Big Changes & Big D Energy with Chris Medina

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Speaker 1: Hi, Amber, Hilelah, Welcome to an unlikely affair. Hi, everybody, welcome back to an unlikely affair.

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Speaker 2: Hello Amber Childers, Hi, I am on a hundred. I don't think you need any more coffee. Oh I'm having more coffee because I'm on a freaking high. I love the synergy though, you do it. Huh. So I'm freshly back from Mexico. I'm so happy to be here with Amber. She was the one who greeted me at the front door when I got back to La. The house was chaotic, my mother was crying. He was a mess. All good things. But the reason why this morning or day is so exciting is because I have one of my most favorite people on the planet, Chris Medina. You guys know him as the person who literally warned me about my life but has been a rock for me for the past what five years? Chris. Yeah, anytime I'm in a spiral, I text him and say I'm an a spiral. So welcome. We're so excited to have you.

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Speaker 3: Thank you for having me. I missed you so much and I can't believe you're here after your Mexico trip.

00:01:18
Speaker 2: Oh honey, this is sobriety, baby, good for you. We land and we hit the ground running.

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Speaker 3: Yes, yes, don't wait, yeah we do.

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Speaker 2: So Amber found out that you and I were close, and she was like, I would die to have him on the podcast. I was like, let's freaking do it. So can you talk us through like the way that you do things? And then I'm sure Amber has questions. I always have questions, but like, what how do you tap in and do your thing when you meet with people?

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Speaker 3: I guess I mean, you see how I do it. I just go right in. There's no tarot cards, there's no crystals, It's just pure psychic energy. So the way that I like to work is being able to I love nothing more than to predict a fruitful feature or somebody. But let's be realistic here. I mean, in order to get there, we have to remove those roadblocks that are in your way. So that's where I like to start. What's in your way from preventing you from the life that you want to have. Let's tackle that. Get that out of the fucking way so we can move forward. I mean, what good does it do? I can tell you you're going to have all this great stuff come into play, and if you're not feeling it or your mental's not there, How are you going to get there?

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Speaker 2: You know? True?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and I don't. I'm probably gonna get a lot of shit for this, but I don't like to use the word. Manifesto is another word for like wishful thinking. Okay, I'm all about action and making things happen. Why wish for things to come into play? When the accountability and responsibility is in your hands, you go after it, don't sit there and wait for it to fall in your lap. Wow.

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Speaker 2: And I feel like I'm such a manifestor So.

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Speaker 3: It's one thing. No, it's one thing. It's one thing to manifest and really go after it, like like you, I'm not just saying that's to kiss your ass. But if you're sitting there too, yeah for sure. But to sit there, you know, with the vision boards and I hope for things to come in actively go out there and make it happen. That's the difference.

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Speaker 2: Nothing is just going to fall in your lap. And Amber and I both went into this new year, I think in a very different headspace. Usually I have a tremendous amount of anxiety going into a new year because I panic about all of the things that I need to do and it almost becomes suffocating and I just want to take a nap and hibernate for the rest of the year. This is the first year that I was like, I feel so much peace, and I find that I for so long, and I think people who watch me on TV would think that what I'm about to say is not true because I do face confrontation. And it's the one thing I actually love about doing reality TV is you pick every battle, right, Yeah, because we're making a television show. In real life, I pick my battles, but it comes at the cost of me compromising my boundaries for the sake of making someone else feel okay, and I'm so fucking over it. I almost become a background character in my own life, and I'm like, I'm not doing that. Like we can have productive conversations, move the roadblocks, like you were saying, and we're just very hopeful for the year. So I would like, Amber, if you have any questions for Chris, because you just moved to Montana.

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Speaker 4: There's a lot that is unsure. Yeah, there's a lot that's unsure. I was just telling you this morning. It's like I moved to Montana thinking I was going to take a year off and just like chill right, and then we decided to do this podcast, and so much came about and it's.

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Speaker 2: Like I could either fight it right or you could just like go.

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Speaker 4: On the path that for me, my higher power has me on, so I don't have any questions, but I would just I want him just to be able to read her like a.

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Speaker 3: Book, you guys, And every psychic's going to say this with the top of the new year, but you know, I like to keep it real. And I'm finally glad that you're saying what you're saying now because you're getting sick and tired of the bullshit what I'm saying, like, I think your problem with what it's always been is that you are an overthinkery. You like to plan your steps three or four steps ahead, plan your yeah, three or four steps ahead, and that gets to you instead of realizing your fucking lalla, chill the fuck out, take a step back. The world isn't going to stop spinning because you know you're excited or whatever the case may be. Here, Chill, Okay, I've got this, Okay, So I think for you, it's about coming into not necessarily a new identity, but a new way of thinking. And remember, I don't care what anybody says. The nice guy always finishes last, you know what I'm saying, Like, it's great that we want to help our fellow neighbor, we want to help our brother, we want to help our sister and all this other shit. But you can't help anybody if you can't help yourself and your back is fucking tired from carrying all the extra weight. Yeah, so I'm glad to hear you say that. Yeah, you know that. I feel good. You know, I'm going to put myself first, these strong, hardcore boundaries between you and everybody else and not being the doormat because again we've talked about that Virgo energy to people.

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Speaker 2: Pleaser, Yeah, what is your what is your sign again? Cancer? Cancer?

00:06:04
Speaker 3: Oh? I love cancer?

00:06:06
Speaker 2: What do you love about cancer?

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Speaker 3: Uh? I like the fact that they're pretty easy going, They've got great sense of humor. They're obviously very emotional, but very funny. They kind of worry the same way a Virgo would, but they're more emotional worry if that make sense. Like they they will uh hold things back or or pick up on the end. You gotta be careful. They got to be careful when around other people, especially.

00:06:28
Speaker 2: If you're sensitive around other people.

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Speaker 4: I pick energy up like it's it's I'm such an impath if it's almost to my detriment. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so like, Wow, that person has some fucked up energy. I gotta stay away, or I'm so attracted to someone that yeah, I don't, I don't know.

