Rachel Is Back! The Hosts Discuss the Pressure to Be Perfect and Their Favorite Things About Each Other

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Speaker 1: Welcome back, Happy Hour listeners, and I've got a great surprise for you. I also have a great special gift for myself because we have none other than my girl, Rachel back and I could not be more thrilled to be looking at you right now, to be hearing your voice. And before we begin, Rachel, I have to say I was with one of my neighbors last night, Dustin, who you've met. Yeah, he always talks about how much he loves your voice, and I was like, I know your voice, and I was like, I've been missing it for the past couple of weeks. I thought you were gonna say Dustin always talks about how much he loves copper, because you know he loves copper. He does love copper, but he also loves your voice. Oh, thank you. Shout out to Dustin. Very all our bats are Happy Hour listeners. It's good to be back. I swear what I was listening to you say I have a surprise. I was like, oh girl, what is it? What is the surprise? You know I wasn't thinking me because I have been keeping up you and say Shaw holds in it down. I'm bachelor Happy Hour. Thank you. While I needed this much needed break. I knew that you announced me coming back, so that's why I was like, Oh, what's the surprise. I'm just so excited to have you back on I mean, I'm excited to be back with you. Good, good it. You know, I missed you, of course, like we wanted to be here and support you in any way, shape or form. But um, let's do a quick little check. And you have still been working like crazy. You've been busy. You just hosted the Grammys. I know Brian's coming into town soon to just feel us in on the life of Rachel. Okay, so how how long has it been? Maybe three weeks? Weeks? Listen, I took some time for myself, which I encourage everyone to do. You know, often we're like, oh, you know, you need to take a break, you need it. My grandmothers always like, listen to your body. Your body will tell you when something's not right. I needed that break from social just needed the break to like detox a bit, and I feel refreshed, revitalized. Um what is it that she says, this is just the way I did that reminded me of um oh, I am ready to day too. I saw it in my head but I couldn't. I couldn't verbalize it. So even though even though full disclaimer, you guys we were just talking before we got on the podcast, that we are not fully adjusted todaylight savings time, even though we're we are several days in. It is late at night as we are recording this podcast, so please excuse all errors, um mishaps, uh, you know whatever. I'm also drinking a major margarita right now, loose tonight. I'm old back you. I wish I wish I was. I feel like I should be doing that, making me even loopier than I am now, But no, thank you for asking. Um. I've also been preparing for a move, as you stated, Yes i am. The days we're counting down the days. I'm so ready, like a part of you gets um in a groove of just like being a part of the routine which I've been doing for so long. But now I'm like, no, I'm over it. Get here, get here, actually moving. Yes, in less than two weeks, we found a place and then hopefully after that this we can find a house. That's the goal. So we'll look for a house while we're doing this, but we needed a bigger spot. I'm in a one bedroom. It is just for me and Copper, and I'm already outgrowing this space, so it's gonna be so good to have him back. And I'm also very selfish because I am looking for a new chiropractor, so I can't wait to have him ochl, I'm signing Brian up. I'm like, I'm always like, anybody need a chiropractor, and Brian's got you good. We'll have so many people once he moves out here. I can't wait to just spend more time with the both of you. Maybe who knows. Um, I'm just gonna manifest some double dates in the future. Dating double dating. Yeah, I'm right there with you. Which actually, this is the perfect segment to get us into all of our fan questions, because that's what we're going to be doing today for all of you listening. Obviously, no more recaps, thank goodness for a while. And so many people have been writing both to our personal dms and to the Bachelor Happy Hour Instagram account, wanting to know everything, all the things, and so actually, one of the questions, which we'll get too later we can answer, is if I would ever trust you to set me up on a blind date or would we double date? So let's get into that, I think, shall we, because that's what we're all here for, and those some of these episodes are my favorite. When we can just like kick it. It doesn't feel like work. We can just answer questions reminiscent memory lane for all the good things. So let's get going, And I should start by saying thank you to everybody who wrote into us, who still listens, who still wants to hear from us about our points of view from when we were on the show. You know, yeah, God, we were on the show so long ago, I feel a couple of lifetimes ago. I was like, reading through some of the questions, I'm like, I don't remember a lot of this, Like I really have to sit back and take this deep walk down memory lane. Some of it I tried. I've