Taylor Vixxen Quit Her Executive Career to Have Sex on Camera and Doesn’t Regret It

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<v Speaker 4>my guest today spent twenty years as a VP in finance.
<v Speaker 4>In twenty twenty four, she walked away from a successful,
<v Speaker 4>some might say safe career into the unknown world of
<v Speaker 4>adult entertainment. But she will tell you that this isn't
<v Speaker 4>a career pivot story. It's about a woman who spent
<v Speaker 4>decades holding everything together through a brutal custody battle, years
<v Speaker 4>of harassment, and a marriage that left her sexually repressed,
<v Speaker 4>and who finally gave herself permission to find out who
<v Speaker 4>she actually is. Let's welcome Taylor Vixon.
<v Speaker 2>Hello, thanks for having me.
<v Speaker 4>Of course, thanks for coming. All right, let's start from
<v Speaker 4>the beginning. Okay, you spent over twenty years as a
<v Speaker 4>VP level executive in finance before entering the adult industry
<v Speaker 4>in twenty twenty four.
<v Speaker 1>What makes you decide to take such a drastic leap.
<v Speaker 3>Well, my current husband and I ran the lastyle. We've
<v Speaker 3>been married ten years now, so not the ex husband
<v Speaker 3>that you spoke of, but so we were in the lifestyle.
<v Speaker 3>I think a lot of people in the industry kind
<v Speaker 3>of started with that. It definitely opened up my eyes
<v Speaker 3>sexually to a lot of things. It made me more
<v Speaker 3>comfort with my body, with being you know, I discovered
<v Speaker 3>being like kind of an exhibitionist. So obviously you kind
<v Speaker 3>of have to be to be in this industry. So
<v Speaker 3>when everybody was doing the OnlyFans craze, I guess you
<v Speaker 3>could say during during COVID, when it went crazy and
<v Speaker 3>everybody's making tons of money. Everybody was in the lifestyle
<v Speaker 3>was doing that as well, and so we'd be hosting
<v Speaker 3>a fool party because I used to host lifestyle events.
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, where the hell did everybody go. They're all
<v Speaker 3>in the freaking rooms filming content for OnlyFans, and I'm like, like,
<v Speaker 3>we would film our own experiences like our own, but
<v Speaker 3>we could never use it because we didn't have people's
<v Speaker 3>names or IDs or anything like that, so we would
<v Speaker 3>just film it for our own fun. And I'm like,
<v Speaker 3>I'm missing the boat here, right, but I couldn't do
<v Speaker 3>it because of my job, Like we had the company.
<v Speaker 3>The last company I worked for was basically run by
<v Speaker 3>a bunch of Mormons, and so OnlyFans was definitely. I mean,
<v Speaker 3>most companies have clauses against being they consider this another job, right,
<v Speaker 3>So even in OnlyFans, most companies have clauses. But there
<v Speaker 3>was morality clauses and things like that, so that wasn't
<v Speaker 3>even a thought in my mind. I mean, I didn't
<v Speaker 3>even show my boobs on Facebook, or i mean even
<v Speaker 3>just showing my face on our Facebook swinger groups and
<v Speaker 3>stuff was you know, it was always something that worried me.
<v Speaker 3>So but I kind of figured I was missing the
<v Speaker 3>boat and I said. Finally, I was just like, screw it, Like,
<v Speaker 3>I'm not getting any younger. I'm not going to just
<v Speaker 3>miss this. This is fun for me. I really enjoyed it,
<v Speaker 3>and so I started OnlyFans and my company found out
<v Speaker 3>about it like a month later.
<v Speaker 1>How do they Okay?
<v Speaker 4>So I want to get to that story, but before
<v Speaker 4>we get there, I just want to talk about the
<v Speaker 4>transition from like the first one that you first were
<v Speaker 4>you know, sexually repressed, to to becoming a swinger. So like,
<v Speaker 4>what was the first time that you went to a
<v Speaker 4>swinger party? And do you think it was every anything
<v Speaker 4>that you did? You ever imagine yourself doing something like that?
<v Speaker 4>Oh my god, absolutely not. I am the most, and
<v Speaker 4>I still have problems with it now.
<v Speaker 2>I am the most.
<v Speaker 3>I get very embarrassed in public, especially in what we
<v Speaker 3>call vanilla situations, so like a vanilla bar, So take
<v Speaker 3>me out of the lifestyle, take me out of you know, porn.
<v Speaker 3>Right if I walk into a bar, like, I don't
<v Speaker 3>want to do anything that's like even karaoke is so embarrassing.
<v Speaker 1>Oh I won't do it. I mean so absolutely yeah,
<v Speaker 1>I'm not.
<v Speaker 3>It's awful and so like I mean, I thought even
<v Speaker 3>before the lifestyle. So my husband we just started talking
<v Speaker 3>about fantasies. And I didn't even know what fantasies were.
<v Speaker 3>Like really, I had didn't have fantasies, was never allowed
<v Speaker 3>to have fantasies in my previous marriage, wasn't allowed to
<v Speaker 3>have sex toys, wasn't a lot. I mean, I used
<v Speaker 3>an electronic toothbrush as like a little vibrator, like how
<v Speaker 3>sad is I was awful, But I just that was
<v Speaker 3>just what I thought was normal. I thought, maybe, you know,
<v Speaker 3>I just didn't I didn't win the girls, like the
<v Speaker 3>ladies at the golf club, didn't talk about you know
<v Speaker 3>that kind of stuff, right, you just didn't. So I thought, honestly,
<v Speaker 3>I thought swinger parties were like eyes wide shut. I
<v Speaker 3>thought it was like everybody's in their robes, and you know,
<v Speaker 3>you go to this party and then all of a sudden,
<v Speaker 3>everybody kind of gets more scantily clad, and then there's
<v Speaker 3>an orgy in the middle of the floor. And I
<v Speaker 3>mean some are like that, but I mean that wasn't
<v Speaker 3>really reality. But we went to our first swinger I
<v Speaker 3>guess it was like a club. There was a club
<v Speaker 3>in Austin and we went there called collettes, and we
<v Speaker 3>just were so nervous, and so we went up to
<v Speaker 3>the room where you could basically just have sex, and
<v Speaker 3>we're like, okay, well there's no one here, like we
<v Speaker 3>just didn't talk to anybody, so like, maybe we'll just
<v Speaker 3>have sex just us.
<v Speaker 2>And so we started having sex.
<v Speaker 1>And there was this.
<v Speaker 3>Very large lady at the end of the at the
<v Speaker 3>end of the curtains, like peering in looking like she
<v Speaker 3>was about to dive on top of them. It was
<v Speaker 3>a little traumatizing, but we did realize that we liked
<v Speaker 3>people watching.
<v Speaker 2>I realized I like that.
<v Speaker 3>And then from there, I guess we just kind of
<v Speaker 3>like poor, I mean, just dove in head first.
<v Speaker 2>Before you know it, I was hosting.
<v Speaker 3>We were flying all around the country hosting takeovers and
<v Speaker 3>things like that.
<v Speaker 2>It was so much fun.
<v Speaker 1>Wow.
<v Speaker 4>And then how did you guys navigate your relationship around this?
<v Speaker 4>Like most couples have, you know, who are swingers generally
<v Speaker 4>have open communication because you kind of have to. People
<v Speaker 4>have different boundary, rease, different rules. What was your deal?
<v Speaker 2>You know, it was?
<v Speaker 1>It was hard.
<v Speaker 3>I mean I think everybody in any relationship has, you know,
<v Speaker 3>like you said, communication issues or problems that come aarrived
<v Speaker 3>in a normal relationship. But having other sexual partners in
<v Speaker 3>your milial relationship is hard, I mean, and because every
<v Speaker 3>little thing we'd experience, every little guy coming up and
<v Speaker 3>just grabbing my boobs out of nowhere, or you know,
<v Speaker 3>little things like when you're having sex, like you know,
<v Speaker 3>how often do you look at your partner?
<v Speaker 2>How often do you look at what the person that you're.
<v Speaker 3>With, like, well, I watch what he's doing, do am
<v Speaker 3>my end of what I'm doing? And it's like this
<v Speaker 3>perfect balance, and there's a lot of stuff that comes up,
<v Speaker 3>and you just try to talk through stuff and try
<v Speaker 3>to say, okay, this bothered me. Of course you you
<v Speaker 3>put alcohol in the middle of that, and sometimes things happen,
<v Speaker 3>so you know, but we're we're definitely stronger for it.