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Speaker 3: Yeahh I think that it's a good combination with you and Laala because Lala has that uh, go get or type attitude, you know, let's fuck it, fuck what everybody says, let's just let's go do it or whatever. And I think you you are coming into a different identity this year, so you're being forced out of your comfort zone, out of your shell to do things that you wouldn't normally do. But it's wrong for me to say this, but I feel like you're ready. Does that make sense? Yeah, you're ready. But I want you to think about this how you're going about doing it, because this isn't just about one simple chance here. This is going out and making a difference the way that you want to. You're grown, you're an adult. You don't have to fear anything. Anymore. You know, whatever was going on before, that's the past. Let's let it go, let's move forward, Let's put ourselves in a different space. I think you're dying for a new identity. I think you're dying to shed that old skin and not let it reattach itself to you and keep tripping you up. And also too, there's a little bit of fear in your face too. What I mean by that, I'm not saying that you're afraid of me or the situation there, But don't second guess yourself and don't question it. Does that make sense? That's what I feel. I feel again to say that you're to say you're in a different space when I you know, I know you, but I don't know you all that well. But I think it's time for you to start making your mark, start putting yourself out there, start taking the reins of your own life and writing in a direction that works for you rather than what's been expected of you or what's been expected of you because of what you've been going through. You know what I'm talking about? Yeah, what do you think about that?

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Speaker 2: You know what? Yeah?

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Speaker 4: I think that for me, I feel like I'm I'm shedding or last year, I did a lot of that, right, I did a lot of shedding, and I'm like, I want to propel myself forward, but there is that little bit of like hesitation because it's so there's so much vulnerability in like really exposing yourself in a way that's like being authentic, right.

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Speaker 3: But that's what makes you real though, Is that vulnerability, is that I'm going to be truthful about Yes, I want this new identity, I want this new life, I want these new goals, i want these new opportunities there. But I'm also very vulnerable and I feel too much. That's fine, that's fine that you can admit that and say that this is where you're at right now. Don't change that part of you, because that's what makes you you. So again, moving forward, I think again one more time. I think that you're more ready than you realize. You got to decide once and for all. Let me back up here. It's been a shit show since August first for me, like between August first and now as far as like new downloads or information, the way that I do my readings here, And one of the biggest things was intention and if you are really if you're really ready to go in a different direction and reclaim the reins of life here. Do not let yourself talk yourself out of it. Do not put yourself in a bad mood or start to think a certain way to you know what I'm saying to kind of tone that energy down, because I can talk long shit all day long about I want to go out there someone I want to be this authority figure. And then when I go somebody like I'm not saying that you're weak, but somebody like you that's a little on the emotional side will tug out my heart strings and make me want to tone it down a little bit more.

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Speaker 2: Right, right, that makes sense.

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Speaker 4: I think like one of the things I've been really working on in my life is is people use this word safety, and it's such bullshit.

00:09:51
Speaker 2: I don't want to be safe anymore.

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Speaker 4: Safety being safe in a relationship, being safe in my career, being safe and emotional. Whatever has kept me small, just kept me hidden. So it's like anytime I get in my head and I'm like, oh, I don't know, Like, it's like no.

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Speaker 3: Fuck safety, fuck it, I'm gonna fuck with you, fuck with her. How come? Why is that every time that you say I knew I should have done that. Fuck, I knew I shouldn't have held myself back. I knew I should have said that after the fact. Start paying attention to your intuition in the way that it's guiding you. If you start, you got to learn the difference between and I've been saying this for the last six months, the difference between anxiety and being excited about something, because we have been and I'll sit with you on this one too, we've been very emotional behind the scenes and kind of nobody sees us the extra vulnerable side of us, and we always think that when we get excited about something it's anxiety because of the way that we've been living our lives. And my guides have come in and told me over the last over the last couple of months, you're not anxious. You're not worried about shit. Nothing's coming to get you. You're in a different spot here. This is you looking forward to changes, things that are that are opportunities and things that are coming into play. Know the difference. Same thing with you. You have to know the difference between anxiety and excitement and not talk yourself out of it, because again, you you as much as you have that vulnerable side to you and that little it's not weak, it's it's it's we'll use vulnerable. You also got a temper on you too, And when I'm seeing the temper, but have the phrase I want you to call bullshit on this. Don't let me say it if it's not true, but that when we talk about your temper, it's that resentment that you could have towards yourself or the situation that you get irritated with afterwards. If you're going to use that, I would use that to fuel me to go in that direction here, to stay strong and not go backwards. Because you will be tested this year. And nobody likes to hear the word test or lessons but you because you're you're entering a different identity, a different phase of your life. It's time to start coming out here. You will be tested. Don't go backwards. So I'm giving you the cheat code here. Yes, you will be tested. Hang tough, Okay, Yeah, what do you think about all that? No?

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Speaker 2: I like that. I think the word like temper, I mean I do.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I definitely get angry, and I think I have one of the big things that I've had to work through in the last probably three years, is a lot of anger that I was actually, you know, trying to push down. And I think one of the things is like in my journey of sobriety and not using tranquilizers or alcohol to like suppress that anger down. Now I'm really having to face it, and I finally am feeling it and like processing it and like throwing it out and discarding it and then journaling, and so I think that that's, you know, that's definitely appropriate. I definitely had a lot of anger from you know, my from my twenties that I never processed, and now I finally have, you know, started taking those steps to do it.

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Speaker 2: And it's a huge difference. It's like shedding, right, just shedding all that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, don't make any excuses for it either. If you're feeling angry. I mean, I know you're gonna think I psycho. I tell people the shit all the time. But when I'm in a bad mood or I feel like I want to mess something up, I have a punching bag in the backyard. I'll go out there and beat the shit out of it. Because if I do not let that anger out or that aggression, I'll hold it, I'll hold it in and God for a bit. If I go to the store and some dumb fuck you know it hits me with a card or it's too close, I'm gonna snap.

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Speaker 2: Yeah right, yeah.

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Speaker 3: So and then also with the emotional stuff too. You don't need to cry every day, but if you're feeling some type of way, don't hold that back. You've got to retrain your mind into this new way of looking at things. Am I really Am I really sad here? Or am I going back to what I know because it's what I've known for fucking years?

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Speaker 4: Well one of yeah, and I completely agree. One of the things that I've really been working on is like, when I'm feeling angry, of feeling only.

00:13:31
Speaker 2: Last ninety seconds.

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Speaker 4: So what's going to keep that feeling alive is the story that we're going to replay that made that feeling come up. So it's like you're done replaying these stories. Now you're making new stories that are going to bring you excitement, you know, joy, happiness, and so it's just like sitting with sitting with those feelings.