tried to black out. But so thank you to all of you who have wrote in um. And let's, I think, just get into it. So first and foremost rage, Let's started easy, because this is one that people always ask still to this day, and it's about the stylinge on the show, and they always ask like, what were some of our favorite looks and if we were able to keep the clothes on the season, and I think we talked about this when we had Carrie and Gina on Oh my Gosh, almost a year ago now, at least like when Quarantine first hit, when we had the stylists and makeup artists on. But we unfortunately don't get to keep most of the clothes. So some of it we do, but like the gowns that you see during the row ceremonies, we usually don't get to keep. But Rachel, what was your favorite dress that you wore through your time on the bout Shorette? My favorite al fits? Um, I don't. I can't really think of day outfits. Definitely gowns, Definitely Randy ROMs. I'll say one of my favorites is one we fall for because it was a story. I wore it when I had was after the Fantasy Suite Final three. I sent Eric homb sadly, but I wore this orange dress and it was see through, and I remember we went back and forth with the producers about or whoever. It wasn't not not even the producers, but it wasn't the stereotypical dress you see the women wearing. Because it was see through. We had to die the bodysuit underneath to match my skin tone. Yeah, like it was. It was almost like Xeno Warrior princess, Like it was thin material and then the arms had like this blue pattern. I don't know. I looked like I was going to battle. But also walking down the runway, it was fears. I remember that one. I remember when you first walked out. I was like, damn, that's a look like that wasn't just a like a like a It wasn't just like a dress. It was so much more. I was such a statement and actually funny enough when I when I then became babsurant and I was working with Carrie, he kept talking about how how difficult that dress was to get approved, if you will, from everyone, and and to talking about like dyeing the body suit and everything. But oh, that was one of my favorite looks of yours, Like I thank you, and that I think we'll go down in the history books and we might never see it again because we had to really fight for it. Well was your favorite look? Oh man? Um? Well, and we give you two and one wasn't even my look. Okay, there was one dress that I loved. It was a gown that I was going to wear to a Roa ceremony. I was gonna actually wear it to the Roa ceremony in Thailand. It was the same week that you sent Eric com. I was supposed to have three, but I had ended up sending Jason home earlier, so I just had the two guys left. And it was funny enough. Taitia actually ended up wearing ended up wearing it on her season. And it was this like a bubblegum pink and had this deep v low back. It had like this really pretty floral prant. It was silk, but it was all beated. It was a Randy ram gown and it was so heavy and because it had such a long train and so that's a randy gown. It was a randy yes for for you guys listening, some of the dresses that the bachelrettes wear are so heavy. Like my Night one gown, I had bruises on my collar bones because it was all beated and like the bottom saying and it was just like pulling. But m yeah, I ended up not being able to wear it because where the Rose ceremony was it was in like it was kind of in the middle of nowhere in Thailand. It took us. It was a hike to get there, and it was like in this clay like outdoor factory, I would say, and they were like, no, you don't want to wear this like long, beautiful gown. It's gonna get dirty, it doesn't fit with the vibe. And I was just like, no, I don't care, like I will wear it anywhere, like send me to McDonald's and don't wear this gown. I just really want to wear this gown. And they're like, no, it's gonna be too heavy, it's too hot. And so I didn't end up wearing it. But that's why I was so excited when I saw Tasha wear it on her season, because I was like, at least somebody can and at least like the world can see this now. Yeah. So that was one of them, but one that I actually ended up wearing again. The well, the cocktail party got canceled before a roast ceremony. We were in Virginia. I had maybe like six or seven guys left, and it was kind of like yours. It was see through and it started off with more layers, but Carrie and I kept being like, oh, just just cut one more out, just cut one more out and it ended up being just like a couple of thin layers of tool with like beating all over the front like thoughts. It was like a silver gray, but then it had floral beating all throughout, like crystal straps on the back. Well, so that's one that I actually got to keep because it was so fitted. They had to do so much work to it, so I have it in my closet actually. Um, but I wore it for the Bathtub Challenge, remember like when people were taking Oh yeah, it was that down and at first I was like, oh shit, this isn't going to fit me anymore. Three years later, Um, but that's probably one. But I was I really wanted to wear it because, like I said, it was see through, and the and the Rose Ceremony venue, um, like all of the men were