, fire when you were high.

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Speaker 2: See everything like there every moment in my life, Lily was there because I wouldn't go anywhere without her.

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Speaker 1: And the thing that's I brought.

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Speaker 3: Me down that trip.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, we brought the other dog rippe.

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Speaker 1: They don't live long enough. We don't deserve That means no, that's.

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Speaker 3: The only downside to a dog. They don't live long enough.

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Speaker 2: I don't think My very first tattoo, you guys, was putting Lily on the back like where my achilles is. She's a thick lady. Lily was a thick lady. But my tattoo is also a thickly lily.

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Speaker 3: She she lost some weight. She was like Grandma who thinned up. Yeah, boy, she had some dick and she had some.

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Speaker 1: Hops towards the end, like Lily hated getting bad.

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Speaker 3: Seen her once shaven, that's it. Twice no shaven for the fleas, and then the last time just because she was hot. And then she got a little alopeci and then we never did it.

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Speaker 1: I remember she also beat alopecia.

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Speaker 2: We shaved her and her fur wasn't coming back in places.

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Speaker 3: And right on the back of her butt, her butt, and that is like a jazz.

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Speaker 1: Yes, that was the thickest of the fur.

00:23:43
Speaker 3: And I love giving dogs a good butt rub.

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Speaker 2: We couldn't even touch it. We were I was like, you can't touch her rump because or not her rump is that, but I was going to lose all of her fur, and god damn it, we got that fur back and.

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Speaker 3: Thriving and never cut it again. No, we couldn't. We almost had to, but we didn't.

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Speaker 1: What was your favorite thing about will?

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Speaker 3: Her presence? When she could move like I'd like, just honestly, sitting in just bed and she'd walk in and then just jump up and just and just lay down. Yeah, she was just a good presence. Like. I just loved how she'd listen. She was a best cuddler.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, she was a good cuddler.

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Speaker 3: My favorite thing, honestly, Yeah, just her presence. I liked her just around. Yeah, I What was your favorite thing?

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Speaker 2: Oh gosh, there are so many things that I loved about her. I remember when I started showing with.

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Speaker 3: Ocean, would she lay on your tummy?

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Speaker 2: She would lay with me because I was alone most of the time, so like Lily was was my little support system. And I remember being super nauseated, like the first trimester, and go into the BA bathroom to do my business and I would be done and look behind me and she was just sitting there staring at me, making sure.

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Speaker 1: That I was okay.

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Speaker 2: And then I remember taking a bath pregnant with Ocean, and she put her head down on the bathtub.

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Speaker 3: Do you remember when she did, didn't you? I feel like you had an Instagram post of that, Yeah, and she was just like yeah, she would just sit there and watch me.

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Speaker 2: I was like, Lily, I promise you, when this baby comes, I will never love anybody or anything more than I love you.

00:25:33
Speaker 3: Did you lie to her? You lied to her.

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Speaker 1: I mean it's a different kind of love obviously.

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Speaker 3: Oh. They never love a dog the way I love you, Lily. No.

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Speaker 2: But there I know people who are like, I don't want kids, I just want my fur babies, and they love their dogs like their own children.

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Speaker 3: Well that's the thing, is you are correct. There's a huge difference between like a dog and a child's love. But I will forever like think of Lily as like the dog the dog. Yeah, like when like you know, when I have kids and things, or when I'm old in sixty or whatever, like I'll probably yeah, back in the day, I had a little black lab Lily. She was the best, you know, Like that's the dog like Brandon's truck. Yeah, you know, so I think Lily like that is my I think, you know, I know it's your dog, but that's the dog. There was a family dog to begin with as well. You just took her from everyone.

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Speaker 1: Well, she was not a family dog.

00:26:29
Speaker 3: She was yours. But when she was around the family.