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Speaker 2: I think there's one thing that really resonated with me, and you said this, I think on our very first episode, and she said she was talking about acting and her loving the stories and said, my story is just as important as these stories. And I said your story is the most important, and she looked at me kind of shocked, like my story is important, Like Amber grew up in the arts, and correct me if I'm speaking for you. This is just what I've gathered and based off of what Chris is saying that for so many years, since you were a child, you put all of your emotions into reading a script and portraying a character and that was your outlet of like feeling. And the game has shifted right, like reality TV has really made its mark, and she's been in this for so long that there was such a separation. You were an actress, which was very prestigious, and like people who did reality it was like, oh, bottom feeders. And now the world's are kind of colliding. And Amber has found herself in a place where she's doing this podcast. She's the main fucking character. Her story is important. And I find that you are embracing that that what you have to say, not taking on another character, but you really going how do I feel in this moment? What do I want out of life? And I think that that can be very intense. Yeah, it's yeah, But when I talked to Garry on the phone, like Amber is my fucking rock. There have been moments this year. We're not even through January, we just freaking started. I was like, this was not the game plan. I went into this year in peace. What the fuck is happening? And I call her and I'm like, I'm full spiral, dude, and she's like, we already talked about what we're doing. We're making fucking moves. We don't give a shit, We're not afraid. Yeah, And I'm like, you're right, what's funck shit up? And she like gets me off. Kind of that's a.

00:16:00
Speaker 3: Cancer loyal as hell. They're the ones that kind of stabilize I live with a cancer. Jay's a cancer.

00:16:05
Speaker 2: Yes, they're wonderful, they are. I love a cancer. But I'm noticing that she is embracing everything you're telling her to do. I am finding that you are validating what is happening with you a hund percent.

00:16:17
Speaker 3: Yeah, Yeah, it's time.

00:16:20
Speaker 2: Where do you see her love life going? By the way, Oh, does she need some time? I find she needs some time? Chris? What does time mean?

00:16:26
Speaker 3: I don't have You don't know. I'm thirty seven, Jesus, I'm speaking specifically to This is not a general statement blanketed for everybody else. This is for you. I think over planning or overthinking the situation is where you get tripped up. I'd love to see you get involved in a relationship where it's authentic, it comes out of nowhere, catches you off guard. Does that make sense? That way? You're not prepared for You don't You're not looking for a way to act with that person. So I think you need real right for you. I say this to my clients too. You need real life examples in real time to show you what you've learned over the last few years. Am I really talking shit as a defense mechanism? Or am I talking shit because I'm sick of the ship that I've been in here and I'm ready to make moves two totally different things. I think that part of you, because you like to play it safe, is a little worried, you know, like, oh my god, am I making the right moves here? Am I doing all this stuff here? Which is normal? But I think that in order for you to prove that to yourself, you got to get out there and do it. And I think that's what the universe is going to show you this year. With the support of it. You were the one holding yourself back. You could you could have gone in any fucking time that you wanted to go. You were caught up in your feelings and your emotions. You were on your pity pot, not because you were forced to sit there, but because it's unfair. It's unfair that I have to have all this year. Well, everybody gets to be blissfully, blissfully ignorant and go on about their lives, but I'm stuck thinking about my fucking situation.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, like a caged animal.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you don't have to. You don't have to. And that's the part is you've got a lot of what is it pride you got? You got a lot of it. And it's not that you're you're you're overly prideful there, but you are not going to display yourself in a way that makes you look overly vulnerable or invite people in to have a conversation about shit that you don't want to talk about. Does that make sense or am I going somewhere else.

00:18:08
Speaker 2: With it makes sense?

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Speaker 3: So I again, for you, I think this is a really good year for you to put one foot in front of the other, really let the past go and put yourself in a different light, both professionally and personally. It's time. I want you to understand that. I want you to feel that. And again, it's wrong for me to say that, because I don't have to live your life. But if from a psychic level, you've been ready for the last couple of years, and you might fight me on that because you're like, there were so many things that were going on there. Yeah, but that was an excuse and a backdrop to keep you from moving forward. You kept yourself still. And now again, learn the difference between anxiety and excitement, because there's a lot of great things to be excited for this year, especially as we started getting into the summer months. Okay, and you just moved to Montana, I.

00:18:50
Speaker 4: Did, and I like it.

00:18:51
Speaker 2: I love it. I do.

00:18:53
Speaker 4: There's definitely some things about la I miss, like the food.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, but while you're there. I moved to Oregon back in twenty eleven and stayed there till twenty seventeen. It was a lot slower paced that people were like three years behind, you know, but allowed me to catch up to myself this So this could be a really good time for you to kind of hunker down, go within, and really cleanse yourself through with it. With that clean air, there's no La bullshit going on there. You're able to relax and breathe and just be on your own there. I would use that time wisely to disinfect everything that you've been through and start making your way towards yourself this year.

00:19:25
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean, that's exactly what I was telling Lula this morning. It's like, you know, I don't know where if I'm going to be.

00:19:31
Speaker 2: I don't know if I'm going to.

00:19:31
Speaker 4: Be there, you know, for the rest of the year. I don't know if I'm moving back to La. I don't know where my life is, but for right now being in Montana. I had never been to Montana before. I went there in June to visit my sister, and when I got there, I was like, I.

00:19:46
Speaker 2: Don't know why I need to be here.

00:19:48
Speaker 4: I literally packed my shit and I moved to Montana. I picked up Riley from sleep away Camp and I'm like, guess what, We're moving to Montana.

00:19:54
Speaker 3: You know, I don't need to cut you off, and you know what's there the mountains. Yes, you know what mountains, repper, I'm Native American. It's strength, Oh, it's strength, and it's making sure that you're standing still, you're not letting anything push you or move you, and you're surrounded by all that great energy. That's why you're trying. You're a fucking cancer. Don't question that. If it feels good and I feel at peace here, I know that's all you need to know.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, when I went to Montana, I was just like, and I always thought I was a beach girl. I was like, I want to be naked on the beach and hanging out and running in the water. And then I got to you know, Montana or was freezing. People thought it was fucking crazy. They're like, you're not going to survive. And I'm like, whether I survive a year or eight, whatever it is my soul.

00:20:38
Speaker 3: Do it. Yeah, let me do it. Let me experience without putting all this negativity on it.