<v Speaker 2>It forces you to be communicative, all right.
<v Speaker 4>So you're in the swinger lifestyle and you know you've
<v Speaker 4>got this job and you've decided that you really want
<v Speaker 4>to like get on this. So was it were you
<v Speaker 4>in actually just thinking that you wanted to start in
<v Speaker 4>only fans? Did you have dreams of doing studio work eventually,
<v Speaker 4>or was it only like personal content platforms to begin.
<v Speaker 3>I didn't even really watch a lot of porn, so
<v Speaker 3>I was thinking only I mean, I knew porn was
<v Speaker 3>out there, but I wasn't even thinking is that something
<v Speaker 3>that I would do? So I was just thinking only
<v Speaker 3>fans because it was like, Oh, everybody's making a ton
<v Speaker 3>of money. This will be fun. It's the same stuff
<v Speaker 3>I'm already doing, you know, let's go for it. And
<v Speaker 3>then a friend had asked me that was also in
<v Speaker 3>the industry. He said, well, are you going to do
<v Speaker 3>mainstream too? You should just get an agent and see
<v Speaker 3>what comes up. And I was like, Okay, why not?
<v Speaker 1>M M. And it was just like you decided to
<v Speaker 1>say fuck it.
<v Speaker 4>But I feel like there must have been more than
<v Speaker 4>just like the idea that you were missing out.
<v Speaker 1>Were you really like feeling stifled at your job or
<v Speaker 1>did you love it?
<v Speaker 3>Like?
<v Speaker 1>Were you were you sad when you left?
<v Speaker 2>I loved what I did. I loved finance.
<v Speaker 3>I source capital for companies, I work with startups, I
<v Speaker 3>work with credit challenge companies.
<v Speaker 2>I loved what I did. I really did.
<v Speaker 3>I will say though, it was right when I quit
<v Speaker 3>was a time for the interest rates were really high
<v Speaker 3>and really crazy, and it made doing what I did
<v Speaker 3>very hard. As we all know, with interest rates, it
<v Speaker 3>makes doing a lot of things hard. And so there
<v Speaker 3>was a couple of really frustrating deals. I worked on,
<v Speaker 3>very large transactions, like one hundred million dollar transactions, And
<v Speaker 3>there was a couple deals that I worked on that
<v Speaker 3>were so lengthy and so long and didn't come to
<v Speaker 3>fruition at the end, and it was so frustrating. And
<v Speaker 3>that just was kind of like I put all my
<v Speaker 3>eggs in one basket and I just it was emotionally draining.
<v Speaker 3>So that was kind of for me. I was like, Okay,
<v Speaker 3>maybe there's something else out there for me.
<v Speaker 4>Do you feel kind of like you didn't have that
<v Speaker 4>much control over the end result? And that was frustrating.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, absolutely none.
<v Speaker 3>And it was like the hard I've had jobs before
<v Speaker 3>where it was like the harder you work, the longer
<v Speaker 3>hours you work, the more money you make. Right, because
<v Speaker 3>I could just close deals, close deals, and this was
<v Speaker 3>more just strategic, and it was really hard when stuff
<v Speaker 3>didn't happen the way and you had no control over whatsoever.
<v Speaker 2>And it was like literally.
<v Speaker 3>Contracts were in hand and stuff got pull less minute
<v Speaker 3>were like no. So I mean that was it's emotionally,
<v Speaker 3>like when you're counting on something that I shouldn't have
<v Speaker 3>before it actually happened. I mean lesson learned, but it
<v Speaker 3>really takes like the wind out of your sails.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, all right, So what happened when the company found out?
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, it's such a crazy story.
<v Speaker 3>So the company was based up in the Northeast, up
<v Speaker 3>and we had like a thing in Boston and we
<v Speaker 3>had met this So I was doing swinger stuff at
<v Speaker 3>this time, right, and so I barely just started the
<v Speaker 3>only fans. This was back like February twenty twenty four,
<v Speaker 3>and so we had met a guy, like a really
<v Speaker 3>good looking guy on one of the one of the
<v Speaker 3>swinger sites, and I decided I was going to meet
<v Speaker 3>up with him at the one of the evenings that
<v Speaker 3>I had free, and I was gonna film it and
<v Speaker 3>basically FaceTime my husband so he could like film it,
<v Speaker 3>like like we thought that would be really fun, just
<v Speaker 3>for fun, Like I mean, I wasn't planning on using
<v Speaker 3>it for my only fans.
<v Speaker 2>I was like, this is just gonna be fun.
<v Speaker 3>And that was actually the very first experience that I
<v Speaker 3>ever did away from my husband, not in we did.
<v Speaker 3>We did not other room stuff but not like out
<v Speaker 3>of town, right, And I wasn't even doing mainstream porn
<v Speaker 3>at the time, so this was like very new for us.
<v Speaker 3>And I tagged the Encore Boston like and I put
<v Speaker 3>something like work hard, Play Hard, but I didn't post
<v Speaker 3>the guy in it or something, but I tagged and
<v Speaker 3>it was under my Taylor Vixen because I just started
<v Speaker 3>the Instagram.
<v Speaker 2>And I think that's how they found out.
<v Speaker 3>Because I think because you tagged the hotel, yeah as
<v Speaker 3>Taylor Vixen, right, So I think someone from my work,
<v Speaker 3>because it's all they're all based in Boston. I think
<v Speaker 3>they looked in like Encore, who's this? Wait, that's not
<v Speaker 3>who's that? Oh wait what who's this person?
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?
<v Speaker 3>So I think like that was kind of stupid of me,
<v Speaker 3>but I think that's how to been on they found out, Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>because it was too quick and it was too close
<v Speaker 3>after that.
<v Speaker 1>So what happened? Did you get a call? Did you
<v Speaker 1>get an email?
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?
<v Speaker 3>No, they they told me to come into the office
<v Speaker 3>and so I was sitting there and honestly, all it
<v Speaker 3>was was because I was new important at the time.
<v Speaker 3>It was just the fact that I had an OnlyFans
<v Speaker 3>and because I had averag that was back when you
<v Speaker 3>could advertise, you know, on your links on Instagram, Like
<v Speaker 3>I was advertising my only fans, and so they were
<v Speaker 3>just like, you can't work here at the company and
<v Speaker 3>have an only fan. So, you know, basically at that point,
<v Speaker 3>I chose, like in that moment right there, like I
<v Speaker 3>decided I was going to quit.
<v Speaker 4>So they gave you a choice. They were willing to
<v Speaker 4>keep you on if you quit the only fans, Yes, okay,
<v Speaker 4>but you you had made your mind up.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And I think it was it was definitely in
<v Speaker 2>the heat of the moment.
<v Speaker 3>But I was so angry at that point because I just,
<v Speaker 3>I don't know, I just felt like there was there
<v Speaker 3>had been some stuff that had happened recently at that
<v Speaker 3>company with people and fraternization and stuff happening in the office.
<v Speaker 3>And I was like, you've got to be kidding me.
<v Speaker 3>And I was like, I'm not even doing anything. But
<v Speaker 3>so I was just like at that point, I was
<v Speaker 3>kind of on my my high horse, and I was like,
<v Speaker 3>you know, yeah.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, yeah.
<v Speaker 4>So you came from a world where image and reputation,
<v Speaker 4>where everything you know, banking, finance, corporate hierarchies. How did
<v Speaker 4>you manage the psychological shift of going from protecting your
<v Speaker 4>professional image in such like a rigorous way to like
<v Speaker 4>really putting yourself out there in the way that you do.
<v Speaker 1>Now.
<v Speaker 2>Oh my gosh, it's hard.
