Sacrifice & Grace: Leg Lost & Pain Meditation Tested on a Cold Foreign Highway | Ajahn Mahā Dam
In this interview, Ajahn Kovilo and Ajahn Nisabho speak with Ajahn Mahā Dam (https://www.facebook.com/buddhakhanti/), who was handicapped during the Walk For Peace.
00:00:00 – Introduction
00:01:27 – Early Faith and Becoming a Novice
00:03:24 – Moving to Thailand at Age 14
00:04:03 – Ajahn's "Second Birth" as a Buddhist
00:05:41 – Challenges of Language and Adaptation
00:07:07 – Sustaining Monastic Life as a Youth
00:09:34 – Transitioning to Pāli Studies in Bangkok
00:11:38 – The Technique of Pain Meditation
00:14:03 – Recollections of the Accident
00:17:00 – Duration of the Peace Walk
00:21:27 – Breath Meditation vs. Mantras
00:22:25 – The Importance of Mindfulness at Death
00:25:11 – Advice on Loss and Mindfulness Without the Breath
00:26:38 – Sensations Immediately After Impact
00:30:17 – Processing the News of Amputation
00:33:08 – Offering the Leg as Buddha Pūja
00:37:31 – Hopes for Future Service to the Dhamma
00:39:36 – Experiences with Racism and Being a Stranger
00:41:10 – Favorite Teachers of the Thai Forest Tradition
00:42:38 – Listening to Ajahn Chah in Isaan/Lao Language
00:44:01 – Hopes for Pilgrimage in India and Nepal
00:44:36 – The Core Purpose of the Walk for Peace
00:48:07 – Practicing with Loss and Avoiding Resentment
00:50:55 – Forgiveness and the "Second Arrow" of Anger
00:54:13 – Reflections on the Community’s Support
00:56:37 – Current Recovery and Future Hopes
00:58:54 – A New Companion: The Peace Dog
Ajahn Mahā Dam's Biography:
Ajahn Mahā Dam Prommasan (พระอาจารย์มหาดำ พรหมสาร) was born in Savannakhet, Laos and ordained as a novice monk at age nine. At age fourteen, he traveled to Ubon, Thailand to further his studies at Wat Phitsopārām (วัดพิชโสภาราม), later continuing his studies in Bangkok where he would complete the eighth of nine levels of Pāli Proficiency. In 2016, he moved to Wat Lao Buddha Khanti in Snellville, Georgia, where he now serves as head monk. At the end of last year, Ajahn Maha Dam joined Bhante Paññākāra's Walk for Peace tudong. While on this walking pilgrimage near Houston, Texas, he was struck by a vehicle, resulting in injuries so severe that his leg had to be amputated. Despite the profound physical trauma and the loss of his limb, he continues his life as a monk with a heart free of grievance, embodying the very peace he set out to share with the world.