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Speaker 2: And I find that you have so much drive since you've been there, because, like you said, LA can make you feel like hands are around your neck because you do take on the energy of this city, which is a lot of desperation. But then you also have the other people who are thriving in this city. So then that makes you be yourself up like you're a lazy fuck, and it's it's a lot to take on. And once you moved to Montana, I loved the shift because you felt grounded, like you could take a moment to breathe. And then you and now she travels here all the time, but it's like she flies out and she's she's here with a purpose. We do what we need to do, and then you go back and you get regrounded, and who knows where your path is going? Do I see you being there forever? No? But the timing is right mmm mm hmmm hmm, don't you think one hundred percent?

00:21:37
Speaker 4: Because before I moved to Montana, we we hadn't decided that we were even going to do the podcast yet, so I had no intentions, and I was like, oh my gosh, Okay, we're gonna We're gonna just do this.

00:21:48
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna question it. I'm just gonna fucking do it.

00:21:50
Speaker 3: You want to still do the acting too and everything?

00:21:52
Speaker 2: Yeah, Well that I that's my lives in her bones.

00:21:55
Speaker 3: Well, let me tell you, I don't know how you feel about this. And I don't know what your plans are. I'm just like it. You tell me how it's into your life here. But by the end of March going into April, I would start. I would that that is a time where you're getting calls or your networking with people, things are things are starting to come into fruition to have you ready by summer of this year. So I don't know what type of meetings you've been having, or if you've had agents or your managers coming in talking about what's next year, But as we get into March going to April, that is a really good time to showcase yourself. Does that makes sense? So you're coming into a different identity and we'll talk about your power and how you want to and how you want to flex it. You're never going to be someone that's going to be overly aggressive, so don't worry about that. Don't think for other people, think for yourself. It's a good it's it's going to be a good look for you. I'm telling you right now, if you play your cards right and you really accept this new identity and what the universe is offering you, I'm telling you right now, the next two years will be good for you as far as like you know, re re revitalizing your the material side of life, like your money, your your home life. Maybe maybe you start feeling more at peace with the kids and what you're doing at home. Here this is really meant to evolve you from within our along with the beautiful opportunities that are coming into play. I'm not sugarcoating anything. I'm not telling you what you want to hear. It's written all over your face. But first and foremost, get rid of that insecurity and fear and go get it. If you have to amp yourself up by pretending to be a character you are an actress. I would use that for a little bit, just till you can take the training wheels off and go forward. I love that, But you got I'm telling you right now, don't let anybody come in here and tell you, oh, it's going to take two years until this thing comes into fruition, or you need to wait for this. No.

00:23:29
Speaker 4: No, I was just saying that to her yesterday. I was like, I'm not I'm not.

00:23:34
Speaker 3: No, go get it wild And you got a virgo too right next to you that she can Their energy could be a little bit too much at times because you can pick up on the not scatteredness, but the thinking. Their mind never shuts off. But they're great motivators to be like Chris, Chris Amber, get off your fucking emotional asses and go do something. Get up and do something.

00:23:57
Speaker 2: Ah, that's you, Hi, it's funny. So I had scorpio rising. Oh yeah, that's a lot.

00:24:04
Speaker 3: Oh.

00:24:04
Speaker 2: The two are in constant conflict with each other.

00:24:06
Speaker 4: I met I had someone tell me that my significant other that I need to go. This is like before we did the podcast that my partner was going to be a virgo. Maybe they met you. Oh my gosh, I love It wasn't going to be a man, it was going to be you.

00:24:25
Speaker 2: Is that crazy? Yeah? I feel like that is. We are partners, You're Soulmatemates come in so many different forms.

00:24:33
Speaker 3: Yeah, now to jump to you, You've got some really good stuff coming into play this year.

00:24:47
Speaker 2: As far as tell me more, Chris, I needed to hear this. I think when.

00:24:52
Speaker 3: We talk about your identity, I think that with all these new opportunities that are coming into play here, you got to watch for the pitfall. I said this a little bit with her not falling back and repeating old patterns. Does that make sense? We went to a Grand fille. We had a three hour dinner by ourselves, and I fucking loved it.

00:25:09
Speaker 2: I did too. You.

00:25:11
Speaker 3: I told you a lot of things about your career and what not to settle for and what to look out for and things like that.

00:25:16
Speaker 2: Yep.

00:25:17
Speaker 3: I'm not saying that you're back peddling in any way, shape or form. But I think sometimes that you don't. Sometimes you don't realize. You realize your beauty and you realize the effect that you have on people by what you do. But I don't think sometimes you realize your own power. And that's also wrong for me to say, because I'm not you as powerful as you come across, there's still that there's a little bit of that fear in there. I need to be everybody. I need to be everything to everybody right now. You need to be that to yourself and really step into that power. This is when we talk about that. We're talking about balance in the form of obviously more material success, but also in the form of relationships. You need balance. You are somebody that when you get involved in a relationship kind of like you too that, Yes, it's great to have this guy that you're with and you know we're fucking we're having a good time here, but you're looking for that balance to kind of balance you out as far as like, I want to come home to somebody that's waiting for me to provide that emotional security, that peace of mind.

00:26:08
Speaker 2: There?

00:26:08
Speaker 3: Does that make it somebody that I can also have fun with too? But I think it's difficult for you sometimes because when you're in that moment and you're with them, there's too much going on inside your head that's keeping you from being present. Do you think tru bullshit? Don't let me say it if it's not true.

00:26:21
Speaker 2: No, it is true.

00:26:22
Speaker 4: I go.

00:26:22
Speaker 2: And that's one of the things this year that I was talking to Amber about. I was like, I will meet somebody and there I will play this montage in my head of like, but I have two kids, and when will I have time for them? And oh my god, he's so much younger than me, and what if he wants kids. I can't give him kids? And oh my gosh, I have to work, and if I'm with him then I can't work. I'll lose my independent I start suffocating myself and drowning. And I'm trying now to be like, none of that matters, just have fun and see where it goes.

00:26:50
Speaker 3: I'm going to ask you what I asked jat Grandville. Do you think you're stupid?

00:26:54
Speaker 2: No? I actually think I'm intelligence. I guess I would's who you ask.