standing down below and I had to like walk down these like big narrow, beautiful elegant this big like long staircase, and I was like, oh, they're going to see that it's see through. And I was so excited that I couldn't even wear it the rest of the night because I got camels. No, well, you'll wear it for somebody. You'll wear it for someone day one lucky man, lucky is correct. Yeah, yeah, Oh my gosh, that's so fun like reminiscing about all these things. When people ask if you, like, what's the one thing you remember about being Bachelord, I'm like, I was just exhausted the entire time. It's like you're sleep walking for two months. Like towards the end, you just kind of get delirious. This is what it is, and there's just so many factors that make you tired. But yeah, do you do you have um the funniest memory? Um? Oh man, Well, looking back, I feel like they're funny now. In the moment they weren't. But like, well, one time I ended up having a nip slip, like week two. I'm sure that wasn't that that got the guys, but no one even told me at first, no one even said anything, like why would they. It wasn't until I, like, I think it was Kaylin, my producer, who at one point was like standing farther away and was like pointing to my dress. And I think I was indoors, like next to the fireplace, so I didn't feel that it wasn't cold, but um, I think it happened because I remember who it was, but like some guy came up from around the corner and like kind of pushed me up against the wall to kiss me. And then and then we just like kept on talking and like walking, and I just wasn't paying attend. But I wouldn't say like one And when I say it's like funny, in the moment, it wasn't. I was really I just felt terrible and I was really embarrassed. But when I forgot Jason's name on a group date, that was funny, and I was like, I was so and like, Jason was one of my favorites and so I was mortified that I forgot him. And it's especially because my girlfriends were there on this date, hosting it for me, and I was like, okay, we have so and so and so and so and so and so, and then I was like, oh, Kirk, screw Kets. I was like Jason and I just I felt so bad for him in the moment. But he's like, oh, he got over it, and he's such a good sport that I'm like he you know, I mean he made it top three. He's okay, but he had so many names to remember, you know what. I mean, like they get it. It's not like it was one on one. Yeah, Oh my gosh, that was funny. I thought, I remember I remember that scene, and I'm like, oh, I'm so glad day aired. This is actually quite funny because it could happen any of us. That's why I would have void names table. Hey, hey, Bay, hey you that's actually your advice for future about shirts is just having these like cute little pet names for anyone because yeah, yourself sulf failure. Yeah, because like it's a win win. You don't have to say the name. You don't have to pretend like you don't know what and you call them something affectionate, like hey you, it's so good to see you. Like man, they don't they don't realize you don't know their name. Many cute little pet names for you. No, he says, like a more love. They typical stuff, Yeah, typical stuff. Nothing often I think crazy cute win men call like their kids like sweetie or Sweetheart's. Oh yeah, for sure, we were not there yet. That's not why I took a break. So would you ever be a contestant on another reality show? And part B of the question, have you been asked to be a contestant of another reality TV show reality like a dating show, any kind of reality TV show. Um, that's a good question. Well so the second part. Yes, I have been asked a couple times for details for other two other dating shows. One I think was an MTV dating show I don't remember the name, and then one like X on the Beach Are you the one? I don't even know if they gave me the name. To be honest, I just said no real quick, so I didn't even get to that point. And TV is really loving the Bachelor crossover and like at yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I just I like, okay, probably not. No, I don't think I would actually ever do another dating show unless I got paid like a lot, but also then going into it, I would do it for the money, Like I don't I want to now meet somebody organically, like I really I'm really hoping for like a meat cute in my life. Oh, but I don't know it. Like I would probably do another reality show, like depending on what it is. Like if I had like a great partner for amazing race or something like that, I could see you doing that. I wouldn't say no to that, but I wouldn't do like actually though, no, no, no, I still live in like the nineties, early two thousands when real world was so big, Like the real world I could see on the house, like my fourteen year old self would be so excited. So those ones, yes, dating, probably not. And also you said there were two shows you were asked to be on. What was the second one? There was another one and it was another dating show and I don't know the name of it, but it was four It was like a YouTube series for dating, like a six part series. I don't know. I said no again to that one real quick. It's just not for me. Um, like I did The Bachelor, because