To learn more about Ajahn Mahā Dam, visit: https://www.watlaobuddhakhanti.org/ OR https://www.facebook.com/buddhakhanti/
- Interview with the Walk for Peace leader, Bhante Paññākāra here: https://youtu.be/vgo0mhBAotM
- And Part Two of that interview here: https://youtu.be/r_AhRfLJJNw
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Welcome to conversation with clear mountain. Today we blessed to be joined by thank you so much for us. So brief introduction proman was born in sav anded monk at age at age 14 he travel to thaand to further his studies atam later continuing his studies in bangkok where he would complete the e of n levels of polyproficiency in 2016 he moved to watla budhati in snell georgia where he now serves as headmk at the end of last for while oning pilgrimage near h struck byiculting injury so severe that his leg had to be amputated despite the profound physical trauma and the loss of his limb he continues his life as a monk with a heart free of grievance odying the very peace he set out to share with the world i wanted to begin sort of your story and asking about it just with the moments of faith that and you know we get to the full scope of recent events and all that soon but really honoring your path to robes first would you tell us about the moments of faith that led you to become a novice at age n and what kept you in robes since then pray respect ພະອາຈານ both ພະອາຈານ and honestly when I decide to become a first of all I don't know about the monk like before but I I just pray with my pray on the ground with my mom my mom he she she she she pray she work and I pray on the ground by myself and the own and he my relative he come and he asked me he asked my my mom to he said this this boy can can play with them he can become a nois then he he ask he asked me do you want to become a nois i just say yes and you know that moment I just seven years and i very small small small small small small small body my mom not allow me to become a then I wait two years waiting two years and become among and after in he ask me I think about the become a noise but but I don't know any precep of the mon you know just one just one thing is no no dinner >> ອອ to Thailand when you were 14. Is that correct? >> Yes. Yes. I I become a sarawan sarawan province in my in my country. and th we when iອ 14 i went to thailand to study inam you spoken about at age 14 a second birth your bir as a monk why do you think of that moment as your second birth because honestly when I become in you know we in L we don't have the the Buddhist school we have Buddhist school but just no more common Buddhist school but no no practice more no more practice meditation and no more teach about Buddha teaching you know just learn ລະກະແລະກະ no more no more kid al right but we just have the subject about bu buddha story and vaya is something like that but not deep but when i move toວam thailand i study and every every the holiday We seing we practice meditation and we changing every day changing everyday every morning you know that's why when I learn about Buddha teaching is a very very ລະກະ I I know is a very I have the ລະກະ life when I study deep and I I ລະກ I I born again with with the ອ່າອອງພໍ່หลวงພໍໃຫຍ່ did you find it difficult I mean just being 14 leaving your country leaving your family leaving your language the written script is not the same as thau in northeast thailand is similar to la but was it difficult for you at such a young age to adapt without many For me is a language is difficult for me I can understand them they talk they speak in in inธ right but it's difficult for me to spell the the Thai language is very difficult for me and I try about f four f or si months Then I I try to to write the story about what in in English about write the ກະຖູທ poem poem not po the just give the ລະກະທຳມະກ about disgy gu aboutສີ right we just this gu ອືຮື one oneພ Mm. It's very difficult. So in the midst of that what kept you there I mean at that time everyone else your age most of them are you know going off and getting girlfriends and exploring the world and at a monastery and what kept you in robes all that period yeah what sustained you >> when I study in ພາມ my mind is a very very very calm I think is and I I very proud of the the monk life I in my mind if I stay in the pisam long time is I cannot this lop I I never think about the least lope in when I stay in the ວັດພิພາາມ about maybe five years five years but it's very we live ລະກະ family the the the is like our father right and the teacher or teacher like our brother to they can take care we can take care each other is a very I feel home ແລະກະ my home that is a everything we we do everything in the the all teacher keeping eye on us to tell us what the do the best thing or bad thing yeah that's that's make me don't think about the this l when i stay in the pisam it's very very for me yeah and very thankful to to to i choose the the right page for me so you move to You have learn become familiar with that and then you decide to leave this comfort zone and move to Bangkok to study the poly scriptural language further and I studied the I did three to egg the three levels and but I started the poly level And it was much more difficult. But you studied up to level n level eight. Level eight. Did that did it take you eight years and what was that transition like leaving youve left one