00:26:58
Speaker 3: I would never insult your intelligence by calling you stupid. I think that you overthink because you think of every scenario, not just the one that you're getting yourself involved, but you're also thinking for that person you're not thinking about you. I've known you for years now, and when we don't talk every day on the phone, and we don't hang out every day, but when we link up, we fall right back to you at all and again with you, the way that you come across and the way that you are. You need to start realizing that and stop thinking for other people. I'm not saying I'm not saying you're making decisions for everybody else, but you're playing out that montage and that scenario in your head of the could as should have been, what if, and not giving the relationship or that person the benefit of the doubt, because when they see that vulnerable side of you, you have to understand something. I'm going to get a lot of shit for this, but I have to say this. You are a woman, You're a beautiful woman. Stay in your lane when it comes to that. I'm not saying let this sit in the back seat while he drives. I'm saying, let him be the man in the security that you need. Don't think for him. And also, you don't know if this person wants to have kids or not. Your kids might be enough.

00:28:00
Speaker 2: I love everything you're saying, and you're validating a lot and I for many years now, I have had to be so alpha. I have to go into filming with toxic men. I am in rooms trying to further my my line, my brand with men, and I have to rise to the occasion and the moment I tap into my feminine self. Everybody men who I don't give a fuck about, love that. Like if I'm quiet and submissive and girly. Right, there's no there's no balance, and we can all say there we've come so far as women. Truthfully, we have not. I think we want to.

00:28:46
Speaker 3: Oh we have not.

00:28:48
Speaker 2: We haven't, and we have no safe space. We're not safe amongst each other. We're not safe with men. And that's such a blanketed statement because I am safe with a lot of my girlfriends, and I have been safe with men, but in the old overall, I have to rise to the occasion and I have to be a provider. I have to play mom and dad, a disciplinarian. I am begging And you actually said this to me. You're like, you talk about not You're the one that called me out on this shit. I was like, I don't want a man. I'm good, I have peace, and he's like, you're afraid. You're afraid of all of these things. And I, for the first time after you said that, I was like, I have to stop. I have to admit that I have abandonment issues. I'm afraid of rejection. I'm afraid of my heart being hurt again. And if I can't allow those things, then I will never open myself up to actually what I truly want. And even though I don't want to get married with a piece of paper, I want companionship. I thrive with a partner, and I am dying to tap into my female energy. Well. I want to come home and fucking melt into someone.

00:29:55
Speaker 3: Yes, it's not your looks holding you back or your attitude in that way, it's how you present yourself from within out I have.

00:30:04
Speaker 2: I've had to Chris. It's like it's it. I go into the world and am unapproachable and have to give big dick energy everywhere I go, and that is exhausting.

00:30:16
Speaker 3: That is a mindset that you can get rid of. And I will back you up when we talk about females not backing females up.

00:30:22
Speaker 4: I was.

00:30:22
Speaker 3: If you look at the early stages of my career, I was all about the community, you know, female empowerment. Latino writes this and this and that or whatever. What I come to learn in those type of environments is at the minute that somebody starts thinking ahead or gets an opportunity, that's where all the backbiting starts. We're no longer friends. Lalla is a bitch because she got this here. Now she's turning her back on us and all this other stuff. There's no And then when it comes to relationships, I just was at a party not too long ago where I was reading somebody and I was saying, you're not like so and so. You want to you want to be taken care of in a relationship. I'm not saying like a baby or like a like a somebody that doesn't doesn't want to do anything. You want to be a stay at home mom and a stay at home life. What's wrong with that? Nothing exactly, but society paints it as well. You set women back a hundred years. Shut the fuck up, and don't look at what I'm doing. If it's if it doesn't, if it doesn't please you. You know what I'm saying now, That's why I'm not just saying this about woman. I'm saying about everybody in general. Gaze everybody. It's all. It's all fine until someone starts thinking outside the box and wants to do wants to go in their own direction. So with you again, I don't think that you should tone down your sense of humor. I think that's a big part of who you are, and I think that's where you will thrive in a relationship because you need somebody that's going to give it to you just as good as you give it, and not point their finger in your face and make you feel some type of way. Because you're spiraling with that virgo energy. You need someone that's gonna say, sit down for a second, just right next to me, Not sit the fuck down and calm down here, but sit down, I can feel you and you once you start, once you once they start gaining your trust, not you gaining their trust, but them gaining your trust, and you start to realize they're not going to use this shit against me. They're not going to make me feel some type of way or just say these certain things speak just for the sake of saying it. Here, They're saying it because they mean it. You have to learn that. Yeah, that's what's going to save you in a relationship. That's where you lose yourself.

00:32:17
Speaker 2: Yeah, you still see more children in my future? Yes, solo.

00:32:24
Speaker 3: I knew. I knew you were going to ask that, And I want to say as much as I want to say not solo here, that's totally up to you because I think that again, it's wrong for me to say this. I don't have to live your life here, but I think that you should have a child with a man that you're in love with. And if you don't want to get married, you don't have to get married. Yeah, no one's saying that shit. Your excuse is we've already been there, done that. We don't want to rock the boat. Leave us the fuck alone, stop asking us. Simple Yeah, but I'd love to see you in a relationship with somebody that makes you, that changes your identity in a better way, not because they're changing it for themselves, but because my girl's happy. One lessing for her to worry about. There's no bullshit when she comes home. She she knows that there's somebody there to have her back. Same thing with you and I. You always know you can come to me. I'll never fucking I'll never turn my back on you or tell your secrets or sell you out in any way, shape or form. You can come to me with anything, and I'll back you up. I'm going to tell you the truth. And I think again this year for you as far as like, if we're going to use astrology, you've got that moon and Aquarius right. The nodes start shifting this year in July out of Pisces and Virgo, which has been a pain in the ass for you and I and going into an air and going into fire and air. So this is detaching that this is a good time to start working on some of that Aquaring energy where you're not where you're leaning into it. I think, you know, letting some of that Virgo energy dissipate just a little bit, stop being so neurotic an OCD and overthinking and letting some of this aquarian air come in here and opening the windows of your mind and letting the dust out and really starting to fill yourself. Okay, that's a good look for you. And then you got that if you've got that scorpio rising too. I mean, it hasn't been it hasn't been good for you over the last couple of years as far as like, emotionally and physically, as much as you're trying to, you know, evolve and do all this stuff, the energy has been too heavy for you. Right, So look forward to some We're coming in here and loosening some shit up.

00:34:14
Speaker 2: You think I'll find love this year? Not my ear?

00:34:17
Speaker 3: Yeah? No, are you.

00:34:20
Speaker 2: Saying that because I'm looking at his face?