<v Speaker 3>And you know, now we can't put as much on
<v Speaker 3>Instagram anymore, so we have to be very careful. But yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I mean, image was everything, and it still is to
<v Speaker 3>an extent. But now it's really hard for me because
<v Speaker 3>people say, oh, all publicity is good publicity. I'm like,
<v Speaker 3>I still hard for me to wrap my head around
<v Speaker 3>because like there has been some scenes before where you know,
<v Speaker 3>I posted to some Instagram. I mean, just the haters
<v Speaker 3>come out. I mean, the haters come out in full
<v Speaker 3>force about anything. It's really hard. You have to have
<v Speaker 3>a really thick skin. And so that's I think that's
<v Speaker 3>hard in this industry in general, because there's always going
<v Speaker 3>to be haters out there. It's definitely made me a
<v Speaker 3>lot stronger because I don't really worry so much. I mean, I,
<v Speaker 3>oh my god, I get all the time people think
<v Speaker 3>I'm a man. I swear to god, I don't get it, Like,
<v Speaker 3>oh my gosh, all the time, all the time Instagram,
<v Speaker 3>Like who's that man, who's that man like drag queen.
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, I don't get it, but okay, you know,
<v Speaker 3>I don't know.
<v Speaker 2>So that's that's kind of hard. That's kind of hard
<v Speaker 2>to deal with.
<v Speaker 3>But I mean, you know, I try to just be
<v Speaker 3>who I am, and that's the hard part because I'm
<v Speaker 3>a very humble person. I'm not and that's the hard
<v Speaker 3>part about being this industry is you got to be
<v Speaker 3>you can't be humble. You got to be like out
<v Speaker 3>there and put yourself out there. And so that's been
<v Speaker 3>really challenging. But I just try to I just try
<v Speaker 3>to be me.
<v Speaker 4>I feel like you're kind of like the same as me,
<v Speaker 4>where you didn't grow up you know, we both were
<v Speaker 4>this were like the same age, and we didn't grow
<v Speaker 4>up in a world with cell phones. So like it's
<v Speaker 4>very difficult for me to like take selfies on a
<v Speaker 4>regular basis or like film myself when I'm out somewhere.
<v Speaker 4>Like I just look at some people and they've they're
<v Speaker 4>like filming their whole day on Snapchat like all the time,
<v Speaker 4>and I just can't.
<v Speaker 1>It doesn't even occur to me.
<v Speaker 4>Same and then when I do, it does occur to me,
<v Speaker 4>I feel stupid.
<v Speaker 1>I am who who cares that I'm eating fish right now?
<v Speaker 3>You know what I mean, it's one hundred percent for me,
<v Speaker 3>about eight well forgetting, forgetting, yeah, and not wanting to
<v Speaker 3>feel stupid. Yeah, I mean I look at like TikTok
<v Speaker 3>all the time and I'm like, oh that's cute, or
<v Speaker 3>I'll going to Instagram and I'll save safe same like,
<v Speaker 3>oh that's cute.
<v Speaker 2>I can do that, and then I go.
<v Speaker 3>We come from we come from an age where you
<v Speaker 3>don't want to cop Copying someone is bad. So it's
<v Speaker 3>really hard for us because we didn't grow up like
<v Speaker 3>that to wrap our head around copying's okay, maybe you
<v Speaker 3>put your own personal spin on it, but that's this
<v Speaker 3>whole generation and it's really hard for me to grasp.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 4>No, I mean I remember in high school it was like,
<v Speaker 4>you know, that pressure to not like copy the popular
<v Speaker 4>kid or like start you know. I mean, do you
<v Speaker 4>remember like the day when you would wear like, I
<v Speaker 4>don't know, you know, a band T shirt and somebody
<v Speaker 4>would like a costume be like what songs do you know?
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, like that only happened to us. Yeah,
<v Speaker 1>you know, Like I.
<v Speaker 4>Remember I was actually surprised surprise. I was really into
<v Speaker 4>punk when I was in high school. I was so
<v Speaker 4>I had like Black Flagged, Kennedy's and Fugazi and people
<v Speaker 4>be like how many, Like my best friend would.
<v Speaker 1>Be like, how many Black Flag songs?
<v Speaker 2>Do you know?
<v Speaker 1>Like milling them right now.
<v Speaker 4>It was just because the idea of pretending to be
<v Speaker 4>somebody that you weren't was so the idea of selling
<v Speaker 4>out right was.
<v Speaker 3>Now that all we are is somebody Like it's so crazy.
<v Speaker 3>I didn't even think about that. Yeah, it's it's hard
<v Speaker 3>for me, but I do and just taking the time
<v Speaker 3>to do it. And then part of the problem is
<v Speaker 3>the technology. It's like like my sixteen year old she
<v Speaker 3>could film like a TikTok in five seconds, and I'm like,
<v Speaker 3>I'll do something and I'm like I'm loading it into
<v Speaker 3>cap cut and trying to edit.
<v Speaker 2>She's like, why are you doing that.
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, I don't know how to do it with
<v Speaker 3>like the where you film it with the little thing.
<v Speaker 2>She's like, I can teach you. Mom. I'm like, okay, I.
<v Speaker 1>Know tech talk is a little bit complicated. I agree.
<v Speaker 1>I struggled with it too.
<v Speaker 4>Sometimes let's talk about your who you were before you
<v Speaker 4>became Taylor Vixon. You said that you grew up like
<v Speaker 4>very sexual repressed. What does that mean for you and like,
<v Speaker 4>how has the freedom that you find now like changed
<v Speaker 4>your life?
<v Speaker 3>Well, it was mainly like I wasn't sexually repressed really
<v Speaker 3>like when I was in like high school college. It
<v Speaker 3>just became in this particular ten year marriage that I had,
<v Speaker 3>and it was someone that was very insecure. I you know,
<v Speaker 3>I was every time I was on a because I
<v Speaker 3>worked a lot and I traveled a lot for work,
<v Speaker 3>and so every time I was out of town, I
<v Speaker 3>was apparently I was cheating, which I never did in
<v Speaker 3>my life. I I was always accused of stuff, always,
<v Speaker 3>and I'm just like, you know, five minutes extra at dinner,
<v Speaker 3>I must be cheating or something. And it was just
<v Speaker 3>and I was in a very male dominated industry, which
<v Speaker 3>made it hard. I was going to you know, construction
<v Speaker 3>expos and things like that. And don't get wrong, the
<v Speaker 3>opportunity was there. These guys were These guys were like assholes,
<v Speaker 3>you know. I mean, for the most part, a lot
<v Speaker 3>of them were very you know, they had a little
<v Speaker 3>bit of money and they just wanted to flund it around.
<v Speaker 3>But just mainly like with the toys. You know, I
<v Speaker 3>just got to a point where I didn't even have fans.
<v Speaker 3>I didn't even know what fantasies were. Like, it was
<v Speaker 3>just I just kind of lived in this shell, you know,
<v Speaker 3>you'd have your sex every now and then, and like
<v Speaker 3>that was it. Like that was my life, and I
<v Speaker 3>was just like I just thought that was normal.
<v Speaker 2>I did.
<v Speaker 3>I had no idea because no one had ever asked
<v Speaker 3>me about having fantasies or things like that. So it
<v Speaker 3>was just, you know, my fantasies were paying off my
<v Speaker 3>credit card debt.
<v Speaker 2>You know.
<v Speaker 1>I still love those fantasies.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well me too.
<v Speaker 4>You mentioned that he also sent personal photos to your
<v Speaker 4>family and called your workplace to try and damage you.
<v Speaker 1>I'm assuming this is after you got into the industry.
<v Speaker 3>No, actually was just the swinger stuff, so my husband, well,
<v Speaker 3>and after the industry, because some of this stuff happened
<v Speaker 3>after I dig in the industry. But like, yeah, so
<v Speaker 3>like I think we went one time, we went on
<v Speaker 3>chatter bait, just like fun or whatever, and once you
<v Speaker 3>go like that particular site has a really hard time
<v Speaker 3>because like people put it out everywhere, and so like
<v Speaker 3>I had all kinds of like from my Facebook page.
<v Speaker 3>We were in swinger groups. They like infiltrated everything. They
<v Speaker 3>spent hours and hours him and the wife's printing out
<v Speaker 3>photos and like putting them on my parents' door stuff.
<v Speaker 3>Because we were going through custody battles at the time
<v Speaker 3>and they were just trying to alienate me from my family.
<v Speaker 3>They thought, oh, if we can convince basically the family
<v Speaker 3>that she's an awful person and she's a whore, that
<v Speaker 3>she's doing all these things. And I mean I got
<v Speaker 3>accused of having crazy swinger parties at the house.