place of comfort for another and what is that like it's no more life of the student student mon when we live in countryide we have to move to the Bangkok you know in countryside we we just have study for my my temp own tempo they have level that's why when i finish level 5 i looking i looking for the next level that's why ive to the bank but i don't in my my mind i i still want to stay in the in the ພ my own temple but i have to move because i want to study more and get more level when we finish every year finish study we have to go to the meditation course for night day everyday and I learn about medit pain meditation is very it's very help me a lot when I learn about pain meditation is just your focus on the on your on your pain which point is a is strong pain it's very helpful and I use that pain meditation when I got hit to it's a very pain because I have to focus and I I tell myself that you you can use what you learn before right now yeah it's a good time for youuse the your knowledge right Yeah. Could you say more about the pain meditation? I think many Americans are not used to that. They used to breath meditation, maybe a mantra, but actually focusing on pain. How do you do that? But keep your upright and not push away the pain. meditation is mean you are focusing normally when you are setting meditation is you focusing on your breeding in and breeding out rightasti but when you are seat long time you your you will pain your leg some your knee your your bottom right but you have to focus which part of your pain is stronger some some people pa ລະກະບອລກ back pa back when they sit ອ if you if you pain you just focus a very very focus ແລະກະ which which part is stronger you just focus on that and just knowing just knowing of serving that pain pain pain and ແລະກະ use pain to ລະກະ use pain is the method right to method to practice my fullness yeah is a for me is a very helpful and i like pain meditation because in normal when i sitting meditation i always sleep you know i to sleep i don't want me to sleep some when i sit i just looking for the some seat is the ລະກະ heart heart and seat over over top the the heart seat and sit is a make me feel pain and i don't i don't sleep yeah i want to you know actually this is a goodway and i think we can return to more of your your general path but you spoke about how you used pain meditation during the accent Can you talk about about the accident and what that was like for you and your experience of those those moments and the time leading up to it for the death accident for for myself I think about accident before I I went to joy ອອາຈານປັນຍາລະ because first time ອາຈານປັນຍາລະ invited me to join and many people my friend my people in the temple they always try to stop they don't allow to joy with the walk peace but in my mind when I I don't ກະ when I study in Thailand I always think about I want to join with the group of to walk to right but I don't have time I already study but I stay here and າກະ ask me I just oh it's a good time and in my mind is a scare to because I know is a is gonna happen you Maybe accident maybe I I don't know because we walk beside the road but I ອ I ລະກອາຈານບັນຍາກາລະອ me ລະກະ his sound his voice isລກ in in all my my always in in my in my head about Joy we walk together first time in the United States walk for peace And I the he said is write the history together. He said like that but I ລະກະ I always think about I want to do something for Buddhism for many many people but I don't know how you know but when I think about the walk for peace he invited me I just decide to to go with him even I know is a I know is a is a dangerous and very rich but If my is g die by accident I stay in the temple at the temple I will g die by accident to yeah that's why I die on the when I walk is a I die with the my work my job to spread the Budha teaching I I think like that that's why I I joy I join him and I got accident Could you tell us a little bit about the lead up to the accident? It was outside of Houston maybe a bit after 7 pm. How long had you been walking before before that day that the accident happened? I I join the the group on November 11 when between Austin and Huson and I when I join them and they continue to walk to Houston and we stay in the Houston couple and we almost outside and on November 19 we out of the host in dat Texas that's why the police just left us left us when we walk in the host we have the police escort Yeah. But when we out of the hus the forest just left us that day and that day is normally I I walk in the middle of the monk but that day is I very very pain my my leg very pain is a and I just I don't want to go to with the car you know but I want to train train myself I just walk just I walk slowly but I cannot follow the the mark I just walk slowly and the we have the one escort car just our our car our car but not police car but they have the the light ລະກະ signal to escort just follow but that day is almost seven That's a little bit dark but we wear we wear the light yeah and I just walk and focus on my pain focus on my pain my step and just I I just heard the the sound of break car break and just hit me and I cannot do anything I just but my fullness is very very strong I very very proud of myself ລະກະ why that that moment I I I thought I I die already but I think oh now I'm die already but but I very proud and in