00:26:33
Speaker 2: And we loved her, you guys, When I adopted her, I had to go to Vegas to work and she had to like get fully vaccinated and spade before I could actually bring her home. But in that time period, I had to go to Vegas anyway. I pull in the driveway home from the airport, the garage door is up. I'm still living in Salt Lake City. She's maybe six months old, tiny little black ball, and she's just sitting there staring at the garage door. And I am like, why is the garage door up? Why is this dog not on a leash? I walk in the house and I'm like, why is my Why is Lily just sitting outside with nothing on her? She could We lived on like a very busy street somewhat yeah, and my mom, as clueless as she is, I was like, I didn't even know she was out there. It's fast forward to today. She will she would still. She was not a wanderer.

00:27:47
Speaker 3: Have there been small moments over the past couple of days where little things remind you of her.

00:27:54
Speaker 2: Besides all of the like ghosts sounds that I'm hearing, I was just gonna say, there's and I have to laugh because we did it selfishly.

00:28:04
Speaker 3: But it was it's not like she'd would come up and like hit my hand and it's like, oh, where's her nose. It's like the picking up or the whining. Those were she wasn't a dog anymore. No, but those are the things. So nothing really reminds me.

00:28:21
Speaker 1: I just have a thought of her, You just have like memory.

00:28:24
Speaker 3: Yeah, but nothing is like, oh, that just reminded me of her.

00:28:27
Speaker 2: Yeah, because you have to remember, in this new house, there weren't many memories of her being the dog that she once was. You know, she I couldn't take her on walks anymore.

00:28:39
Speaker 3: Now, and when you bought when you bought the house your home, she was still able to walk upstairs, but your stairs weren't carpeted, so she couldn't. And then by the time you carpeted them, she couldn't walk upstairs. No, so she like we'd carry her upstairs most times.

00:28:56
Speaker 2: Yeah. The one thing that's hard for me is going into Mom's room now because that was like her little safe space and like where her bad used to be.

00:29:05
Speaker 1: It's not there anymore.

00:29:06
Speaker 3: It will be do you want it there? I mean a different dog on it, because Bernie loves loves it in Mom's room too, So I think, and I honestly think Bernie and Lily had a little gal bond because they would always lay together. Pablo really as much.

00:29:24
Speaker 2: No, but Pablo, I would walk in and look at Lily and her hair would be everywhere, and I'm like, okay, Pablo groomed Lily today.

00:29:31
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, he was hungry.

00:29:33
Speaker 2: No, but I think that he knew that she was no.

00:29:37
Speaker 3: Not no. And that was the other things that like I started to notice is like, have you have you noticed Bernice goes over to the house more to my house? Yeah? Yeah, I think that, And that saddened me. I was like, wow, I don't think Bernice wanted to be around.

00:29:57
Speaker 1: She didn't want to be around.

00:29:58
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I think she was sad, like you could make me cry.

00:30:02
Speaker 1: You think that she knew like after.

00:30:05
Speaker 3: The fact, No, like I think because Bernice would go in and lick Lily, yeah, and then go back home and it's almost like I feel like she didn't want to, like she knew she was sick. Yeah, because now she's over there all the time. But yeah, it just made me think, like wow, because Bernice would always be around her, and then at the very end when she was really sick, Bernice ever wanted to be over at the house. It just made me think, Yeah, but.

00:30:34
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, I don't.

00:30:37
Speaker 2: I obviously have so many memories of Lily because she was a part of my life since I was, you know, twenty years old, and I I don't think I could be twenty or I don't think I could be seven years sober without her.

00:30:59
Speaker 1: The morning that.

00:31:01
Speaker 2: I woke up on October twenty second of twenty eighteen, just felt overwhelmed by all of the feelings and knowing that I had to get sober, Like she was on the bed, just like staring at me, and like she was the one who I shared that moment with of like we're gonna She had.

00:31:25
Speaker 3: Different eyes, she had human eyes. I'm proud of you for what you did, and I'm grateful for Lily that she was a huge crutch for you because now you're on your own feet, you know, without that dog. I don't think I don't really believe that you would be here because we would talk to you, even Mom and me and like on the phone, and you would be you know, drunk, screaming, angry, and you know, the conversation would move on and then it got to tears. But then you would always go, Okay, well I need to feed Lily, I need to get Lily water, I need to let her out. So it's almost like everything that would go on. She almost brought you back to center. Yeah she did. She's she gave you.