it's like the Boucher is the show, you know, it's like, yeah, when you think of a dating show, that's so Now that I've checked that off my list, I don't know if i'd go back to anything else. Totally get it. I was about to say I wouldn't go on a dating who I would if Michael Strahan was a contestant, then I would manifestation, manifest this, manifest this, Um I would I I don't think I would do. I'm not I would consider myself athletic, but I don't think I would be great on amazing Race. Um, I would not do well on Survivor. I don't know, Like I don't, I don't. I feel like i'd be impatient. I just don't know if that would work with me. I don't. Maybe if I was doing the race by myself, you would need like a real good partner. But like, do you and Brian balance each other out so well? And like you are athletic, you're so intelligent, Like I feel like you would go really far in that show. Well, we did do Fear Factor and we did make it to the finals. They had a Bachelor version of Fear fact or like Bachelor people, and Brian and I did make it to the finale. Now we lost to Vanessa and Danielle, but we did make it to the valley. Because I was gonna say, no, we wouldn't do well together, but we have we have done well together. Um No, I just I love to watch reality TV, not the dating shows, but I do love to watch so like I couldn't be a part of it. Yeah, do you know what I mean? Like, I like, I love the Housewives, I love all that stuff. Right, I'd host a reality TV show in two seconds? Are you kidding? Me. But um, yeah, no, I don't know if you could. If you could be part of any Real Housewives series for or city for a week one, wouldn't you pick backup? Fantastic question. It is something that I've thought about multiple time, I know. So I can't just pick one franchise. Sorry, I cannot. If I'm going to participate for one week, I would do Potomac obviously. All those women are beautiful, they are funny, entertaining, and I just like want to hang out with them, Like, please sit me next to Karen Huger all day, every day, and let's just shade people. Okay, let's just be shady, shady, shady. And then on the other hand, I'd want to hang out with the New York Housewives just for my pure for them to entertain me right, like they seem fun, you know, like we go out, we'll go drinking. But the New York never disappoints. Top two franchises for sure. In Real Housewives, I would be a part of it just for a week, just for a weeks. For a week, I'll hang with Lisa Arenna. Garcella's already my girl, but I'll hang with Lisa Renna all day. But collectively they're boring and they really need to step step it up. None of these one storyline seasons, even though I have heard from Garcel though that this season of Beverly Hills is fantastic. Like normally they have the very uptight like they don't want to let you in. They used to and they stopped, but I hear they're letting it all hang out this season. They should hire there's no more. A matter of fact, they do hire me to promote it. What am I saying? If I do it on Instagram all the time? Would you produce for any of them? No? No, no, I mean I wouldn't want to be a producer. I just rather hang with them. Yeah yeah, yeah, no, no no, no, no. Um. The only I would only want to be part of one season for one episode, and that would be throwing it way back to New Jersey. I think it was season one with the with the table flip Teresa. A lot has happened to Teresa over the years. I know, I know, I have to say, I haven't call up lately, but oh my gosh, the tableflip was iconic. It was five times prostitution or engage. That was terrible. That's my new Jersey accent. They did not need our invitation. Judici or Judy whatever. Does anyone know how to pronounce her last name? I think it's Judici, but don't don't quote me on that. I would not bet on that. Listen. That's that's might be the most accurate thing that has been said on the podcast right now. Okay, you know what I think is a super fun question. Give it to me a favorite nineties nostalgia? Oh, oh my god, where do we even nostalgia or nostalgia? I okay, yeah, nostalgia? Yeah, Oh my gosh, I mean Lisa Frank. I actually I actually tried, um looking for a Lisa Frank face mask recently, because shut up, I'm so serious a good idea. I found one, but it was a kid size and I'm like, gosh, shoot, that's not gonna fit my face. But um, if anyone knows where to get a good Lisa Frank face map face still make it? I think so? I mean, if if they aren't still making Lisa Frank items like the trapper keepers and the back I used to get a back wrapper every year and it would get so cold in Minnesota that they would crack because it was like that plastic material that they would always crack. So my mom would get me one like at the start of the year, and then it would break within a week or two, and then she'd get me like a jam Sport one, you know, like jam. Okay, you are really taking me back here. So that's actually a really really good um thing to bring up because I always forget about Lisa Frank and I was such a fan, Like just the colors. I don't know, it's just something beautiful and bright about like you can't be when you look at a Lisa Frank piece of art, not at all. And we all had to have it. As