00:34:22
Speaker 3: No, it's not, because because I'm thinking of the potential people that will come in here. Okay this year as far as like, uh, when we talk about her lessons and her coming into her power, we're talking about guys coming in here stepping it up. And if they're younger, I'm going to get a lot of ship for this too. They're moldible, oh.

00:34:40
Speaker 2: Aims, So honey, give me.

00:34:44
Speaker 3: We're not manipulating them. They're just not as seasoned as some of the older people would get baggage exactly exactly, and you can use that energy to to brighten yourself up.

00:34:55
Speaker 2: There was a guy the other day, not to take this to a I love place, but we were talking about sex and I talked about toys and he goes, wait, there, you can use toys on guys. And I was like, oh, honey, oot to fucking rock your world.

00:35:10
Speaker 3: Bro, where's Chris Medina?

00:35:14
Speaker 2: Oh my god, is this a real question? Like No, I feel like I'm like maybe tainting a bit. Wait were you texting? No, we were on FaceTime. Oh I know. It was very cute. Last thing, finances. Should I be pulling back? Should I be? Do you see me? I mean not that I'm out here blowing cash obviously, but I'm just you know, a new year.

00:35:37
Speaker 3: I'd like to see where you're at with your financial situation by April of this year. Completely separate from hers. This is not if you guys do a joint and that's great or whatever, but always separate. Yeah, I'm talking.

00:35:47
Speaker 2: We've both been we know how, we know how to do things.

00:35:52
Speaker 3: Yeah, remember those what we talked about at Granville when we were talking about your career and not going backwards, and you know, you know, you know, I'm going Yeah, I just want to make sure that again that when we talk about moving forward here, that you're actually being selective and you're evolving what it is that you want to put out there. Does that make sense?

00:36:09
Speaker 2: Yeah, it makes a lot of sense. You.

00:36:12
Speaker 3: I'm gonna say this and it's going to sound like a backhanded compliment and I don't mean it to be here, but you have so much fucking potential, like you're from your attitude to your looks, the way that you carry yourself. If you can just let go of some of that Virgo energy and not overthink and just be remember, let the aquarium moon take over. You've got a hardcore sun in Virgo and then you got your rising and Scorpio, which is I'm very secretive. I don't want people seeing all the cards that I have under here. I have to carry myself a certain way. That aquarium moon gets lost in there, and that's what you need to detach yourself from and start having fun and think outside the box and not just put yourself into what La La has been over the last five years, where do I want to go? How do I want to evolve? Because with you again, if you look at your career, you've never backslid. No, you've never come tumbling down at all. You've kind of been steady, kind of going up. It may not be where you want it to be, but you've never backslid. You keep going up. Yeah, all that shit, Okay, and stop getting inside your fucking head. And also one more thing, and that I'm done with that, be somebody to yourself rather than wanting to be every everything to everybody else, let them fend for themselves. Okay, you know what I'm talking about. Yeah, we can talk.

00:37:29
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, Chris.

00:37:31
Speaker 4: I have one more question because I didn't ask about the baby thing, and that is.

00:37:34
Speaker 2: Like, I know, I was so shocked that you didn't ask that.

00:37:37
Speaker 3: I know you want more kids.

00:37:40
Speaker 2: Do I want more kids? I don't know. I'm like torn. I always say It's so funny.

00:37:46
Speaker 4: I always say, like, it depends on my partner and if they have kids, right, if I'm dating someone younger that hasn't had kids and they want and like sure, But then if I think about it, I'm like, well, do I want kids? Or am I just giving myself again to someone?

00:38:03
Speaker 3: So you're not in a relationship right now?

00:38:05
Speaker 2: No, do you see me in a relationship? When am I getting married before me?

00:38:10
Speaker 3: Well, she's like twelve.

00:38:13
Speaker 2: In twelve relationships, but I have dated a lot.

00:38:16
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's coming into a different cycle of her life when it comes to power and from within out. Does that make sense, Like she's I'm not saying that you've hidden yourself, but I think that you've done a lot of uh self defense mechanisms to keep yourself. Yeah, to keep yourself in the middle so much, you know what I'm saying. But for you, when it comes to relationships, you need to learn what it's like to allow yourself to receive. Does that make sense? When I talk about receive, I'm talking about making sure that you're not becoming the man and the woman in the relationship, that you're allowing yourself to let this person show you what they can do and how they can take care of you in a stable way.

00:38:58
Speaker 2: Yeah. You know what, All the guys you bring in are fucking weird, really, Yeah, yeah, weird. I just feel like they come into your life and they kind of like put down the rules of how it's gonna be and then you kind of have to you have to, you know, steer the ship. And they're just weird. They're like, I like, I'm in my routine. You know, this is like very specific, but like I'm in my routine. So I can see you after seven because I have dinner at this time, and so that's when you can come over. And so you kind of you fall into which is weird because I don't see you. I see you as very feminine and amazing and beautiful and sexy, but you take on this like big dick energy of like steering the ship where they're they're like little bitch boys.

00:39:45
Speaker 3: Yeah they're men, They're they're boys dressed in men's clothes. Yeah.

00:39:50
Speaker 2: Yeah, I guess because I tend to day older. But they're like little boys. But they look like they're dying. But they just but you know what, lately, it's not lately.

00:40:01
Speaker 4: And I said this in the last podcast, I'm like now going out on dates with men my age, yeah and younger and younger.

00:40:10
Speaker 2: Yeah, you need to have actually pick her up to fuck.

00:40:14
Speaker 3: Oh good yeah, and not fall over and break up. Head.

00:40:17
Speaker 2: That's like you just said, but it's.

00:40:21
Speaker 3: Good for you because it teaches you to stay in your lane. And I'm gonna get shipped for this, but I have to say this in people. I hope you know where I'm coming from as a woman. But your thing is that when you meet somebody, because you're instantly trying to read them and you're picking up on their energy, it takes over the way that that you represent yourself, So you're misrepresenting yourself as somebody that you're not based off what you're getting from it. It's not you being fake, totally different. And I know where you're coming from because I do the same thing. So can you imagine me going on a date and my guide saying, don't use your psychic energy to read this person, and I have to distract myself with other shit while I'm having a conversation with him, so I don't pick up on it. You got to learn that as well, So do not merge into their lanes, stay in yours, and allow yourself the opportunity to receive what you need to receive, which is a real man coming in here, providing security, comfort and peace of mind in the relationship. Like I told her, gaining your trust so you know they're not fucking dumb. You know that you're not going to be raising a boy into a man. You already have enough kids. You don't need another one in your fucking house. No, yeah, so don't. So again, don't misrepresent yourself in that way, because at the end of the day, I'm not saying that you want to be whisked away like Julia Roberts, but you do want somebody to put you on a pedestal, and you do want to be baby, and you do want to be cared for in that way.