00:32:14
Speaker 2: Everyone always has that, Like I believe that one dog or animal that they're like, okay, this one took a piece of meat with them.

00:32:25
Speaker 3: I have a question on what are your thoughts on getting a dog after one passes before they pass no waiting how because a lot of people do it different ways. How.

00:32:42
Speaker 2: I mean, my I can't even number one. My life is like very busy right now, and I'm also just very heartbroken. No, And I get you, you know, like going out and getting another dog that would be a It just wouldn't make any sense, you know, And I know that I wouldn't want that dog and be like.

00:33:13
Speaker 3: Yeah, you I feel well, Lily called to you. I feel like that was all like.

00:33:18
Speaker 2: No, the moment I saw her, I was like you, this is like my this is my soulmate.

00:33:23
Speaker 1: I would feel it.

00:33:25
Speaker 2: Yeah, So I don't I don't want to get a new dog anytime soon, you know.

00:33:33
Speaker 1: I have.

00:33:34
Speaker 2: The day that she passed away, I called production because I was supposed to. I guess I shouldn't say passed away. The day that we sent her to Heaven, I called production because I was supposed to film the whole day. But we were doing something for my silver birthday and I was like, I can't make it to this first thing. And I was like, and I'll let you know about tonight. And Mom was like, you need to. You need to go and like celebrate seven years of sobriety because that's a big deal.

00:34:02
Speaker 3: That's what we wanted to do, because me and Mom talked to you like you need to do it for you. Yes, these are sad times, but like you need to go celebrate that she got you to this day. Yeah, and how great that she chose to stick around and be a part of it on your seventh Yeah you know, yeah I do. And she's she is you, She is you. She said you can't have a day to yourself. I won't allow it. Let me butt in.

00:34:32
Speaker 1: She never would butt in.

00:34:33
Speaker 3: She did that.

00:34:35
Speaker 1: I loved her so much.

00:34:37
Speaker 2: She was never like even though our family would hit like explosions, because it did become a lot, but like I never I never looked at her like she was a burden.

00:34:51
Speaker 3: I think you get a number seven tattooed on you, I think that's dope. That's just my thought.

00:34:56
Speaker 1: I just want my heart to heal for a moment, and.

00:35:01
Speaker 3: I, yeah, I wish I could help you on that, but I don't think.

00:35:05
Speaker 1: Anybody should take time, you know.

00:35:09
Speaker 3: Yeah. And the good thing is we got two beautiful doggies at home and get a love on.

00:35:13
Speaker 1: Yeah, and they deserve to have love.

00:35:15
Speaker 2: There's been so much love and attention that was poured into Lily Kaushet.

00:35:21
Speaker 1: She needed us more.

00:35:23
Speaker 2: And now that's another reason why I'm like, I'm not getting another dog, because we need to give our love to Nissi and Pablo.

00:35:29
Speaker 3: Now I know. But here's my other thing to the dog thing of people, because I don't know how most people do it. I am the person who if I have a dog like Pablo and Bernice are amazing. So my thing is I have to. I have to get a dog before they pass because I need that puppy to take the mannerisms of these two, because these two dogs are so amazing that that you know, the new one will learn. And that's how I do it. So when he passed, I still have a piece of those dogs within that other one. So that's how I do it, so I can keep all my dogs living.

00:36:06
Speaker 1: All right, Well, let's let me just told you.

00:36:10
Speaker 3: Why Lily or why Pablo is the way Pablo is, and why I think Bernice is getting like Bernice obviously she is who she is, but I think she's changed over time. But Pablo is the way he is because he was your dog for two years. He just was a muncher little sho.

00:36:29
Speaker 1: Literally seventeen pairs of.

00:36:30
Speaker 3: My favorite from her what it was at her apartment, and he really wasn't sure and he just move, move, move, and he would go around the house. So one time he crawled underneath the ottoman with a toy and Lauren was like, yeah, he's just under the autumn and he's finally calmed down and not like not making a noise. Come to find out, after like an hour, she looks under he is just ripping the whole thing thing from under me, this little red bastard.

00:37:05
Speaker 2: No, but I remember so many times that I would walk into my apartment and there were shoes everywhere that he had chewed.