that moment I die with my fullness yeah I I die with my fullness but then just everything is a s ແລະກະ come and I I heard my ear is a just heard many people come and talk about what happen is who who laid down is the talk and oh I still alive but that moment I always think about even I stay alive now but I every time because of my my pain I don't know is my my body is a ແລະກະ bad accident you I just I can die every time that's why I only focus I I just push anything in my life ແລະກະ push away think about only focusing on my on my breeding breeding in and breeding out and focus on my pain only I think only breeding is can can help My fullness it can help me nothing can help me the object in be outside of me right you know ແລະກະ family ກະ friend I don't think about anyone I just focusing on on on on my breeding that's it do you use a mantra with your breath like budd no Just the breath no >> no just breath just breading just knowing and breeding for me is when I practice in pis I use a ພອງຢູບ it's about my movement stomach movement was make me sleepy and when I use phot I always when I focus I I focus but but but my ລະກະ my pto is ລະກະກ່ອນລະກະ ກະ I don't I don't ກະ follow the you know I just focus on feeling that's that's why I I don't mon I don't put just knowing breeding in and breeding out that's it thank you so much for describing this and with such car and I'm curious why did you you know why did you feel as monk so you know that you thought you might be dying to keep mindfulness so strong why why is important at that moment for those listening because when the the buddha said the buddha said ສັງກິລິເທທຸກຄະຕິ mean when You almost die if you if your mind ອາ not clear not be mindful you will bor in the bad plate ລະກະ the the hell animal something like that and that's why is very important before we die we have to clear clear our our mind ລະກໍ be stay be mindful be aware of everything some for for the for the buddha teaching if you focusing more focusing maybe you can get enlighten that moment is very very important to to practice but no no more people many many people don't don't think about that that moment right and in my mind you cannot you cannot practice that moment without your practice in normal life you know because it you got very very pain very failing sometimes you feeling about you think about your family you think about your money work your everything in come to your head but but you cannot focus only on your breathing in and breeding out for me I can focus on breathing in and ເນາະ because I practice many many times in daily life right ລະກະ I I teach people many many time about when you are train to swim train to swim you can train when you beside the river you can train everyday right but when you are right the boat the boat sink you can you can you can swim two you cannot train your train to swim when you when the boat sink right you don't have time to to train yourself that moment is a for for people who are dying who maybe you know it's in a different situation where their breath is actually hard to focus on you know maybe they havingory isses What would you recommend they they put their mindfulness on for practitioners who are looking to that moment but won't have the breath? You can focus on on pain on pain or on ອກ on your body on your body on maybe on on your mind yeah you can you can use the many many object to to be method of meditation but is a I I think is the when the people g die they got the same same thing is the pain right they very very pain they have to focusing on on the pain too because it's very strong very strong is you just focusing on the pain don't follow don't follow the pain when you focus on the pain is pain is not go down not go back but your you your you know is how it work what is the pain what is the exactly pain just knowing inພາວະຄວາມ state state state of pain just state of pain could you talk a little bit more about the pain that you were feeling so you were hit by this car on the ground the first thing that you your mind decides to do is to watch the breath and to look at the pain Wor ever was there no pain or did it change and what what was the pain like immediately after getting hit and then over the next while when you had to go to the hospital in the ambulance first time I I pain very pain of my my right Lake because is my light leg is a more more sketch right >> impact or to scratch right scratch that's when when the the scratch touch the the ground it's very very pain but in my left left left left leg is I fa I only I ມັນເປັນມຶນໆນະມື num to >> is num only num is on my left on my left leg that's i in my mind i thought is the right right right leg is very very bad than the left leg yeah but when the when when the ambulance man they fix the they they turn me the turn me turn me over right turn over I just know is my is very very bad because very very pain and my I lost a lot of brush my brush yes that's they they give me the morphin morphine is very I wedding long time for for wedding for the helicopter you took me to the ambulance and I laid out on the ambulance and I think why they they stay but they don't move to go to hospital but they call to the helicopter that they say if I write on the ambulance I cannot I gna die because I lost my my brush and I very pain. When when I get into the helicopter, I always ask my I always asked a woman he sit beside