tacky as that stuff was, we all had to have it. I mean, there was just colorful shit. So I okay. The little known facts about Rachel. I love playlists on like whether it's Apple Music, Spotify or whatever. And I love decades playlist and I love to listen to the nineties playlist. Nineties music. That's what I was just looking up on my phone. Nineties music. It's like these one hit wonder songs. Do you remember the song? The way? Sing it? For me? Even even though they the road that they walk on is paved and I think I'm making up the worst as I'm saying it, but you don't, I know, you know what I'm talking about to hit wonder. I'm looking at this list right now. Um, these aren't one hit wonders. But like remember mister Jones, oh wonder wall, oh sign loveful love be love be same in me home. I just it takes go ahead. I saw the sign and it's on the list. Said, oh, do we need to start about your happy hour playlist? With all these old old we can totally good. Okay, are you ready for this one? Y'all? Tell you what a wall? What I really really wants? Wait, okay, just Spice Girls? Oh my well, so that yes, Spice Girls a thousand percent. Like when I think of nineties, that's what I think about. Um. I was always sporty Spice growing up, which is so funny now because I'm the most inathletic person in the entire universe. I don't know why. I think it's just because I kind of looked like her. The brown hair, Yeah, I see it. What was your faans? Obviously scary? Oh um want to be Probably because I knew the rap and it was I thought I was so cool because they would like and obviously it was scary rapping so well, actually he was back and it was scary and sporty baby together yea too much. Baby didn't do all that much. Maybe it wasn't ginger, but I think sport obviously. Now I'm drawing, I'm actually embarrassed that. It's definitely scary, but I feel like somebody else rast with her anyways. I want to be I would say, but there's a slow song that I love too that I can't think of right now forever. It's not Oh wait, what about when to become on? I need yeah, like I never need love be phone, wanna make love to ye baby? Okay, we should not have been singing that at that age. We should not have been singing now that I'm hearing about stop right now? Th much? Oh gosh, body with the human touch. Hey, I'm doing for a listeners, I'm trying to do you remember that in the movie. I don't see this is This is why I love the nineties. Okay, we could keep we could keep singing nineties songs, but I love the nineties because it takes me back. Doesn't it take you back to like being young? Dancing with your friends, having a slumber party, no responsibilities, not a care in the world, just like a care free time, eating piles like it was no one's business, like it's not gonna see for life, wearing matching pjs. Somebody just wrote bitch in the um in the chat and it just makes me think of the I'm a bitch, I'm a lother, I'm a child, I'm i'm a mother, I'm a sinner, aroun, I'm a saying please wait, please tell me you know Robin. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, I'll still listen to Robin. Always been told that I got too much to ride. Okay, I've listen. This is gonna go for an hour, see because it brings back that like young girl's spirit. A great question for whoever put that out. Like I feel so good. I feel like I could go run a mile. Yeah that's how I feel right now. Okay, I'm nine years old again. One day, once Brian's here and maybe you are my wing woman for the night we can go do karaoke when the world is open again. I am a fantastic wing woman. I've said this again. Now. I don't mean to brag, but I have to on this and I'm perfect because I'm married, right, so I don't care about embarrassing myself. I'm not trying to take the guy in the room. It's like, I'm so good. I mean, yes, I could karaokee, but I can also we can hit your local a local bar near you or club or whatever. So yes, whoever asked if I would let Rachel set me up on a date, Um, yes, it's happening. We're back one day very soon hopefully. Oh that'd be so fun. Um okay, well, this is another cute question because I feel like we always need to have women build each other up. And so I always love when people ask me about you because you know, I just love your rage. So um, somebody asked, what is my favorite thing about working together? What's our favorite thing about working together? And then the other one was what was one of your favorite traits of the other person? So Rachel, I can start if you too, Okay, go ahead. So when we do the podcast together, like, yes, at the end of the day, it's work, but it doesn't feel like work with you. It's just it's always fun. Like it's like, look at us, we just had a karaoke jam. Sessh talking about Real Housewives and Lisa Frank like it just it's fun, it's just easy. It's just a good girl time, like things that we would do that we would be doing at home and not on the podcast. It's like what we're doing here and we just have a lot of people listening it to us singing so much fun. And then one, Oh my gosh, I don't even think I can just pick like one trait that I love about you, but I would say, oh my gosh, I can't just say one. I mean some that come to mind, Like