<v Speaker 1>Drugs.
<v Speaker 3>I mean, I've done more drug tests and that for
<v Speaker 3>a few parts of that stint, it was awful.
<v Speaker 2>It was awful. It was I just.
<v Speaker 3>Couldn't believe that someone would do this. Of course, after
<v Speaker 3>ten years, I walked away this little custody so.
<v Speaker 1>I was gonna as then nuts.
<v Speaker 3>But most of the shit, I mean, most of this
<v Speaker 3>ship came out that it was it was lies, and
<v Speaker 3>you know, someone shows their true colors. That just takes
<v Speaker 3>long enough.
<v Speaker 4>It's also heartbreaking to you know, because it's not only
<v Speaker 4>like telling wise about you, but trying to keep you
<v Speaker 4>away from your.
<v Speaker 3>Absolutely absolutely, which I mean no, I mean, like, no
<v Speaker 3>amount of money was.
<v Speaker 1>My dead body? Would you take my daughter for me?
<v Speaker 1>Exactly exactly?
<v Speaker 2>And you know, I know.
<v Speaker 3>The sad thing was is at the end of the day,
<v Speaker 3>I was like, if you could just be normal, just
<v Speaker 3>be normal, be normal. No, I'm a good mom and
<v Speaker 3>you know, but it was crazy, Like, I mean, she
<v Speaker 3>she knows everything I do.
<v Speaker 4>So I was gonna ask if I mean you said
<v Speaker 4>she's sixteen sixteen, Yeah, yeah, so I at this stage
<v Speaker 4>she's probably parted out well.
<v Speaker 3>Unfortunately, during an early part when she was like nine,
<v Speaker 3>so kind of mid she got sat down and showed
<v Speaker 3>all the photos of me.
<v Speaker 2>So that's where things really took a.
<v Speaker 3>Turn and are wow yeah, oh yeah, it was crazy.
<v Speaker 3>We had CPS involved and oh my god, yeah crazy.
<v Speaker 2>It was awful.
<v Speaker 3>So unfortunately I didn't really she didn't know what I
<v Speaker 3>did obviously prior to that, because all we were doing
<v Speaker 3>was swinger stuff at the time, and we would just
<v Speaker 3>go travel and my parents. She'd stay with my parents
<v Speaker 3>and we just go away for comes to you like
<v Speaker 3>anybody does. Yeah, I mean, we kept it completely separate.
<v Speaker 3>She had no idea and so unfortunately I was forced
<v Speaker 3>to talk to her about stuff very early on.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and how did she take it?
<v Speaker 3>Well, she took it Okay, she was too young, but
<v Speaker 3>like later when she was like I would say, like
<v Speaker 3>early teens.
<v Speaker 2>At first it was really cool.
<v Speaker 3>She thought it was cool because like kids that age
<v Speaker 3>are like, oh, how many followers do you have? Oh
<v Speaker 3>my mom has one hundred thousand fower two hundred three
<v Speaker 3>hundred ths.
<v Speaker 1>She's like, oh cool.
<v Speaker 3>But the minute one kid opens their mouth and says, oh,
<v Speaker 3>when you can have OnlyFans just yeah, because kids are nasty.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, that's when things start to get a little like.
<v Speaker 3>So you go where one day it might not be
<v Speaker 3>cool because someone might have said something to her, and
<v Speaker 3>then it goes back to being cool again because someone's like,
<v Speaker 3>oh my god, your mom has a lot of followers
<v Speaker 3>or something like that.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 2>I can never navigating teenagers is just challenging.
<v Speaker 1>I can't wait.
<v Speaker 2>She definitely believes like, you stand up for who you are. You.
<v Speaker 3>You know, she knows that these kids these days, they
<v Speaker 3>know the pressures that society, how they look at adults,
<v Speaker 3>they know the sexualization of every single thing. I mean,
<v Speaker 3>that's that's the way they've been raised. Yeah, So she
<v Speaker 3>definitely understands that because it's shoved in your face twenty
<v Speaker 3>four hours a day on Instagram and TikTok.
<v Speaker 4>And how do you manage being a mom and doing
<v Speaker 4>this work like practically, like when you like when you're
<v Speaker 4>out of town, like right now, is she with your husband?
<v Speaker 1>Does she stay with like your family? Like how do you?
<v Speaker 4>And I'm assuming she knows what you're going to go do? Yeah, yeah,
<v Speaker 4>she asked you how work was. Are there like certain
<v Speaker 4>because I know that like for me, there were certain
<v Speaker 4>things that my parents shared with me, you know, because
<v Speaker 4>my parents were pornographers.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.
<v Speaker 4>I remember my mom did is shoot for a penthouse,
<v Speaker 4>I think in Cabo, and she's got this beautiful shot
<v Speaker 4>of this girl and it was like the shape of
<v Speaker 4>her body echoed the mountains in the background and it
<v Speaker 4>was on the edge of a boat.
<v Speaker 2>That was great.
<v Speaker 4>And I remember her like taking the magazine and like
<v Speaker 4>trying to cover the nude parts but like really wanting
<v Speaker 4>to show me. I was like a teenager I think
<v Speaker 4>at the time, and she's like, look at this. You
<v Speaker 4>can't look at the rest of the magazine, but look
<v Speaker 4>at this page.
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, that's great, mom.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean she knows, like I mean, obviously I
<v Speaker 3>don't talk to her, she knows what I'm going at
<v Speaker 3>on for shoe and things like that. I mean, the
<v Speaker 3>travels hard. She's my husband's there, thank god. And she
<v Speaker 3>used to, you know, stay with my parents. My parents
<v Speaker 3>live in Texas, but you know we're in Vegas now.
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I mean she's sixteen now, she's pretty pretty
<v Speaker 3>self sufficient. She's she's got friends as well, so she's
<v Speaker 3>always she's always taken care of. I mean, I swear
<v Speaker 3>when I'm there, I feel like she all she doesn't
<v Speaker 3>stay in a room the whole time, so it's like like, come.
<v Speaker 1>Down, be present.
<v Speaker 4>And I know, I try to remind myself of that
<v Speaker 4>because my daughter's super attached to me, and like guilt
<v Speaker 4>trips that shit out of me when I like, oh yeah,
<v Speaker 4>if I even go out for a night like with friends,
<v Speaker 4>or even if I go to like I try to
<v Speaker 4>go to like an a meeting like a few times
<v Speaker 4>a month, and she.
<v Speaker 1>Just gives me the biggest guilt trip and.
<v Speaker 4>She's just like, you won't be here to enjoy Harry Potter,
<v Speaker 4>But mommy love you, and I'm like, I love you too,
<v Speaker 4>but like I need to do something. I need to
<v Speaker 4>have time for myself sometimes. Yeah, she's like, I give
<v Speaker 4>you plenty of time.
<v Speaker 1>Tears.
<v Speaker 4>Oh my gosh, I gave you two days in the
<v Speaker 4>last six months.
<v Speaker 1>That's all you get.
<v Speaker 2>It's such a cute age, though, I know so.
<v Speaker 4>And I try to That's why I try to, like
<v Speaker 4>and that's why I don't go to like a lot
<v Speaker 4>of events. I don't go to a lot of parties
<v Speaker 4>because I realized that, like that is fleeting, and there
<v Speaker 4>will come a time.
<v Speaker 1>That she's sixteen and she will stay in her room
<v Speaker 1>the whole time and she won't want talk to me.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and when she does, like all of a sudden,
<v Speaker 3>her arm around jaelping in the kitchen, it's like, Mom,
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, what do you want?
<v Speaker 2>Seriously? I mean, and I know, and she does want.
<v Speaker 1>Something every time.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm like, you can't just come give
<v Speaker 3>your mama hug.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 4>But it'll come full circle when she's a I mean,
<v Speaker 4>you know, I'm I don't know your relationship with your
<v Speaker 4>parents was like. But once I got older, I kind
<v Speaker 4>of realized what it was like to try to raise
<v Speaker 4>a family and what it was like to be a mom.
<v Speaker 2>And I was like it's hard. Yeah, it's hard. It's hard.
<v Speaker 4>Taylor, you decided to do scenes. Tell me about your
<v Speaker 4>first scene. Did you get an agent first or did
<v Speaker 4>you book your own scene first.