me and I asked her can you give me the pen pa pen medicine? He said not. I I don't kill you because you got enough ເດ no in my mind I just I just ask her only I want friend to talk me because it's very I my body is shing he asked me are you call no I'm not cool but I I'm shaking my body is shaking yeah you know after the accident in terms amput learning coming and how holding for for me I think I do the best the best thing I do the best thing for for all the people for Buddhaສາ right we i ອາຈານປັນຍາ in the morning ອ when God ex at night in the morning ອາຈານປັນຍາລະ came and the old of mon came and they very very suffer about this accident but I just ask them ອາຈານປັນຍາ he don't want me to He think about my my reputation. He don't want to He don't talk about accident even the news many news come to him and he worry about my my reputation you know I just told him ອາຈານ please can you spread the this this your your project every your project to to ກະ other people to know from from accident you use my I don't I I don't have any ລະກະ reputation ລະກະ any anything anything to lose you know I don't have everything to use just use my case to spread your project every your project you do I always support you I and please walk to DC even I cannot walk with you it's a very but very very touch We we talk with with Yeah. But in my in my mind I think is a I do the the the good thing ແລະກະ I thought before ແລະກ the the good good good thing best thing for for Buddhism for community right but now I can even I lost my leg I think is a it's okayok even my my life is a is a to I think yeah that's why I I don't feel ກະ don't feel bad about the accident we just honor that you thank you speaking about that heard you say in a interview that you wanted to offer your leg as a Buddha puja buha and that so that's a polyphrase like a devotional act to the Buddha could you more about that is most Americans even if they know meditation and a little bit of Buddhism this phrase Buddha puja it just doesn't mean anything to them so how do you give your leg as Buddha puja when the when you do something is very important to the world or to the to the spread the Buddha teach you if you can dedicate yourself ລະກະ if you dedicate yourself you dedicate your offer your your object or thing donation ແລະກະ donation you can ແລະກະ when you donation is a we callະ rightທານະ but but if you donation is a very strong ຖານະຖານະແລະກະ your your offer ລະກະ whole of your life holding of your life ລະກະ your you left your you left your ອ personal ອ your normal life to become a just mean you are don't attach in anything that mean we callະ is we call is is strict very very strong from from donation donation but when you offer your your lim to to to to to to to work to help with the for spread the Buddha teaching mean we call the third the second oneີ is mean very very strong because your your offer the your your people ແລະກະ when your donate your body your ແລະກໍ your ey your your kidney your yeah your donate your in your your body this mean becauseະອຸປະມີ and when you offer your life to to do the good thing that meanະລະ ປາລະມີ is mean very high for practice to become the Buddha or become ປະຕະพະຫັນຕະ the who close the Buddha ແລະກະສາລີບຸດຕະໂມຄະລານະອານັນທະ disciple great disciple yeah that's why I when I lost my leg with walk for peace I in my I think I lost my leg for ອາແລະກະ ຖານະອຸປະມີ for offer to the buາ very beautiful and that param or spiritual perfection and what to is also that many Americans will not have heard of different levels there spiritual perfection and then the even higher spiritual perfection the highest and is interesting in Buddhist countries I know at least one monk who has donated country number country people don after death after death on that of the i think kind of desbing really helpful kind of limb to this path. How do you think about gift of life going forward? Like what your hope of how you how you want to give your life to the Buddha over the rest of your life? For for my for my dislike, I will try every way and every part of my life to help the the good the Buddha the the Buddha teaching to spread the Buddha teaching and to help people to get more be mindful to practice my fullness you know because it's very very important in life mon life we have to two to two job right you can become a mon and you can study and practice yourself and the second one you your practice You didn't have time to study and you only practice and when you practice finish your practice you can spread your the Buddha teaching to other people dedicate yourself to the for Buddhism that is among life me to I want to help the Buddhism as much as I can I will do the best for for my in my way I will do the ທຳໃຫ້ດີທີ່ສຸດເທົ່າທີ່ຈະທຳໄດ້ do the best that you can I do the best with I can I will do the best with my canຮື in manyes of your life you have been a stranger so you go to Thailand and you are Lausan and then you move to Bangkok you are from the country and you move to the big city and then you move from loud Have you experienced any racism people ever have you had to deal with people looking at you as something different? For me, I my my purpose is I want to I want to prove myself about I prove myself about to help other people or study right and I want to my my job is I want to spread the Buddha teaching and I hope everybody get and get peace in a peace in in their