you are such a loyal, patient person and just such a good friend. And I feel like people just see us on the podcast that it is like this working platform, but like you have been there for me, I mean, especially within this past year through so much and people, you know, like they like to blame you for certain things that have happened in my life, which is so not the case, and if anything, like you've helped me through and you've just been so steadfast and loyal. But also you're just like you just have this pizzazz and this like fun are to you and like you're just like your charisma and like fun and like energy just like rubs off on me, and I think I see it with other people too, and so those are so I would say some of the top that I talked traits that I love about you, Oh Becca, so sweet? You know, well, okay, it's interesting because I feel what you just said on the last part, like you light up a room when you're in it. It's one of my favorite traits about you. See like I feel like I do it with a dry sense of humor and you do it with like much more positivity, Like it's you just like you're just a light. And I feel like other people say that to me about you. They're like, Becka, there's just an aura about you, Like even when we joke about this, but even dear Astro, who I don't believe you've quite ever met, has an obsession with you's she's in a different country. I mean, there's just truly something about you, your presence that's infectious. That's my favorite trait about you. But one of the things I love about our friendship too, is I am a person who can get so buried down in my day and my schedule, and I lose track of text messages and emails and myself sometimes in my day. I don't even know how I get through it. You are a connector you're a gatherer, if that's that's the correct term. But like, you're very good at saying, hey, let's get together and do this. Hey, And I wish I'm like envious of that. I wish I had more of that. So like, take a beat and connect with my girlfriends or my guy friends or whatever and bring people together. You're so great at that. And um, you've always got to have a friend who reminds you to step step back and do that. So yes, oh thanks, Rage, I got my knees are tingling again. I saw sid I just just throw a nineties song. I'm telling you we are starting a big rage Becca Bachelor. Have you our playlist? And you, guys, it's gonna be fire. Can I just say that we are probably enjoying this podcast more than our listeners because we're happy we're back together, and they're like, you, guys, they're gonna be like I listened to thirty eight minutes worth of them singing the nineties music. You're welcome, But don't you guys feel like you're at a slumber party with Becca and I like that's kind of how it is like Becca and I are just girl chatting and you guys are just listening in all right, this is how it would be, This is how it happened to accept when the when the mics aren't on and the cameras are arling, we get into a lot more in detailed people. Um wait, totally such a side note. Your sister Canvas is visiting, right, Constance Constant. Oh my gosh, Okay, your sister Constance is visiting. Yes, Constance, and she okay crazy. She came in Tuesday. She's already gone. She came from Dallas. Yes, I said. She literally hit me up. She really came to check on me to make sure that I was doing okay. And I was like, yeah, I'm fine, and I was fine. But then just having my sister here, I haven't seen her since Christmas. I didn't know I needed it until she was actually here. So but then, remember, I get caught up in my schedule, caught up what I'm doing. I'm like, Tuesday to Thursday, I gotta work, I have to podcast, I have things to do. How are you coming during the middle of the week. She was fine. One of her best friends lives here too, so she was doing her thing, but it was It was really great to have her here, to spend time with her again. You know, it's revitalized, refresh nothing like a good sister bother will say that. Okay, a couple of more questions here, Oh, okay, this is good because it's a good tip for people. What shows are you're currently binging? If you've been following me, you know I'm smack dab in the middle of Gray's Anatomy still, because there are seventeen seasons, I am quite far along. I'm almost done. I am in season fourteen. That's right. I have gotten past some of the biggest heartaches of the season, and I'm gonna be honest with you. Spoiler alert. Let me just announce a spoiler alert. I knew that mc dreamy was going to not be with us. I just didn't know when it was going to happen. I had been told so much that I had pictured in my head how it would happen. By the time it happened, I was not into it. I was not into it. I didn't like Meredith's reaction. She wasn't as upset as I wanted her to be. She was cold, so I was cold. And the way they led up to it, like they were highlighting him so much. It was like, Okay, something's about to happen. It was very weird. I was much more upset when Danny left us. I'm still not over Danny Duquette. I have to say I was with Rachel on Monday when the Crazy Anatomy teaser commercial came on, and I forgot about you guys. Her whole demeanor changed, and I wasn't even