00:41:37
Speaker 2: Yeah I do, Yes, yes, you do exactly.

00:41:41
Speaker 3: You deserve it because what you will do back in return is go one hundred times above and beyond for that person when you are in a relationship that you are loyal. Kidsters are loyal to a fault.

00:41:52
Speaker 2: Sometimes, Oh we all know that.

00:41:54
Speaker 3: Yeah, so again, represent yourself in the right light this year, and go after what it is that you truly want. You've been putting yourself on the back burner for way too fucking long life, and especially with opportunities that are coming in Okay you have. You have a really good opportunity over the next year and a half to reinvent yourself into somebody completely different. Here's where I'm going to give it to you. You caught kids that look up to you, set that example for them. You're beautiful, you're young, You've got a lot, a lot of great things to look forward to. Take advantage of it.

00:42:25
Speaker 2: Thank you. Amen. Amen.

00:42:36
Speaker 3: I love the way that she looks too. She's she's even, she's you're still reading what you're still reading?

00:42:42
Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah, I'm reading the energy everything you're saying. As he's talking, I'm playing a montage of every single thing that we've talked about. And I'm like, oh, yes, right.

00:42:51
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm gonna say this to you because this is what this is what they're telling me to tell you. Look for power moves this year for yourself. When I talk about power moves, I'm talking about bigger moves in the form of business opportunities. Does that make sense?

00:43:08
Speaker 2: Fucking dead right now?

00:43:09
Speaker 3: But hold on a second. But this is this is you need to upgrade your mindset in your business. Does that make sense? I don't know why. And I have a huge problem with this shit here because I would be an excellent agent or a manager. I don't know why they haven't come in here and fucking switched things up. For you, because I think that you're more ready than you realize. And one of the things I like about you is that as much as you can bitch and complain about all these juggling all these things here, if you didn't have that much to juggle and you had more time on your hands, you wouldn't know what to do with yourself.

00:43:39
Speaker 2: You're so right, Chris.

00:43:40
Speaker 3: So you are somebody. As much as you want to talk shit, you can handle shit under pressure. I can throw two more things that you You're gonna give me that fucking side. I like you, dumb bitch, but let's be truthful. Are you going to drop that stuff?

00:43:52
Speaker 2: No? No, we're just talking about this like scheduling.

00:43:54
Speaker 3: Get ready. I'm telling you get ready for major moves.

00:43:57
Speaker 2: I'm ready and I have. I've been having many conversations and I have said I'm done being a fucking sellout.

00:44:06
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, I wouldn't say something.

00:44:08
Speaker 2: This is what my head is, you know my mind. This is how my mind works. Even though people may not think that these are things I tell myself. Yes, that may be good money, but let's look at the bigger picture. Where will it get me? I am looking for a setup that we start now, that is going to carry me on throughout my life that I can pass down to my children, my children's children and beyond. It's not a very quick no. This is the year where I'm like, it's gonna take a lot of hard work and it's gonna take time. If we don't start now, we are fucked.

00:44:40
Speaker 3: But here's where you go wrong and slap the fuck out of me for this one. Are you ready?

00:44:44
Speaker 2: Yeah? I'm ready.

00:44:45
Speaker 3: You tone yourself down after you read the room? Does that make sense? You you need to want?

00:44:50
Speaker 2: You think I explode and then I read the room of everybody and go, But but everything's fine.

00:44:55
Speaker 3: You think that you're amped up and you know what needs to be done. Yeah, back me up if I'm wrong. If I'm wrong, talk shit. You're amped up and you're ready to fucking go. But when you get in the room and you get there, you start to see everybody and you don't turn pussy. I'm not saying that. I'm just saying that you tone down the attitude there and you take some of that heat and that fiery that needs to be it.

00:45:15
Speaker 2: And that's what I'm saying, Chris, is I compromise my own fucking boundaries for the sake of making other people feel good. So I will say exactly how I'm feeling, and if they feel like, oh my gosh, then I really not responded. I'm sorry I responded that way. I'm just saying this, and then I try to make it all okay, and it's like, no, I meant what I said. If you feel uncomfortable, not a me issue, that's.

00:45:37
Speaker 3: A you issue exactly, and own that shit, because anybody that truly knows who the fuck you are know you're not gonna go out there and just make shit up for the sake of making shit up. We're trying to hurt somebody's fucking feelings. But you, because of your integrity and the way that you think for everybody else, it falls on your shoulders in the form of guilt or I need to hold back. Stop that shit. That's what people can count on. And that's why I'm telling you. I don't know why I'm.

00:45:58
Speaker 2: Yet like but.

00:46:00
Speaker 3: You but you uh you uh you don't. You don't realize the way that you come across and you're gonna You're gonna die. When I say this, I always tell people, if I was straight, I would totally hook up a lalla.

00:46:14
Speaker 2: She is nice because there's.

00:46:15
Speaker 3: The way that you come in. She came, she came to Grandville, and this bitch was in sweats, cut as fuck, came in sweats but no makeup on.

00:46:26
Speaker 2: Looked absolutely beautiful, gorgeous, gorgeous.

00:46:29
Speaker 3: And you need to stop.

00:46:31
Speaker 2: Forever, stop toning yourself down.

00:46:33
Speaker 3: Stop toning yourself down. And when you go and when you go in that room, remember something. Your la la kent bitch, bitch power moves. You need to own that energy and stop going back to things that you're comfortable or you're used to, and start making bigger moves because you are. You're gonna make yourself sick if you have to constantly reinvent your career every three to five years.

00:46:56
Speaker 2: I can't. I will lose my goddamn mind.

00:47:00
Speaker 3: So get it so again. You we live right down the street from each other. You live so close to me. Hit me up anytime that you need an ass kicking, because I'm telling you right now, go get of course you can. You play your cards right girl, I'm telling you right now now it's time to start amping it up and really taking control of the business side of things. You can go into acting. I mean, I don't know if that's what you want to do there, but you can.