<v Speaker 3>I did get an agent. I was out in Florida,
<v Speaker 3>so I was living in Orlando. So I got an
<v Speaker 3>agent and it was like a Florida agent. So he
<v Speaker 3>one of those, one of those. So I did one
<v Speaker 3>of the I did the Hot Mills fuck, which I
<v Speaker 3>think a lot of people do for their first they
<v Speaker 3>do firsts, right, So.
<v Speaker 1>There's there's certain brands that are very much about like
<v Speaker 1>New Talent.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it was actually a really good experience. They were
<v Speaker 3>great to work with. I mean they're known. They kind
<v Speaker 3>of handhold you. I just remember like they do very
<v Speaker 3>natural makeups. I was like, you know, I was like
<v Speaker 3>I felt like I was just like the lights were
<v Speaker 3>so bright and but it was a great title with
<v Speaker 3>Tyler Nixon. He was a sweetheart, so lovely seen.
<v Speaker 1>Him in such a long time.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, he's I worked with him a lot back in
<v Speaker 2>the time.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, he just he just put me everywhere I needed
<v Speaker 3>to go, and so it was a great day. Everything
<v Speaker 3>was just went super smooth. The only thing that was
<v Speaker 3>so funny was that. I guess they film and like
<v Speaker 3>kind of like a condo type place like an Arizona
<v Speaker 3>like a condo building or apartment condo building or something
<v Speaker 3>like a high rise type thing. And I'm very very loud,
<v Speaker 3>and I was very loud, and they basically kept telling
<v Speaker 3>me to I'm like, we're filling a porn here, like
<v Speaker 3>maybe we'll at the right place, maybe put some so
<v Speaker 3>I guess the episode is called I'm a Screamer or
<v Speaker 3>something like that.
<v Speaker 4>I've had that issue where I've had to shoot in
<v Speaker 4>locations where the neighbors could hear or we're in a backyard,
<v Speaker 4>and I've had to like ask people to like to
<v Speaker 4>get down, and it's difficult because it's like you don't
<v Speaker 4>want to take away from the intensity of the scene,
<v Speaker 4>but we also don't want the cops called true.
<v Speaker 2>True. Yeah not.
<v Speaker 3>There are so many places that I don't really think
<v Speaker 3>there's anywhere that's you're really technically allowed, you know, for
<v Speaker 3>the hoas.
<v Speaker 2>And homeowners and airbnbs and all that, you know, hotels.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's tricky ask for forgiveness, not permission.
<v Speaker 4>I mean you can get like basically like getting a
<v Speaker 4>film permit, there's a lot of things built around that
<v Speaker 4>to protect the neighbors.
<v Speaker 2>Gotcha.
<v Speaker 4>So like there's a lot of like conditions where you
<v Speaker 4>can't obstruct streets, you can't take all the parking, you
<v Speaker 4>can't like disturb the neighbors, like all that.
<v Speaker 1>Kind of stuff.
<v Speaker 2>So gotcha.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, so even if you get a permit, it's actually
<v Speaker 4>more like you can't even more.
<v Speaker 2>So, yeah, I got youa it makes sense.
<v Speaker 4>Okay, So you did that first scene and how did
<v Speaker 4>you feel about it.
<v Speaker 1>After it was done?
<v Speaker 2>I loved it.
<v Speaker 3>It was so cool, Like to me, I'd never you know,
<v Speaker 3>even though I had started only fans and stuff like,
<v Speaker 3>it wasn't the same as like being It was so
<v Speaker 3>weird though, because before that scene came out, even with
<v Speaker 3>only I never even had showed my boobs on Twitter.
<v Speaker 2>And then all of a sudden like whoa, yeah spread.
<v Speaker 1>I was like, course, wow, because they put it everywhere.
<v Speaker 2>They put it everywhere, and I was like, here we go. Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>I was like, and they get it out fast because
<v Speaker 3>they want that first one to be out before you
<v Speaker 3>start doing other stuff. And so and I think I
<v Speaker 3>think you even have to agree to something like that,
<v Speaker 3>Like I don't real they want that to be your
<v Speaker 3>first scene that's released, but that makes sense. I can't remember,
<v Speaker 3>but yeah, so it was like, holy crap. I was like,
<v Speaker 3>here we go, and then after that it was it's
<v Speaker 3>just it's just fun. Filling in Miami. Outside isn't fun,
<v Speaker 3>but you know, hair everywhere and are you glased xpis Miami? Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I am too.
<v Speaker 1>You are awesome. It's my first time there. Super cool.
<v Speaker 4>I'll be doing like pool side and interviews and the
<v Speaker 4>red carpet and all that kind of stuff.
<v Speaker 3>So yes, at the new hotel this year. So interesting
<v Speaker 3>to see about the Sycamore. Well, I haven't ever been,
<v Speaker 3>so this will be my first experience.
<v Speaker 1>I know. That's what everyone keeps telling me.
<v Speaker 3>It's so bring anything you could possibly bring to keep
<v Speaker 3>yourself cool.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I've heard cold towels.
<v Speaker 3>I was actually thinking about even getting one of those
<v Speaker 3>little cold like those things that are like electronic.
<v Speaker 2>It's that hot. Wow.
<v Speaker 4>I mean when I would shoot outside in hot weather,
<v Speaker 4>I had those special cooling towels. Yeah, and I would
<v Speaker 4>pack them in ice and stuff.
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, can't wait wait, I'd be wearing my hair up.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Same.
<v Speaker 4>So you actually got a v and most performer of
<v Speaker 4>the your nomination in your first year, is that right?
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it was.
<v Speaker 3>Technically it was my second year, so my first year,
<v Speaker 3>this was my second. This one that just happened in
<v Speaker 3>January my first year, I got nominated for the MILF
<v Speaker 3>Fan Award, which was really cool because I mean at
<v Speaker 3>that point I'd only been in the industry for like
<v Speaker 3>three months or four months, So that was amazing because
<v Speaker 3>the fan awards are sometimes people like downplay them, but
<v Speaker 3>it was really cool just to be nominated for that.
<v Speaker 3>And then this year I got nominated for the actual
<v Speaker 3>I guess call it the Critics Critics AVN MILK for
<v Speaker 3>Former of the Year, So that was amazing. I mean,
<v Speaker 3>it was such an honor to be up there with
<v Speaker 3>those ladies that have been in the industry for a very,
<v Speaker 3>very long time.
<v Speaker 2>So I am very humbled.
<v Speaker 4>Is that a goal that you work towards or do
<v Speaker 4>you not believe awards are important?
<v Speaker 2>I think all awards are important.
<v Speaker 3>I've just always been one of those people that I
<v Speaker 3>don't expect something because I don't want to be disappointed.
<v Speaker 3>So I mean, anything that comes my way is definitely exciting,
<v Speaker 3>but I don't I definitely never expect anything, just because
<v Speaker 3>I mean there's so many factors involved with all that too,
<v Speaker 3>so you just you never know.
<v Speaker 2>I mean I don't know, but yeah, I mean it's
<v Speaker 2>of course it's important.
<v Speaker 3>I mean everybody wants to be recognized in any way,
<v Speaker 3>shape or form, whether it's likes on your post, whether
<v Speaker 3>it's number of followers. So I mean anything that anybody
<v Speaker 3>recognizing something positive, even a comment on a scene, like
<v Speaker 3>that's the coolest thing. Is like when the fans will
<v Speaker 3>post like a scene and typically they post it before
<v Speaker 3>I even know it's coming out, and they're like, oh,
<v Speaker 3>this particular scene is really hot. I mean I just
<v Speaker 3>love that stuff. I mean that to me is really important.
<v Speaker 3>What do you think is one of the best scenes
<v Speaker 3>you've done? My new Milfi scene I really loved that
<v Speaker 3>is fairly new with Dan Damage and Hollywood Cash. That
<v Speaker 3>was my first threesome on scene, so that was a
<v Speaker 3>really good one. They do such a good job in production.