watching the TV, so I didn't know like what she was like so upset about or like hyped up about. And then I was like, oh, no, I get it. They were showing previews, y'all. I had my ears covered, I was my eyes closed, and I was screaming to the entire twenty seconds the commercial. Yeah, so I'm currently stuck in Gray's Anatomy's world. I'm living in Seattle in my head. I gotta get caught up. I stopped watching. It was probably like season three or four. Remember when the to torpedo got stuck in the guy's stomach and she had Yeah, that was tough, and so that one got me stopped. I think I was maybe in ninth thirteenth grade, but I mean, I'm always looking for a good show to like leisurely watch, and I feel like this is a good one because it'll probably take me seventeen years. No, no, no, it's great to watch. I was warned by somebody who's on the podcast now that you lose interest because you lose the originals, right, And she's right. I don't like the new interns. Every time they bring in new interns, there maybe one that sticks out, maybe one. Stop bringing in family members. Stop if they were dead for ten years, don't bring them back. We don't. We all want to say it. That's what you're early dealing with right now. Speaking of the originals, what was her name? Izzy? Catherine? He had to go she Have you watched Firefly Lane? No? But I heard it's really good. Are you benching that? That's one I'm benching right now? And I had like so for me, I don't really watch a town of TV just because I can't just sit and like focus on one thing. But I started watching it the other day and I'm already on like episode eight or nine, and it's actually really good. I think you would like it. It's it's cute with the way that they put it together. Where it's like the same two girls who are best friends. It goes between current day so like one's a mom, they're a little bit older, established, going through different life things, and then it flashes back to when they first met when they were I think fourteen, and then like in the early twenties when they're like really getting out of college and in their careers, and it's just a cute way that they piece it all together. Yeah, it's good. I actually told one of our friends, well, you know, Sam, and she bench it in one night. I was like, damn, but but it's head. He's good. Yeah I did. I did, And then I just watched like a lot of weird true crime murder stuff, which I shouldn't a single woman living alone, but hey, I like to, uh you know, I like to know what I'm up against in life. So do you know what I'm binging in my ears right now? Dateline podcast? Oh? Actually I started that, Like, well I can't, but I started it, and then I should keep up with it. I can't get enough of it. I listened to them all the time, and it freaks me out. I'm always like looking, you know, behind my back or whatever. But that's as true crime as I can get. I know you're into it, date line guys to check that out. For all of our listeners, I just need to do a nice little psam for somebody who never pays attention to detail listening to um like Crime Junkies podcast. I now like every time I'm walking, no matter no matter what time of day it is, or if I'm with minno or with friends, I'm always paying attention to like what people are wearing now, like what they look like. In case there's ever were a murderer crime that takes place and I have to go to the place, we're like, hey, I saw this person walking and this is what he was wearing. And so yeah, you actually learned a lot of good life skills from knowing what is smart in the past. Smart. Yes, smart? Okay, last question, you want to do the honors? Oh? When do we go with Rage? Oh? There's so many. Oh. I actually like this one because I feel like it's gonna be different for everyone. But somebody wrote in and asked us if we still feel like the pressure to be perfect coming from the show and like in the public eye, and how do you feel now? I'm sure it's been like a roller coaster in the last four years since you've come off the show. Yeah, when you first come off the show, you definitely still feel that that way because you've been on TV for so long. Then your seasonaires and you just feel like you have to live up to the way people saw it last saw you on television, especially if you come off as a couple, because you're people, You're like, oh my gosh, we have to be talking all the time, we have to be laughing together, we have to be holding hands because people think that you're unhappy even though you walk around and you see most couples not doing any of that. That wears off. I would say after about a year. It's probably a year now. Do I feel the pressure to be perfect in public? Absolutely not, especially after all this stuff that I've gone through. No, I don't care. I think at this point. You know, it's it's interesting because I think part of that pressure comes from people. You have to reinvent yourself, you know what I mean. People. It's almost as if people think you were born the day that you walked out of the limo from whoever season, and that's the image that they have of you, and that's it. And so you feel like you have to live up to that. And then as you start to let that go and kind of reinvent