00:37:12
Speaker 3: He loved to get chew. And again I was.

00:37:17
Speaker 1: Like a drunken mess.

00:37:18
Speaker 2: Right, So like, here's an idea, put your shoes in your closet and close the door so way to like have him not chewed.

00:37:24
Speaker 1: But why would I do that?

00:37:25
Speaker 2: And fins, Oh my god, more than anything. But I would walk in and Lily would be sitting there watching him, And when I would walk in, she would look at me as if I tried to tell him not to do this, and he still did it.

00:37:43
Speaker 3: Oh, Paulo, That's why I think Pablo is the way he is because Lily. So I'm like, okay, Pablo is instilled with those Lily, So now I got to get the other. And I think I like that way Lily. Lily is I think just amazing on her own. How I don't know. I think all of them got it from Dior, though, little tiny.

00:38:04
Speaker 1: Brown, long haired chihuah Wah who her step was line. She'd be on the couch and the doors would come to your tip.

00:38:16
Speaker 3: Checks them. I'm so Clabo and Bernice too. They would walk by the couch and nonchalant, just to get a rub and then and like they would do this side like the side eye, and they'd look at me and all right, and then they'd leave. I was like, no way, this little thing is running the house, running it, and she did. She did it well. And I was more afraid of getting nipped by that little bitch than I was the big one.

00:38:39
Speaker 1: I was never afraid of getting nipped by her. Ever she was door. She was the sweetest.

00:38:45
Speaker 3: Around, and I was like, no, we're not. No. I would let them chocolate brown.

00:38:52
Speaker 2: And have these like caramel colored eyebrows and caramel colored little mitten.

00:38:56
Speaker 3: It was Queen Elizabeth.

00:38:59
Speaker 1: Gorgeous.

00:39:00
Speaker 3: And my dad loved der No.

00:39:04
Speaker 2: He literally would like be petting her on his chair and he would say, if this dog goes before I do, I just want you to put me out.

00:39:11
Speaker 3: Thank god my dad went before No. I think we would have lost dad the way Lily kind of went his legs and his arms.

00:39:20
Speaker 2: Your No, see, there's not just one dog. The past few have just been stellar. Door Bella.

00:39:32
Speaker 3: Bella was amazing for Lisa Bella shoes.

00:39:36
Speaker 2: Shoe No, And Ocean loves Bella too. She she sees things like a Peapat just Bella died.

00:39:45
Speaker 3: We were talking about We were talking about Bella and Ocean comes over and pats on my leg and she goes, is that at the place where I used to eat her dog food?

00:39:56
Speaker 1: How does she remember that?

00:39:57
Speaker 3: I don't know because I didn't remember.

00:39:59
Speaker 1: She come into the room.

00:40:00
Speaker 2: You guys, she was probably like a year and a half too, and she would look at me and smile like this, and I'm.

00:40:05
Speaker 3: Like, no, she ate the dogs. I couldn't feed the dogs while Ocean was away. No, we had. Mom had to start putting the dogs in her room on her bed for Lisa.

00:40:16
Speaker 1: Because Ocean would go over there and have just I hate it. Yeah, it's disgusting. Oh I needed this.

00:40:22
Speaker 2: I haven't been able to put makeup on because I just cry so much.

00:40:25
Speaker 1: But that's okay, ri IP.

00:40:30
Speaker 3: Lily Elia ll y too bad. It wasn't I E what around ri I P l.

00:40:35
Speaker 5: I L l I E.

00:40:37
Speaker 1: It doesn't rhyme, Lily. I love you.

00:40:40
Speaker 2: I will see you again in heaven soon. I hope you're frolicking. I hope you're eating all the treats in the fucking world. Thank you for letting me cry and reminisce about my dog Lily. I'm excited that she's going to be seen on this upcoming season of the Valley.

00:40:53
Speaker 1: There's going to be some moments where I can look back, Oh my baby.

00:40:58
Speaker 2: Yeah.

00:40:58
Speaker 1: I love you guys. I'll catch you on the bonus episode on Monday and again next week.

00:41:02
Speaker 3: Bye bye.