mind that's that's the the the place is not important for me because I move everywh and I don't I don't when I change I change the place I think is a is challenging for me I I think about the sometimes you know when you stay in the same same place you get ແລະກະve right for me I I need I need to move the other place to challenge my myself to get to get better kind of circling around your monastic life and and that core of how you dedicated your your life. I'm curious just as to monks whove come from the Thai forest tradition which tha kruba ajans you love to listen to the most long time mahabua long or others can you just are there some teachers which you stayed with you all these years I I always listen ພະອາຈານລົງສົມພົບຫຼວງພໍ່ສົມພົບຢາ I very very ລະກະ when when he talks about 16 step of my fullness meditation is I think is a very really I want to practice like from theກະຕິະ I want to practice like like the Buddha teach te teaching and he when he t he tals with experience not from the from the books from the you know from the tex and for me I I read I learn about the Buddha teaching from the book that's why I when he when he thought I listen his time talk I think is a his his his his way is a ພາສາໄທວ່າຖູກຖູກກັບລິພະອາຈານ right for your character ອື yeah is from my character ອາຈານ have you listen to any ofພ talks in อีสานພາສາລາວ >> I never never but when when I was nois we listen every morning when we walk the when we walk in the in the correct the food day ລະກະ open the speaker in the village right every every morning หลวงพ่อ I have heard that his talks I have listened to many of his talks in but I don't understand la or isan but I hear that hisan language language talks are more fun he more spicy Maybe I will I will try to listen but I never never never heard he talk he speak never there maybe of his talks in I think rec on these kind of same notes of kind of getting a little more of your kind of proclivities as a Buddhist monk I'm curious have you been to pilgrimage in India Never never >> never I think about India and Nepal Nepal I want to walk maybe I got the new lake and I can walk I will walk in India and nepal so happy to hear that you gave maybe the best answer that I have heard in another interview about the purpose of doing that pilgrimage I may dc to ask the government to make visaka puja a national holiday or something and what what was your understanding of the why what was the point of the walk for peace the the ປັນຍາ says is we just walk we just walk for peace only for peace not only for for other other things right but but but for me is a ອ່າ I I heard ອາຈານປັນຍາ talk about the he can he can offer right offer วิสາบูชา is important day in the tasະບ day to become important day in the united states i think is a maybe I don't know is maybe can can change can ລະກະ use the vakabus day to become a important day national >> national national day it's a good good idea but but but they have many many religion you know is a is a practice is more important to to push the day to National day practice but now is many many American people they want to practice they come to my temple everyday everyday to learn about how to practice meditation and I try to teach them on Facebook like everyday in English just a little bit yeah how to practice is important then then then put na day I love that you for peace just for peace and I think we interviewed panakara and his example you know and the other monks who they are living in a tough way you go toong you go on this pilgrimage it's cold you're walking in winter time many monks walking without any shoes on some of the monks May not still they are shining examples of happiness. So an example of peace even though they living hard still happy and you as well like give this example of even though you lost your leg hit by a car you're not angry but just living the example of peace walking for peace and you also such a good exle Yes. Yes. On that note, Bante, for others who are listening, whove lost something, you know, who had to lose, maybe it's a lim, maybe it's their health, maybe it's someone they've loved, maybe it's a job. How would you tell them to practice with that to not be resentful to move on at least to hold it with kind of equanimity? Just understanding the the nature of life or we in Buddhism we call understanding the four noble to you feel understanding your life and you can accept everything and I told many many people you I talk about the the principle of arrow suffering you know arrow suffering when the arrow suffering hit you first time that mean you are god your god suffer the first time maybe from accident maybe from something like you lost your leg or you lost something in you lost your lim or you very suffer even the word people use the bad word for you right that's your got the first arrow arrow suffering your hurt like first time but later first time you you got from from other right for the arrow from other people but then why you allow the second arrow or many thousand of arrow to come to yourself by yourself yeah you think a lot you hate you are angry that's mean you you are allow the suffer arrow to your to your mind every time yeah just just suffer one time is referencing a beautiful su on days ag on two ars where hit with the first ar suffering all shoot ourselves with the second arrow which is unnecessary yes yes one type of second