00:47:24
Speaker 2: You can go into that acting hat. You can. No, no, no, don't, no, no no, don't.

00:47:29
Speaker 3: What's stopping you from producing shows?

00:47:32
Speaker 2: Nothing is stopping me from doing anything exactly. It's game day, baby, yes, game day. No. Nothing is overly saturated in this world. There is always room for one more. I just want to fucking take the world by the ball.

00:47:48
Speaker 3: Here's here's another manipulation tactic. The difference between you and everybody else is you have this in you or some people manifest in a hope to have this career. Don't come to me unless you truly want to evolve, because you're gonna waste both of our times. And I'm also not a friend of yours either. I'm talking about when I read people here, and that's why I tell people, if you're going to be a friend or a family member to people, tell them the truth before I have to, because they're not gonna like it.

00:48:13
Speaker 2: Right.

00:48:14
Speaker 3: Yeah, So again, I know how difficult it is. I'm a Taurus with a pisc's moon and a Capricorn rising. I know your placements as well. We worry way too fucking much. But at the end of the day, would we ever trust our lives our livelihood in the hands of somebody else.

00:48:28
Speaker 2: No.

00:48:28
Speaker 3: Never, So you need to prove that to yourself, especially you, because I'm telling you right now you're going to slap me for this one. And I'll own that you are wasting time by not taking full control of your power. And that means being happy in the in the skin that you were in, in owning who you are. If you have to watch yourself on TV again to get yourself amped up or get inspiration, go and do that, but make sure you're paying attention to yourself. Okay, so good both of you, guys, very very good energy. This year is far and there's no there's no surprise why you guys aligned with each other. Do I see that being a forever thing? No?

00:49:01
Speaker 2: But that's her.

00:49:02
Speaker 3: No, as far you guys can be friends forevery But I'm talking about like you know, you guys are going to go your separate ways. You're you're gonna venture off on your own route and she's gonna venture off in hers. Wow, I think this is I'm not saying you guys do this as long as you want. I'm not taking away from it. I'm just saying opportunity is coming here. The reason why you guys probably are are connecting here is because you guys have similar backgrounds to with certain things that you guys are. You guys are working through. You guys are comparing notes. Harm will resolve itself and you go on your way. Wow, in a positive way, in a positive way.

00:49:36
Speaker 2: I don't know why. That just made me emotional, really, and not in a bad way.

00:49:42
Speaker 3: Because when she loves, she loves hard. She she doesn't want, she doesn't when she accumulates, she doesn't. She's had so much loss and so much bullshit coming here that when she finds solid people like a cancer, yeah, she doesn't want to let go.

00:49:56
Speaker 2: No.

00:49:57
Speaker 5: But I feel like with what you just said was like the the karma and just timing like this, this came to be and a lot of healing has been happening and it's going to continue to happen. And I just have this feeling in my soul that this is going to turn out a certain way where Amber and I he after almost a decade plus me the last few years, it will find we will finally reach peace. And I think that that's maybe when it'll happen and you're going to be doing everything that you want to be doing, that you're passionate about.

00:50:36
Speaker 2: And I'm it's just beautiful. It's all very beautiful.

00:50:40
Speaker 3: It is, and it's good for both of you, considering you're I don't want to throw any bit under the bus, but it's good for the for the public and the people behind the scenes to see that. Yeah, this was a chapter of my life here, but it wasn't the final chapter. Yeah, and I'm doing we're doing something different. We can come together and you guys, you guys have a lot of things in common. Yeah, and go after what it is that you want without having the past taint your future. Yeah, that's all that I'm saying.

00:51:09
Speaker 2: Oh, I cry more than anyone should cry. He's like, you don't need to cry every day. I'm like, but you do, No, you need to do. Oh it's healthy. How do you feel, Amber, I feel great, hopeful, excited. Yeah I do too. I also love peace, I think more than anything. I don't think I feel like excitement. I feel yeah, like everything's working.

00:51:35
Speaker 4: Out the way it's supposed to and it's going to and I just have to trust the universe. And not try to control everything and just yeah, at some point, you do have to hand it over, right.

00:51:47
Speaker 3: You have to. Yeah, again, that lesson from August till now. I finally it started off with them telling me you need to take a couple of months off, don't do any readings. We're going to give you information, but if you want to call it downloads, we'll call it downloads. And I said, but I have one session that I've already booked there, and I know that if I if I go to reschedule, the person's going to be upset. But I also know they're not going to get anything out of this reading. I read the person They hated it because I didn't tell them what they wanted to hear. I was depressed for about three days. My guides came in with the wrath of God and said, how the I'm gonna say exactly what they said, How the fuck are you going to sit here and be depressed over something you already knew you were getting your ass involved in. Yeah, get up and fix it. And I said okay, and they said, and also, you're not going anywhere. Two weeks passed by. I'm feeling good. I'm like I'm going to go to the gym, work it out. I'm feeling good. There's two steps that lead down from my front door into my yard. I missed the first step and fell all the way down on my hands and knees like a fucking idiot. Scraped up both of my knees, my ankles. I don't know how I did in the pumps of my hands to why I couldn't put pants on, And they said, what part of keep your ass in the house don't you understand? So I finally said, that's it. I surrender. Yeah, I'm not I get it now, I'm not going to do it. The best two months that I've ever had in my life was just sitting there and being still and listening to everything. Yeah, I was worried about my money. How am I going to do without these readings or whatever opportunity came and found me. You, I'm not going to say because it hasn't but you came in right like a fucking angel during that time, and I said, this is it, this is this is so again. We come from a real background, all three of us. We've had heartache, pain, We've had a lot of bullshit happened to us. That's been our identity for so long that we it's hard to separate ourselves because we see that so often. We feel so much here. But what's wrong with looking actually looking forward to something? And like I said, knowing the difference between excitement and anxiety, I'm getting excited because the tides are getting ready to change. I have something to look forward to rather than fear. Oh my god, what if this happens. What if this happened? Especially you, You're too fucking smart to be stupid.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, thank you. Oh I love that about it. Oh my gosh, this was so amazing. I feel so great.

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Speaker 4: Thank you Chris so so much, Lala, I love you. I love you so much, Chris, I adore you. Thank you so much for making time for us today and my loves I appreciate you. Listening to another episode of an Unlikely Affair.

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Speaker 2: We are going to catch you guys again next week.

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Speaker 4: Bye bye bye