<v Speaker 3>So trying to think. Let me see, I just did
<v Speaker 3>a scene for Naughty America with Brian Droller that was
<v Speaker 3>really good. I just got like sopping wet in the
<v Speaker 3>shower and that was fun.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>I like to do stuff that's like not on the bed,
<v Speaker 3>so anything that's not on the bed. I love to
<v Speaker 3>get creative in the kitchen and just do stuff where
<v Speaker 3>you have to get I just shot a scene for
<v Speaker 3>Not America for Trophy Wives. It's going to be really
<v Speaker 3>hot with Aaron Jones, and we were like on top
<v Speaker 3>of the counters and it.
<v Speaker 1>Was all over the place.
<v Speaker 4>I remember. So when I used to direct for a
<v Speaker 4>Digital Playground, they went through this phase where they were
<v Speaker 4>like so sick of like bedroom scenes that they literally
<v Speaker 4>had this rule where I could not choot.
<v Speaker 1>A scene like in a bedroom.
<v Speaker 2>I love that, Like I.
<v Speaker 1>Wasn't you love that?
<v Speaker 4>A lot of people I worked with did not love
<v Speaker 4>that because kitchen counters are not comfortable.
<v Speaker 2>Well, and even in the shower when I did that, like.
<v Speaker 1>The shower is my biggest nightmare.
<v Speaker 3>It's hot because you didn't get the reflections the mirror,
<v Speaker 3>but like you might slip and crack your head open.
<v Speaker 2>I know, I was like pressed up again.
<v Speaker 1>Shower scenes give me so much anxiety.
<v Speaker 3>It's like, you don't really have to get wet. I'm like,
<v Speaker 3>aren't we doing a shower scene? She's like, you don't
<v Speaker 3>mind getting wet. I'm like, listen, I don't have anything
<v Speaker 3>to do after this, Like I gotta go home and
<v Speaker 3>like wash my hair anyway, So that is totally fine. Well,
<v Speaker 3>probably shouldn't said that because I was literally like, I
<v Speaker 3>mean I looked at myself in the mirror afterwards and
<v Speaker 3>I was like, oh my, don't worry.
<v Speaker 2>People love that, and I was like.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, they do, they do, But yeah, I get it.
<v Speaker 1>What do people get wrong about the adult industry?
<v Speaker 3>Oh gosh, you know, I think mainstream society, you know,
<v Speaker 3>we are all normal people trying to put food on
<v Speaker 3>the table for our families. We've all got normal lives
<v Speaker 3>outside of the industry.
<v Speaker 2>I think that that's it sucks.
<v Speaker 3>I mean, they think everybody thinks that we are, you know,
<v Speaker 3>crackhoors with washed up strippers with daddy issues. And you know,
<v Speaker 3>there probably are a few nothing wrong with that.
<v Speaker 4>There's a few of those in every industry in the world.
<v Speaker 3>You know, most of us are here because we choose
<v Speaker 3>to be here. We absolutely love what we do and
<v Speaker 3>we choose to be here and we're living life and
<v Speaker 3>we're having fun, and this is what we choose is
<v Speaker 3>our profession.
<v Speaker 2>And you know, I.
<v Speaker 3>Think I would say at least ninety percent of the
<v Speaker 3>adult industry is probably those people that we're here.
<v Speaker 4>Because we love it, I think, especially now that you
<v Speaker 4>know people have so much like control over their careers
<v Speaker 4>and their content and stuff like that.
<v Speaker 3>Absolutely, yeah, I mean, and it's it's just insane that
<v Speaker 3>mainstream society has such a stigma on just sex in general,
<v Speaker 3>and we choose to live in a world that is
<v Speaker 3>more open minded about many things.
<v Speaker 4>So it's interesting because the same financial system that you
<v Speaker 4>worked in decades for is also one of the biggest
<v Speaker 4>obstacles that adult creators face, right debanking, payment process or discrimination.
<v Speaker 4>So how does it feel looking at that world like
<v Speaker 4>now from this other side?
<v Speaker 2>It sucks? It absolutely sucks.
<v Speaker 4>Do you understand like some of the reasoning behind some
<v Speaker 4>of the choices that these financial institutions make having worked
<v Speaker 4>in that world, you know, where as opposed to like
<v Speaker 4>a lot of creators sometimes be like, I don't know
<v Speaker 4>why they do this.
<v Speaker 2>Like yeah, you know why?
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, they do it Primarily the finance because the banks
<v Speaker 3>have different regulations for at risk for risky industries, So firearms, cannabis, sex,
<v Speaker 3>every industry is like that, they've got to hold funds
<v Speaker 3>for certain longer periods of time before they pay, like
<v Speaker 3>the credit crud processors to pay. So it's all about
<v Speaker 3>It's all about their pocketbook, That's what it's about. Things
<v Speaker 3>like chargebacks because of the chargebacks, because of that kind
<v Speaker 3>of stuff, and because the industry is such changing regulations
<v Speaker 3>and potentials for lawsuits and things like that the banks
<v Speaker 3>have and there's a lot of cash stuff involved and
<v Speaker 3>everybody thinks, oh, adult leads to other things that are legal,
<v Speaker 3>and so there's all that stigma associated with it. And
<v Speaker 3>while I get it, it's more I think at a
<v Speaker 3>higher level, it's not the it's not the bank's laws.
<v Speaker 3>It's the laws that are we set and give to
<v Speaker 3>the banks that they have to do with regards to holding.
<v Speaker 2>Funds and things like that. So it sucks. Yeah, I
<v Speaker 2>mean it's affected me for sure.
<v Speaker 3>I mean I just even walking with a legitimate business
<v Speaker 3>and trying to get a bank account is next ti impossible.
<v Speaker 1>Let's talk a little bit about your OnlyFans.
<v Speaker 4>What has been like the most interesting uh interaction that
<v Speaker 4>you've had with a fan, whether like positive or negative.
<v Speaker 3>Most of my fan interactions have been great. I don't
<v Speaker 3>really tolerate a whole heck of a lot. So once
<v Speaker 3>someone starts getting The one thing I hate though, is
<v Speaker 3>like when guys try to try to start being like
<v Speaker 3>like like guys be dominating, so like I don't like
<v Speaker 3>people to take call me daddy, Like that's like the
<v Speaker 3>big turn off for me. So I'm like, you gotta
<v Speaker 3>earn that, baby. So I mean like that kind of shit.
<v Speaker 3>I've had some weird requests.
<v Speaker 4>My favorite are like when guys come in and they're
<v Speaker 4>like take it, bitch, and I'm like, I'll take your
<v Speaker 4>fucking tip before you call me that. Like you know
<v Speaker 4>what I mean that they just don't want to spend
<v Speaker 4>any money, but then they want to talk a certain
<v Speaker 4>way to you, like.
<v Speaker 2>I'm the same way.
<v Speaker 3>I had a I had a really weird request one
<v Speaker 3>time for a custom video and I actually had to
<v Speaker 3>go research this to do it. And I had to
<v Speaker 3>go research all of the symptoms of like a heart attack,
<v Speaker 3>and so I had to go through my whole day.
<v Speaker 1>So wait, hold on, they wanted you to fake having
<v Speaker 1>heart attack?
<v Speaker 3>Okay, Yeah, So I basically had to go through from
<v Speaker 3>getting up to going to work, what I do, like
<v Speaker 3>working out, like having lunch, what I did throughout my
<v Speaker 3>whole day. He wanted me to kind of start to
<v Speaker 3>have these heart attack symptoms come on and like get
<v Speaker 3>through the day, and then at the end of the day,
<v Speaker 3>he wanted someone to find He wanted me to actually
<v Speaker 3>have the heart attack, and then he wanted someone to
<v Speaker 3>walk in the room and find me and then use
<v Speaker 3>like a defibrillator to resuscitate me. Huhm or not whatever.
<v Speaker 2>It was my choice.
<v Speaker 1>Oh, it was your choice whether or not you survived.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.
<v Speaker 1>Interesting, So my.
<v Speaker 2>Thought, Okay, so here's the crazy thing.
<v Speaker 4>I felt like, you have to survive because otherwise you're
<v Speaker 4>technically faking like a snuff film.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>Well, he was a heart surgeon too, so I'm thinking
<v Speaker 3>to myself, like, okay, you're going in for a triple
<v Speaker 3>bypass right, and you're laying on the table and he
<v Speaker 3>like gets all his stuff on. He walks over and
<v Speaker 3>he's like, hold on a minute.