arrow and third fth fifth sixth which is very common in in America is the second arrow of feeling angry Why did this happen to me? Mm. Did you experience that kind of second arrow? Were you ever angry at the driver or angry the situation? For me, I don't angry because I don't know him and I never I never miss him you know meet I don't know his face and and even I know his face and I know him I I think is he g he don't that happen because he I think I think he suffer too you know when he you know when the people hit the monks who for peace I very they very very suffer I think they very suffer that's why I we don't know each other and why I have to angry with the aut and and I I lost my leg is the bad thing happen to me but the good thing is the good thing happen to all the world you know is that's why I sometimes I say thank you to to him the good thing referencing you mention this is after the accident like you said the the walk for peace became a movement in a whole different level I mean I remember I about from Texas but then I think after that day you know there videos of thousands of people and I know you said if I if you know this was my gift to the walk for peace was was losing this leg about the the the anchor about the anchor second arrow right about the anchor but you know many many people think about angry some many many years mean you are not anger one time you know you just the the the the same arrow just come to your mind come to your mind many many time but you think about that some some people don't cannot sleep because they think about that why they he hit me why they why this happen to me but for me i think is ອ I have time to rest because when when I walk is very very tired and very pain and I I sleep three days I don't eat the food you know just sleep was a very very good less for me and I don't think about that I told you I don't think about the the angry and about about him yeah the John instead of the anger coming up again I know youve talked about bright mind states you know the the sense of this being a gift I know the Kickstarter campaign that started to help cover your medical expenses I think0,000 or so came in through all this goodness do you just have any reflections for you know were there any stories after the accident For me, I think about I just feel about myself to the people many people they come and say thank you so much for your for your sacrifice for your for your do the best thing. I just ask myself what do I do? I just got a car and I stay in the hospital. But the two the two hero is the the monk. He walk to the snow. He walk to the the the weather is very bad weather, right? But they walk everyday. But I stay warm in in the hospital. That's why I I told I ask them why why you me ລະກະ hero for I example ລະກະ I am soldier who lost the lim in the battlefield but the all of mon who who walk to the is hero ລະກະ general who won the who won the war you But me I I lost my leg. I don't do anything I just walk day. I think like that. Yeah. But I very touch when I get back to my temple. Many many people come even the small small kid. She come and she brow and she say ພະອາຈານ I am so sorry the accident happen with you. I I very sad about that but I very happy to for you to you can handle you can be happy with it very touch my heart I cry. Yeah, I never heard the people talk to me like that before. Could you give an update about just right now? Can you do you have your new leg? Can you sit meditation? Do you have to sit in a chair? Are you in a wheelchair? And eventually what is in the future? What is your hope that you will just walk normal with a prostatic leg? Right. right now I think is a my my leg is a still still the wound is complete complete healing but is still pain because pain pa pen pain pain but is normal for for me is a i can sleep with with this with with the pain you know and i now i use the the wheel chare normal life and I got the process but still pain when I push on you know when I push on to try to walk is a still pain that's why I I use only one hour or 30 minutes for for one day and the future I hope to work with prostatic lake ແລະກະ normal people and I want to walk again to the many many place I want to go yes joh you you said that you feel like you did very little for the cause you know you walk for a few days but I saw a video of you after the accident and in this interview as well and just your equanimity and very powerful for people I was aff and I just thank you for for that what you have given all of us and I hope you do walk for for peace through you know India and beyond I hope you come visit us and as our last question do you feel inspired to get your own a loka the peace dog Now I I got the one dog to stay with me. I I name him. Yeah, he just come to the temple when I I heard when I got accident in Texas and I stay in the temple. They they told me that the they have the dog they take them to the temple six dog but five dogs is a le but only stay in the that temple but now when I went to join the retweet meditation retweet he the the board member of the buัทາธัม temple They ask me do you want the the dog? I I saw when I saw I I love him but yeah I just I want to the buລ to stay just I take to my temple and the god vaccine and hospital medical yeah and train him train him >> thank you for joining us and for taking time and for all you very welc ครับ