yourself back into society or re establish yourself and back into society, you start you start to not care about those things. Yeah, so yeah, well definitely what about you, um Now, I would say no, I did very much. So, I mean, and I've gone through a couple of different stages because obviously when I came from the show, I was saying a relationship for two years. So like you said, it's one thing when you're in that relationship and like wanting to not even like put on a public facade or like a brave face. But it's like people will, you know, like they'll DM you or they'll write or they'll post and be like, oh my gosh, they're not together one weekend, or someone's not wearing the ring, or they're not talking. It didn't it like all the weird things that It's just a lot, and it's just like a weird world to transition to, especially like coming from like where what I was doing beforehand. So at that point, yes, and then obviously like going through a very public breakup, m I kind of like not that I felt pressure to be perfect, but I felt pressure to, like I didn't want to like give too much to the public to have them feed into any sort of narrative. So I felt pressured to, like, Okay, how do I walk this fine line of like still being who I am and like trying to navigate this new world that I'm living in and being a single woman, versus like still giving like especially our listeners, because I know they put so much stock into into us in the podcast, and you know, like want to hear from us and feel relatable to them. So it was like this weird fine line that I was walking. But you know, these days, my give a shit level is so I'm just I've gotten to the point where, like I realize I'm never going to please everyone. I'm not even gonna please probably the majority. But as long as I say true to who I am and what fuels me and is still respectful to my friends, my family and what I believe in, like that's all I can do. And so I feel like I've gotten to the point now where I can feel better about not always having to be perfect or saying the right things or appeasing everyone on social media. And so it finally feels good to like kind of come into my own in this new chapter of my life. I would say, good for you. That's the perfect way to end the podcast. Yeah, So I hope, yeah, I hope people realize, like, at the end of the day, we are all humans, whether we are on a TV show or not, whether we are a host of a show or of a podcast, or working in public relations or a lot like whatever, it might be, at the end of the day, like we're all humans, and like, I know, people look at us like we're these characters and that's not the case. And so yeah, it's it's been a journey, but but it's been so fun and Rachel, I'm just so happy you're back. This was just the best way to end the night. Honestly, it feels good to be back talking with you. So yes, I'm happy as even though it's late, it doesn't matter because I had so much fun. I swear. You know what is going to happen when we get off this podcast. We're gonna play Alexa like nineties. Oh you know, Robert's happening. I'm so glad that you mentioned Robert Amazon music. Is that copper Alexa'sn't it played? Nineties country, Alexa, and it's country all on my roots. I showed up in boots. Do you hear this? And ruined your black tie affair? Last one to know, the last one to show. I was the last one you thought. Ju see there gotta know I do nineties country. I love Garth friends Zaga. What a way to go out. We don't even really needn't do the outro. Let's just sing this song and ended on your chorus, Alexa started up, seeing look is not the way you want to stop. I think I really appreciate this, but we're gonna let one person down, Rachel, and that's gonna be Dustin, because he's gonna want to hear you sing because he loves your voice so much. Oh he doesn't listen, Dustin, No, you know what you're I just disappointed you because you did not like that, Oh my gosh so much. That's so hilarious. And that Alexa pick nineties country, what is that? Hey? She must know she knows my heart. She knows what a way to end to night, you guys, and I'm that and like, we can't beat that. So we just have to say thank you for listening in for another week and Rachel, thank you so much for coming back. Like I said, I missed you so much, so it's so good missed you to see you, to hear you, to catch up. Um, I missed you. I just really missed you, so you guys to thanks for hanging out again. Um and to all of our listeners as always, you know where to find us, but keep writing to us because we love these questions and we're going to continue to do these fun little episode when we don't have to recap and do anything else like these are the moments that make this for me, at least personally so worthwhile. So if you guys don't already know where to find us, you can find us at Bachelor Happy Hour on Instagram and apt batch Happy Hour on both Facebook and Twitter. And as always, if you never want to miss an episode, please subscribe to our podcast and you can do that on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, the Wondering App, or wherever you were listening to us right now. And Rachel, I love you, Thank you, love you too, bie guys. Bye one