<v Speaker 4>He's like, well, I know, I'm a little bit concerned
<v Speaker 4>that a heart surgeon is turned on by the idea
<v Speaker 4>of saying having a heart attack. Seriously, I don't ever
<v Speaker 4>want that guy to operate on me.
<v Speaker 3>It was it was crazy because my my husband actually
<v Speaker 3>I was like he could hear me in the room,
<v Speaker 3>like doing the heart attack thing, and I was like, babe,
<v Speaker 3>come in here, and like I need you to do
<v Speaker 3>that because we didn't have He's like just fake, like
<v Speaker 3>you have the paddles or whatever. So I was like,
<v Speaker 3>I was like, okay, he heard me like hit the
<v Speaker 3>floor and he walks and he's like, oh fuck no.
<v Speaker 3>He's like huh, Like you know, he has a lot
<v Speaker 3>of people in his life that passed away.
<v Speaker 2>He's like that was too real for me. He's like,
<v Speaker 2>I wouldn't do it. I had to like find someone
<v Speaker 2>to help me. He's like, I'm not doing this.
<v Speaker 1>That is so wild.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, what does a fan attachment look like when it
<v Speaker 4>goes too far? And how do you handle that without
<v Speaker 4>burning the relationship down? Like do you ever get guys
<v Speaker 4>that like want to take it a step further beyond
<v Speaker 4>like where you're comfortable.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and all the time sometimes I try to state
<v Speaker 3>my boundaries like really early. But yeah, I mean, definitely
<v Speaker 3>the relation people think you're in a real relationship, I
<v Speaker 3>mean the fantasy. I try to keep it fantasy, you know.
<v Speaker 3>I try to make sure that I look for like
<v Speaker 3>little indications of like certain things, and then I try
<v Speaker 3>to always steer it back to the to the fantasy.
<v Speaker 4>I mean, cause that's that's what it is, right. I mean, yeah,
<v Speaker 4>I feel like most guys get that send bigger tips.
<v Speaker 4>But there's definitely some people I think who are looking
<v Speaker 4>for like an actual companion, and it's There was this
<v Speaker 4>one guy that used to, you know, initially like tried
<v Speaker 4>to have a real relationship with me, and I was like,
<v Speaker 4>this is like not happening, Like I tried to be
<v Speaker 4>very clear about that, but then he would go and
<v Speaker 4>get like catfish by all these other girls on OnlyFans
<v Speaker 4>and he'd come and he'd tell me like, oh, I
<v Speaker 4>met someone.
<v Speaker 1>She's the one.
<v Speaker 4>I just have to send her this money because her
<v Speaker 4>mom's in the hospital. Oh my god, I'm going to
<v Speaker 4>move in with her. And I'd be like this is
<v Speaker 4>not real, like I'm telling you right now, and he
<v Speaker 4>wouldn't listen to me. Sure enough that would fall through,
<v Speaker 4>she'd take his money. Then he'd find someone else, and
<v Speaker 4>it was like it got to a point where I'm
<v Speaker 4>just like I give.
<v Speaker 2>Up, Like it might as well be me taking your money.
<v Speaker 4>I know, but you know what I mean, Like he
<v Speaker 4>just he really didn't want like he didn't want to
<v Speaker 4>believe that, you know, he wasn't destined for a you know,
<v Speaker 4>future with this twenty year old girl. The guy was
<v Speaker 4>like sixty five, and I was like, can you just
<v Speaker 4>can you meet someone your own age?
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?
<v Speaker 2>I mean.
<v Speaker 3>And here's the problem though, a lot of the ones
<v Speaker 3>that are are clearly married right are in relationships, are
<v Speaker 3>living in the fantasy and it's really hard. It's like,
<v Speaker 3>wait a minute, You're they're wanting you to be like
<v Speaker 3>exclusive with that, like and I'm like, wait a minute,
<v Speaker 3>but you're married or what?
<v Speaker 2>Is just the hardest thing. It's so odd to me sometimes.
<v Speaker 3>But you know, we deal in fantasy, so as long
<v Speaker 3>as you try to keep it in that fantasy lane.
<v Speaker 3>But it's the ones that I get the most.
<v Speaker 2>I used to have.
<v Speaker 3>I used to have a free page and I finally
<v Speaker 3>just had I pretty much have shut that down. I
<v Speaker 3>just use my main Taylor Vixen only fans because hey,
<v Speaker 3>hey hey, it's like I look back and it's or
<v Speaker 3>it's like I have a couple of guys.
<v Speaker 2>It's like they send me the same photo.
<v Speaker 3>They send me the same photo every day for like
<v Speaker 3>six months, this every single day, and I'm like, finally
<v Speaker 3>you sent me the same like at least use a
<v Speaker 3>different photover something. But it's just like I just try
<v Speaker 3>to get everybody over to my subscription page because so
<v Speaker 3>they're going to get the most attention anyway.
<v Speaker 4>Well, generally, the people that are willing to pay for
<v Speaker 4>subscription are the people that are honestly more worth to
<v Speaker 4>like have that like relationship with, because otherwise it's funny
<v Speaker 4>how people treat you a lot better when they're getting
<v Speaker 4>you money.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>Well, and I've heard too that the people on the
<v Speaker 3>free pages, even if you like if you put something
<v Speaker 3>on your wall, like if you have a free page,
<v Speaker 3>because you're a lot to put stuff on your wall
<v Speaker 3>that someone can download, like for twenty bucks. Yeah, people
<v Speaker 3>are very it's very easy to pirate that. So they said,
<v Speaker 3>you're better off just doing a subscription because at least
<v Speaker 3>people are paying for the subscription and you can't put
<v Speaker 3>stuff on the wall that way.
<v Speaker 2>You have to DM or.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. I mean so that kind
<v Speaker 4>of takes me back to what you were talking about with,
<v Speaker 4>you know, mean nasty comments that you would get. How
<v Speaker 4>do you like separate yourself from the trolls on the internet,
<v Speaker 4>Like how do you handle your men health in an
<v Speaker 4>industry where people attack you every single day.
<v Speaker 3>It's so hard. It's so hard stay grounded. I mean
<v Speaker 3>I just tried to, Like I said, I just try
<v Speaker 3>to be me, but it is so hard. Like I
<v Speaker 3>did a I did a collab one time with this
<v Speaker 3>cute guy, this young guy out in Florida had a
<v Speaker 3>lot of followers, but he was doing he was starting
<v Speaker 3>to he was a straight guy, but he was starting
<v Speaker 3>to do a lot of gay stuff on his only fans.
<v Speaker 3>And at the time this kind of wasn't happening, but
<v Speaker 3>then it kind of did.
<v Speaker 2>Like right at that point where we did a little collabor.
<v Speaker 1>Was he shooting scenes with other men or he was like.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, And I think just I think he was mainly
<v Speaker 3>doing only fans. He wasn't even mainstream, but he had
<v Speaker 3>a big following, like on TikTok Instagram.
<v Speaker 4>I mean, this is the thing, Like, if you're a
<v Speaker 4>guy who's got an only fans and you're doing well,
<v Speaker 4>the majority of your audience, they're not women, right, They're
<v Speaker 4>just not.
<v Speaker 3>But let me tell you, you think people on Instagram are mean?
<v Speaker 3>Gay male fans of gay performers are awful, awful, this
<v Speaker 3>crusty bitch or pussy looks like a raisin.
<v Speaker 2>And I mean they were just they were like they
<v Speaker 2>were like, who is this old hag?
<v Speaker 3>I mean it was awful. It was truly awful. And
<v Speaker 3>I think one night, I think I just sat there
<v Speaker 3>and cried. I was like, oh my god, oh my god,
<v Speaker 3>I said, I said, I do never again. Well, I
<v Speaker 3>do collab with somebody who's at least not sharing the
<v Speaker 3>same fan base as me, just because I feel like,
<v Speaker 3>you know, you do collabs because you're trying to get
<v Speaker 3>your name out. You're trying to cross promote, and you
<v Speaker 3>want to promote to someone like if I want their fans.
<v Speaker 2>To be my fans, my fans to be their fans.
<v Speaker 2>I feel like we didn't have that.
<v Speaker 1>Cross Yeah, that makes sense.
<v Speaker 3>And the girls that liked him were like young, cute girls,
<v Speaker 3>like they're not gonna subscribe to my only fans either.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, but it was awful. It's awful. People are so
<v Speaker 3>mean and there's so many trolls out there. You just
<v Speaker 3>your skin just gets thicker every day.
<v Speaker 1>But you could do what I do and not read
<v Speaker 1>the comments.
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't read the comment comments.
<v Speaker 1>You can say what you want. I'll give a ship
<v Speaker 1>because I don't read them.
<v Speaker 3>But then people get mad if you don't read the
<v Speaker 3>So I try to like as much stuff. I try
<v Speaker 3>to comment back, but it's like, all of a sudden,
<v Speaker 3>you be like, m.
<v Speaker 2>Why did I do this today? You know, depending on
<v Speaker 2>what your mood is for the day.
<v Speaker 1>Are reading the comments? Are my only fans?
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, of course, not anywhere else. Yeah, Instagram and Twitter
<v Speaker 3>are Twitter is actually pretty good. Twitter is a lot
<v Speaker 3>of fans and industry people.
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you're right. Do you read all the comments on
<v Speaker 1>Twitter and they're lovely?
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?
<v Speaker 4>Actually, everyone's super nice to me on Twitter, And for
<v Speaker 4>the most part, I don't. YouTube is where Yeah, YouTube
<v Speaker 4>is wearing a lot of the most amount of hate
<v Speaker 4>is on YouTube. Yeah, because the way the algorithm works,
<v Speaker 4>people are getting they get my podcasts in their feed,
<v Speaker 4>but they're not necessarily looking for it, and so they're
<v Speaker 4>a good thing.
<v Speaker 1>It's a good thing.
<v Speaker 4>But sometimes you get the people who like are very
<v Speaker 4>anti the industry and they come in and like, but at.
<v Speaker 2>Least they're talking about it.
<v Speaker 4>It's that all promotion, all of publicities good of Is
<v Speaker 4>there anyone in the industry that you look up to
<v Speaker 4>or who inspires you?
<v Speaker 2>Oh, gosh, well besides you.
<v Speaker 1>Oh, I knew you were gonna say that.
<v Speaker 3>You know, honestly, all all of the people that are
<v Speaker 3>in this industry and have longevity males and females. You know,
<v Speaker 3>on the guy's side, you've got you know, Mick Blue
<v Speaker 3>and Kieran Lee and Mani Ferrara, those males that have
<v Speaker 3>been in the industry, you know, Zach Wilde, been this
<v Speaker 3>in a long time, that are just doing really well
<v Speaker 3>and have stayed and because they all know how hard
<v Speaker 3>it's for guys in this industry.
<v Speaker 2>For multiple reasons, right.
<v Speaker 3>And then on the female side, kinder lust A, Lexus Fox,
<v Speaker 3>Penny Barber, all My Mills, you know, Riggan Fox, Chase Sites,
<v Speaker 3>all the ladies that are just kicking ass and have
<v Speaker 3>been in the industry for let's say ten plus years
<v Speaker 3>and that have navigated through families and other careers and
<v Speaker 3>kids and are still rocking it and are still trying to,
<v Speaker 3>you know, do everything they can to stay relevant and
<v Speaker 3>stay beautiful and keep up with the new technologies and
<v Speaker 3>the tiktoks and the.
<v Speaker 2>More power to them, you know.
<v Speaker 3>I mean, that's or, as Brittany Andrews calls it, tiki tukies.
<v Speaker 1>You guys say that she does.
<v Speaker 2>She does.
<v Speaker 3>I mean, yeah, I mean anybody with longevity in this industry,
<v Speaker 3>and you know obviously the producers and directors too, I
<v Speaker 3>mean we all take a lot of shit. It's I mean,
<v Speaker 3>I know how much I've experienced, and I've been industry.
<v Speaker 2>I've barely seen the industry.
<v Speaker 3>Well, I've seen the industry change a lot, even in
<v Speaker 3>two years that I've been in it. Not even I
<v Speaker 3>can't imagine what you've seen ten years, fifteen years. It's
<v Speaker 3>changing and evolving and going from this to that. Yeah,
<v Speaker 3>I mean, I would have loved to have been around
<v Speaker 3>in like the nineties day like because that's when I
<v Speaker 3>actually did used to.
<v Speaker 2>Watch porn like The Pirates and all that, like the
<v Speaker 2>Jesse j Yeah.
<v Speaker 4>I loved like around and I went to the premiere
<v Speaker 4>he did. Yeah, I went to the movie premiere at
<v Speaker 4>the Orpheus Theater.
<v Speaker 2>No way.
<v Speaker 4>It was actually really funny because like you would think,
<v Speaker 4>so it was like there's like five it's like seats
<v Speaker 4>five hundred people, right, Like the whole industry came. It
<v Speaker 4>was like a big deal, and there's the red carpet
<v Speaker 4>and all this kind of stuff because it was like
<v Speaker 4>the highest budget. It was the most expensive porn movie
<v Speaker 4>ever made at the time.
<v Speaker 1>Wow.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, And it was funny because you know, we all
<v Speaker 4>go in there and everyone's dressed to the nines. But like,
<v Speaker 4>I gotta tell you, it doesn't matter how long you've
<v Speaker 4>been in the industry, watching a porn movie with the
<v Speaker 4>five hundred other people is awkward, Like you don't matter
<v Speaker 4>who you are. Like we would get to the sex
<v Speaker 4>parts and like we all work in porn, but it
<v Speaker 4>was just everyone would.
<v Speaker 1>Be like it was just weird.
<v Speaker 4>It felt weird, Like I think for me, you know,
<v Speaker 4>because obviously, like no one's going to masturbate in the theater,
<v Speaker 4>right and generally when people watch porn, they don't usually
<v Speaker 4>watch that's.
<v Speaker 2>What you know, where you go to the theater to
<v Speaker 2>watch it even still.
<v Speaker 4>Yeah yeah yeah yeah, but usually like you know, those
<v Speaker 4>were few and far between, or they were like peep
<v Speaker 4>shows you had your own room or whatever. Yeah, but yeah,
<v Speaker 4>it was like and for me, like, if I don't
<v Speaker 4>have a camera between me and like what's going on?
<v Speaker 4>If I'm not like but on something actively that I'm doing,
<v Speaker 4>it's it is kind of weird.
<v Speaker 1>And it was weird.
<v Speaker 3>It was that, Yeah, because that was back in the
<v Speaker 3>day of DVDs, the DVD Yeah, right, so you would
<v Speaker 3>go buy a DVD and watch it at home with you.
<v Speaker 4>They had it, they had the PG version at Blockbuster.
<v Speaker 4>No way you could rent pirates at Blockbuster.
<v Speaker 3>I swear to God, God, I remember walking through a
<v Speaker 3>Blockbuster store. Yeah, those the good old days.
<v Speaker 1>There's like so many people watching this wing. What the
<v Speaker 1>fuck is Blockbuster?
<v Speaker 4>I know they're like once upon a type people Netflix
<v Speaker 4>didn't exist.
<v Speaker 2>Only see it in movies now I know, I know,
<v Speaker 2>my God.
<v Speaker 4>All right, well, Taylor, thank you so much for coming on,
<v Speaker 4>Thanks for having me, and we of course we've got
<v Speaker 4>the bonus Q and A for my Patreon members.
<v Speaker 1>A lot of people sending questions for you.
<v Speaker 4>You thought you've got a significant amount of famils out there.
<v Speaker 4>Thanks guys, But for now, can you tell everyone where
<v Speaker 4>they can find you online?
<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Most of my social media is just at Taylor Vixen.
<v Speaker 3>Make sure you use two x's Instagram, Twitter OnlyFans, TikTok YouTube.
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna try to start doing more stuff with my YouTube.
<v Speaker 3>She's inspiring me over here, and then Taylor Vixon dot com.
<v Speaker 3>It's a work in progress, but most of my links
<v Speaker 3>are there as well, so.
<v Speaker 4>Thanks and you guys of course can find me at
<v Speaker 4>Holly Randall on Instagram and on Twitter. Join my Patreon
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<v Speaker 4>the bonus Q and a's like the one that we're
<v Speaker 4>about to do, and so much more. And once again,
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<v Speaker 1>Thank you guys so much. See you next time, PLA